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Just - Sarah Ismail
Flicker - Sarah Ismail
strawberries - YuQiao Shao
candy cane - YuQiao Shao
Me and the Piano - YuQiao Shao
Candles and Lanterns - Alisha Nasim
Persimmon Leaves - Ivy Pham
my beloved, my undoing - Jude Al Hajjar
Scar Catcher - Stocha Scranton
Finding Possibility - Marie Bowden
Kalopsia - Nitulescu E. Vanessa
Warmes Tuch // Warm Cloth - Klara Laurenzia Linden
Polar Cap Doffed - Howard Osborne
Tabula Rasa - Evelyn Thakur
listed on document - Arabella Sarver
Elegy for the Living - Jude S.
Post-card wishes - Laura Maria Felipe Araújo
Snap Shots - Mark Fitzpatrick
The Strength of Our People - Angelique Diggs
Before the Mirror - Mahsa Babaeian
"States Away" - Morgan Maltbie
Romantic poetry - Shïzã
FINDING YOURSELF - Gavriel Ndiko
A Love That Took Root - Faheema C
True Modesty - Sadia Noor
Wild Mushroom Soup - Kim Piercy
Nausea - Tas A.S.
seasonal depression - Abbie Cochrane
Let the Dew Sink In - Ms Maryanne
When Ice Remembers - Areeba Shoukat
And the story. - Debashis Chakraborty
By Sarah Ismail
Sarah Ismail, is a youth poet who uses writing as a space to vent, reflect, and make sense of her emotions. Poetry has become the place where she can express herself honestly, especially when spoken words feel too heavy or complicated. She may still be early in her journey, but she writes with intention, vulnerability, and a genuine desire to grow. Even when her writing is simple, it comes from a real place, and she hopes that sincerity resonates with readers.
It's not just
Why do I feel the fury of this wrong
Why should I bear thee blame for myriads of lies
Just, is a word so seldom taken by others
It doth stand exiled before them
The pain and the tears of scars unspoken
The moment one shouldst realise they are no longer safe
They’re ensnared within a predatory range
Put up against the wall by force, within the darkened corner
It's not just
It doth not feel right
So why doth the bitter taste of blood endure
What signifies the red in such bright eyes
Cynical to be so called upon by others
Irked by their breath
That thou art deemed no longer the victim
It's not just
Why, why is it my fault
Thee says begging
A fault that shall be mine at last
After being wronged, the entire void bears witness
This day, this day here
Shall stand as my justification
The one opposed unto my story
Unjust period
By Sarah Ismail
Sarah Ismail, is a youth poet who uses writing as a space to vent, reflect, and make sense of her emotions. Poetry has become the place where she can express herself honestly, especially when spoken words feel too heavy or complicated. She may still be early in her journey, but she writes with intention, vulnerability, and a genuine desire to grow. Even when her writing is simple, it comes from a real place, and she hopes that sincerity resonates with readers.
Flicker….
Flicker… As light sounds
Go to sleep with the branches snap
The fire sizzles in fury of the night
The wind howls as they clap
Flicker…For the joyous creak
A happiness none of you speak
The greek fire shall be your future
Yet we ignore the flickers weak
Flicker….Like the napalm
The one we used for war
The one who shall set the bomb
Be calm they say
Then they're the first one at of the door
Flicker…As they wake up
In fear, horror, a feeling we can't tell
We must help those in need
Those children in need
And yet we wish them farewell
Flicker…Call them the greek fire
Say they light the spark
Those children, our future
Keep it all in the dark
Flicker…We shall speak for them
We shall stand
We shall do anything but die
And talk, and move
But we’ll float in their destiny
All in their bright sky
Flicker….The fire burns out
The bomb goes out
The spark is gone
And so is our doubt
By YuQiao Shao
YuQiao Shao is a three time Scholastic Gold Key winner, National Speech and Debate semifinalist, and has received a commendation for her essay from John Locke university. She got her "big break" when she got accepted into the Orange County School of Arts for Creative Writing as of just last year. She spends her days suffering from writer's block, craving sugar cookies, and taking long, leisurely walks with her dog while blasting Lana del Rey. She prefers books to humans.
"for full effect, please look at a strawberry while reading"
strawberries
strawberries
red, glistening, gleaming,
fruits of the flesh, gaia’s ichor
ruby, dew-like droplets dripping
at an overview glance, a field of carmine
at the cellular level, imperfect circles
the sweet saccharine sip
of aphrodite’s lasting pride, a symbol.
My religion interrupts, pridefully:
“It is virtue, purity, and the virgin mary-”
and one time
i got three free strawberries
so i set them,
slathered with snow-white whipped cream
on a slice of stale bread and proclaimed:
“Happy birthday, dad.”
He was happy.
Strawberries
sweet, juicy, amaranth,
the lust of the flesh, the pink of flushed cheeks
the sharp glint of the eyes, rogue lip gloss
(and stale perfume) scents:
overpriced valentine’s chocolates, rose rot
ransomed for the heart of cupid’s arrow
gleaming with the tint
of hatred —- awkwardness
under (the pretence of) ignorance
the dull, slow kitchen knife
through the heart and the seeded stem
when baby blue blue eyes
gaze, for a moment, at you
and they turn away like there is nothing.
Because to them, you are nothing.
“Wait, hi!” I blurted-
And he was carelessly gone.
Strawberries
are when you look at yourself,
in the mirror and you see
all the wrong ways you bulge out, after
“She’s gaining-” you hear through cherry lips,
a hushed giggle. “Have you seen how she tries to hide it?”
you hear, crouched on top of a toilet in a stall and
suddenly, you see all the wrong ways you live
and how your nose is too big
your eyes are pinched your
chest is as flat as a chopping
board and your lips are paper
thin so you decide to cut the
rot by slicing off
what is left of green-paper bought flesh.
You ‘fast’ and give up
on all the pleasures of carbs
and eat carrots
and asparagus
and cilantro
even though you hate carrots
and cilantro and now,
even asparagus, which were good baked with salt and butter.
When your stomach wakes up, hot like liquid chilis,
in the middle of the night, burning like a barn fire
and wishes for fleshy scarlet sweetness
that you can only reach
when you are good enough
if you are good enough
which, by the way,
is never.
Strawberries
are wishing and longing
for something you lost once before,
the guilt poking and prodding like
the buzzing of bees in an open-air field,
under a coarse, sweltering, burning sun.
Strawberries
are wrapping your arms
around yourself and
looking at your flawed face
before drowning, in a sweet reverie
because you cannot change,
so you forgive and indulge.
Strawberries
are the gore of the earth, bursting nectar
and the blush on a school girl’s cheeks,
the goddess’s lustful eyes
and the hatred held
for (within)
each (every)
individual (human) face,
the awkwardness of approaching
and the sadness of ignorance,
the serenity of innocence
and the blood-stained hands of a peacemaker.
They are blots of pink darling. surrounded by lush green leaves
accompanied by willful white flowers.
They are the pearls of the market,
plucked under the strain
of the sun-tanned skin
of the calloused hands of the lasting cough,
priced for as much
as they are valued,
thrown out when discovered in
the back of the fridge and left, covered with mold
to rot unabashed in the compost.
By YuQiao Shao
YuQiao Shao is a three time Scholastic Gold Key winner, National Speech and Debate semifinalist, and has received a commendation for her essay from John Locke university. She got her "big break" when she got accepted into the Orange County School of Arts for Creative Writing as of just last year. She spends her days suffering from writer's block, craving sugar cookies, and taking long, leisurely walks with her dog while blasting Lana del Rey. She prefers books to humans.
On the exit of Highway 532, sat the homeless man.
Politely, he would be called “unhoused,” or “in a predicament” or “in need of aid.” His image had been shown with that word sprawled across it in glowing red letters in at least five pictures: three political campaigns for three different mayors, one for a charity dedicating themselves to helping those “unhoused” people, one for a school project. Out of all of those, the charity was the only one who had helped, and even then they were shut down just last year.
So, he was back to sitting on the exit.
Before, he had sold bouquets of flowers, different shades of soft neon and harsh pastel. He had walked past the rows of cars, showing off his wares, changing his signs: they were FLOWERS FOR SALE $5 A BOUQUET to CHEAP FLOWERS $5 A BOUQUET and then, finally, $5 A BOUQUET FLOWERS HOMELESS HELP ME BUY A MEAL. But the cars had whizzed by and the only customer he received was a blonde woman with an ugly bob cut, screaming about him violating HOA procedure.
She didn’t buy anything, in the end.
So in the end, he was back to begging. This time he held out a little tin can and the same cardboard sign only this time it was HOMELESS ANYTHING HELPS THANK YOU. Strangely enough, people actually did help. A warm can of soda, unopened. A pack of cigarettes. Even an oily green twenty dollar bill.
He had ways to pass the time from his thoughts, at least, between the times when he would have to get up and walk amongst the cars that were stopped by the red light. He would count license plates: California, California, Colorado, Nevada. When he grew bored of the license plates, he recorded cars: red, white, yellow, green, red white, blue. And when all else failed, he thought of warm baths and pillows.
All this talk about pillows made him undeniably drowsy. He pulled out his puffer jacket from the shopping cart with three working wheels and laid down on the hard ground with it beneath him. What would be the use of him begging for anything, anyways? And what good would it be for him to move into the cities as well?
He almost laughed.
Cities meant more competition.
His throat had never felt more parched, but all the same he yanked himself up, much to the protest of his quaking and squeaking limbs.
The light turned red.
He moved amongst the people. He had no more strength to use his voice, so he only held up his sign: HOMELESS ANYTHING HELPS THANK YOU. He sucked in some snot that had dribbled out of his nose thanks to the cold January weather and moved in and out of the cars that crowded around the street.
A blue car honked.
A man in a white one grimaced.
But the backseat window of a green car rolled down. He trotted there and held out his little pail… And the chubby hand of a small toddler dropped something—-red and white and green—-in his pail with a clink.
“Candy cane,” chirped the little blue-eyed boy.
He was left on the sidewalk, a little stunned and wetness forming in his eye.
Then the light turned green, and they were gone.
By YuQiao Shao
YuQiao Shao is a three time Scholastic Gold Key winner, National Speech and Debate semifinalist, and has received a commendation for her essay from John Locke university. She got her "big break" when she got accepted into the Orange County School of Arts for Creative Writing as of just last year. She spends her days suffering from writer's block, craving sugar cookies, and taking long, leisurely walks with her dog while blasting Lana del Rey. She prefers books to humans.
I once bit my piano.
When I was four or five years old, I was obsessed with the guitar. I wanted to turn vibrating strings into blended chords, measures of vibrant pop into harmonious songs, and rattle off global hits on a bubble-covered stage radiating fluorescent light. Because what four year old kid didn’t like the bubbles your parents refused to buy for you? To this day, I still don’t know if it was the bubbles or the denial that got me going.
I made the mistake of telling my parents. About the guitar, that is. They wouldn’t have bought me bubbles anyway.
Two weeks later, I got a wonderful present. An old, second-hand, shiny-black, out of tune, piano.
“That’s not a guitar.” I pointed out. “Is the guitar in a box?”
“No, that’s a piano.”
“Well I wanted a guitar.”
“You get what you get, and you don’t throw a fit. This was more expensive than a guitar ever could be.”
“So take it back, then! And get me a guitar.”
“You don’t understand. This is a more prestigious instrument, and piano is better for you, anyways.”
“You’re just saying that because Queenie plays it.” Queenie was my parents’ favorite child, except she wasn’t their child. She was the child of their friend, who claimed that I was her favorite child.
They didn’t answer, but I knew that my fate was unchanged.
That night, after rounds of sobbing, kicking, and screaming, I dreamed of being devoured between malicious black and white teeth that chomped down on me like the jaws of a mythological monster made of ivory and wood. I woke up, a knight in shining sparkly pink armor, with polka dots just like Minnie Mouse, determined to prevail in this tale of heroes and monsters—determined to conquer the musical beast my parents had invited into our house.
In this tale, finally, I was the main character, and like every single main character in every single story, I would not back down.
And so my trials began. Every day, the sparkly pink knight awoke to fierce combat. First, it was the gauntlets and hapless trolls of Hanon, and Czerny, and C Major. They were replaced with the far more formidable warlords and orcs, John Thompson’s Sight Reading and Simple Songs for Children. Sometimes, a simple etude or song decided to gang up on the hapless kindergartener. The pink knight guided her through revenge and guerilla warfare. Realms of sheet music were torn, stubby legs kicked. One attempt at sabotage left the underside of the instrument graffitied with marker and saliva. And above all, my mother, the brutal enforcer, towered over the defenseless child.
“It’s the trials,” whispered my ego, or, maybe she was my alter ego. I didn’t know at the time, and didn’t bother to figure it out. “They’re coming. It’s the test of your lifetime.”
The five year old believed her.
At first, delicate, stubby hands more suited to scribbling wilted under the daily pressure of precisely pressing and rapidly roving. The piano suffered a barrage of heavy kicks and punches, like the battering ram the pink knight drove against a witch’s manor doors. It groaned in pain as small fingers angrily mashed its keys, and it nursed a tender bite mark five keys from the middle C that left it scarred for life. Remarkably, the instrument itself tasted of wood and polish, which were not, in the slightest, evil.
But Main Character Syndrome droned in my ear. “It’s evil. Keep going.” And so I gritted my teeth and continued to resist, for pride, for sanity, and, for the sake of going without knowing why I kept going.
But gradually, that black-and-white monster with dull wooden teeth grew on me. And so, the knight in sparkly pink armor put down her lance and tentatively handed the monster moldy bread. Perhaps I found it easier to practice willingly instead of being forced, or had a secret longing for classical music like a child Mozart. But perhaps, I found joy in the fact that I could speak the language of music while I struggled to speak the language of friendship and English.
“You’re abandoning yourself.” Main Character Syndrome, or M.C Syndrome, whined. “You’re abandoning me.”
“Of course not.” I said, aiming a sharp kick at the piano, which let out a deep, toning, howl. “See, I’m fighting.”
“Hmph.” It answered, and spoke no further.
I made sure that the piano and I still were bitter enemies, locked in eternal warfare. We still bruised and hurt each other. But, for a short period of time, we became allies, hammering out jumbled-up jaunty tunes and massacring random songs.
“You traitor.” moaned M.C Syndrome.
“Listen, haven’t you heard of ‘enemies to lovers’ arc?”
“You’re more of siblings than lovers. And, you’re five.”
We were siblings, in all ways that a stubby-legged, mischievous, Asian girl and a battered, beat-up, and shiny-black piano could be. I didn’t answer and let M.C Syndrome drone itself into nonexistence.
It continued so, until one fateful day I was taken hostage and stuffed into a frilly white dress. Realms of fabric and itchy mess skirt squashed my waist, and tight sleeves grasped my tanned arms.
“This is the time of your life.” M.C. Syndrome chirped. “Your final trial.”
“I’m five.” I whimpered. “I hope not. That would mean my life is over.”
From there, I was frog-marched to a hard wooden bench, and led to a teeth-mark-less, brown, brand-new, and dull piano. The windows stained with baby Jesus and various saints stared down at me, criticizing me for my every flaw, harsh and unforgiving in their sculpted stone-like glass features.
“Jesus is so ugly.” I said to myself, in my head, to no one in particular.
M.C Syndrome facepalmed.
That piano did not welcome me. The seat was too high, and to the amusement of the restless audience I had to adjust the rusted knob, which stayed firmly in place no matter how hard and how many times I turned it. The pedals were too far from my feet, so a separate little stand with squeaky, rusty pedals had to be brought in. And those dull keys were terrifying to me, scuffed and old, and groaning with the urge to retire. The panel of judges were dressed in their formal, gaudy best of ripoff fashion bought painstakingly overseas from China to America, used best for a new job or workplace but now wasted on a bunch of crying children. They sipped overpriced Starbucks coffees that some poor parent working to curry favor bought.
Why curry favor at a recital, of all places? This thought I did not voice. None of this, the setting, my yapping, and M.C’s yammering helped my nerves.
I don’t know how long it took me to get a sense that I should be playing. And then a part of me wanted to run off the stage and never return. But then I remembered my hands slamming white keys, massacring Mary, her little lamb, and possibly the entire flock of hapless sheep. I remembered the taste of polish, sharp and stiff, my teeth crushing into brittle wood, and the shameful pride of imbedding a trophy prize set with molar imprints in the piano itself.
This made me want to run off the stage and never return.
“Play. Seize your opportunity. The world is yours! Your oyster!” chimed M.C Syndrome.
“I am allergic to oysters.” I told her.
Then I glimpsed my mother. She waved, not the type that is celebrating your child’s landmarks, but the type that is a sign for you to start NOW, RIGHT NOW, AT THIS MOMENT, and I, in a surge of panic and resignation, played. It was not your typical fairytale playing, for those curious.
I recall reading in Michelle Obama’s autobiography that at her first recital, she needed to know the middle C note in order to begin her piece. I, being taught unconventionally, stumbled over my feet, made sure to correct my posture, smoothed down my rumpled dress with little success, and placed my hands nicely in my lap, lifting shivering, cold fingers to the piano key. And then I played the first note, a squeaky, rusted tone.
“Oh, yes, oh yes—”
It was not the spark of magic that every personal memoir seems to remember. It was an ugly duckling in a flock of elegant swans, a ripple in a new pond, a flash of thunder in a clear blue sky. It was an unlikable, ill-precedent, disruption, liable to cause fury and misled anger.
“Oh, god.” M.C Syndrome buried her head in her hands. “Lordy Almighty.”
I stumbled through the song. The pink knight tripped on her metal armor while fighting a monster. My fingers brushed over notes… some wrong, others not quite right. The spear bounced off the dragon’s hide, a clash of disharmony. I blindly fumbled, hitting a few wrong notes, here and there. The knight meant to stab the dragon, but impaled herself instead. Not to worry, she had plot armor. In the chasm of my mind, I recalled specific instructions on how, loud and soft, I should play certain phrases of the music, but my fingers were too slow to respond and I tumbled on through the hilly song, hitting a tree, or tripping over the beast’s tail, eventually, ending the tale with the knight falling off a cliff, losing all her armor, ending up overturned in a stream with a pathetic splish-splash.
M.C banged her head into the nearest pillar.
After the longest awkward fumbling of my short-lived life, I hastily ended the song, with my hands pressed to keys. I used my now stubby legs to slide off the bench and tripped into a curtsy, scurrying off the stage to a church pew with my itchy, lacy tail between my legs. In that moment, I felt like I was wearing a neon green swimsuit at a funeral.
For the rest of the performances, I sat, miserable, my confidence scrambled like a tray of eggs in an American motel. I barely registered how others did, except occasionally when my mother whispered and pointed out to me the advancement of others’ technique, repertoire, or fingering. But I could not focus on the row of graceful angels playing heavenly hymns, when I was, in fact, the devil’s advocate roasting on a bed of fire, fidgeting and twitching, much to the chagrin of those around me and the embarrassment of my parents, who whispered apologies and excuses for my behavior.
M.C Syndrome, was, for once, silent.
The event was over before I knew it. Someone else, a teenage boy with pimples that shone like the pebbles in a rushing river, finished his rendition of a fancy song with smashing fingers and elaborate gestures. The adults clapped. My mother, for what must have been the fortieth time that day, remarked on the amazing quality of his performance. Few words were spoken about mine.
But perhaps, I was too scared and embarrassed to remember anything.
Besides, the refreshments, Walmart sugar cookies and a sheet cake, with lemonade in little cups, were excellent, although I did have to sip and eat with a jacket draped over my front to avoid the nagging of my mother, and the staining of my expensive, shipped-over-from-China dress, which I would wear for the next four years. The moist cake, buttery and sickly sweet, tasted much better than bitter polish, though I could have wanted some of that wood’s crunchiness to supplement that soft texture.
And then, we were all called up by a bored-looking woman with smeared lipstick to line up in front of the altar on the stage. All the children, from oldest to youngest, were made to line up in a neat and straight row, which is something impossible for children to do. A toddler insisted he was eighteen, to the amusement of the adults, and was allowed to stand with the teenagers on the right. A stressed looking lady with hair falling out of a messy bun put me in between a boy spilling crumbs all over his suit, and a girl who stood so prim and proper that I felt bad about the stain of frosting on my face, and quickly wiped it off on my hand, transferring it to her dress. Her performance had been loved greatly by both the audience, and my parents. I was a very vindictive five-year-old.
“What’s the use?” M.C Syndrome spat. “You lost.”
And, pathetically, I didn’t have an answer.
Then, we were all given trophies, much to my relief. A faux-gold treble clef with a heavy clear bottom, most likely resin, so heavy to me at the time. The adults all clapped, and helicopter moms pushed like fans at a Taylor Swift Concert to take photos of their grubby children. A photographer took some photos, half of which I smiled for and half I forgot to. And then, it was over. Just like that.
That trophy I won, covered in fingerprints and gleaming in the glory of that day, still sits above the shiny black, bitten, kicked, and dented piano. It was the first award that I had received, ever.
“I can’t believe you won a trophy.” M.C Syndrome said, sounding a little choked up. “I mean, you did terrible.”
“Thanks.” I said, running over to the kicked, bitten, and punched piano to trace the small set of teeth marks ingrained in the black polish layer cutting into wood.
M.C Syndrome didn’t quite die over the years. She just faded into a small, background noise, not even an alter ego, not strong enough to be a consciousness, as I realized that I was not prominent enough for it, and it was too arrogant for me to assume my position in the universe was as a main character. I assumed, rationally, that I would be a side character at best. Perhaps one that went out in a dramatic blaze and set forth the protagonist’s dramatic journey of change, but still a side character.
That was not the last award I learned for playing the piano, nor was it the last time I kicked the piano.
Now, I practice, with increasing discipline, for around an hour a day. That’s not enough, as I am reminded every day. And every day the pink knight manages to trip over her own armor or find herself strung over a cauldron, with three witches cackling with delight.
“What should we roast her into?” giggles the one with the large wart.
“A chicken.” The one with no teeth snorted. “Not like I can eat chicken, but we can blend it.”
“I don’t taste very good,” the pink knight blurted. “I smell like cabbages!”
The one with the large wart moved in for a bite, and, I jolted myself awake, to trudge back—but not to the black monstrosity, no. Now it sits, rotting in a corner, glaring sulkily as the pink knight battles a sleeky brown contraption, reeking with the air of bourgeois status.
Somewhere M.C Syndrome mutters that I’m a failure, but she is long gone, like beanie babies and fidget spinners.
Perhaps the monster is jealous. Perhaps it is relieved. Perhaps it, in the corner, rotting under a layer of stuffed animals, prays to the Pagan Piano Lord of all Pagan Instruments Neglected by Five Year Olds that I fail my CM levels this year. It would be a pretty funny ending, after all.
Or, maybe, it, unhappily acknowledges that we, in the end, got along.
In the end, along with the scattered remnants of orc bones and the broken staffs of wizards, alongside dusty bones and the scattered warts of witches, the pink knight took off her armor, revealing a scraggly girl with long legs and stringy black hair. She took the hand of an ugly beast, clanking of ivory and white and black keys, and together the two monstrosities marched off towards an ugly future. And underneath their feet, pink sparkly armor glistened like shells on a beach.
The. End.
By Alisha Nasim
A 17 year old from India with an unhealthy obsession with finding new hobbies and cats. A firm believer of something-is-better-than-nothing and a creative enthusiast. She has been published in the Summur Magazine, The Grey Bear Culture Magazine and more.
I would light lanterns for myself when the world became too dark, when it became harder to see, a version of me that I always envisioned. I had thought of being anything but constant, anything but being stuck into a quiet loop of never-ending routines that no longer fits or into conversations that felt rehearsed.
During the frequent power cuts, I could feel the darkness filling my messy, cluttered and chaotic room, and my body slowly being engulfed in the darkness, falling into the void. Initially, I would find comfort in those power cuts because they gave me an excuse to forget about the chaos around and hid it gently under a blanket of deception. The comfort quickly turned into suffocation, which turned into self doubt. The familiarity that gave me peace, made me blind, and made me trip and fall over the mess of a person I'm becoming.
Since then I've started a (un) healthy hoarding collection of candles - especially the scented ones. I've also started hoarding hobbies - writing, photography, painting, reading - you name it.
Maybe I've taken the "don't let your figs rot" by Sylvia all too seriously but the dismay of being apathetic is more frightening than cleaning dried wax off of a wooden desk.
By Ivy Pham
Ivy Pham is a spoken word poet who performs political pieces and loves to draw from the community that embraced her. She believes in creating new ways to benefit the generations to come and will continue fighting for a peaceful world through her creativity.
"Persimmon Leaves is a short poem dedicated to my immigrant father who stayed an unmoving figure in my ever changing life. As I find tribulations and joys, I return to him and his diligent ways of raking leaves. "
PERSIMMON LEAVES
In the fall, persimmon leaves are raked by a rusted tool my father preserves in the shed.
Unrelenting, seeing the use in, seeing the beauty in under-consuming.
I know fatherly love under the shade of my persimmon tree.
In the winter, I chase California weather to the sea and watch the sky be washed in grey.
My toes dipped, my feet pricked, and my skin ripped by plastic.
I know earthly love in the glooms of ever-polluted waters.
In the spring, new beginnings find me in the form of a fundamentally different man.
Possession, what I look the best in, I caressed the wrong affection.
I know first love from my intuition’s tedious trial of maturity.
In the summer, I know love.
In the summer, I love myself and hear a dry crunch.
I love myself and hear that crunch echo.
By Jude Al Hajjar
The author is an aspiring writer with an instinct for lyric intensity and emotional precision. She is drawn to stories where tenderness survives catastrophe, where love fractures the self and rearranges it into something braver. Her work lingers in the spaces between devotion and ruin, often using natural and cosmic imagery to explore intimacy, longing, and transformation. Still in the process of discovering her voice, she writes with a noticeable ache for beauty, contradiction, and sentences that bloom where they shouldn’t as proof that something lived, and ultimately mattered.
"This piece was written as a sustained address, as one breath held across centuries. The process privileges emotional momentum over linear clarity, allowing images to recur and evolve rather than resolve. Metaphors are introduced gently, then stressed until they fracture and reform, mirroring the relationship at the center of the work. Syntax bends toward confession: long sentences accumulate pressure, then break into fragments at moments of emotional rupture. Repetition functions as both obsession and proof of life, while shifts in scale, from scraped knees to black holes, are used to measure the vastness of feeling against the fragility of the speaker. Roses bloom from wounds; devotion wears the mask of pursuit; tenderness prevails in landscapes engineered for cruelty. Time folds, violence softens into intimacy, and longing becomes an act of cosmology. What emerges is a meditation on love as mutually destructive and generative."
i write to you from the fault-line where the world cracked and something living, something unforgivably tender, pushed upward. a rose, just a rose, soft petals, mortal stem, no prophecy stitched into its veins. and yet it grew from a wound in the earth, and so it reminds me of us: the way ordinary things disobey extinction, the way something simple insists on surviving where nothing has a right to.
i wish you could see it. the pink is the pink of scraped knees and bitten lips; the green is the green of jealousy attempting at hope. the thorns are the thorns of every word i swallowed rather than confess i loved you long before i knew what loving was. this rose is not extraordinary, and yet it is a kind of miracle, because it bloomed when it should have died, because it dared softness in a landscape that teaches hardness. because it is, in truth, the shape of you.
oh love— do you laugh at me now? do you tilt your head the way you do, all quiet mockery and reluctant wonder, as though you can’t decide whether to scorch me or cradle me? i speak of roses and you speak of ruin; i send you petals and you send me fire; yet both of us are only trying to tell the same truth on different frequencies: that something in us lived, violently, stubbornly, against the orders of the world.
i would follow the beat of your footsteps upt
and down again, if only to match my breath to yours. you move like a falling star, and i, poor creature, keep mistaking your descent for salvation. but your last letter, love, that impossible confession, cracked me open. i read it and felt the cliff-edge under my feet, the way the earth trembles before surrendering to a landslide.
i stand there still.
i love you. hell. hell.
i love you.
have i always? haven’t i? the feeling spills backward like ink dropped into water— staining the past, revising the origin. every encounter becomes a confession; every chase, a ritual of devotion; every attempt to kill you, an attempt to reach you. assassinations become assignations. i remember hunting you through samarkand and thinking, absurdly, that if i caught you, the world might finally make sense.
(you were a blur of heat then. you are a blur of heat now. i suspect you will be a blur of heat for as long as time tolerates us.)
you said you wanted to be a place i fit. and i, god help me, want the same ruin. i want to be the blade you sharpen, the stone you push against, the shadow you enshrine yourself within. i want the tea-drinking, the slow domesticity. i want the bouquet of impossible flowers you promised, even if i know you will cut your palms gathering them.
i want everything that hurts.
and i write this to you knowing it will sting, because the truth of me has always been a wound. i write to you in the aftertaste of longing, in the residue of fear. i write to you like the rose writes itself into sunlight even while the crack that birthed it continues to widen.
the world breaks, and something grows.
we break, and something grows.
and you, my beloved devastation, are the only miracle i have ever believed in.
elsewhere, beyond the jurisdictions of time, there is a sanctuary of matter where two stars collide in tandem. from that impossible mercy, a single flower is permitted. when gravity itself sings its last note and bends into this clashing, a bud opens, unfolding petal by petal under the weight of a thousand unspent years. i would go there for you. i would walk the long arithmetic of centuries, harvesting those consecrated remnants one at a time, letting time erode me into myth, until i returned carrying a bouquet dense enough to bruise spacetime, heavy with collapsed suns and vows that refused extinction. i would place it in your hands and ask you to breathe it in, to feel our entire history ignite inside your chest in a single, unrepeatable inhalation. everything we were, everything we destroyed, everything we loved.
i have spent my whole life rehearsing solitude, perfecting the art of standing on the ridge of myself with no witness but wind. you’ve seen that version of me, the one carved from distance, patient through abandonment, unaware of what could rearrange her. yet when i think of you, the old instinct dissolves. suddenly i want to be alone together, to be siege and shelter, to be the hand that steadies you as much as the force that makes you stumble beautifully into metamorphosis.
i love you, and i love you, and i want to place that verb under impossible conditions. to speak it the way one tests matter at the birth of stars. i want to learn what love becomes when uttered by two souls who consent to mutation, who submit themselves to the pressure of proximity until they are no longer what they were, until change is not a consequence but the entire, brilliant point.
yours
By Stocha Scranton
Stocha fell in love with writing at a young age, crafting stories inspired by her favorite authors before branching into her own worlds. She is married and has a spunky chihuahua and a grumpy old black cat, and hosts foreign exchange students from all over the world. She loves reading a good thriller, romance, or fantasy novel.
The sting, it hurts –
A sharpness not soon forgotten.
Collections – unforgiven.
Pain fades, but marks last.
(Everyone can see.)
But what about internally?
Wounds so deep inside,
No bandage can reach.
Can anybody tell?
These scars are part of me –
My history.
A story unfolds:
I am a scar catcher.
By Marie Bowden
Finding possibility
A love story.
Dedication
For Davie you have helped me to see that there are good men in the world.
Introduction
This is a story that is inspired by true events.
I wanted to write a story about the reality of emotional abuse and how damaging it can be especially when mixed with mental illness and three children.
It can feel lonely and hopeless except for the one person who sees you and would do anything to get you out.
It is an unconventional love story where there is a possibility of a happy ending and a better life.
Chapter One
I know that I am awkward and a loner
I sit on the warm wooden bench by the entrance of my children’s school.
I am always the first parent to arrive as I don’t want to miss out on a carpark or get lost in the crowd
It is hot but the cool breeze is blowing nicely on the first day of February
I have time to adjust my straw hat to shade my pale skin before I watch other parents stroll by in their sunglasses and Birkenstocks chatting with an air of confidence.
I don’t fit in. I don’t think I ever have.
I usually just sit and observe the minutes go by. I watch as parents huddle in their groups chatting excitedly their words float by me.
I’m used to it, but it still hurts.
I am waiting for home time. I am waiting for the bell to ring.
I don’t see that there is someone next to me until I see his black boots and his face turns towards me. His hair is dark long and unruly. I am not good at talking to people especially strangers.
He talks first to break the ice.
“Any plans for the weekend?” he asks.
I am surprised that he is talking to me. I find my voice and say I don’t usually do much.
He smiles and it lights up his warm brown eyes.
He is beautiful, I think but blush hoping I didn’t say that aloud.
“ I am the same” he says. I mean I don’t do much.
“ I am Ash” he says holding out his hand.
“Sarah” I say softly.
He smiles and says, “nice to meet you”.
I notice that he has a tattoo of a skull on his neck
I am just about to say something else when the bell rings and he heads towards the gate.
I wait for my two kids and Ash gets lost in the crowd of parents, kids, and teacher chaos.
My cheeks are aglow from having someone talk to me and know that I am visible.
Eden came flying out first. Her blonde hair flying as she ran over to me. She is noise, fun, energy, and very helpful. Once she reaches me, she begs me to spin her around and yells out to her friends.
I catch Ryan as he comes through the gate. He looks hungry and tired.
I grab both their bags and hold their hands as we head across the crossing to our car.
there is the usual car seat fights. The windows are wound down and the music is up. I put my driving glasses on.
I smile for once as I reverse out because it is a Friday and for once someone talked to me.
It is my turn to have the kids as I had recently separated from my husband It still felt strange to go home to my two bedroom flat.
The kids preferred going to dad’s because of the Xbox and no homework.
It was all play and no work at his place.
“ What about going swimming this week-end?”
I asked brightly as I turned into the driveway.
Ryan shook his head and Eden asked if Conrad could come.
“ Who is Conrad?” I asked as I stopped the car.
“ A boy in my class” she piped. “He is so cool he can do this trick on his scooter”.
I got them out. I thought that Eden is only six and shouldn’t be worrying about boys.
“Let’s invite him”. I said
Riley and Eden raced inside straight to the medium sized screen and putting on the baby Yoda series.
I plated up snacks. I asked who Conrad’s parents were to Eden.
“ He only has a dad” says Eden her eyes are fixed to the screen.
“ Oh I wasn’t sure if I would be able to invite Conrad”.
The house was a mess as I was having mixed bipolar episodes. The bins were overfull, dirty dishes lined the benches, and there was dirty washing scattered on the floor.
I handed out unhealthy snacks of twisties and strawberry milkshakes.
I attempted to clean up while the kids were occupied I didn’t really have any friends except my mum.
My parents usually came over for one day in the week-end. I had a close relationship with my parents but especially my mum who had supported me through my bipolar when it first happened in my early twenties. I had put them through hell with my lying, overdoses, and meaness.
I loved them coming over as they would take over such as helping with dishes, folding washing, and taking the kids on an outing.
the kids loved it too and called them Nana and Pop. And they always bought a take away. They would come tomorrow.
I think they had finally got used to Cameron and me not being together. It was Cameron who did the leaving he just said he couldn’t take living with my bipolar anymore.
I didn’t cry to start with. I was numb. I thought I would be suicidal afterwards, but I wasn’t. I had felt normal for once.
I went about finding a place and dividing up things.
it should have been me who left him as I only recently discovered that my supposedly good marriage was toxic. I had recently been exploring this with my therapist.
I had turned the dishwasher on when the phone rang. A rare occurrence to happen in this house.
Eden passed me the phone. It was Naomi my best friend who had moved away from me recently. I missed her. I told her that I was up and down she shared with me about her life down south and home schooling her boys. It sounded perfect.
She asked if I got the tea maker. I laughed and said “Definitely it is the one thing that keeps me going.
She said that she was proud of me. I tried not to cry as I said thanks. I ended our conversation early as we had guests coming.
Eden asked again about Conrad coming swimming.
“I don’t know his dad, but we could look on the school Facebook page”.
I found my laptop in my bedroom. It was my most prized possession my 35th birthday present. Eden hopped up on the bed next to me and snuggled beside me. She started chatting about the lolly she won at school for finding the magic treasure. “Awesome Eden” I said as I started scrolling through the school’s facebook page. On a whim I typed in “Ash” in the search and the image that came back was of the man I met today except that his hair was tied back which brought out his brown eyes.
“ That’s Conrad’s dad,” said Eden.
“ I can send him a message” I said.
“Yay!” shouted Eden as she sang and danced around the room.
What do I say I thought. Probably best to keep it simple.
“ Hi Ash, it is me Sarah my daughter Eden is in the same class as Conrad and would love for him to come swimming with her”.
By Nitulescu E. Vanessa
V.E.Nitulescu is an artist and writer living in Southern Romania, currently working on her book draft, she is determined to become a known author.
"Kalopsia"
I have yet to experience all the bad in the world
But still on this non-irenic planet
Dysania powers over all of its realms
And the pit of death calls those whose names it signed
Singing elysian rhymes with pride
An acouasm ringing in their ears
Dizziness sinks in
As a tiger descends it's teeth into flesh
Phospenes in your vision
Petrichor in your nose
Seeing you more beautiful in my final time
Kalopsia was my name,and you were my end
By Klara Laurenzia Linden
Klara Laurenzia Linden is 21 years old and a master's student in Communication Design at Folkwang University of the Arts, Germany. She primarily works on visual narratives, illustrative representations, and literary texts, with a focus on conveying moods, emotions, and thoughts.
Warmes Tuch
Die Liebe bohrt sich durch das Herz, reißt ein Stück hinaus, füttert es damit und flickt die Überreste mit einer kochend heißen Nadel.
Der Duft, der auf Weiteres in den Sinnen hängen bleibt, der die stillen Worte singt und sich dein Gesicht in meines einprägt. Das Gefühl, das mitschwingt, bringt einem die Sehnsucht, die Sucht nach dem Rot. Meine Hände reichen mir die Funken, die entstehen, wenn der Blick in deine Augen fällt, wenn sie sehen, was deine Gestalt mit sich bringt und in sich trägt, erklingt die Melodie, sie singt die Lieder, die für dich geschrieben in alten Steinen gemeißelt stehen. Unvergessen, unberührt.
Dann lerne auch ich zu sehen, mit einem hell leuchtenden, anziehenden Stern, der wie ein Magnet uns zusammenbringt.
Warm Cloth
Love drills through the heart, tears a piece out, feeds on it, and stitches the remains with a boiling-hot needle.
The scent that lingers in the senses for the time being, that sings the silent words and imprints your face into mine. The feeling that resonates brings one longing, the craving for red. My hands offer me the sparks that arise when the gaze falls into your eyes, when they see what your form carries with it and holds within, the melody resounds. It sings the songs written for you, carved into ancient stone. Unforgotten, untouched.
Then I too learn to see, with a brightly shining, alluring star that draws us together like a magnet.
By Howard Osborne
Howard has written poetry and short stories, also a novel and several scripts. With poems published online and in print, he is a published author of a non-fiction reference book and several scientific papers many years ago. He is a UK citizen, retired, with interests in writing, music and travel.
"Responding to the 'Thaw' theme, with a nod toward climate change."
POLAR CAP DOFFED
Finally, when a winter’s ice begins to thaw
And trying to escape, the water runs away
Anywhere it can, down gutters and drains
So that eventually, only a dryness remains
Other than a puddle, has nowhere to stay
But as rain, some having been here before
There is a subtle shift in the average heat
That is required to turn pure ice to water
As impurities make thawing it a bit easier
And the muck on roads makes it greasier
Freezing air temperatures offer no quarter
Like as found in any Arctic full ice sheet
As change in our climate is for the worse
Even those ice caps are beginning to melt
Sea water’s salt ensures it won’t re-freeze
Without urgent action, there is no reprise
No words, as Earth’s future is clearly spelt
It won’t be a blessing, but more of a curse
By Evelyn Thakur
Evelyn Thakur is an emerging writer from the UK. Though she began her writing journey recently, literature has always been a friend and guiding hand. She is consumed by her ever - growing list of books (which must contain either Nabokov, Poe or Bronte!) and is drawn to the psychological intricacies of Gothic literature. Evelyn is Head of the Editorial Team for Antler Velvet Magazine — a literary magazine which curates art that focuses on wild and untamed souls – and is a staff writer for Syris the Zine, Orphic Literary and the Aletheia Gazette. She has been published in Venus, Darling Magazine, the Dark Poets Club and DYONYZINE Magazine. When not reading or working on the magazine, she is working on her upcoming novel and writing essays on literature, history, philosophy and more on her substack: https://substack.com/@evelynthakur
Lying in bed,
saltine eyes affixed to the canopy in wonder
as if it were an easel of twilight
dusted with a cluster of stars
born from spiders' silk and molten tiles,
I think about you.
Not in the way I used to —
I love you,
though your ghost is vacant from my thoughts
and the pockets of your laughter echo in the
barren chambers of my heart.
Like the freckles of starlight,
densely packed together,
floating into the vastness of the midnight unknown,
and bursting into champagne supernova,
the memorial of our love splits into atoms of
buried time.
Moments of tender caresses and
fraught misunderstanding
no longer anchor my heart like a sunken ship.
As remembrance dissipates and
collects on the frosted windowpane,
a blank slate is left in your place.
A charcoal frame with
no image,
no foundation,
expands into the filtered cosmos of my skyline.
Finally — I am free to paint again.
The blackened canopy screens into endless
wonder and hope,
I greet the cosmos with an open, gaping
throat
roaring with a laughter that belongs to me.
The time is right;
the clock affixed to the rhythm of another beating heart.
Whose is it?
I don't care but for the difference of
tabula rasa
and the strength of my unchanging, unending love.
I am ready to accept love as it comes,
my heart has healed from the projections of your
long-departed love.
By Arabella Sarver
Arabella Sarver (@arabellagailsarver) is a multidisciplinary creative who created Studio Luftmensch as an anchor for their various works - to include novel-writing, short filmmaking, podcasting, traditional multimedia art, and poetry. They have been published in multiple literary magazines for their poetry and have released two collections for purchase: Pillar of Salt (2024) and California Elegy (2025).
my child is buried beneath a tree
the synagogue and most of the churches
would not allow me to dedicate a grave
there was not enough body to bury
there was only haunting and memories
the father had been a false lord
our consummating bed was vodka
he considered himself a christian
so i found a priest who blessed him
she counselled me on occasion
it was the most calming ease
i cannot call myself religious
yet the holy water on his grave
oh that must have been god there
whenever the fresh rains clean him
he was baptised as he could
the father never came around
(perhaps that was for the better)
exotic dancer bossa nova
i have married into the great gatsby of old money
yet i can’t say that was the reason for our union
you see that i was given to a rich man in a will
he told me that after i promised him companionship
there was never a doubt in his practicality
my husband is still a man but a sympathetic one
something about the warm stage lighting and dollars
it brings me no shame to twist my emaciation for them
this is how his sickly obsession with me began
even in modesty he saw the way that i flowed around
people take in my sultriness enough to forget injury
he takes me in without shame no longer a paid lover
the legacy of the twins
aggression is a song that i have learned solely to cope
how else could i hold accountable those who harm
no one is truly innocent not even a young child
however that does not excuse the neglect of your own
whenever a life is catered and coddled and easy
weakness twists and turns like a bush of cruel brambles
some become devoted to their madness and flesh
others must find their satisfaction from a chemical
it is difficult to remind myself not to be a judge
after all i am nothing but a determined slut
i have fucked my way to the top of their society
one of their appetites was the sin that saved me
By Jude S.
They are an aspiring writer with a deep sensitivity to the inner lives of others. Fascinated by memory, longing, and growth, they write stories that linger in the spaces between people. Their style leans toward lyrical and emotionally immersive, guided by the belief that even the smallest moment can hold an entire lifetime.
"This piece was written in fragments over several months, moving between grief, myth, and memory. I was interested in the cyclical nature of love and loss, how we freeze, and how we fracture. The narrative unfolds across different lives and eras, each one echoing the same emotional architecture: intimacy, rupture, and the slow return of feeling.
I worked primarily through image before plot. Salt, stone, frost, and light became structural materials. I layered natural imagery deliberately, allowing water, marble, soil, and seasons to function as emotional states rather than scenery. Repetition and variation were used as compositional techniques, mirroring the idea of reincarnation and inherited ache.
Ultimately, this work explores what survives devastation. The hairline fracture in the ice, the warmth returning to the hands, and the choice to shape again."
Elias Rowan & Liora
Thaw I — Salt
Elias Rowan was a boy born with too much consideration for the world and too little for himself. He possessed the unfortunate habit of reflection, which, much like a mirror, returned to him not only what was present, but what was missing. His features were unremarkable in the common sense: dark hair always in gentle disarray, eyes of a brown so earnest they seemed almost apologetic. Yet there was about him a gravity that invited confession. Do not presume I mean the kind of confession a priest draws penitents nor as a photograph flatters the vain, but as a dimly lit room invites the unbuttoning of thought, where secrets, relieved of their moral urgency, slipped from the body like unravelled garments and rested at his feet, warm, human, and no longer ashamed. He noticed small tremors in voices. He felt the chill before others admitted the season had changed. It made him gentle. It also made him cold.
He did not know he was frozen. And yet, It was inevitable that he should meet Liora.
She appeared to him one afternoon by the sea, dressed improperly for the weather and laughing with all the freedom she artfully wore. Her hair, light as unspun silk, clung to her face in the damp wind. There was a faint scar near her mouth, small, crescent-shaped, which Elias would later commit to memory. Liora’s beauty was the sort that assumed itself mutely, like a tide that does not announce itself yet leaves the shoreline altered, so that those who encountered her were changed without knowing precisely when the change occurred.
They spoke of books left face-down on tables, their spines creased in similar places; of passages they pretended not to like and then quoted from memory; of letters never sent and errands delayed for no reason other than the pleasure of prolonging an afternoon. Elias learned the particular tilt of Liora’s head when she listened, the way her fingers worried the hem of her sleeve when she disagreed but chose kindness over correction. She teased him for his habit of rereading the same page when distracted; he noticed how she always waited for him to finish a thought, even when the rest of the world rushed on.
Their walks stretched longer than intended. She would stop to examine nothing at all, a shop window, a loose stone in the road, only so he might continue beside her. He learned to measure time by her presence: the minutes quickening when she laughed, and slowing when her shoulder brushed his. Once, when rain surprised them, she took his coat without asking and returned it warmed by her body, borrowing something essential and giving it back altered. Affection arrived without ceremony. It revealed itself in the unthinking reach for his hand when crossing the street, in the way she said his name as if it were a private thought, in the quiet confidence with which she leaned into his silences. Elias discovered that loving Liora meant living perpetually on the brink: of speech, of loss, of joy too large to be named. It was a state of half-agony and half-hope, exquisite in its restraint, devastating in its promise, and he would have endured it gladly, endlessly, had the world not insisted upon an ending.
She was taken by the sea.
Some speculated it was melancholia that
had driven her to take her own life, others
wrote it off as an accident, most never
dared to speak about it. The
mere truth of it settled over the town as a
stiff, heavy blanket. He, of course, had
blamed himself. He recalled
the way she traced the sky with her
fingers, mapping out where constellations
should be. She'd laugh and go "Well my
eyesight is pretty weak so I can only
guess from the little blurry dots of white
but this is where Leo should be.. I think."
He recalled the way her eyes lit up when
she'd noticed that instead of looking at the
sky, he could only ever stare at her. He
recalled the white dress she always wore,
loose fitting but comfortable, always
fluttering in the wind. He recalled the
way she only ever used one pin to keep
her bangs out of her face, the rest of her hair wild, always unstyled. "It
can't be.." he'd mutter to himself. "It can't
be.. it can't be."
He lived thereafter as though a pane of glass had been fitted between himself and the world. He could see everything, bread rising, smoke climbing, children quarrelling in the lane, but the warmth of it reached him, delayed, thinned, as if it had crossed a winter field to arrive. Grief did not strike him as a storm struck a ship; it entered like damp. It climbed the walls invisibly, settled into the beams, bowed the floorboards with its patience. He would wake and feel it already at work, industrious as ivy.
At first he believed sorrow would tear at him, demand spectacle. Instead, it behaved like a careful tailor, unpicking him thread by thread. A seam at the shoulder. A small surrender at the throat. He found himself undone in increments so slight no one remarked upon them. His laughter thinned. His appetite receded. Even his shadow seemed less certain of its allegiance.
He tried to remember the last thing she said, reaching into memory like a man plunging his hands into dark water, certain there is a body there, yet each time he drew them back he found them silvered only with cold. He knelt often, sifting the afterfield of her voice. Had it wavered? Had it steadied? He could not be certain. The mind, in its tenderness, edits. It smooths roughness, heightens radiance, burnishes the light, and erases the ordinary until what remains glows too purely to ever be marred again. He began to fear he was no longer loving her, but the bright, unbreakable relic his sorrow had made in her place. He recalled the crescent scar by her mouth and understood it differently now. It had always seemed like a small, private moon. Now it appeared a prophecy. A thin white boat upon her skin. He remembered the single pin holding back her bangs, how the rest of her hair refused governance. That rebellion struck him now. He would have gathered each loosened strand, held it to his mouth to breathe, hoping some trace of her warmth still clung to it, hoping it might forgive him for surviving in her stead. At night he lay wakeful, listening to the small creaks of timber cooling. The house seemed to breathe without her. He would turn his head toward the space she once occupied and feel the absence as one feels a missing tooth with the tongue, compulsively, tenderly, returning to the gap until it aches anew. He did not reach for her; he reached for the indentation her warmth had once made. The body remembers what the mind cannot endure.
He married in time. The years, dutiful as clerks, filed themselves away. His wife was patient, and he loved her in the careful manner of one who knows how swiftly joy may be repossessed. He did not speak often of Liora, but she lived in him the way a cathedral holds echo long after the choir has gone. There were corridors in him no footstep crossed. His wife sensed them and, mercifully, did not try the handle. Age silvered him. His hands, once steady, trembled as if remembering a cold no fire could dispel. He became known for gentleness. For listening as though each word offered were fragile glass. They praised his depth. They did not see that depth is merely what remains after something vast has been removed.
Now he no longer argued with what had occurred. He had learned that grief is not a beast to be slain but a country to inhabit. You build there. You harvest what you can. You learn the names of its seas, oceans and rivers.
In his final winter, when breath came thin and light gathered at the edges of his sight, he felt a loosening as though the seam of sorrow opened long ago was widening at last. Those beside him heard only the small mechanics of dying. But his mind moved toward the shore of that first afternoon: a girl improperly dressed for weather, laughter flung wide as nets, a white dress fluttering like surrender or invitation, he could never decide which.
He would carry her absence all his life. But the ice had broken. And beneath it, something still flowed. If his lips shaped her name then, it was not as plea but as recognition. Not an attempt to retrieve, but to join. For he understood at last that love does not perish with the body it once illuminated. It alters its element. It becomes a tide. It becomes air. It waits at the margin where blue hour opens its soft, unanswerable mouth, and calls us, gently, home.
Persy Calder & Iris
Thaw — II
In the next life, she was Persy Calder, and in her hair glinted strands of silver that caught the light like frost on an autumn morning. She was not a Goddess in the way temples would have understood it. No thunder answered her moods. No storms bent to her will. But wherever she had trodden, the ground had recalled her.
When the sun touched her, her skin glowed back in a faint warmth. Her mouth was soft and full, stained always with the suggestion of pomegranate, as though she had just finished biting into fruit. And her eyes were the color of green, glimmering things seen through water, bright with life but carrying a depth that suggested roots reaching farther than the surface had ever revealed.
Where she walked, petals loosened themselves from their stems and drifted after her. Seeds, even the stubborn ones, opened themselves like hungry small mouths. Pomegranates split in her palms without knives. All the splendor of spring leaned toward her, the way flowers lean toward light. Bees forgot their routes and circled her like prayers. The rivers slowed, wishing to linger in her reflection. The earth parted in a long, slow seam, and Persy stepped forward. The light thinned into something softer, mineral, and tender. The air grew still. Trees rose from the black soil with bark like polished obsidian, their leaves pale, shaped like the palms of the dead. The underworld began to lure in a curious girl made of loam and dawnlight. It spoke of a soul that had loved the same other soul so faithfully that even death itself had grown tired of interrupting them. Now she was the field after the fire. The season that arrived whether anyone asked for it or not. And the world, which had tested her with sorrow in multiple bodies, watched her carefully. It knew who would come.
The underworld was luminous with a slow, pulsating light, like the glow inside a pomegranate held against the sun. Rivers moved like drawling black ink. Trees grew with silver bark and leaves the color of old bruises. The air smelled faintly of iron and honey.
And there, seated on a throne grown from black roots and cooled lava, was the ruler of it all. The Queen of the Underworld sat upon a throne carved from a single block of volcanic glass, its surface dark enough to swallow reflections whole. Shadows gathered around her like obedient animals, curling at her feet, clinging to the edges of her cloak.
Iris.
Her crown was not gold but thorn, woven from the branches of trees that only grew in places where grief had sunk its teeth deep into the soil. Tiny white blossoms clung to the thorns—flowers that only bloomed in graveyards, petals pale as bone, their fragrance faint and sweet. Drops of something red, sap, or blood, or both, gathered at the tips of the thorns and fell in slow, patient rhythms to the floor below. Her hair fell like a spill of ink down her back, thick and heavy, threaded with faint streaks of silver like veins of ore. Her eyes held the stillness of deep water, and if you looked long enough, you could almost see them: shipwrecks of forgotten loves, broken swords, rings slipped from cold fingers, letters never delivered. Every lost thing in the world seemed to have found a home in those eyes, and none of it was rejected. She did not look cruel. She looked patient.
Persy recognized her at once. Of course she did. She always did.
Love, after enough lifetimes, becomes a kind of scent. A frequency. A tremor in the bones when the right person enters the room.
“You came,” Iris said, "and you have come a long way." And the truth of it struck the underworld like a bell, because this time, no one had been stolen. No one had been tricked. No one had eaten fruit out of hunger or ignorance. Persy had walked down willingly, her hands empty, her heart full of centuries.
Iris watched her with an expression that was not surprise, not triumph, but something quieter. Something almost reverent. “Do you know what it costs,” she asked, “to sit beside me?”
Persy did.
“I have already paid it,” she said. “Three times over. I’ve loved you before,” she said quietly, though she did not know why she knew it. “I don’t remember how. Only that I have.”
For the first time, Iris’s composure faltered. Just slightly. Like the smallest crack in ice. “You shouldn’t say things like that down here,” she murmured.
“Why?”
“Because the dead listen. And they are greedy for stories."
As if summoned by her words, shapes began to gather in the shadows, pale figures, half-formed, watching from the edges of the hall. The air thickened with their silent attention.
Persy stepped closer to Iris. “I don’t want to leave,” she said.
Iris’s expression hardened. “Everyone says that. For a moment.”
“But I remember,” Persy whispered
“I remember things that don’t belong to me,” Persy said, almost to herself. She did not look at Iris when she spoke. Her eyes were fixed on the dark floor, where veins of dull marble threaded through the stone like frozen lightning.
“Sometimes it’s water,” she continued. “Cold enough to sting the teeth. The taste of salt when I shouldn’t be near a sea. She looked up, at last, at Iris, ashen eyes glinting in the candlelight. "Sometimes it’s the smell of dust, white dust, soft as flour, settling into the lines of my hands." She flexed her fingers as though expecting to see it there. “And sometimes it’s a small room with a window. There’s a couch. Old. Its springs creak when someone sits down. A cat.” Her voice grew quieter, afraid of being overheard by her own memory. “And there’s a weight beside me. A warmth. A person I trust without remembering why. I never see her face clearly. Only the shape of her shoulder. The way her hand finds mine."
Iris did not move. But the shadows around her tightened, as though they felt the shift in her breath.
“You don’t understand what you’re saying,” Iris murmured.
“Then tell me,” Persy replied.
At last, Iris said, very quietly, “If those memories are real, then every one of them ends with you losing me.”
Persy considered this, her brow knitting slightly, as though she were turning the thought over like a stone in her palm.
“Yes,” she said. “But they also begin with me finding you.”
Iris did not answer immediately. For a long time, she only stood there. The underworld held its quiet around them. At last, she exhaled.
“You always say things like that,” Iris murmured.
“In every life. You speak as if beginnings are stronger than endings.”
Persy tilted her head. “Aren’t they?”
Iris’s mouth curved faintly, but there was no humor in it.
“No. Endings are heavier. They last longer. They leave stains.” Her gaze drifted past Persy, into the dim distance where the shades gathered. “I remember them all. Every version of you.”
Persy listened, very still.
“I was there,” Iris continued. “Not beside you. Never close enough to touch. But I was there at the edges. I felt each ending like a bell struck somewhere far below the earth. I knew your name before you were even born again.”
Her voice softened. “And every time, I told myself the same thing: this will be the last. This will be the life where she forgets me.”
Persy stepped closer. Close enough that their shadows merged on the stone.
“But I didn’t,” she said.
“No,” Iris replied. “You didn’t.”
They stood in silence, the weight of centuries pressing gently around them like deep water.
Perseya reached for her hand again, slower, asking permission not just from Iris, but from the whole long history that lived between them.
“What happens now?” she asked. Iris’s fingers curled around hers before she could stop herself. The touch was cool, steady, familiar in a way that made something ache beneath her ribs.
“Now comes the part none of your lives have reached before.”
Iris looked down at their joined hands, then back into Persy’s eyes.
“You always found me,” she said. “And you always lost me. That was the pattern. That was the balance. Life, death. Spring, winter. Beginning, ending.”
“But you’ve come here willingly. You walked into the dark with open eyes.” She paused. “That breaks the story."
Her thumb brushed once across Persy's knuckles.
Persy’s lips parted. “Is that bad?”
Iris thought of the countless endings she had watched. The countless souls drifting into her realm with unfinished sentences in their mouths. She thought of Perseya’s voice just moments ago, listing those small, ordinary memories: the couch, the cat, the hand in hers.
“I think it’s the first honest thing that’s ever happened to us.” Iris said quietly.
“What does honesty change?” Persy asked.
Iris lifted their joined hands, studying them as though they were some rare, delicate artifact.
“It means,” she said, “that this time, you don’t have to stay.”
Persy frowned. “But I came here for you.”
“And I know,” Iris replied. “That’s why I can’t keep you.”
“In every other life,” Iris continued, “love meant losing you. That was the law of it. The price. But if I hold you here now, if I keep you in the underworld just because you love me, then I become the ending. I become the thing that consumes you whole.”
She shook her head. “I have done enough in my time.”
Persy’s grip tightened. “Then what are we supposed to do? Just meet again and again until the earth runs out of lives?”
Iris’s expression softened, and for the first time, there was something almost gentle in it. “No,” she said. “We change the rhythm.”
“You will go back,” Iris said. “You will live. Not as a goddess nor as a myth. You will live as a woman with dirt under her nails and sunlight in her hair. You will have seasons that are yours alone.”
“And you?” Persy asked.
“I will stay,” Iris replied. “I belong to the endings. Someone must keep watch over them.”
She stepped closer, close enough that Persy could see the faint, pale blossoms tangled in the thorns of her crown. “In every life before, love was something that happened to us. And loss was the punishment for it.” Her voice grew softer. “But now, love is something we are doing on purpose. Even letting go.”
Persy felt tears gather in her eyes, though she was not entirely sure why. The grief did not feel sharp. It felt wide, like a vast, unending horizon.
“Will I remember you?” she asked.
“Not like this,” Iris said. “Not with names and faces. But you’ll remember the feeling. The way some people feel like home.”
She reached up and brushed a loose strand of hair from Persy's face. “And somewhere, in some life, we’ll meet again. Maybe this time as two people who happen to like the same blue light in the afternoon.”
Persy let out a shaky breath. “That sounds… ordinary.”
Iris smiled faintly. “Ordinary. Yes.”
The ground beneath Persy's feet began to glow softly, the path back to the surface opening, warm and golden.
She hesitated.
“Go,” Iris whispered.
Persy nodded, though her heart ached. It just tore a page out of a book she had just begun to love. She stepped onto the glowing path. With each step, the air grew warmer, lighter, sweeter. The scent of soil and blossoms returned.
At the threshold, she turned back.
Iris stood in the dim light of the underworld, crown of thorns and pale flowers, eyes deep as ever. But there was something new in her posture, something almost like peace. Persy smiled, and then stepped into the light.
And so the legend was told: That once, the Queen of Spring walked willingly into the underworld for love, and the Queen of the Dead loved her enough to let her leave.
Since then, the seasons have been nothing but a dance. Spring rises because somewhere in the dark, a queen had chosen love over possession. Winter falls as the memory of her descent, and the quiet faith that she would always find her way back. And somewhere, in some ordinary afternoon, two strangers keep meeting again, never remembering why their hearts feel so certain. Because once, across many names, many bodies, many fragile, unfinished lives, love kept walking into the dark.
Again and again, love reached the same ending.
Again and again, the dark closed over it like water over a stone.
The universe thought it understood the pattern. It believed love was only a beautiful prelude to loss. It believed every story bent, eventually, toward silence. But it had not accounted for memory. It had not accounted for devotion stubborn enough to outlive names, bodies, even sorrow itself. Because in the final life, love did something new.
It walked there willingly, with open eyes, and said: I know you. I have always known you.
Some devotions are too faithful to be treated as accidents, and too beautiful to be ended the same way forever. And the world felt the difference. Because once, across lifetimes and losses and small, ordinary rooms, love refused to become only a tragedy. And ever since, the world has turned a little more gently, as though it carries, deep in its spinning core, the memory of one soul finding the same other soul, again and again, until the ending broke open, and let itself go.
By Laura Maria Felipe Araújo
Laura is a twenty-year-old triilingual writer from Brazil. Writing poetry and, occasionally, prose, which feature introspection, heartfeltness and a distinctive style, in Portuguese, English and Spanish, she has an account on Instagram dedicated to sharing her craft – which spans over half the years of her life. Now, as she's reached adulthood, her goals are to keep on honing her skills and to propagate her works even more. With themes such as familial relationships, love, understanding of the self, and solitude, estrangement from the world/pursuit of belonging, she hopes to reach an audience with the same interests and perspectives.
I kiss you in my mind,
but I always have –
I think I was born wanting you.
I wish I would just get it out already – I love you!
I love you and you’re beautiful
with the smile like a chapel image
and you leap running into pavement or the multipurpose store
or danger to burn, cry laughing.
I want it to be easier; it’s so damn hard
but you’re soft like coastal breeze
where you know we might meet again sometime.
I want to hold your hand in the living room,
or just know that you understand
everything I’ve tried to tell you with my eyes alone.
We should pretend that the world doesn’t exist,
and take a nap with the lights off
in the livewire of five to six o’clock after lunch.
I’d go last,
to watch your face unveil itself – unpinched, bitten by warmth.
Beside you, I’d not dream of anything.
By Mark Fitzpatrick
MARK FITZPATRICK has published in many journals and venues for over 25 years. He has worked in special education for the last 6. He has been an ESL teacher in 4 countries and in the US.
SNAP SHOTS
By
Mark Fitzpatrick
Mostly, I remember the darkness. Even now, in this small, chilly room with the wind whipping and whirling, the snow tapping on the windows like maracas and the windows bright like a spotlight, I remember the darkness.
We made our way through that darkness over the rocky ground, single-file with one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of us. The coyote said we could not use a flashlight – even a match – since it would be seen for miles and miles around. Darkness. How deep, thick. And the air was cold but we were sweating – sweating mostly in fear. Only the coyote, sure of his way through that darkness, was unafraid.
However, Zeno remembers how bright it was. He was awestruck by the brightness of the night sky, the millions of stars across it. “Like Navidad!” Zeno burst out. The coyote angrily shooshed him, peered around in the darkness as if he had some kind of night vision. Then motioned for us to continue. Often, Zeno recalls the beauty of that night.
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Zeno is downstairs watching television and eating American shit. It’s nice that school is closed because of bad weather and not because of an attack or because it’s been blown up. I think it’s nice that children have a really, really safe place to learn. But Zeno hates school, hates being in America, hates being a refugee.
I can’t imagine what it would be like for him, his first day of class, in a strange school with strange language and strange ways of doing things, standing there before every eyeball like some pauper . . . or like a refugee.
I shiver, here, in this tiny room that Zeno and I share.
Jorge and Juana are sweating in the factory right now. They will leave work at 5 bundled in “parkas,” the big, fluffy coats that Americans wear in this weather; their faces, sad and tired and their jet-black hair (that I noticed has streaks of white now) tucked under a wool cap. Their physical appearance reminds one of elves, especially when dressed for winter. Even back home, people thought they might be brother and sister because they both have the same round heads, round faces, noses swooping down and then up into a point. A happy kind of face with small mouths always in a kind of smile.
They are like zombies, now, almost without emotion. They do not get angry anymore. They do not laugh. They do not hug or kiss and I haven’t caught the sound of their lovemaking from the room next to ours. Every so often, I see a tear slide down Juana’s cheek. Quickly, she swipes it with a finger and continues with what she’s doing.
When did they stop feeling?
The night Zeno through a tantrum?
Let’s leave tomorrow and go back home. I hate it here.
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We were all sitting around the table, eating the American chicken someone had prepared for us and dropped off. Rather tasteless, but the person was generous.
Jorge, sad, not looking up, said softly, “We can’t go back home, not yet.”
Well, when? When? Zeno insisted, tears dripping into his American chicken.
“I don’t know, damn it!” Jorge turned, banging his fist on the table, “I don’t know.” I had never, ever seen Jorge lose his temper – toward anyone. Juana looked at him in shock.
It’s not fair! It’s not fair! Zeno banged both his fists on the table making the plates jump. I want to go home! I want to see Abuela! I want to see Tio Rico! I want to see –
I knew exactly how he hurts. The feeling your life was robbed from you. I felt it so intensely that one time when I took the coins Juana had saved and carried the container to the pay phone at the end of the street (or is the preposition “on” in English?). I needed, needed so desperately to hear Adela’s voice, to reaffirm that there was a place and time I lived in and was happy. I needed to know that she really did exist.
It was an October afternoon, getting dark early, and I placed the container on the ground in front of the phone. I couldn’t balance it and it would be harder to steal on the ground. The operator was stern but helpful. But the call never got through. Militia? Blackout? Storms? I trudged as I had when we walked all night through the desert, back to our place and put the container back. And then felt guilty about stealing from Juana. And cried like never before.
Oh, Adela! Nothing more heavenly than those afternoons with you, sitting on the edge of the fountain in La Plaza! Tall Adela of the light brown hair like a lion’s mane. Adela of the green eyes and long face with Far Eastern features. You and I, sitting on the fountain’s edge,
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munching on plátanos fritos, licking our fingers, licking each other’s fingers; the sun shining on La Plaza, sparkling off the water that falls from the jug the stone angel holds in the fountain, sparkling off the dome of San Salvador y Santa Maria. Rapturous afternoons.
The old men at the orange, metal table, placing the well-worn dominos down, whispering about the government and the rebels. The old woman and her crippled daughter selling los plátanos on the corner. And the old man walking his thin, mangy dog.
It was life, Adela. It was my life with you. Stolen from me.
Letters sent to Adela – notes, really. Always the same: How much I miss you. How bad the Spanish food is here. And the pizza. How Zeno really hates it here. How tough school is. How good I was in English down there but up here it’s so different. How hard it is. How much I miss you.
Was it worth it?
Was the mayor hung in the tree in front of his house because of his sympathy with the rebels? Was it really dangerous for us since Lieutenant Pablo, a relative of ours serving with the army for years, turned and joined the rebels?
The military was constantly marching through our town and heading toward the hills and countryside around us, asking us if we knew anything. The old men playing dominos stopped talking altogether. And Jorge’s job as a journalist. – he could easily be a target for both the military or the rebels. But would he have been? And, yeah, there was a good possibility that I would have been “recruited” by either group eventually. Was the noose really tightening around
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our necks – as they say here in the States? Or would it have been better for us to have stayed and taken our chances?
Oh, how I miss you, Adela!
Jorge passed me the bottle. I poured it in my glass, sipped it, the liquid burning down my gullet. Where does he get such hard stuff? Something from Colombia.
The small fire in the backyard was warming us as was the alcohol. The night sky was cloudy, hinting at rain.
“We need to leave,” he spoke in a low voice.
“You mean move?” I said though I knew what he meant.
“You know what I mean, Salomon,” he whispered and looked around nervously, as if someone might be there in the dark. “Head north. Far north. Mejico. O los Estados Unidos.”
“Why?” But I already knew the reasons.
“You know why, Salomon.” He sipped his drink. “I’m a journalist, yes, a small town journalist but these days who knows what’s safe, what’s going to happen. The situation in this country has deteriorated to a point that’s so bad, the safety of Juana and Zeno, of you and me – that’s all that matters, now.
“So you guys leave,” I said, and downed my drink, angrily, regretting it.
“You, too, are a target,” Jorge said, “Look, you graduate in a few months.” And I knew the possibilities that were ahead of me – the one possibility – recruitment.
“I can’t leave Adela,” I said.
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“I can’t force you to come,” Jorge whispered and leaned close to me. “But think of Abuela and Tio Rico – what would hurt them more? Our being far away in Mejico? Or our being far away from them in a militia?”
The son of a bitch was right.
“We’ll wait until your graduation,” he said, “Then, we’ll take a celebration trip to see Juana’s sister in Honduras. From there, we’ll head north.”
I was silent.
“We can only take enough stuff that looks like a week’s vacation,” he explained, “Taking personal momentos or favorite things will only raise suspicion.”
“I’m not going,” I said, “I can’t leave Adela.”
And then they hung the mayor.
She sends me letters – updates on what’s happening. The old woman who made los plátanos died, fell right over into the fountain. Her crippled child died days later. Her Tia Marlena celebrated her 85th birthday (how many wars and rumors of wars she has lived through). The world I used to belong to, overcome by the fact it still exists. She tells me the old clock in the tower has stopped. She tells me the façade of San Salvador y Santa Maria has been pockmarked by bullets. She tells me . . . she tells me . . .
Our new life: two bedrooms upstairs of decent size. Downstairs, one long room that runs from the front of the house to the back. Off this room is a bathroom, a big closet, and some little
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room. Once you enter the house you face the stairs to the bedrooms. Turn right and you have the long room. In the front, the living room. In the back, the kitchen.
The church donated everything – furniture, food, toiletries, blankets, linens, clothes, etc. Everything we have is someone else’s. We accept it, gratefully. We are desperate.
A new life. We are safe. But I am so numb.
My brother Jorge is numb.
My brother Jorge, 10 years older than me, who lead me to the pond behind the fields of Viejo Manuelo. He would carry a sack that held towels and food, some clicking sounds coming from it. He wore the dungarees of Tio Rico and a faded Bob Marley T-shirt. The rays of sunlight that spilled through the branches gave us the feel of being in a jungle.
At the old pond, Jorge dropped the sack, which made a louder, clinking sound of glass. He heaved off the t-shirt, stripped down, and cautiously approached the water. He looked behind at me, smiled, the sun glowing on his face, “Coming?” And then dove in.
Underwater for so long, with only bubbles coming up, I thought he drowned.
“Jorge! Jorge!” I cried. Then he launched up out of the water.
“Coming?” he said again, just his head above the water, as if the head of John the Baptist on a watery platter.
I took off my clothes and, gingerly, stepped into the cold, cold water.
“Come on!” He splashed me with water.
I tripped, plunged backward into the cold, cold water.
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We swam to the other side, swam back, tried grabbing leaves off the trees hanging over the pond.
“How’d you know this was here?” I asked.
“Oh, when I was about your age, Tio Rico took me here.”
“Does he know we’re here today?”
“I don’t know,” Jorge’s head started flowing down the current. “But don’t say anything about it. He keeps a lot of things from Abuela. And I think this may be one of them.”
We dove underwater, grabbing weeds at the bottom and pulling them up, the clear water becoming muddied. When we had muddied it enough we got out.
Jorge pulled two sunny orange and yellow towels out of the sack. We dried off then sat down on them. Jorge pulled out a bottle and a pack of cigarettes. “Care to try?”
So I coughed and hacked and coughed and hacked on what would be my first and last cigarette. And I gasped drinking the alcohol. “Did Tio Rico do the same with you?”
“Yes.” Jorge dragged on the cigarette and blew the smoke in the air. “But don’t tell that to Abuela either.” He laughed, smiling that great, big smile and jabbing me with his elbow.
My brother Jorge who rode with me on our bicycles around the fountain (where eventually Adela and I would sit).
My brother Jorge and I, teasing the old women on their way to mass.
My brother Jorge, laughing, smiling, getting himself and me into trouble and out of trouble with his comedic antics and wit that endeared Abuela and Tio Rico.
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My brother Jorge whom I missed so terribly when he went off to university. Then that summer he brought his twin home with the same laughter and smile and joking spirit. She was him, in so many ways.
The three of us rode bicycles around the fountain – and still teased (a bit more gently) the old ladies on their way to mass. (I believe they had gotten so used to it, that after his absence, they welcomed it again.). And instead of “skinny-dipping” as they say in los Estados Unidos, we went fishing at the pond. We caught nothing. “You and I scared the fish away when we were younger,” Jorge smiled.
A fun summer – the three of us – although they would go off together often.
My brother Jorge who next summer married Juana, married her in the backyard since our family wasn’t religious and we had a judge marry us. The backyard was so decorated and the fireplace blazing and the meat was sizzling – and as much as Tio Rico and Abuela worked so hard preparing this feast, they were too ecstatic to be exhausted.
He never talked about what married life was like as university students. They were probably very happy. Though I think there was a slight interest in politics and activism. But after graduation they came to live with us. Juana taught school; Jorge became a journalist (and not a scientist as he had dreamed). But they lived with us. And then came Zeno.
And then there was Adela.
Adela and I circling our bicycles around the fountain, around and around, whirling in the bright sunlight sparkling off the water in the fountain, the water coming out of the jug held by the angel. The old lady selling plátanos and yelling. The crazy, old dog huffing and puffing and
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biting at our tires. The old men playing dominos paying no attention to us. Adela and I, together, laughing
laughing, laughing . . .
And then the mayor hung in front of his house.
“NO! Do not tell Adela. If she knows, others will know!” Jorge hissed.
“But it would make sense,” I reasoned, “She would come with us for the special occasion of my graduation!”
“If she knows, we might be in danger! She might be in danger!”
I explained it all to Adela, that it was becoming dangerous for everyone, that I would be “recruited” by one army or the other. I would be taken away, possibly die.
“How can you love someone if they’re far away?” she nearly cried.
“How can you love someone if you’re dead?” I replied.
She slapped my face and burst into tears. She cried and cried and said she couldn’t, she just couldn’t.
And then I cried.
Come with us Adela – PLEASE!
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The wind beats against the window. No more the gentle tapping of maracas or castanets. But a banging, a banging like police wanting to get in. I hear Zeno laughing at something on TV. We are here. We are safe.
So early in the morning, with mist and fog still all around, we left. We’d catch the earliest bus. I walked by all the things I knew, but as if in a haze – the gates of the cemetery where my parents rest, the plaza with the old woman and her crippled daughter and the old man with his mangy dog, the fountain with the angel and the water jug, the church of San Salvador y Santa Maria, the shops where we bought stuff, the school I attended and graduated days ago – all in a fog, as if disappearing in a mist. When would I see it all again – a year? Two years?
The entire bus ride I pretended to sleep, dreaming of Adela. It’s just a year, Adela, I’ll see you again in a year. Jorge sat like a zombie with a fake smile. He made conversation with other passengers, talked how we were visiting Juana’s sister in Honduras to celebrate – he points his thumb at my pretend-sleeping body – my brother’s graduation. Juana, pensive. Zeno, playful. We were essentially kidnapping him. He had no idea that he would not be back.
The time with Juana’s sister is a blur. I was more present with Adela, reciting my mantra through the whole journey: It’s just a year, Adela, I’ll see you again in a year. We spent a few days with her, her husband who was an obvious alcoholic but got along very well with Jorge. Zeno enjoyed himself.
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When we left, Juana pleaded with her sister to come with us, to leave the drunkard husband and start anew in Mexico or the US. She said she would right after La Navidad. (She’s still in Mejico somewhere.)
And then the long, exhausting bus rides – shit! I felt like we lived on the buses for what seemed weeks. Or waiting at bus stations. Weeks of thinking of Adela every goddamn minute. And the thought I would be without her for a year. What the fuck am I doing? Juana, still pensive. Jorge, sadder than I have ever seen him. Zeno throwing temper-tantrums. And everyone on the bus knowing.
The darkness. I remember the darkness. We waited in the bushes by the side of the road for a patrol to pass. The night air of the desert was cold. I shivered a lot but that may have been because I was exhausted. When the patrol came, it shone a beam of light across the land. We were in a gulch, lower than the bushes themselves. During the day, only our heads would be visible at the roots of the bushes. The beam flowed over the desert. The coyote motioned us to lay down. The beam swept above us like a ghost.
The coyote waited many, many minutes before motioning us to move. We scurried across the road with our few possessions. On the other side of the road, in the bushes, again, the coyote lined us up, single file. The coyote would be first, Juana next holding Zeno’s hand. Then, me. Then, Jorge. The coyote instructed us to place one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of us.
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“You must not say a word – not one word!” the coyote instructed us. He was a stocky, short man who looked like he had slept in his clothes for a few days, dungarees and T-shirt and LA baseball cap. Fat, los estadounidenses would say. His face had a sort-of-beard of a color I can’t describe. It wasn’t brown or gray or orange. It was the same color as his eyes. But for a “fat’ person, he had quick movements and a habit of bending forward quite a bit. “We cannot use flashlights. A single match can be seen for miles and miles in this darkness. If necessary – if absolutely necessary, whisper only. Comprende?”
“Sí,” we said.
“Whisper!” he scolded. “And don’t worry. I’ve done this thousands of times. I could do this blindfolded.”
We trudged a mile up a hill and down a hill, then up another steep incline. My body ached. It was like the nerves inside my body were humming, like I could feel all the electrical impulses my body has. I just wanted to drop in the sand and die. Why did I leave you, Adela? If I’m going to die, better to die near you? You can’t love someone if you’re far away.
Then, suddenly, Zeno gasped, “Wow! It’s like La Navidad!”
Abruptly, the coyote halted, shooshed him, quickly held up his hand, listened intently while remaining perfectly still. Ever so slowly, he moved his body as if surveying the land in the darkness. “No talking! No sound!” he whispered.
And we continued on our way, trudging, tired, sad.
After half the night had passed, we came to another road where a truck sat, country music coming from it. The coyote motioned us with his quick and silent motions into another deep gulch. “Wait, here! Do not talk!” the coyote whispered. Quickly, he moved toward the truck.
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My body was so numb. Thoughts of Adela had disappeared. I didn’t care if we made it to the US or not.
The coyote returned. “Okay,” he whispered. “This truck will take you into town and drop you off at Catholic Charities. They’ll help you from there. If you’re caught, you tell them you’re Mexican, okay? You’re employed in migrant farming in Redmont, California. Understood?”
Right! Tell them we’re Mexican. I thought. With our accents. And Mejico with all those Aztec names we can’t pronounce.
We bounced in the back of the truck as the sun rose. Zeno whimpering.
Outside the Catholic Charities in some town in Texas, we met the Rev. Silvia Altman. She was tall, dressed in a clergyman’s clothes only violet instead of black with a clerical collar -- an outfit we would see her in most of the time.
A priest, we thought, a woman priest!
She had a long face, big red lips and big, dark eyes. Her hair was reddish with streaks of white, curly, cut close to her head.
She reminded me for some reason of Cantinflas, Jorge would later confess.
And she was tall, really tall. She bent over and smiled, a warm, kind smile that Jorge would later confess made him feel guilty about thinking of her as Cantinflas. It was her kindness that impressed us most.
“Me llamo Reverenda Silvia Altman,” she greeted, “Y éste es Gregory Paps.”
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 15
The man next to her had long, white hair with a long, white beard. He wore a red cap, red T-shirt and red shorts that went down to his knees.
Like Santa Claus on vacation, Juana later confessed.
Rev. Altman got to know our names and then said in English – which I thought I knew – “I’m afraid you have another long journey ahead of you. Gregory and I will be driving. All you have to do is relax and bear with another long ride.”
Within minutes, we were in the car and heading north to Chicago. The plan was to drive through the night to put space between us and the border. Gregory drove while Rev. Altman sat in the passenger seat, facing backwards and talking to us, asking questions and explaining Project Sanctuary. She alternated between Spanish and English because her Spanish was very bad. Gregory did a lot of translating. I realized that although I was really good in English in school and even listened to English radio stations – it wasn’t as good as I thought.
There was a lot of conversation for the first hour or two. She told us about the church, the neighborhood we would be staying, hopes for education and employment. Jorge sighed so heavily. He knew he was back to being a teenager again, taking any job that was offered.
We stopped at a Taco Bell a few times. It made all of us shit really bad.
In the mornings, Rev. Altman would open up a prayerbook and be very reverent. We felt it a good sign that this woman who would be so essential to our survival was a woman of prayer.
Once, when the Rev. Altman was in the passenger seat again, she sat gazing at the road ahead. She wore sunglasses with a blue tint. The afternoon sun beat down on the car and there was an intense, sleepy silence.
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 16
Rev Altman had mentioned a few times how her son had gotten her involved in a ministry to refugees. So Juana took advantage of this silence, leaned forward and asked Rev. Altman, “¿Tu estás se casado? “
“Oh, no,” she smiled, “Just a little. But I can’t imagine how tired all of you must be.”
Gregory laughed aloud. I could see him shaking his head in the reflection of the rearview mirror. “She asked you if you were married. Casarse is married. Cansar is tired.”
She laughed. “Oh, my gosh! As I said, you must forgive my Spanish. No. I’m divorced.”
A woman priest. And a divorced one!
It was the first thing I wrote to Adela.
Warm water in the shower. Soft sheets on the bed. Almost two days, we slept.
That first week we had visits by Rev. Altman – who insisted we just call her “Silvia.” She took us places, showed us around. Other church members helped us with other things. Enrolled Zeno in school. Got me into the community college and a job at a Colombian restaurant. Began the process of finding jobs for Jorge and Juana. By as stroke of luck, a factory hired both of them, work in the back, very secluded. But, also, rather hot.
We attended the church for a month. Then Jorge and Juana tried to make it every two weeks. “We need to show them we’re grateful,” Juana kept insisting. And we participated in church events – spaghetti suppers, choir concerts, the annual car show. We were never very religious, so it was very different for us.
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 17
La Navidad as a very quiet, very sorrowful time; the brutality of the first winter. Juana getting frostbite. Zeno, unhappy and throwing tantrums, then giving up and watching television all the time.
Our life, here and now.
It’s April. There are blossoms on the trees. There are flowers – daffodils, chrysanthemums, blooming, blooming. After supper, Jorge and Juana go to a church function with Zeno.
Again, I take the container that Juana keeps the coins in – only this time I will replace them with bills. And I will tell her. I need to know why there hasn’t been a letter from Adela since February. I go to the phone booth on the corner. Again, the operator is helpful, although doesn’t seem to understand because I have to repeat myself a lot.
I reach her father. He is delighted. “Salomon, how are you? How’s the family?”
He ignores my request to speak to Adela. Instead, he tells about his family – everyone but Adela.
Deposit seventy-five cents for the next 5 minutes.”
“Adela is out with – her friends,” her father says, shakily, “I’ll tell her you called. We’re all thinking about you and your family.” Click.
I know Adela is seeing someone else.
How can you love someone when they are so far away?
It arrived. A package . . . from home.
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 18
When I came through the door, Juana stood holding it, rubbing her fingers over it.
After dinner, Zeno plopped in front to the television set. Jorge, with great ceremony, opened it at the table. He pulled out a big plastic bag. A small note: I thought you might need these. Abuela.
Photos, all the old photos. Jorge spread them out on the table like a dealer with cards. All these photos laid out on the table like a montage. Each of us pulling a photo from the pile and talking about it. Papí and mamí when they were alive, Jorge and I as kids, our first communions, Jorge and Juana’s wedding, Zeno’s baby pictures, my graduation. Jorge smiling, especially in the pictures with Juana. Both of them smiling. And there’s Adela and I at Tio Rico’s birthday party.
Jorge teared up. “She should not have spent the money to send all this.”
“She wanted us to have them, always,” Juana touched his arm.
Jorge bent his head down, leaning it on his wrist and shaking his head. “She sent them because no one knows if we’ll ever be back.” He whispered so Zeno wouldn’t hear.
Although Professor Swanson is young and vivacious, I had such a problem focusing on his lecture. I knew writing a resume is important, is key to getting ahead in los Estados Unidos. But I kept going back to what happened last night.
Around midnight, I woke up hearing two people arguing. It sounded like a man and a woman – and they were speaking Spanish.
I crept to the window, parting the curtains slightly.
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 19
Outside, by the garbage can stood Jorge and Juana. I could make out something in his hand. The bag of photos!
“No, Jorge! Please! You’ll regret this! You’ll think it was so stupid to do when we get back,” she pleaded with him.
“We’re never going back,” Jorge replied, “That’s why Abuela sent them.”
“Please, don’t -- it’s your life, our life. It’s who we really are.” She grabbed his jersey, shaking him slightly.
He held up the bag, even with his head as if he were holding a lantern to illuminate something ahead in the darkness. “We are no longer these people, Juana.”
“Salomon, why don’t you try the next step,” Professor Swanson asked.
“Oh, ah . . . I’m sorry . . .”
“Must have been a great night, Salomon,” Professor Swanson laughed.
The wind is gentler, now. Almost like a flute.
Zeno is laughing downstairs. I smile. It is good to hear him laugh.
How to make Jorge and Juana laugh? Or cry again. Or feel something.
Two blocks to what los estadounidenses call a “package” store. I don’t know why a place that sells alcohol is called that and no one else seems to know. I told Zeno I was going out to get something special for Jorge and Juana. He gave me a look that said, “Are you serious?” and said, “Okay.”
The wind and sleet beat against me. Like being shot, I think. This would have been my fate. I have passed the afternoon dreaming of the sunny place that was home. Which is a
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 20
nightmare now. I stand still. I feel the biting cold, the sleet thrashing me as if I were evil or a threat, the bare branches of trees wildly swinging. This is your life now.
My fingers are numb and my toes tingle in pain for a long time. It is hard to cook but I get it done.
Jorge and Juana smile slightly when they see a hot meal before them. “Gracias, Salomon, gracias,” their voices full of thanks. I had done it a few times before – mostly warming up food the church had donated.
Dinner is a silent, somber affair although we devour the food greedily. Chicken. How come los estadounidenses can’t cook chicken? And the lighting in this little apartment is so dim. So dark.
After dinner, Zeno goes upstairs and goes to sleep early. He sleeps almost as much as he watches television.
Jorge and Juana plop, exhausted, on the couch in front of the television, wrapped in blankets – their Friday night ritual.
I watch them as I wash the dishes. I don’t know what the night before us will hold. I don’t know if we will laugh or cry. Or just bitch. Or reveal secrets.
But I need Jorge and Juana back. Or need to know who they are now.
“It’ll keep us warm,” I say, as I open the bottle of Jameson before them. Jorge takes the bottle, takes a swig, hands it to Juana.
“I’ll get glasses,” I say.
“Don’t bother, Salomon,” Juana says and swigs.
Mark Fitzpatrick, “Snap Shots,” p 21
I sit next to them. Scared.
I am in a place where I have no memories. Are they here, too? Or are they remembering something? I need to know.
The nightly news comes on. Pictures of Ronald Reagan and Tip O’Neil, pictures of Boy George, the Chicago Bears, local politicians spouting about local problems.
We pass the bottle, silently, watching life in los Estados Unidos, our life now, play out before us.
By Angelique Diggs
Angelique Diggs is a veteran educator , who has worked in the field of Education for 31 years. She loves to read African American Historical Fiction and Fiction books. She is an avid writer, and loves poetry. She also loves visiting museums and traveling to visit family/friends in New York City. One of her hobbies is singing and she frequently attends Broadway shows when she is in New York.
The Strength of Our People
By Angelique Diggs
From shore to slave, from slave to field
Our ancestors suffered , but would never yield
Not to chains and whips, or even dogs
They were beaten, and hung slaughtered just like hogs
Families were fractured and literally torn apart
Despite the horrors they suffered, Jesus remained in their hearts
Faith is the substance of things hoped for
Faith in the “Heavenly Father” kept them hoping for more
More food , more clothing, more time to rest
In their minds they would wonder” Lord, is this a test?”
Though tested and tried, they refused to give up or just give in
We must continue their fight , demand justice ,and persevere to the very end
By Mahsa Babaeian
Mahsa Babaeian is an Iranian Muslim woman and a devoted mother. She is 32 years old and currently studying medicine in Iran. She holds a firm belief that one must strive to achieve the highest and most complete form of everything—be it excelling as a student, a mother, or a servant of God.
"Amidst the numerous concerns, preoccupations, and responsibilities of a perfection-seeking female student, Mahsa Babaeian wishes to address a particular issue that perhaps has never before been articulated—an emotion that many girls sense quietly within their hearts every day. It is a feeling that countless others may only become aware of for the first time, prompting them to pause and reflect deeply.
“Before the Mirror” depicts a young woman's internal struggle with exhaustion, daily responsibilities, and spiritual commitments. Throughout the narrative, she is overwhelmed by fatigue after class, which influences her decisions—initially planning to rest, then contemplating whether to join a congregational prayer. Her physical tiredness affects her appearance and her ability to perform religious duties properly. Ultimately, she chooses to rest and sleep, missing the prayer time, but the next day, she begins anew with renewed spirit and a renewed intention to fulfill her religious obligations. The story highlights themes of self-care, the importance of spiritual discipline, and the human tendency to sometimes prioritize comfort over duty, only to recommit with fresh resolve."
She left the classroom with half-open eyes and furrowed eyebrows. Her backpack was thrown casually over her shoulder; the physiology class was over. She was talking to herself—hungry now, as lunch in the cafeteria had already passed. Weakness washed over her. As she strolled through the university courtyard, exhaustion pressed heavily on her.
"First, I’ll eat something," she thought, "then I’ll go home. After that, I’ll finally get the sleep I promised myself this morning."
A long, restful midday nap to wash away all this fatigue.
She gathered her belongings and headed toward the medical faculty. As she exited the hall, the call to prayer echoed through the air, tickling her ears. Carpets were being laid out in the School of Medicine Hall for the congregational prayer. She turned and saw Haj Agha Qods standing there with his usual energy.
She stopped.
Her feet felt rooted to the ground. She quickly calculated her options in her mind.
With this exhaustion, if I go home to rest… but if I stay and pray in congregation, my noon and afternoon prayers won’t be missed. They’re brief anyway. And autumn days pass as swiftly as life itself.
Her steps changed direction, and she moved to perform ablution.
Darkness from fatigue had deepened beneath her eyes; her makeup had smudged and spread from exhaustion. She looked at herself in the washroom mirror. Because of her tiredness, she couldn’t perform ablution properly. She left the faculty, abandoned the idea of joining the congregational prayer, and went home.
She washed her face with cold water, which eased her headache. All she craved was a deep sleep.
So she slept.
Before she knew it, the prayer time had passed. She woke at sunset.
The next morning, she awoke feeling refreshed and in a good mood. Standing before the mirror, she combed her hair as she always did and prepared to go to the university. She couldn’t go looking unkempt—never.
That day, unlike before, she performed ablution (wudu) before applying her makeup. She paused for a moment, gazing at the cream on the table. She picked it up, hesitated, then decided.
Because this time, she wanted to be able to pray at the university.
By Morgan Maltbie
Morgan is an artist, who has horrible depression and overthinks, she loves creating art along with talking political as long as it can be in writing.
“States Away”
I live states away—
far enough that the gas
doesn’t reach my lungs,
close enough that the names
still sting my eyes.
I learn the city by headlines:
Minneapolis
winter, sirens,
a street that becomes a sentence
no one can finish.
They say tear gas.
Like it’s neat.
Like it doesn’t crawl.
Like it doesn’t choose children
first.
I watch a clip on my phone—
someone running,
someone coughing,
someone shouting move
to a kid who doesn’t know
which way is out yet.
And then the names arrive
where my math homework is supposed to be:
Renee Good.
A name that lands heavy,
like a door closing too hard.
Alex Pretti.
A name that feels unfinished,
like a sentence cut mid-breath.
I don’t pretend I know everything.
I know what it’s like
to be told to calm down
while something burns.
I know what it’s like
to be young and furious
and polite about it anyway.
They say distance makes things smaller.
That’s a lie.
Distance just makes the anger
quiet enough
to pass for restraint.
I imagine the kids—
eyes red, hands shaking,
learning early that the state
has a smell,
and it’s chemical.
I imagine the parents
trying to keep voices steady,
trying not to teach fear
by accident.
From here,
I can’t stop it.
I can’t hold anyone.
I can only refuse the cold.
So I say the names
out loud in my room,
states away,
like warmth is something
you can send
even when everything else
is blocked.
Renee Good.
Alex Pretti.
I don’t know them.
But I know this:
what hurts children
hurts the future,
and what we call order
too often looks like winter
from the outside
By Shïzã
She is a girl with deep feelings and sensitive heart to feel everything so hard
Title: Thaw
We remained close for years,
wrapped in love, warmth, and cherished memories.
The day we were physically separated,
did you really think we were apart?
And then, after so long,
when I saw you again…
love thawed within me.
It reminded me of us.
That sensation refilled my heart
and made me question—
were we ever truly separated?
Do you really think so, my love? 💕
Title: Thaw
We remained close for years,
wrapped in love, warmth, and cherished memories.
The day we were physically separated,
did you really think we were apart?
And then, after so long,
when I saw you again…
love thawed within me.
It reminded me of us.
That sensation refilled my heart
and made me question—
were we ever truly separated?
Do you really think so, my love? 💕
Title: Thaw
We remained close for years,
wrapped in love, warmth, and cherished memories.
The day we were physically separated,
did you really think we were apart?
And then, after so long,
when I saw you again…
love thawed within me.
It reminded me of us.
That sensation refilled my heart
and made me question—
were we ever truly separated?
Do you really think so, my love? 💕
By Gavriel Ndiko
Gavriel is a young professional writer driven by will, philosophy, and self-confrontation, determined to understand life deeply and express that understanding through emotionally charged and intellectually grounded writing.
Re-life
That guilt I felt that day,
Is it truly possible to forget?
The despair I hid behind that smile,
While my world came tumbling down,
Even now, my trembling heart...
Has yet to find its place.
A cry was heard across the city.
Searching for the light,
What lay was my lonesome.
Anyone, anybody, please...
Help me.
The days I lived,
The fond memories,
The world twisting and turning,
Like the power of a drum.
To that end, I won't give in.
Beneath the carnage of it all,
Lies that coward's voice.
It echoed all so painfully.
This life beckoned for mercy.
Now, even against fate itself,
Anguish and fear are trampled.
Our dreams aren't so far away.
Our new selves awaken to a new dawn.
The warmth and youth it bestows.
The guiding light comes to us...
With our future in hand,
We wave goodbye to yesterday!
Climbing up that hill,
With our hearts in the sunset,
We head towards a new tomorrow.
"What is the meaning of life?"
"What is it to be yourself?"
Someone...please, answer me!
...But through that window,
My purpose never sets.
For myself, I swear to this new life!
My True Self-(An Emotional Poem)
The "me" I was trying to be,
I reached out and still...
My efforts were fruitless.
Will it keep on being like this?
Will I ever stand, true to myself?
The wind blows and sways.
The same days swing by.
The dull moments persist.
Then the reckoning came about,
When you found me.
Lost and alone, I was.
Drowning in pity and agony.
You came and accepted me,
Not for the facade I put on,
But for my genuine character.
I realised just then,
It's not about becoming an adult.
It's not anything like that.
With just a little more courage,
A tomorrow could have changed.
I let it all go.
The past isn't me,
I am not a slave to it,
Nor do I have to apologise
And submit all for my charade.
My will is not to be bent.
So I'm standing here, true to myself,
So I can proudly face you.
Even if we reincarnated a million times,
Our souls would still find their merry way.
So thank you, truly and deeply...
For acknowledging me.
My Purpose-(Poem)
A wimpy voice leaked beneath it all.
It echoed all so painfully.
The anxiety...and the dread.
Pulsating through the air,
Stronger than thunder.
The heart will still find its place.
Even if fate beats me down,
I won't feel pain or fear!
Longing, Defying, Resisting
I search for my reason to live!
Maybe, that answer isn't far off,
But it doesn't lie among yesterday.
That promise I swore to myself...
How could I ever forget it?
That hero's smile I put on,
While the dread lingers on.
I won't stop fighting
Until I can hold myself tight.
On that new page,
Once my lost wandering self
Comes to an untimely end,
The bells of relief shall sound,
Signifying my raison d'étre!
By Faheema C.
Faheema C writes for the love of words, drawn to the quiet spaces where emotional vulnerability and tender human truths unfold. She has long been writing short stories and poetry that explore intimacy, power, longing, and the fragile resilience of the human spirit. Working in both Malayalam and English, her voice moves between cultural rootedness and contemporary reflection. Though not yet independently published, she has been a contributor to the poetry collection Mirage.
"This poem was originally written in my mother tongue, Malayalam, a regional language of India. It was first shared on social media in Malayalam and warmly received by readers on social media stories. I recently translated it into English, with slight linguistic refinements to preserve and deepen its emotional texture."
In the hush of a long, rain-soaked season,
when the earth was already swollen with longing,
she conceived a love.
First month,
she caressed the womb
and whispered stories into it.
Second month,
the stories thinned to silence.
Words dried at the edges.
Silence began to gather.
Third month,
the womb grew heavy,
with the dreams she shared.
Fourth month,
it cooed —
whispering: you are mine.
Fifth month,
it complained
that her love was thinning.
Sixth month,
the womb grew roots
of forbidden things,
pushed through her ribs —
guilt, fear, shrinking space.
Seventh month,
with sudden cruelty,
it stamped upon the paper palace
of her private dreams,
collapsing what she had built
before it ever existed.
Eighth month,
the roots thickened —
a forest rising within her.
Ninth month,
she could not breathe.
In the tenth month,
in a frenzy of survival,
she tightened her fingers
around the womb’s throat
And pressed.
Love died.
She became
a murderer.
At least, air returned to her lungs.
By Sadia Noor
Sadia Noor is an emerging writer from Pakistan currently pursuing her BS degree. As a new voice in modern prose poetry, she looks forward to developing her craft through continued writing and creative exploration.
True Modesty
It is said;
that modesty should lie just in the heart;
but true modesty exists in the heart and eyes;
it glows gently through the lowered eyes;
it is a gift from Allah;
Eyes may wander at times;
yet a pure heart, and strong character
guide them back;
Dignity begins in the heart;
and lowering the eyes reflects it;
it is self-control;
it is inner respect;
By Kim Piercy
Piercy is an educator and writer from California who likes to share many little observations on nature and human relationships with modern poetry. The mission is to spread joy and trust in natural creativity!
Wild Mushroom Soup
I saw you hunched with shaking
hands that begged for a task
and said "Let's make soup!"
just to see you smile.
Stir the seasoned pot
with wild rice and cream.
A scent so hot it lures
the cottage fairies
through the windows
of this dank house.
Sneaking sips as it simmers
low to bring happiness high.
Dinner is served with a side
of silly talk.
If you start to frown again
I can fill your bowl with seconds,
and the time poured will keep us full.
We made soup to heat
for hard days to come,
and heaps more for storms
over the nights that stick
like ice to lungs.
A wild love that's home grown
will warm the trembling air
until the chill is chased out
by the flavor of shiitake
and chicken broth.
By Tas A.S.
Tas A.S. is a highshool student. She is passionate about her hobbies which include writing, reading, art, sewing, sports etc. She enjoys to express herself through art.
When I feel nauseous
And a hollow appears,
I push my toothbrush back in my
throat.
The bristles are prickly
They cut my tongue up
Leaves the ramining words
To rot.
I push it further
My sorrow liquid simmers.
The toothbrush cleans
Built up plaque
Of words I wrote
But left unsaid.
The hollow deepens
I still feel nauseous
I puke out words
My surrounding becomes yellow
Though they barely makes sense.
While I still feel nauseous
The toothpaste slips off
I try to gather the bit of remains
And brush my mouth clean .
My toothpaste is blue
All over it makes green .
By Abbie Cochrane
Abbie Cochrane is a Utah based actor of stage, screen, and voiceover. Having graduated from Southern Utah University in April of 2025 with a Bachelor of Fine Arts in Musical Theater and a minor in Creative Writing, Abbie can constantly be found with either a script or her laptop in hand, but she's always telling stories. Her writing has been featured in the Kolob Canyon Review, Moss Puppy Magazine, Yavanu Literary Magazine, and Aetherium Literary Magazine. When she's not at rehearsal or typing away at her latest story, she can be found playing Dungeons and Dragons, working on her next cosplay, or spoiling her labradoodle named Lola. Follow along with her adventures on Instagram (abbie__cadabi).
My body and spirit come back to each other when the day gets longer. I don’t know what about the sun’s return is enough to keep me from splitting in half for months, or how the extended nights later in the year continue to pit me against myself. Perhaps the longer I spend in darkness and cold, the easier my mind is able to convince my body of every bad thing about me being true. Nothing can hide in the blaze of the sun’s light, so maybe that’s why it’s easier to come to terms with existing as I am every day in the summer.
I’m very particular when it comes to the seasons. Every month has a season and every season has a month. I’m used to feeling bitter and lonely in the months with holidays dedicated to loved ones and family. My soul is broken, my body is always tired, and neither can look at each other long enough to become at least the silhouette of a person happy to be with her family. Yet this year, during the rare seventy degree Christmas, I was still unhappy because I knew that’s what I was supposed to be. That December was as gray as a corpse, representative of how I’d felt all through the year. I found myself forcing a “humbug” and purposefully keeping my soul and body from attempting to reconnect before I was ready.
When the sun’s return came early this year, it threw me off balance as though I had slipped on ice. I’m not used to liking myself in February, so it’s a strange feeling. I’m opening the windows in the morning and being met with sunlight instead of a blue-bruised sky barely scraped by the sunrise, I only have to wear one coat when I walk my dog, and I’m finding myself smiling in the mirror instead of keeping my head down while the steam clears after I shower.
As the days keep getting longer and warmer, I find comfort in the expectation of happiness returning when the sun does, when the two parts of myself most often at war can make peace, if only for a few short months. Thawing is uncomfortable. It’s remembering to move things that were once frozen, oiling your joints as if you were the Tin Man in Oz, knowing full well it will never be permanent.
But thawing also means warmth, even for just a little while.
By Ms. Maryanne
Marianna Vitkovskaia is a writer~poet who attempts to encapsulate both personal reflection and collective trauma through the individuals' metaphorical lens. She does not hesitate to experiment with her style, from classic sonnets to eerie rhythmic free verses. But eventually her main goal is evoke something deep inside, undress the core and make one resonate with what may seem inexpressible.
"This poem may seem a bit strange, but it is culturally significant for me and my background. My country was renowned for having the official name "Thaw" (Оттепель) as a regime when all spheres boomed and finally could flourish into something more creative, but, most importantly, free after the long years of unbearable repression.
However, to contrast the spring's arrival, I decided to add "ballet" elements (overture, intermission, coda, and finale) since every time something immensely bad happened, the TV would only show ballet, primarily 'Swan Lake' to emphasize the tragedy. This is why although thaw comes, winter still leaves an imprint on one's being, yet at the very end my hero manages to break out and find an escape from societal imposed rules-sayings-endurance tests.
You can see that there is a refrain which is eventually moulded differently in the last stanza, in the 'finale', since the character manages to find a guiding inner voice inside themselves. "
Let the dew sink in
Overture
The winter is coming
and keeps coming;
but now my heart is
reignited
with the burning desire
Teardrop. Tickling. Flowing.
The dew is running wild
Brimming, buzzing, restoring
the dormant longed-for life.
Intermission.
Teardrop. Tickling. Flowing.
The winter did not spare a thing this time,
testing my endurance, aiming to make me
high
and dry
without the river’s bank of hope, no chance to quence my thirst
and nagging, breaking me down
its cold spell, thus, questioned
me being long happy and alive.
Coda.
Now I do not adhere the winter’s cruel grip
that mocked, abused, and ridiculed my essence
I listen to the voice, my inner spring
that drives and holds my lively soulful drip
banishing the outer superficial evanescence.
My Finale.
Now I absorb every teardrop, tickling, flowing
of the dew
that set my intrinsic mechanism in motion
once overdue.
Let it sink in, and I can wait
since
the world is wide ahead and every time it’s new.
By Areeba Shoukat
Areeba Shoukat is 17 year old college-going girl from Pakistan. She writes about her feelings that mirror those of most of today’s youth.
How lost, how still,
A frozen lake
Once would flow and dream,
Was stopped and hemmed.
O silent lake,
Your echoes sealed beneath.
Covered by cold silence,
Yet quiet warmth underneath.
Soon enough-
Frost begins to loosen,
Warmth lingering through the rime Slowly, slowly and slowly.
What once forgot it's way to go,
Will now go for sure.
What once forgot to flow,
Will now flow for sure.
O water! Your waves-
Restless though.
Murmur burried secrets.
All slowly and slowly.
By Debashis Chakraborty
Debasis Chakraborty is a sensitive and deeply reflective poet whose verses intricately blend dreams, death, love, political cruelty, and human emptiness. His writing fuses surreal imagery with intense emotion and musicality of language, creating a unique poetic dimension.Recently, Debasis's poems have appeared on various online platforms (such as YourQuote), where themes of love, dreams, and philosophical aspects of life shine through. He remains active in poetry recitation and creative writing, and has engaged with international literary opportunities (like discussions around the Commonwealth Short Story Prize), reflecting his dedication and optimism toward his craft. Debasis Chakraborty's writings have recently been published in kitab magazine. He is an oral story creator. In prose that flutters like butterflies with words and the dual flight of life, this writer holds an infinite faith.
And the Story
Debasis Chakraborty
Perhaps a faint emptiness
after the fire of death—
a flock of butterflies tracing the body of a cloud!
I realize the time of losing the afternoon
is drawing near.From the book-fair crowd to the condemned cell’s
flickering yellow light—
before the hanging, the boy only wanted
to draw a girl’s face
with utmost care.
Across the newspapers, a cruel squirrel
rides the sickness of “Yes Sir,”
the crucified Jesus cries out in agony—
yet they never grew tired.
Like clowns, they clapped and kept saying
Yes Sir, Yes Sir,
till the very end—Yes, and Sir.A desolate camel on the sea’s sand—
how many years since it last returned home?
On the condemned cell’s wall the poet sees
scribbles and doodles, a vibrant cactus
in the desert—
as time steadily runs out,
perhaps it gives birth to some refuge!At that moment, I long desperately to see your smile—
only God and the lover can understand
how words, desert, and sea
flow down your body
like a waterfall’s song,
the warm utterances of dreams soaked in snow.In a dream I see an apple orchard
where rose-lovers rain in love—
a snake-like hiss, hiss—
I understand the signal of farewell
is approaching!Perhaps I’ll write one last letter to you,
post it to the wrong address—
for time conceals
life, people, addresses—
perhaps everything.And then let the earth plant the tree of freedom
in the hemisphere of letters;
scattered words will blend into stories,
our names, casteless, will become
a tale without lineage—
a song that returns again and again
to this very place.