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(I) Art
Untitled- Irina Tall Novikova
The Troublemaker- David Pineda
Milky Way- Misha Gujja
Mirror, Mirror on the Wall, Who's the Fairest of them All?-Misha Gujja
Into your Eyes- Asmae
blue flowers- Anastasia Kulikova
Only Polaroids Remain- Isaac Querty
"Open Unto the Ocean"- Lorikay Mark
(II) WRITING
Baby Number Three- Wael Almahdi
To Live For the Hope of It all- Elizabeth Day
Million Dollar Smile- Elizabeth Day
پراکنده- Ali-Reza Asadollahi
The Prisoner of the Glance- Ahmad Khan
The Mountain of Light in Eldorado- Rehan Ahmad Khan
Sunflower- Zarang Rahimi
Someday's- Candilla
Polaroids (A Funeral Poem)- Lydia Pearson
Inferno- Sophia
empty- Cassie Makaela
Three Poem Collection- Claudia Wysocky
Good for...- Oliva Carter-Stanley
Gone with the Wind- Theresa Walker
Unpublished Secrets/Morning Cravings- Elizabeth M.M.L. Ku
watching the cycles- Bailee Timmons
sincerely yours.- Cooper Brumfield
Hedgehog- Pheobe B.H. Mercury
The Seventh Column; Anemone; Health and Safety- Claudia Wysocky
Desert- Ahmad Morid
this is how i think of you.- Jedidiah Vinzon
when you lost a star- Kaelynn Gray
The Modern Beggar- Uroosa Nisar
The Two Trees- Sage Goldman
Supling- Maxine D. Mangaoang
graveyard names- Damaris Esteli
Am I in Heaven (or maybe just in love)- Kayla Giovanna Roven
who are these girls (and what do they want)- Kayla Giovanna Roven
mutual spark- Desmond Distel
A Taste of Freedom; a dive in failure- Athena Kanellatou
Fool's Gold-Jude Slater
Come Home to my Heart- Roukia Ali
The Cyclone- Rutendo Shadaya
Your Fruit Dies, Yet We Are Still Here- Divija Daneen Baynazeer
Battlefield Poppies- Toby Davies
Who am I?- Naphisha Sohtun
Paradoxial Manuscript- Yisingfa Konwar
Mask- Bhavya Prakash
I'm Sorry- Shanti Samntora
Jabr-e-musalsal- Humna Nisar
Silent Echoes-Samriddhi Kafle
Baba- Marium Zeeshan
faded beliefs, faded distances & we could almost never- Shu J. Liu
Perfect Ocean- Emeline Martinez
The Neighbor- Emily Kim
There's Nothing to Be Afraid of- Celine Mammadova
a love letter to the past, the future, and the dingy old ottoman- Celine Mammadova
the art of eye contact- Celine Mammadova
Angel Hair and Baby's Breath- Hallee Wells
By Irina Tall Novikova
Irina Tall (Novikova) is an artist, graphic artist, illustrator. She graduated from the State Academy of Slavic Cultures with a degree in art, and also has a bachelor's degree in design. The first personal exhibition "My soul is like a wild hawk" (2002) was held in the museum of Maxim Bagdanovich. In her works, she raises themes of ecology, in 2005 she devoted a series of works to the Chernobyl disaster, draws on anti-war topics. The first big series she drew was The Red Book, dedicated to rare and endangered species of animals and birds. Writes fairy tales and poems, illustrates short stories. She draws various fantastic creatures: unicorny the Exhibition is Irina s, animals with human faces, she especially likes the image of a man - a bird - Siren. In 2020, she took part in Poznań Art Week. Her work has been published in magazines: Gupsophila, Harpy Hybrid Review, Little Literary Living Room and others. In 2022, her short story was included in the collection "The 50 Best Short Stories", and her poem was published in the collection of poetry "The wonders of winter".
By David Pineda
David Pineda is 17 year old photographer who works in the Los Angeles film industry as a camera assistant. Besides cameras, he loves learning about languages and culture. He would one day like to travel to the Middle East/North Africa and document the Arab world.
By Misha Gujja
Misha is a high school junior from Jericho, New York. She is passionate about science, especially genetics and astronomy, photography and fencing. She is actually a national-level fencer! In her free time, she loves listening to music (favorites are Mäneskin and Fall Out Boy), reading and spending time with friends and family.
By Misha Gujja
Misha is a high school junior from Jericho, New York. She is passionate about science, especially genetics and astronomy, photography and fencing. She is actually a national-level fencer! In her free time, she loves listening to music (favorites are Mäneskin and Fall Out Boy), reading and spending time with friends and family.
By Asmae
" Hey there, this is Meh. A person who enjoys trying out different things, who draws when she feels like it and posts about it when she gets delusional and think that maybe she'll gets famous and drop all the other things that makes her life harder. Basically, u r basic gal "
"My reference is a picture of @celine_bernaerts, it was so pretty i had to draw it 🧎🏻♀"
By Anastasia Kulikova
Anastasia is a student from Toronto Ontario. She enjoys all forms of art and hopes to pursue it in the future.
By Isaac Querty
"This drawing is about the feeling of loneliness and melancholic nostalgia you get when looking at old pictures with people you don’t see anymore."
Isaac was born in the year 2008, they for a long time dreamt of becoming an artist professionally but is now going to a different path and only focus on art as a hobby. Art is a big part of their life, it helps them to express themselves and is a great way to deal with stress.
By Lorikay Mark
"Living on a small Caribbean island, I'd agree that I have 'unlimited' access to some of the most beautiful beaches in the world. The tranquility the ocean brings me and my people is something I've learnt is a privilege to those who are not as fortunate. It's titled "open unto the ocean" as a way to show that the ocean will embrace you. The key feature is the blinding light as it's used throughout countless media as a celestial entity; belonging or relating to heaven or supremely good. Something I consider the ocean to be."
She is a fairly quiet person who, although enjoys her solitude, loves to be in the presence of friends and those alike. She gravitates to visual art, writing, crocheting, music, photography, and occasionally cooking
By Wael Almahdi
"Inspired by baby daughter"
Wael Almahdi is a poet, translator, and health care professional from Bahrain. He is also a Stephen Spender Poetry Translation High Commendee (2023.)
Baby Number Three
Oh sweetest bundle on my thigh
I love you even when you cry
And though you drool
A sticky pool
I cherish every coo and sigh.
I miss your scent when you’re away
I think of your cute smiles all day
And though you keep
Us far from sleep
We’ll always love you anyway.
By Elizabeth Day
Elizabeth Day is an author, poet, blogger, and playwright from Las Vegas, Nevada. Her work has been featured in The Just Girl Project, Empyrean Literary Magazine, Contemporary Jo, Hey Young Writer, and Fterota Logia. She is a student at Southern Utah University studying English education with a creative writing emphasis and double minors in theater and film. You can find her on Instagram @itsanadventur.
The summer of 2022 was my first year as a counselor for my church’s youth conference, for teenagers thirteen to eighteen to get to know like-minded youth, learn more about God, and have fun together in a wholesome environment. There were multiple sessions across the country every week of the summer, and my job was to travel to different sessions and be a mentor for the kids and lead them in their activities. It was my dream job; I was studying English education at my university, and I had been a lifelong God girl. I’d always had an unbreakable faith, a belief that God was there and He was loving, even when I didn’t feel like it was true. I was raised in a Christian home and was still a strong believer after twenty-three years. Many people were waiting for me to lose my faith, but I couldn’t. There were days my belief in God was the only part of me that felt real, certainly the only part of me that I cared to stay alive for. When life wasn’t real, God was. When love wasn’t real, God was. All my confidence was there, and there alone.
My first working week of the summer was late in June, during a heat wave in St. George, Utah, the temperatures rivaling those in my hometown of Las Vegas. Our session of the conference was severely understaffed, so the groups all of the counselors were in charge of were much larger than normal. I had a group of nearly fifty teenagers, averaging at fourteen years old, with a couple seventeen-year-old boy outliers. Our group’s meet-up spot was in a large grassy area (in fairness, any grassy area is large to me) surrounded by a few trees, big enough to hold all of the kids for various activities and allowing plenty of room for shade in the hot weather as well.
Alongside me were two co-counselors, Dallen and Kylie. Most groups only had two counselors, one male and one female, but there were three of us given how big our group was. When I found out I would be in a group of three counselors, I was overwhelmingly relieved. I was terrified of working alone with a man, not sure I would be able to do it, even. I knew if I had Kylie with me this week, I would be able to learn the ropes of being a counselor, and working one-on-one with a man wouldn’t be too bad during the sessions that followed. It also helped that Dallen was genuinely kind. Apparently we both went to the same university, too, less than an hour drive away from where we were working that week.
Twice a day we had to do an official head count with our group and send in confirmation that we had all our kids to our supervisors. Due to the size of our group, we assigned a number to each of our kids and had them count themselves off. They weren’t very good at this. It would either take an insanely long time, or they would get lost along the way and we’d have to start over; usually both. We made a deal with them that if they could do their head count in thirty seconds or less, we would owe them something. All they had to do was decide on something and get our approval.
I don’t remember how they decided or exactly where I was when I was told. I imagine I was in the cafeteria eating with the kids, as a lot of gossip came up that way, and it was free time for us to talk to the kids without having to worry about anything else. If our kids could do their head count to our liking, they wanted Dallen and Kylie to go on a date.
This wasn’t that weird. A lot of kids wanted their counselors to date, week after week, year after year. The weird thing was that there were three of us, and thus wondering which two of us the kids would want to date each other.
Dallen and Kylie decided they were okay with it, as it was only one date. Our kids were sure it would be more than that.
It took them a few tries, but our group wanted it badly. I think they got the head count perfect in less than twenty-four hours once their reward had been named. They counted quickly, encouraging each other to pay attention before they began, careful to listen to each other so their number wouldn’t be missed. Upon their success, they cheered, the midday sun celebrating loudly with them, a party on a grassy field that mentally woke me up from whatever I had been zoning out about.
“Did they do it?” I asked Kylie.
She shook her head, a reluctant smile on her face. “Yep.”
I instinctively gave her a congratulatory hug, which was weird, because neither of them actually wanted to go out with the other; there was nothing to celebrate but our kids’ success.. Dallen turned to Kylie, said, “Kylie, will you go on a date with me?” She accepted.
The kids lost their minds.
To describe the feeling as melancholic for me is embarrassing, but not inaccurate. Sure, in theory there was a question of which of the counselors the kids would ship with each other, but there wasn’t, not really. If there was one thing I knew about myself, especially in any context where men were involved, it was that I was not dateable. I knew our kids would never look at me and think, “Wow, she and *insert literally any name here* would be great together.” I wasn’t the image of a perfect Christian girlfriend. My makeup was louder. My way of talking was more strange. I wasn’t as friendly or likable as everyone else. In general, I was too weird. Everything about me was too much, over-the-top.
This was a problem I knew I had. I wanted to believe in love, but I didn’t. I wanted to believe in good things, in dreams coming true. But I didn’t. To be more specific, I didn’t believe in love for me, good things for me. Dreams didn’t come true. Not for me. Something about me made me undeserving.
In the winter of the previous year, I had finally admitted the issue to my therapist, Claire, despite my best efforts to avoid it. I had been suffering a heartbreak over a man I loved who increasingly showed that he didn’t care about me. The situation brought into alarmingly clear focus some trust issues with men that had been a part of me forever, but I was determined to never bring it up, no matter how relevant it seemed to my anxiety session after session. In a world where female worth is so dependent on male approval, male approval is also so rare, and a woman can’t admit that she wants it, because a woman being strong means being a woman who doesn’t care about anything. Name something worse than having to admit that “there was this guy.” It can’t be done.
But there was finally no supplementary truth to hide behind. All I could think about was this man who was destroying my life without his knowledge, and it all came out–including my general disdain for men.
“I’ve always been this way,” I tell her. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve just never trusted them and it gets worse year after year. And it doesn’t even make sense, because I have an amazing dad and brothers; I have only grown up with wonderful men in my family.”
All of my sessions were teletherapy since I didn’t have a car. I’d found an empty room in my university’s student center, across from the AV office where I worked, sitting on the carpeted floor that only seemed to exist in schools. My white earbuds were twisted near my chin, Claire on the other side of the screen. She had a voice that was honey sweet but not harsh in any way; her way of speaking was soft, gentle, so unlike my previous therapist, loud in every beautiful way.
“Well, there’s a reason for that too,” she said. “I had the same experience when I was young, actually. Girls raised with positive male figures in their homes are used to being around men who are kind. Out in the real world, when men don’t match that expectation, it can be disappointing.”
Everyone always said I was my dad’s favorite kid. He said all the time just how much he liked me. That was all—he just liked me. He’d validate my feelings when everyone else treated me like I was crazy. He was an educator and as a result always busy, but he still talked to me every day. He came to all of my choir and color guard performances. The last thing he said to me before I moved out was that he was proud of me. Once at a youth church activity, all of us girls were told to choose walking through two doors, one labeled beautiful and the other average. I chose the beautiful door, and when asked why I said that I had walked by it with my dad earlier and he said I better make sure I would choose the beautiful door, and I told him I would. I didn’t think much of the interaction at all until everyone around me gave a big “aww” in unison.
As a teenager, the boys I called my friends (who sometimes acted like more than my friends,) were kind until they weren’t—kind when it was convenient for them. They said they liked hanging out with me, but they also called me crazy. I was a girl just discovering the anxiety that had been present all her life, and they didn’t believe such a thing was real. They called me beautiful, then went out of their way to talk to everyone in the room but me. They were always too busy with school to hang out with me, but had enough time for all of our other friends. They supported me in what I did if they happened to also need to be there. They set an expectation that I took as a promise, which they never kept. There was so much to not trust.
When Claire said that, my initial shock turned to anger. I have a good dad! Wasn’t that supposed to make me exempt from deep-rooted trauma? Was she really telling me that I had daddy issues because my dad was a good man?
I had seen so much joy, so much more than most people get to see, and that is what killed my hope. I believed in love because I had been shown it all throughout my childhood, but outside of my home, I learned my beliefs had been false. Instead of never having faith, I had to watch mine be smothered to a slow and aching death.
It hardly seemed fair, but it did explain a lot.
There’s a verse in Taylor Swift’s “Nothing New” describing “the kind of radiance you only have at seventeen,” and I know exactly what she meant. I remember that feeling, remember being aware of it even at the time, knowing that it was magical and nothing like it would ever happen to me again. As a teenage girl, I would take walks in the sun and stop near the park in my neighborhood to write down some notes or song lyrics or whatever else was inspiring me during the day. Night walks were for music, my preferred genres being Taylor Swift and girl bands. A bold red lipstick was less scary than a natural pink. I twirled in cinema lobbies after seeing a screening of my favorite play, the employees telling me my dress was gorgeous, ma’am, basking in the hundred-plus Instagram likes I had earned. I was a singer and dancer at the local high school, and I owned the stage in bright colors. I was the star of the show, and no one needed to tell me as much, but they did. Life was glamorous because I made it that way. My dreams were alive because I was, and future dreams coming true was not only possible but inevitable.
I didn’t always want to be a teacher. In fact, as a teenager I watched my teachers work and thought, “Wow, that could never be me. Their job is way too hard.” But I did always know that teenagers had the world against them. People believe they are uncaring, foolish, screw-ups who can never do anything right, and then hate them for being the monsters they prophesied into existence. I never wanted to lose that knowledge. How could we believe in ourselves when no one else believed in us? I determined that I would be an adult who was there for teenagers. As I’ve grown up and discovered my love for teaching, that has only become more true.
My last working week of the summer was a session at Western Oregon University, a small, green campus also experiencing a heat wave, which was made harder by the lack of air conditioning typical of towns close to the ocean. There were many more trees to shade my kids with here, though, and the nights were at least cool enough to balance things out. My group that week was much smaller than the ones I’d had in Utah, but very high maintenance, which was good for me. No one would be surprised to hear me say it wasn’t an easy job. (Okay, not true–I’ve had one super lame guy on a dating app tell me he was sure it’s not that hard, but he doesn’t really count.) As my summer came to an end, I felt like I had nothing left to give, but I had to give for this group, these girls in particular. Almost all of them had special health needs, came from bad and even abusive homes, and had difficulty focusing. My stress toys and breathing exercises came in handy that week, not for myself, but for them. Whenever my anxiety was getting to me, they would have a need that was more urgent than mine, and suddenly I couldn’t feel my anxiety anymore, not when my girls needed me.
I had a girl named Julianna join my group last minute. She was quiet and shy and always wore a wide-brimmed hat that tied under her neck. Most of the other girls were much more talkative than her and had an easier time connecting with each other. Many of them even knew each other already, but Julianna didn’t, and I knew I’d have to find a way to help her feel like she belonged.
One morning we were sitting and waiting for a devotional to start. I sat by Julianna, in silence for a moment, wondering what I could do to connect with her. I noticed her drawing in a notebook, small illustrations that were powerful in spite of their simplicity.
“Wow, you’re really good at drawing,” I said.
“Thanks,” she said. “I like to write comics.”
There it was. I knew I had landed on something.
“No way!” I said. “I’m a writer too!” I didn’t have the talent to be my own illustrator, though. I wanted to know more about her process.
She started describing the methods with which she developed characters, which eventually turned into stories. We talked about getting inspiration from other art sources and how those characters still end up entirely their own. It was the sort of back-and-forth that easily comes when two creative minds are at work together. Eventually she was talking to me with hardly any prompting.
From that moment on, Julianna was a natural part of the group. She even ended up singing and playing guitar in the variety show later that week.
On the final night of the conference was a dance. It was one of my favorite parts of the week; by this time the kids felt comfortable with each other and with themselves, so they just had fun and danced without thinking too much about it. We had a space outside the venue for the kids with sensory or social issues that made the dance less accessible. I sat outside on the concrete steps in the cool evening air, the sun setting behind the surrounding trees on the university campus, playing card games and coloring with the kids who didn’t want to be part of the dance. Many of the kids in my group were among them, including Julianna.
Every few minutes, she would tell me that she wanted to let me know how much I meant to her. How loved I made her feel. “When I first met you,” she said, “I just thought, ‘Wow, she is beautiful.’”
I remembered that day: knocking on her door, telling her I was happy to see her. I was wearing our bright blue staff t-shirt, the kind of color no person in their right mind would wear unless they were trying to be easily identifiable to a dozen teenagers who had never met them before. My hair was in a bun, and the highlight of my makeup was a glowing pink lip gloss. I could see how closed-off Julianna felt in her face, and I knew I had to find a way to reach her. There at the end of the week, being able to connect with her about it, made the moment feel even more beautiful to me.
Another time that night, she said, “Have you ever been on a date?”
“Yes I have, but not in a long time,” I said.
“We need to find you someone,” she said.
“What?! Are you trying to get rid of me?” If I got married, I couldn’t be a counselor anymore. Not that dating leads to marriage in every case, but I loved my job, wasn’t about to talk about romantic affairs with my kids, and would use that fact to my advantage until the end of time.
“No, but you’re just so amazing. You deserve to be with the best guy in the world.”
She had only known me for a week and was only fourteen, but she believed that I could—should have the future that I wanted when I had all but given up on the idea.
She’s not the only one of my girls who has told me I deserve an amazing man. Most of my kids tried setting me up with another counselor while I worked there. Sometimes when we’re having genuine conversations, I hint that I’m not sure that will ever happen for me. In more personal relationships, I talk to teenage girls I’ve met in the writing community openly about how hopeless I feel every time I meet a man, especially one I like, because the ground always falls out from under my feet. Sometimes teenage girls ask if I’m getting married and I tell them definitely not anytime soon.
Their answers are always the same. “Don’t worry. Your time will come.”
My dreams are not only a possibility to teenage girls, they are inevitable.
But what if they’re not? What if my time never comes? I want to be loved, but I have so many reasons to believe that will never happen. It is strange being a girl of faith, a girl whose life revolves around believing in God and knowing He is real even when things are bad, but having no faith in yourself. It is strange believing in a God who created love and hope and joy and also believing none of those things were meant for you.
These fears always live in the back of my mind when I talk to these girls about our hopes and dreams. But for even half a second, I believe them. I see what they see: I am beautiful and amazing and deserve to be loved, and that’s enough.
I understand that it’s a naive perspective, and that so much more is required for me to have the happiness that I want for myself. But there is beauty in that naivete. Because don’t I deserve it? And absolutely why not? Why shouldn’t it be possible?
Taylor Swift’s “august” is a song about a teenage girl recently heartbroken after finishing a summer fling with a boy she loved who didn’t love her. In one of the most popular parts of the song, she sings, “For me, it was enough to live for the hope of it all.” That is the most teenage girl thing I have ever heard. To teenage girls, hope isn’t waiting for tomorrow. Hope is just enough.
On days when I don’t feel pretty, I ought to remember all the teenage girls who have said otherwise (“it’s giving Euphoria,” they’d say when I wore glitter makeup). I ought to remember that if I don’t believe I’m beautiful, they might lose faith in their own beauty, which would be the world’s greatest crime because they are the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen.
When I can’t believe in love, I believe in them, and that makes me believe in love, makes me believe it can belong to me, even in moments when that shouldn’t be plausible, even in moments when I know it is not. I believe in love because they believe in it. They believe in me.
Teenage girls are hopeful, not because something’s going to happen—but because it might. That is enough for them to live life like they’re the main character of the movie, the princess of the fairy tale. Teenage girls own the world because, well, who’s to say they can’t?
I still feel like I’m in the part of the fairy tale where it seems like there’s no way the heroine is making it out of her situation. Most days, I’m pretty sure my story is a tragedy and nothing more. But when I look at teenage girls, I see a lust for life that is stronger than the fiercest hate in the world, a passion that can build an impossible dream and make it a reality in seconds. That gives me enough strength to just for a moment live for the hope of it all.
By Elizabeth Day
Elizabeth Day is an author, poet, blogger, and playwright from Las Vegas, Nevada. Her work has been featured in The Just Girl Project, Empyrean Literary Magazine, Contemporary Jo, Hey Young Writer, and Fterota Logia. She is a student at Southern Utah University studying English education with a creative writing emphasis and double minors in theater and film. You can find her on Instagram @itsanadventur.
I think about that
I think about you
And I’m scared to forget
I didn’t like
The young men,
But I liked
You.
Did you even know?
Sometimes I wonder if
Loving you
Enough would have saved you.
But honestly,
I hope not.
Because if it could have,
How will I be able to live
With that?
By Ali-Reza Asadollahi
"Nothing special about him."
هرسو شبست، اما پدیدارم
در دست خورشیدست افسارم
دل: شبزده، دل: سسترگ، دل: هیچ
هم، دل گنهکارست پندارم
با اینهمه، چشمم به سوی اوست
چون نیست با جز او سر و کارم
بیدست و پا تا بارگاه اوج
ناچارم و لغزیدنی دارم
زندانیِ تکرارم، اما داد:
جوش سحر، عمرِ دگربارم
By Rehan Ahmad Khan
Rehan is 16 years old and lives in the UAE, he is interested in Sufism, linguistics, History, Politics and Philosophy.
"Be free, liberate yourself from these shackles,
How many glances will you pierce your heart with?
For this “love” is but a mirage,
You effortlessly flee from one gaol fleeing to another,
You fantasize absurdities,
Separation is inundating but be patient,
For, reunion is soon to come."
By Rehan Ahmad Khan
Rehan is a 16 year old living in UAE interested in Sufism, History, Politics, Linguistics and Philosophy.
THE MOUNTAIN OF LIGHT IN ELDORADO
Duke Minkovich: Treasure Hunter and Archaeologist
Rehan Khan: Rezonaتor bin غandar Al Marnan: Linguist and Historian
NARRATOR: On 22th September, 2023 the world was left utterly flabbergasted at the riveting discovery that the diamond on the British Crown was in fact, not the Kohinoor but a spurious simulacra of it! Treasure hunters from all over the world mobilized to grasp the efauldance of the bonafide Kohinoor *Rehan and Aayan enter*. This is where the story of linguist and historian Rezonater bin Ghander Al Marnan and Archaeologist and treasure hunter Duke Minkovich Denkovich begins. The duo had been on a long quest to discover the golden light exuded from the city of El Dorado for what seemed like millenia. Then they found something which left them in a state of utter shock and stupor.
Scene: Library
Duke: Hey Rezo! Look what I found!.
Rezonator: What happened?
Duke: I found this text dated to 1739. Can you please translate it?
Rezonator: Ok, *starts reading*
"Chu Aftab i Muneer ke Tuloo o Gharb Mi konad
Kohinoor az Hindustan ta eldorado Mi Ravad"
Rezonator: *Gets Shocked* it states:
"Like the illuminating sun that rises and sets
Kohinoor from Hindustan to Eldorado went"
Duke: What!
Rezonator: Look! It even has a map!
Duke: Let's go then and bring it back to India!
Rezonator: Come on!
*Both Duke and Rezo leave*
Setting: Forest
*Duke and Rezonator walk*
Rezonator: Let's go! I see some buildings!
*Rezo and Duke excitedly run*
Setting: Decrepit old city
Rezo: *Confused* Is this meant to be the Great City? I see no gold!
Duke: Leave it, the gold must have rusted
Rezo: But…But gold doesn't ru-
Duke: Keep quiet! You speak too much!
Rezo: *looks somewhere else* Hey! *runs and takes the diamond*
I have found it! Finally!
Duke: (ecstatic) Finally the diamond is going to return to its homeland!
*Rezo and Duke leave*
Setting: Forest
Rezo: Duke! I had too much Hajmola, I need to relieve myself!
Duke: Ok, take your time!
*Rezo leaves*
*Villain enters with a knife*
Villain: I have been following you for a long time! I can't believe you found it! Now give me the diamond!
Duke: Never!
*Duke thrusts at villain, knife falls down, villain and Duke fight*
*Duke gets thrown down, villain is about to knock out Duke*
*Rezo enters and slaps villain and stabs him*
*Villain dies*
Rezo: Let's get out of here!
*Duke and Rezo leave*
Setting: Office of Indian Official
Duke: Sir, we have finally found it! *gives diamond to Officer*
Officer: *Sees "diamond" and gets infuriated* IS THIS A JOKE?! I THOUGHT YOU WOULD GIVE THE KOHINOOR BUT INSTEAD YOU HAVE GIVE ME A SHARD OF GLASS?!
*Duke and Rezo look at each other confused*
Rezo: But…But-
Officer: I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYTHING! GET OUT OF HERE!
Duke: REZO HOW CAN YOU JUST PICK UP GLASS FROM THE GROUND AND SAY IT IS A DIAMOND?!
Rezo: CONFIRMATION BIAS!
*OFFICER TAKES BELT AND CHASES DUKE AND REZO OUT*
Poem:
My beloved friends, life is such,
For fake purposes fools go search.
They desire to find Eldorado
But to an ugly city they go.
When they are disappointed,
They say: "the gold has rusted!"
No, no, unmistakably this not true,
Glass can never equal the Kohinoor!
THE END
By Zarang Rahimi
Zarang loves to write and read poetry, his poetry covers mainly love and religious-inspired themes.
They have found their beloved in the unknown, but me.
Why is the sweet beloved, who’s everywhere, not shown to me?
My heretic mind has thrown its worries and doubts from me.
Is the only saviour my touching the black stone, for me?
Is the beloved not everywhere, like a neighbour to me?
Then, why does this loud silence still feel so alone, to me?
Even the false hermit has seen his sweet beloved, but me.
Will his forgotten grave be like his shiny throne, to me?
How am I so lost, how has my clear path parted from me?
Whose path ought I to follow, except my own, to me?
Do I not bow to my beloved, is it not like the sun to me?
When will my beloved bless my heart and make it known to me?
By Candilla
Candilla is a poet from Earth; who is fond of reading, writing and history.
Someday's I think of you
Are you happy?
Are you well?
I think of the moments we spend together
We were happy
You made me happy
I wonder
Do you think of me?
Our moments together
Do you?
You came in my life
You made my life happier
You left so suddenly
Never came back
I didn't realise the goodbye I said that day,
would be the last
I wish I could talk to you again
Just like those days in the past
But I guess it's not possible
By Lydia Pearson
Lydia is a Dyspraxic 20-year-old Lancaster University student. They are a cashier, tutor and volunteer as well as a writer. They’ve been published by Masque and Spectacle, Literary Yard, CafeLit, Scarlet Dragonfly Journal, Ardent Lies Journal, and Quail Bell Magazine. They’ve had poetry published in Because Mental Health’s Magazine and Queer Yoga North’s Freedom Booklet. They've written social media posts for Mental Health Notebook and Because Mental Health.
They have been writing on AO3 for five years. They’ve performed their poetry at several Open Mic Nights. They are an auntie, daughter, partner and sister. They aspire to be a professionally published writer, foster carer, parent and qualified English tutor one day. They like to listen to music, read, learn new things and spend time in nature in their spare time. They also have their own radio show at Bailrigg FM, called Wired Different.
Just because the photo was a blur,
it doesn't mean it was never taken.
Just because I couldn't see the full picture,
it doesn't mean my heart was yours for breaking.
Being trapped in a dusty dark room
is the closest I've been to lying in a coffin.
Being trapped in the floundering tomb
of the relationship that suffocated me so often.
Developing those polaroids, devoid of love,
drove me up one the walls slowly closing me in.
Developing those polaroids, I saw after long enough,
beneath an angel's mask, sat a sneering devil's grin.
I shook the photo, yet you only lost your appeal.
Light through the dark blinded me to what was real.
I shook the photo, yet could only see piercing eyes,
of an icy, soul-sucking vampire purely peddling lies.
The photos morphed in front of me, showing you
as the Queen and King of an endless chess game.
The photos morphed in front of me, showing the true
colours of us, red splattered across frame by frame.
I tried to blossom into a flower you'd pick, vying,
but you had a field of flowers in your garden, dying.
I tried to give you a love like the sea in moonlight,
but a pond can't transform into an ocean overnight.
These picturesque beauties could never be captured
by a camera, dissolving into nothing, breaking up.
Photographs of a xerox of a person enraptured,
just as much as they were trapped undercut
it all-and if I should fall-a hole, very dark, yes,
a click-one I've dug for myself-that blue dress-
-a blinding flash-your cold blooded hand in mine-
times I won't miss, yes-stepping away was divine.
A ghost lingers over the old moments,
time crinkling like paper. I'm mourning who I was.
Grieving for you, this funeral poem is not meant;
I'm mourning the part of me that died. Pause.
Let's rewind to a better time before you came,
take a video tape, not a camera, reel the film back.
Your footsteps taint my map; I'll never be the same.
Good, there's no beach pics-home. Can't take that.
I try to throw the photos but they writhe in wrath,
return every time. You spread your fire more easily,
as is to be expected. Mine depict the honest truth.
Not edited like yours, re framed in the wrong light.
Despite the glaring snapshots, I'll keep on living
while you're dead and buried, worm meat in my mind.
I believe that there's a name for people of your kind.
A flashback-I remember now. Such shame, regret.
They're called abusers. Don't you ever forget.
By Sophia
Sophia is an emerging writer in the sense that she's really only begun to understand her words now. Her works are published or forthcoming in The Expressionist, Moonbow Magazine, and more. In her spare time, she's also an avid reader, mostly concerning works from the modern literary genre, and a lover of cup noodles.
I did not believe in love before you taught
me to skin it first. Truth is there is no
other place where I could have collided
with tissue, orbited fissure as I did between
red and blue wires. Outside drills blacken
by the minute, piercing the rust-marble
canyons as history hemorrhages gently.
Here: I rip my hands from pores that glisten
like seeds on flesh, turn my head
and bite the keratin of the comb
I rake through my father’s boyhood–
fisting into pane after pane of sugar-glass
to flower-press your sister’s birth and
the way your mother clung to you
(a half-fluttering thing of sun-cracked baggage)
before you were swallowed by roaring
Americana–straight into the pages of her favorite novel.
The 20th-century wrings your bad poetry to
rice-paper along a clothesline, snaps rubbery limbs
far into the Mediterranean mouth where you met her.
Heritage arrives faster in hazy salt-clots then it caves
to one girl’s will. Truth is my ribcage takes up too
much negative space, accumulates Seoul’s
surface rubble up to the knees in seconds.
Yet on what moon it does not matter—
greater forces will bear down on me soon, say this one
knew something about loving. i’ll fuse
the bone-colored ceilings to my hip,
language to frozen syntax, decrescendo down to
the ivy-teeth of the motherland beneath us.
I crawl into the meat of it and wait for it to
tear me apart again: so long as I can remember
what it was like before the nerves started
splitting.
By Cassie Makaela
Cassie is a kind and dedicated young writer whose writing has a focus on teen relationships and mental health. She is working towards potentially starting a blog and/or publishing her first poetry book within the next year or two. You can find more of her poetry @cassie.m.poetry on Instagram.
i've always known i was half empty.
call me a pessimist,
i was raised on a lack of love.
little did i know,
you were more empty than i.
like a jar that's been sitting empty for weeks,
you were so empty your dust
tickled my cheeks,
each time you leaned in
to try and take a little from me.
i thought love was romantic,
well isn't that dramatic.
it is romantic.
but not with you.
see,
i wanted to fill your mind with affirmation,
i planned to fill your heart with my love.
but you were so empty you didn't even remember
what it was to be filled.
so as you reached for my thigh,
you just wanted skin.
you never wanted to love me,
hell,
you didn't even know what love was anymore.
now i sit emptier than before,
feeling a little like a whore.
because i gave my body,
to someone who wanted just that.
all along though,
i was giving my body,
to someone who i thought loved me for my mind.
i sat in false hope,
that it was just a 'honeymoon phase'
that one day,
you would fill my cup,
and allowing you to drain it would all be worth it.
but now I know,
it was never going to end like that.
after all, how could you pour from a bone-dry glass?
By Claudia Wysocky
Claudia Wysocky, a Polish writer and poet based in New York, is known for her diverse literary creations, including fiction and poetry. Her poems, such as "Stargazing Love" and "Heaven and Hell," reflect her ability to capture the beauty of life through rich descriptions. Besides poetry, she authored "All Up in Smoke," published by "Anxiety Press." With over five years of writing experience, Claudia's work has been featured in local newspapers, magazines, and even literary journals like WordCityLit and Lothlorien Poetry Journal. Her writing is powered by her belief in art's potential to inspire positive change. Claudia also shares her personal journey and love for writing on her own blog, and she expresses her literary talent as an immigrant raised in post-communism Poland.
“The River”
There is a river in my dreams and in my dreams,
it is more than a river—
it is a place where I can go to put my problems,
where I can put my pain, where I can put my fears.
In my dreams, it is a place where my dead relatives are gathered,
where my dead friends are playing, where my dead pets are waiting—
waiting for me to join them, their lives over while mine goes on and on.
I see their faces and I remember their names and I know that they are not waiting for me,
but they are waiting for me to come to them, to come to the river.
The river is where I can see my mother in a bottle of water, my
grandmother in a bottle of nail polish, my aunt in a bottle of perfume, my
grandfather in a bottle of beer, my sister in a bottle of soda, my best friend in a
bottle of juice.
I can see their smiles and I can hear their voices, calling
for me to join them and finally be at peace.
And when I wake, I know that
the river is just a river and that the people are just people
and that the dreams are just dreams,
but one day I will sleep again, and I will dream of the
river and I will dream of the people and I will dream of
the dreams, and when I wake, I will know that they are
just dreams and I am just a man, but I will still hear their
calls, insisting that I join them, and they will be there,
waiting for me to come to the river.
I am always dozing off, but I will not wake to the river.
I am always waking to a world that is broken and a country that is falling
apart.
Anemone
“Anemone”
His hands smell of anemone and mushrooms
on a spring morning.
The sea is as flat as he is silent.
He’s a man who deals with silence and water, with
the weight of the stones in his pockets.
The tide has just begun to come back in, and he’s on the beach,
walking toward the town where I live alone, taking pictures of angles
and shadows that look like things they aren’t.
There are no waves at this time of day; there is only him.
I pretend that he is my father and I am his daughter.
I pretend that I have never been kissed.
I think about the way that he walks, and how he smells like my mother’s garden
in the summertime, before it was taken away from her by the wind.
“Health and Safety”
There have been plenty of times when I had to fight for my life.
Sometimes it was for my "health and safety",
sometimes for happiness.
I fought for what I could not bear to lose,
but I lost all the same. I can still recall the taste of all
those defeats, as bitter as unripe plums.
I remember the time that I thought I would die of thirst.
I wasn’t even sure what dying meant, but I was so, so thirsty.
I remember the blood that ran down my wrist,
like the blood that runs down the wrist
of a girl who has cut herself with a razor blade
and stares at her own reflection in the mirror.
Perhaps that is why I am as I am:
I have seen my death; I have seen it, and it was nothing.
By Olivia Carter-Stanley
Olivia is a 14 year old young poet, writing whatever thought comes to mind and is very heavily inspired by Emily Dickinson. She wishes to inspire people with her work.
Good for a soul - life a beam.
Good for a smile. An end of a dream!
Not anymore, a need to scream.
Turn a way, esteem.
Where once a light - now curved as bight.
Or good for some hope?
Is night better than light?
Good for, good for your heart.
By Theresa Walker
Theresa Walker is an aspiring poetry and prose writer from North York, Ontario with a dream of becoming an acclaimed author. Fueled by a lifelong love for storytelling, she has been creating her own stories since before the age of 5 and has since dedicated years of her life crafting and submitting her works to a number of literary magazines. Her works have previously featured in the Kingston Ontario Juvenis Festival’s “Time” Anthology project, the Wingless Dreamers’ “Writers of Tomorrow” and “Black Haven Dark Poetry” Issues and Moida Magazine’s “Culture” issue. While most of her current publications consist of literary fiction prose and poetry, she is interested in developing novels and crafting genre fiction pieces. Overall, her only wish is to one day get the chance to share her voice with the world.
A warm breeze blew that sunny spring afternoon, causing the loose hairs that had escaped the girl’s ponytail sway, every so often tickling her cheek. As she walked down the street a dandelion fluff appeared floating before her; she loved chasing fluffs.
The routine began as it always did. The fluff would arrive on the spring air and pass before her, sometimes even being so bold as to lightly brush her face. The girl would then strike out her hand in an attempt to snatch it from the air, but as always it evaded her. The first few attempts would be aggressively frantic, but soon the two would find a rhythm with one another.
When the wind blew stronger, causing the fluff to race down the street more quickly, she would sprint after it. The fluff acted as if performing calculated moves, drifting forward and back, swaying side to side, and the girl just followed suit. When a hitch in the breeze caused the fluff to leap up higher, the girl leapt right along with it. Those times the wind would change direction, the fluff quickly moving behind her, the girl would twirl around and all the time the smile would never leave her face. The two moved so in sync it was as though they had silently choreographed their own dance, so full of delicate grace even the best ballet dancers would have shed a tear.
As she pranced and twirled down the street, she sometimes wondered why she loved chasing fluffs so much. She had already begun secondary school, a teenager she was, too old to be enjoying such things. As well she was too old to believe this fluff was more than just the result of a dandelion shedding. For no teen would possibly still believe catching the fluff would actually grant her heart’s desire, nor would they believe the delicate floating object to be a tiny fairy, beckoning her to follow. No, of course this could not be true, though why not? Why should she believe this fluff had no reason to come to her this day? Perhaps it was just as bored as she and thought they could find amusement in each other; this could be the case. Why should people stop believing in fairy tales and magic? Why must only little children be the ones allowed to dream? As she wondered this, she continued to follow the fluff, for something so small it was like a beacon guiding her, to where she knew not.
Following after the tiny dancer she felt even more like a child, not only that but she felt lighter than she had in years. As she pounced after it the weight of her home life first melted away from her and she vaulted higher as she reached up for it. Then soon, the stresses of school blew away with the breeze and she leapt higher still. One by one her problems lifted off of her until she felt as if she was flying right there alongside it with each bound. A wave of happiness washed over her, and she never wanted this moment to end.
The further she went and the more she ran and jumped the more it taunted her, sometimes going as low as brushing her thin, graceful fingertips arrogantly before bouncing back up out of their reach. Even as she began to tire, she did not give up. She began to pant, sometimes so much so that it was she who would cause the fragile fragment to blow beyond her span; her golden tendrils of hair burst out of their restraint and flowed around her, encircling her face in a shining mane. Soon her face dripped with sweat, her arms grew heavy, and her swats required more effort, but still she remained resilient; and still her grace knew no bounds.
She still laughed and giggled, in her own little world. It was not until the horn blared that she noticed she had stepped right off of the curb and onto the road. But the warning came too late…
The car struck her with a sickening crunch, and she lay there on the ground, her body splayed out as if welcoming what came next. Her hair encircled her head like a halo, and she looked just as angelic and full of grace as before. Though she could not move, her breaths becoming shallow, she never lost the smile on her face. For as she lay there, the cold creeping in, she still felt the lightness of all the weight that had left her. As her vision was consumed by the darkness, she saw what looked like a fluff dancing across it; soon more and more appeared until the darkness was filled with them. As her life slowly faded away from her, she realized she had never felt so calm. She was the happiest she had ever been.
By Elizabeth M.M.L. Ku
Elizabeth M.M.L. Ku is a songwriter, poet, and creative fiction author who is working on obtaining a Bachelor's in Mechanical Engineering and a Minor in Creative Writing. The Nevada native has earned accolades from the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards, L. Ron Hubbard's WOTF, Little Infinite, and the Letters to Home Collection. Currently, she is the Head of Marketing for Peiskos Literary Magazine, a Poetry Judge for TLHC, and a member of her university's off-road racing team.
Unpublished Secrets
Take these stories to my grave
Idealistic heroes couldn't save
my musky pages drowning in the flood
A coward’s sealed lips aren't brave
Grudges stay alive, but I forgave
murderers who's stabbed me in cold blood
Shrunken hearts echo volumes
Sunken stomachs, shrinking vacuums
Acid rain pitter patters from my throat
Buskin masks, chromatic costumes
Secrets buried in my theater’s classroom
Told in drunken slurs and foul breaths
When my lungs exhale one last time
Everyone will hear the poet’s rhymes
Published to expose all their crimes
Morning Cravings
Your chiffon fingers weave around my waist,
clenching like a corset to support my frame
Your name tastes like honeydew, leaving my lips
stained blue, oxygen-deprived, hungry for you
Morning birds crave your raspy symphonies to
fuel their cacophonous coos, you are the view
I awaken to every dusk: a hazel cowlick bathed
in the window’s kaleidoscopes, but your pearls
blaze brighter. Your skin’s like fire against mine,
wafting last night's sandalwood incense. Hoarse
utters, like scraping wood, beg for five minutes
Cherry hued cheeks and starry eyes; I surrender
By Bailee Timmons
Bailee is a 15-year-old NYC-based poet who writes about mental health, her experiences with psychology, and nature. Her main goal is to express what and especially why something is weighing on her mind.
everyday i wake up
and see the fierce glitter of the sun
and it reminds me
of the angry spots on your face
everyday i go to sleep
and i pray i dream
about our conversations,
how you exist beside me
there is no one that i am
besides you
in my future, i see
the tides flipping seasons
the summers crying
nostalgic tears
they, like i,
miss the days
where we were free
i hope the rain
finally falls
so i can think
of how we talk
so we can speak
whenever,
however you'd ever want us to
By Cooper Brumfield
Cooper Brumfield is a 17 year old writer from MS, he is in his junior year at the Mississippi School of the Arts where he is a part of their literary arts department. He is a triple gold key award winning writer who specializes in playwriting and poetry.
The piece “sincerely yours” is used as a muse through the eyes of introspective ordinance and attempts to help explain suffering through the eyes of those who do not wish to understand it, only be rid of it. It is a second person short story formatted in a chronological format both artistically and stylistically.
you’ll be 9 when you first notice him, that guy who every girl says they have a crush on, not because they actually do, but because “that’s what girls are supposed to do.” and you’ll start to play football with him because that’s what boys are supposed to do, you’ll tell yourself that you don’t like him, instead you just really want to be his friend, be near him, be like him. “boys can’t like boys” you’ll tell yourself, and you will keep playing football every day, even though you realized you hated it a long time ago.
you’ll be 17 when you meet him, that guy that makes your stomach churn when he says your name, the guy that makes you feel nervous when he asks to hang out. it will be with him where you hear that word again, the one your dad used when you said you didn’t want to get a haircut the summer after freshman year. that one you heard your friend say in the fifth grade after his mom let it slip one night, she’ll tell him never to repeat it, yet all it will do is give him an incentive for him to use it more. you will have thought about saying it, but you never do, not because you didn’t want to offend anyone, but you’ll be scared that once it leaves the confines of your mind it will become more than just a thought. “please check for monsters” almost as if once it crawls out of your lips it will wrap its arms around you and sink its teeth into your back.
you’ll be 18 when he kisses you for the first time, you’ll feel a shock go down your body, it’ll resonate at your feet but it won’t leave you. and you’ll fall in love then and there, and none of it matters. you’ll get out of his shitty 2004 corolla that you’ve spent countless hours in. you’ll walk up your front lawn in silence, and he’ll follow you, not because he feels like he has to, but because you know he now loves you too.
it will be that night when you leave him on your patio,
it will be that night when you slam the door in his face as you force down muffled sobs,
and it will be that night where you say that word for the first time.
you’ll be 23 when you finish your fifth year and graduate college, “a victory lap” your parents will say at their dinner parties and at their church luncheons. you’ll sit alone in your room after each of these events and stare at the business bachelors hanging neatly on your wall, each word neatly printed in ink and signed hastily by a dean that wouldn’t know your name until he signed it on a degree. you’ll come back home from college and start a job you never feel the need to mention. “did i get to be a fireman?” you will sit alone at your cubicle one evening, hours after you were allowed to leave, the woman to your left will ask you out for drinks on a whim, you will agree and have a night like any other, not quite good, but not quite bad. you will marry her six months later.
you’ll be 24 when you start taking pills. you’ll hate taking them the first time, you’ll hate it the second, the third, and the fourth. you’ll do it time after time and you’ll hate it more than the last, yet nothing will feel worse than the feeling of not having them.
you’ll be 29 when you get a divorce, most people will know you’re different by then, know that you are sick. you will go to a bar one night and think about why you married her in the first place, you will realize after your fifth drink that she was just proof. proof that you were normal, and you will realize after your sixth drink that it wasn’t proof for your parents, or your coworkers, but proof for you. because you realize after your eighth drink you realize in the end, that’s all you care about.
you’ll be 31 when you realize your parents are like the pills you take, not just in the fact that you hate them, but in the fact that you’d rather spend the rest of your life with them than have to imagine a day when they are no longer there, so you’ll go to the dinner parties, the picnics, and to church every sunday. one morning after church you’ll take a few pills in a bathroom stall and sit against the wall and stare at your hands. you’ll run the tips of your dried out fingertips across the indentions in your palms and realize that the pills aren’t working. and you will stay in that stall for the next hour, it will be in that very bathroom where you put your head in your hands and you realize that it’s too late for you, far earlier than it actually was.
you’ll be 39 when dad dies, you’ll take the day off from work, you’ll drive to the church and sit in the back of the chapel. your mom will text you after the funeral in hysterics asking you where you were, and you will apologize to her, time after time, you will explain that work kept you later than you thought and that you would see her soon.“happy fathers day,” that night you will put on dad’s old jacket, you’ll strip off your shirt and the bandages,and you’ll navigate it gently over your arms that’s poked full of holes,”I always hated bees,” you'll look in the mirror and you will begin to weep, even though that isn’t what boys do.
you’ll be 42 when you stop answering calls, your phone will begin to collect dust the same way your diploma did, “I don’t like to clean my room” once hanging up on your wall in your old room at moms house, now sits at the bottom of a halfway unpacked box in the corner of your apartment, by the time you’re 43 you will have had your own place for almost 5 years, and still that box will sit in the corner, halfway unpacked.
you’ll be 51 when mom dies, “she lost a great battle” the lawyer at the reading will tell you, “don’t be a sore loser” as if the acknowledgment of a prolonged struggle would serve as enough substance to convey any kind of remorse, especially since the remorse was not one of genuine nature. however it will prove that mom won’t be the only casualty, a bank account once filled by life insurance from the passing of your father will have been left to crumbs as hands of medical greed swipe it away. Radiation, hospital stays, chemotherapy, you will feel annoyance followed by a stab of guilt, the cheap carpet rubbing at your shoes as you bite your lip in frustration at the miniscule amount left in your name. however your interest will peak when he hands you over a small cardboard box. you will look into it, walking out of the office that evening you will have wished you never did. getting home you will open the small box your mother left you, and you will grab the unlabeled empty pill bottle from inside. you’ll learn to hate her for it, for ignoring, for leaving you to bask in the filth of the life that was laid out for you.
“i think i’m lost”
you took the wrong path, but how could you not, it was so well worn. a path worn from your father, your father’s father, and the father of his father, a path taken so many times that there was no way it couldn’t have been the way you were supposed to go.
you’ll have just turned 52 when you check into rehab, you won’t remember why you did, you will only be able to feel the walls collapse on you as you beg for a freedom which could never be achieved by walking out of the facility doors. you will sit alone in a room for two days, yet it was there that you will realize you had been alone for a lot longer.
you will begin to eat again, sleep in longer increments than you thought was possible. you'll begin to read again, you will find your favorite spot under a sycamore tree in the courtyard where you will spend most of your time reading. you will sit at every support group and do every exercise they give you, you won’t remember why you started but you will remember why you finished. you meet eyes with him a few months in from across the cafeteria during dinner, his shoulder length graying hair and his goatee that hugs his chin and leaves it glimmering like silver will be what you notice first. he’ll have round glasses that make his eyes appear larger than they actually are and a stature so skinny it looks as if he is about to snap in half. he will approach you and say his name is arlo. you will sit in bed that night and look at the cracks in the ceiling, you will realize at that moment that you can not sit and stare at your wounds forever. the next morning you’ll take Arlo to read with you under the sycamore tree.
you will be 71 when you decide to wake up early and watch the sun rise, your footsteps will be drowned out by the sound of arlo’s snores as you leave the room. you will sit on the front steps of your patio, the morning wind brushing against your aged skin. the first rays of morning sunlight will begin to touch down on the winding hills that sit in front of you. you will grab the notebook at your side and uncap the pen that’s tucked inside it, you will take a moment and begin to write a letter, you won’t address it to anyone, the person who it’s for will already know everything that happens.
By Pheobe B.H. Mercury
"People often betray themselves unknowingly."
Phoebe B.H Mercury is a young writer and poet, who enjoys creating a plethora of stories with unique themes and controversial characters.
Most of the subjects they choose to write about are linked to psychology, therefore a lot of their works are about the deep desires of the average human.
They possess a great set of skills such as: creativity, open-mindedness and high intuition.
Hedgehog
People have one spinal cord, yet,
many have turned their backs on themselves.
Closed their eyes, doubled their senses,
doubled their conscience,
and stabbed the caesar that led them.
23 times.
23 knives in the same body part.
And they walk with them each day,
like a hedgehog on a death row.
And they wonder:”What is wrong?”
“Why does my back hurt?”
“Why in the mirror, there, far away,
is not a caesar standing, but an animal with back aches?”
But to see the sun is hard,
when your spinal cord is stabbed.
One rise of the head and the hedgehog will see,
the one and only antidote to his misery.
For now, he keeps his head in the ground,
ashamed of himself, asking: “Why?”.
And he can't notice, but his steps,
make a red shaded trail, that colour his regrets.
He can't see it, but the others can,
so does the sun, so does his spine.
By Ahmad Morid
Ahmad Morid is a 17 year old self taught poet and artist, his hobbies include writing, drawing, reading, watching movies etc. his work can be found in, malu zine, moobow etc.
"I have challenged myself to write more in my native language (Persian/dari). And this is one of the pieces I'm proud of"
بیابان که از قلب های خالی ساخته شده است، خانه من است.
هر ریگ آن تاریکی سیاه چل را دارد و هیچ چاره گریز نیست
موزه هایم پر از دروغ های خشک است و من مریض هستم
چشم هایم حوصله باز ماندن را ندارد
دهن من آخرین اخباری حالت من را ارایه میکند
و من آهسته و آهسته غرق میشم
ضد این جال های عنکبوت نمیجنگم
همرای مرگ خود صلح پیدا کردم
هر کشش نفس من را خوش میسازد
اولین بار من که این عاطفه را احساس کردم
میگم کشش استاد می شود
و من در بین برزخ آویزان شدم
امتحان خداوند متاسفانه ادامه دارد
و فکر من هر کلمه را مطالعه میکند که راه خلاصی یافت کند
Translation:
Barzakh: between life and death
The desert made from empty hearts is my home
Every grain of its sand, the darkness of black holes and there is no way to escape
My boots are filled with dry lies and I'm sick
My eyes don't have the patience to stay open
My mouth is relaying the latest news from my condition
And I'm slowly drowning
I won't fight back against these spiderwebs
I have found peace with my death
Each pull makes my soul happy
The first time I've felt this emotion
But the pulling stops
And I'm being hung from the barzakh
The test of god is continuing unfortunately
And my thoughts will the study every word to find a way to end this
By Jedidiah Vinzon
Jedidiah Vinzon is studying physics at the University of Auckland. His works can be read in orangepeel, Tarot and badapple, among others, with many more forthcoming. In his free time, he enjoys listening to and writing music, reading fantasy, and taking walks in the park. You can find him on Instagram @jayv.poetry
neon-esque glow smearing the cement sea
in the train station by moonlight
the red, orange, green palette
the crisp crack of rain
along the track
the collection of storm
wading in the cusp of the pavement
the city resisting under umbrellas
wanting to let go –
birds on restraint
but come the wind
the rain makes one of us all.
By Kaelynn Gray
kaelynn is an incoming student at boston university (and hopeful english minor) who has rediscovered the art of writing as a better pastime than preparing for ib exams.
you walk on a land older than your own
generations of carob trees hug
your fragility in remembrance
you think in memory
of when you lost a star
in your sorrowful eye
but it is still shining through you
the rain falls to cool where you ache
the soil softens to consume your naivety
mountains will shield you from this
heat in a world past the calypso deep
you’ll stay on this cliff until
your body turns to stone
a recollection of
when you knew nothing in a forest
of fig though you are a wishful sapling
surrounded by dreams you mourn
your vibrancy is a reminder
i will nurture your path
in your foreign solace
i lose myself to something reflective
at the thought of your absence
in your reluctant starlight
By Uroosa Nisar
Uroosa Nisar weaves words like threads of emotion, crafting poetry that resonates with the soul. Her verses are an intimate exploration of the human experience, capturing moments of love, loss, and resilience with profound sensitivity. Her poem "Move On" has been selected for an anthology, "Hidden Treasures.". Through her poetry, she seeks to illuminate the beauty and complexity of the human spirit, offering solace and inspiration to all who encounter her poetry.
I am the modern beggar
Strolling in the streets with dangling rubbish thoughts
But believe me
I will never ask for a single penny
To fulfill my hunger
I will never ask for your mercy
Because you don't even have for yourself
I will never ask for your precious moment
Even to glance into my brown, bloody eyes
I will never ask for your sympathetic words
To console my wizened wounds
That mastered the artistry of loneliness
I will never ask for the light
Because it's my journey to investigate the demons of darkness
I will BEG
Yes,
I will only BEG
For a hammer to crush my haunted hallucinations
That is gradually and often suddenly chewing my happy moments
With resources of acidic fear
"WHAT IF, IT WILL ALSO MEET THE ANGEL OF DEATH
AND WILL BURY IN QUAGMIRE OF CEMETERY"
By Sage Goldman
Sage is a new writer from South Africa, she is 17 and has been writing for years but has only recently started displaying her writing to the public. While she hopes to one day be a published author, she is currently stuck to the confines of the English classroom to develop stories. Overall, Sage wants to write a novel one day and possibly even be a screenwriter.
There were once two trees in a forest, each had grown from separate seeds blown in the wind.
The one tree had lush green leaves but multiple marks on its trunk showing great torment, the bark was soft with certain rough edges mimicking human skin of self-inflicted pain.
This tree was blown through a storm when it was a seed.
The other tree had broken branches from supporting so many nests of birds who came and went, it had an opening where a blue-jay once resided. This blue-jay caused much harm to the tree only to realize it wasn’t the tree the blue-jay was looking for.
This tree was blown through a soft wind which occasionally had stormy weather when it was a seed.
The seeds were placed next to each other by the wind and the seeds each wished for different things.
The one seed had hoped for less lightning while being carried before it sprouted; the other seed had hoped for more caring rain while being carried before it sprouted.
As they began to flower and grow, they continued to wish for different things.
The one sapling had hoped for more care and compassion, the other sapling had hoped for longer love.
When each was a mature tree, not yet developing into the large maples they would become, they each wished for things, but the wishes became similar.
The one tree had hoped it wouldn't become a wide tree that could not be hugged by passers by and wouldn't grow old enough to develop more than thirteen rings in its core, the other tree had hoped it wouldn't have anymore birds sitting on its still developing branches and take leaves it worked hard on growing and wouldn't grow old enough to develop more than thirteen rings in its core.
While growing each tree had met one another due to rains and harsh winds, having years of being next to each other as they both fought different sides of the storms that would pass without knowing it. At this stage they had each developed sixteen rings. Each tree had parallel wishes.
The one tree hoped to be cared for and grow with the other tree, the other tree hoped to be loved and grow with the one tree.
As the years passed, the trees each grew into each other to become one. They no longer fought the winds and rough storms on their own, they each had each other to stop the fear of falling because their roots weren’t sewn into the ground how they were now.
They wanted to live and grow many rings, not just alone but together.
While birds still rested in nests among the branches and harsh weather came and went the trees knew one thing, they were certain of, they had the same wish.
The one tree wished they would spend eternity as one large maple tree merged with the other tree and the other tree wished the same.
They had suffered long enough, they wanted to give each other the peace they deserved.
They grew together and had many rings in their cores.
By Maxine D. Mangaoang
Maxine, known to her friends through her online moniker Cleo, is a poet, filmmaker, and multimedia arts major based in the Philippines. Her work is a mix of short freeform poetry and messy film focusing on vulnerability, girlhood, and empathy for human-ness. You may frequently see her daydreaming and obsessing over Cleo from 5 to 7.
I want so badly to love you—my darling land, my evergreen balded mountains, abused by the
very hands you labored to ¹make. I apologize I haven't gotten to kiss your spots that have only
been touched by the sun. You were so kind to welcome an impostor into your guerilla-filled
thickets, but I suffocate in the sharp silence of your urbanite town. I am not meant for a
soundless existence, mulling life over the neighbor's magnolias and marinating under the south
Luzon heat. I want so badly to love you, but
I rot into the slivers of your splintered stones. I am the myth you tell your grandchildren, stuck
between your quarried ²rocks, choking on my desperation to fight against the lonely fate of
staying
here, lingering
within a hard place and
time is so so slow and life is so so fast, I ache
to cut off my feet, place them onto your defiled soil. Oh, lamb of god.
offer of peace.
Montalban, Montalban
ang mahalin ka loving you
ay isang retrogression patungo is an act of retrogression towards
sa aking kamusmusan. my years of unknowing.
Pinanganak man ako sa I may have
been born
namomolestiyang ingay ng siyudad, in a city that
violates
dito naman ako mamamatay: I will, however, die
here:
sa ragasa ng iyong 4 dam beneath the currents of your dam of pity
na ipinangalan para sa mga kawawang named after ruthful souls
katulad ko.
like me.
By Damaris Estelí
Damaris Estelí is a 15 year old first generation Hispanic teen from Springfield, Illinois. When she's not reading or writing, she's watching cartoons, playing her four instruments, making art, listening to music, or playing with her two dogs: Bobo and Dandelion.
There's a sort of eerie comfort
To be found in a graveyard.
These are people.
These are stories already told.
These are stardust returned to the sky.
These are lives waiting to be forgotten.
These are the remnants
Of a merciless robbery.
These are the ones
That made the others the survivors.
These are delicate, porcelain artistry
Broken too swiftly.
These are baby bluebirds
Who never got the chance to sing.
These are singing bluebirds
Who never got the chance to be heard.
These are coins and loose change,
Dropped under the counter,
To some not worth the effort
Of reaching down to pick back up,
To others their entire livelihood,
Lost and gone and dead and buried.
These are waiters,
With an empty headstone beside them.
This was a best friend.
That one was a mother.
This one is soon to be forgotten.
That one felt invisible.
This was a fully lived life.
That one didn't live up
To the expectations put on them.
This one felt it grew far too much,
That one never got the chance.
These are stories
Never written down,
Now with only me here
To witness them.
I like to read their names.
I like to feel the crisp morning air,
As I walk in between overgrown weeds,
And sit
And watch.
Slow down
As stories are being begun, ended,
And written in the universe
I'm confined to.
I sit with those already told,
With the evidence
Of just how cruel the world
Has the capacity to be.
I brush my hand
Along the blackened stones,
And wonder how much time has passed,
How much time has to pass
Before some is fully and finally forgotten.
Before their monument
Of such prominence
Is left to rot
Alongside the corpse beneath it.
Before all that's left of them,
Their struggles, their successes,
Their hatred and their love,
Is nothing
But a slab of rock
So caked with dirt,
That their names are barely legible,
Some already reclaimed by nature,
Not able to be read at all.
How long will it take
Before that happens to me?
How long before the granite
Becomes all that is left,
The final remembrance of me?
If all that I am,
The only remains of my existence
In a hundred years from now,
Is a plot of dirt
Payed for, then left untended,
Was it even worth existing?
If not even my own name is left behind,
Did I ever exist at all?
So I read the names
(At least those which I still can).
I give the rot
A bit of themselves back.
I address the dirt
As the life that was given
To allow it to keep giving life.
I'm telling that soul
I see you,
I see the hole in the world
You left behind,
The gaping cavity you opened up
In someone else's heart
The day yours stopped beating.
That is the power names hold.
I'm a poet, you see,
And an author.
Names are in my realm of business,
And I use an awful lot of them.
Sure,
I could look up a list,
And carefully pluck a name
From among its empty options.
They pool up and overflow in my hands,
Leaving me with nothing
But the lingering whisper of a sensation
Saying something was once here.
Or I could go to the graveyard.
Pick a name
That has a life lived behind it,
A story written under it,
A name that means something to someone.
A name that won't evaporate
Once the final sentence is written.
Instead of weaving fresh yarn
Into a half-finished tapestry,
I find another half-finished tapestry,
And weave the two into a greater whole.
I hope someone reads it one day,
And is reminded
Of that one person they once knew,
And that alone
Will make it all worth it to me.
They'll point to a specific sloppy stitch
And laugh,
Saying I remember that.
You know,
I hope one day
Some young poet comes
And visits my graveyard,
And sees my name engraved there,
And weaves my tapestry into theirs,
To be found by the ones I leave behind.
I want to be among the graveyard names.
I don’t want to die,
But I accept I'm going to,
And if I must,
That's what I wish to be.
Stardust returned to the sky.
The final piece of a breathtaking tapestry.
Chosen from among the graveyard names.
By Kayla Giovanna Roven
Kayla Roven is an aspiring author that absolutely loves writing angsty pieces, that guarantee to pull on your heartstrings, and chocolate (although that might be a little unrelated).
Oh she is absolutely gorgeous, with her long smooth hair and her pretty eyes and— “What?” ..Wait did I say that out loud? As I looked beside me, Fletch looked at me like I just grew two heads. “Well.. I mean, it’s true, just look at her!” Instead of listening to me like how a best friend should, Fletch proceeded to lecture me about how ‘I shouldn’t be focusing on an opponents’ looks’, but hey, it’s not exactly my fault that he invited me to “observe” the other contestants.
Grazzia Steelsand, the coolest, the hottest, the most jaw—dropping girl that’s ever– WAIT, HOLD ON, uhh what I MEANT to say (or I guess think?) is the prettiest girl I’ve ever laid my eyes on. She’s about a foot taller than me, unfairly fit, and incredibly talented at sword-fighting. If you had told me I would develop a crush on a girl while training for the Hunger Games, I would’ve called the Capitol to pick up one of their delusional citizens.
Seriously though, you would think they would pick uglier people to be tributes in the Hunger Games. How will the audience ever move on when this gorgeous girl from District 5 dies? Personally, I would never kill such a pretty girl. Wait, knowing her, she’d probably win, which would solve that whole problem—
“Err, Fletch to Lhily, can we stop drooling over a contestant we just met and get back to training?” I immediately snapped my head towards Fletch, I completely forgot that he was right beside me!
By Kayla Giovanna Roven
Kayla Roven is an aspiring author that absolutely loves writing angsty pieces, that guarantee to pull on your heartstrings, and chocolate (although that might be a little unrelated).
The episode starts out in front of an unfamiliar location. A fast food restaurant. With the sounds of car horns and traffic. The sounds of slow pattering rain against the windows. The bustling noises of a busy restaurant. In the corner of the place, a small booth, with two children (?). You can only see their outfits, a little bit of their hair, and their food. The strawberry blonde has a burger with some fries, a basic standard meal. The lavender haired girl has some hamburg steak and a soda, taking occasional fries from her companion’s tray, although it seems that she doesn’t mind. “Aww they didn’t even remove the pickles on my burger,” the blonde said, with a sad tone to their voice. The other girl, on what seems to be a gaming counsole, only says in return, “Want me to add them to the hitlist then? I’m sure our boss can find someone to kill them for us.” Then the usual intro plays. But who were those girls?
By Desmond Distel
Desmond Distel is a multimedia artist from Cincinnati, Ohio. His work has been published in Tellus zine and WYRD and showcased at the Contemporary Arts Center, Kennedy Heights Arts Center and Queen City Clay. You can find him on Instagram @Pkskll19.
We both felt that mutual spark
It set the forest of my life on fire
It burned away my depression
Made me happy
But you turned it all to smoke
All my dreams
They’re just gone
I actually liked you
But I guess you just saw me as a time in a schedule
Not a person
Not an artist
Not a boyfriend
Just a date on a calendar
I told my friends about you
They were so excited to meet you tomorrow
Because they’ve seen me get beat up trying to find someone
And now I have to tell them that you're gone
I thought we had something
Maybe we didn’t
Maybe I just needed to tell myself that I had someone
And I did
But not anymore.
By Athena Kanellatou
"Open minded, talkative, indecisive"
There is an eagle inside my chest
And he is trying to beat himself to death.
He is not caged; yet he is not loved.
So I let him feast on the rotten flesh of my heart
Fill up his lungs with the smoke that fills mine
If he just crawled,he could escape
But he wants to fly.
That will be his demise.
He is mine and he is eating me alive,
But he is mine and one day I promise you•
He Will roam the sky.
By Jude Slater
Jude is a high school artist who’s interested in an array of mediums, both art and writing. She is aspiring to study art in college and enter the animation field someday!
little girl, what are you running from?
your feet batter the ground
leaving a deep yellow bruise
but you never get any farther away
please, just listen to me-
your face is turned outwards
the walls of this wretched town
are a cage of distrust.
if you spared me a glance
i could promise you the sky.
little girl, turn your face to the sun
he is the blood that illuminates my veins
i bled for him and he tore me open
hold out your palm, it bleeds also
a deep, grief-stricken red
lift your face, child
and he will bleed for you
and wash your grief a fool’s shade of gold
By Roukia Ali
Roukia Ali (Kia, she/her) is an Honours English Literature and Creative Writing student at the University of Toronto. When she's not submitting to magazines or sobbing through her critical papers and creative portfolios, she can be found letting Oscar Wilde consume her life, listening to Mitski while staring at the ceiling, and saying "just five more minutes" in the classics section of bookstores. Interact with her on Instagram @roukiaa9140
"For my best friend, Isaac. Love you lots, and now the world knows too <3"
COME HOME TO MY HEART (a poem/villanelle)
On bleeding feet or in maddening want, run fast, before the roaring, run in fitful starts,
Before our favourite days start ending, before our favourite days are over.
Sink into all that’s left, fall into me, all that remains, comes home to my heart.
In my suitcase, on the subway line, in the songs we listened to in the dark,
Like phantom chills melting in the sun, I forget which is the part meant to sober,
On bleeding feet or in maddening want, run fast, before the roaring, run in fitful starts.
You breathe it like kisses, you litter like bruises, over my conscience, paint your mark.
Before I hear your laugh distorting, before your face in dreams pulls me under,
Sink into all that’s left, fall into me, all that remains, comes home to my heart.
I left you this morning, I miss you as you are still close to touch, I know it’s not smart,
To feel that the daylight songs we sing into our fists is the end, to think in polaroid pictures, On bleeding feet or in maddening want, run fast, before the roaring, run in fitful starts.
By Rutendo Shadaya
Rutendo Shadaya is a teen writer based in New Zealand. She was born to Zimbabwean parents and is proud of her both cultures. Rutendo started writing at the age of 9 and since then she hasn’t looked back. She has accomplished many achievements such as self-publishing two books at ages 12 & 14, being published by ToiToi (A New Zealand publishing company that publishes young writers and artists' pieces), being interviewed live on the TV channel ZTNprime in Zimbabwe and many more. When Rutendo isn’t busy writing, she reads fantasy books or binge-watch shows on Netflix.
A sudden shaking woke me up. It felt so surreal, was it a dream?
My eyes opened up; it wasn’t a dream but it was my mum trying to wake me up.
‘Delise, get up! Our house is flooded! Go to the garage to check the damage!’ demanded Mum.
I rose up and rolled over to the edge of the bed to check. Mum was right. There was a pool of water on the ground. I had never seen anything like this. Mum splashed out of my room. I put on my muddy gumboots. My gumboots splashed through the water and I arrived at the garage after surviving the strong gusts. The garage door swung open; I waddled inside and my twin brothers burst through. Darren held a water dispenser and Ezra held a bag and lighter.
Ezra handed me the bag and said ‘Morning little sis, can you go and get water from the well, we're out of filtered water. When you are done go look for Quentin,’
I rolled my eyes and opened the bag. Inside there were candles, a raincoat, and Quentin's favourite toy. I snatched the lighter, lit the candles, and placed it around the garage. It lit up the room. All we needed was heat now.
Before Darran and Ezra left the room, I yelled ‘Bring a bunch of wood. We need a heat source!"
The twins nodded and left as I in my huddled raincoat, and stared at the pouring rain through the cracked window. I groaned and stepped gingerly outside of the garage. The flood water level had now reached my ankles, but my gumboots blocked the water out. I sloshed through the water, annoyed.
The weather had worsened, but there was no way of going back now. The garage was nowhere to be seen, behind me was just fog, grey clouds, and leaves flying around. To top it off, Quentin’s rubber duck was squeaking non-stop inside my pocket during the journey while I was being soaked through my rain jacket because it didn't have a hood.
When I spotted the well, a smile rose on my face. I walked through the run-off channel and opened the lid. The well was protected and not affected by the flooding. After a small nudge on the bucket, it tipped into the well.
Splash!
The bucket had reached the water. I waited and called for Quentin--no answer from him.
Whoosh! went the wind. I tripped into the floodwater and my hand clutched on the wall. The wind tried to blow me away, but I held tightly onto the wall and pulled the bucket out from the well. My heart beat rapidly and I panted. I poured the water into a container and threw the bucket back into the well. I called for Quentin again. Still no response. I couldn’t afford to be drenched even more, so I gave up.
I raised the container of water on my head. My arm held the container making it secure. I walked from the well, and a strong gust of wind blew me off my feet. I crashed into the floodwater again and lightning flashed. My heart dropped. The water level grew. I held the container onto my chest and rushed home, dripping water everywhere.
Drip drip! Splashed the water.
On my way back, a small fluffy figure was following me. Was it Quentin?
Quentin!’ I turned around and shouted.
Woof Woof! barked Quentin. Quentin was almost submerged underwater; he was paddling to catch up to me. He wagged his tail happily.
Bang! Went the lighting.
Quentin whimpered and lowered his tail between his legs. I picked him up and placed him on top of the container. Countless twigs scratched my face as I rushed home. Fortunately, I arrived back at the garage before the bad weather escalated.
I squeezed my drenched clothes and placed the container by the door.
Darren & Ezra were inside together working using sandbags around the garage. I grabbed Quentin and sat near the firewood. After Mum poured the water into a dispenser, she placed a fluffy blanket around me and gave me a hot chocolate.
As I slurped my hot chocolate, I was grateful that I survived a hell of a cyclone outside and managed to rescue my dog, Quentin.
By Divija Daneen Baynazeer
Divija Daneen Baynazeer is an artist, crafter, and writer in high school. She is passionate about art and history but often gets distracted by a webtoon or her friends.
A tree lies beneath our home.
Between the river and flats, its branches
sway with enormous bushels of বরইয়ের;
its trunk arched like a soldier’s bow,
each limb an arrow shot by the wind.
Did you lie beneath the tree like me?
Become mischievous little monkeys, climb
its branches and tear at the skin
till your teeth rot with syrup. Did you too
sit in its shade, and bask beneath its proud bough?
Do you think of the old বরইয়ের tree?
The hours forgotten in a static blur, your mother’s eyes burn,
/ When will I see you again? /
She weeps for the baby between her legs,
for the woman before her.
For the little girl she shook the branches of
her beloved বরইয়ের,
fallen fruit in torn wicker baskets. Laid to rest
till craving strikes, a pickle made only by a mother’s hand.
She bites into its plump flesh, her eyes little moons;
dipped in sugar, a mess that will be left for you to clean -
Is it worth it?
I once asked my best friend:
/ Why can’t I let go, why do I still care? /
In the middle of the night, my soul lay bare for her,
worn pages you’ll never read.
I crave your touch.
For your sticky fingertips to caress my skin –
leave a stain that will never wash.
Instead:
/ I’ll never come back /
I swear and you scream at me – and I run
off to my room, leaving you behind to curse loudly at ba.
You must not remember, I’m grateful.
How could you still smile at me when
the reason you left your mother yells:
/ I hate you! /
A tree lies beneath our house.
Abandoned with garbage, filled with so much plastic
the foil shines with the sun. The air is sickly sweet,
it reaches our bedrooms,
noses scrunch from its stench.
Nobody collects the বরইয়ের anymore, they rot under the tree.
Limb’s tear from the unpicked fruit,
back bent like an old man,
cowering beneath the sun.
You say to stay home – the rot cannot be crossed.
Someone cries in the dark, but nobody can hear;
I am terribly alone.
**বরইয়ের = Jujubes
By Toby Davies
Toby Davies is a high school junior from New Orleans who always ends up writing a lot about family and grief. When they're not writing and reading, you can find them riding their bike, practicing karate, and playing Minecraft.
Toby Davies
Battlefield Poppies
Atticus’s spine dug into the hard earth as his boots scrabbled at the grass, one end of his blade digging into the palm of his hand as he pushed back his opponent's sword.
“C’mon, Primvale scum,” the man spat, pressing down harder. Atticus grit his teeth and groaned, his arms burning as he held the weight away from him. “Just give up already.” The Essdal soldier cackled, his sword reflecting the merciless glint in his eyes.
Atticus shouted out and squeezed his eyes shut, his sword slicing into his soft skin as he forced the man away from him. /This is it/, he thought, desperately trying and failing to kick the enemy’s legs out from under him. He cried out again, this time something younger, more afraid. His panicked heartbeat rang in his ears, blocking out the sounds of others fighting around him. /I thought I’d have more time. I need time. I need a miracle. Please, please, I’m not ready to die, I’m not—/
Suddenly, the familiar sound of a sword swishing through the air cut through his prayers, and the next thing Atticus knew, the weight against his sword lifted and his opponent’s body slumped to the ground right next to him. Atticus opened his eyes, pushing past his exhaustion to ready his blade again, breaths coming in short gasps and—
“Oh my god, /Clem/.” Atticus’s voice cracked in relief, and he allowed himself to drop his sword against his chest and suck in a big gulp of air. “/You/ are my miracle, oh my god, oh my…”
The girl spun the tip of her blade in the patchy grass, wiping the soldier’s blood off. “No need to get all dramatic, dude. You owe me though.” She looked at him and gave an unsteady smile, dimples deepening slightly, and she stuck her hand out. Atticus held the hilt of his sword in his bad hand, wincing, and accepted his sister’s help with his good one.
Clementine glanced around for a second before tugging him away from the fighting and stopping behind a towering oak decorated with dying moss and stray slash marks. She sheathed her sword and immediately pulled the young man into a fierce hug.
“That scared me, Addy, you can’t— I— /fuck/. Fuck you.” She buried her face into Atticus’s shoulder, and he wrapped his arms around her, resting his chin on her head, just like they always had. The two stayed like that for a little while, safe, tuning out the sounds of screams coming from nearby. They’d have to go back soon, lest they be ambushed. But for just a few seconds longer, Atticus ignored that and focused on the air in his lungs and his little sister safe in his arms.
“Sorry, Clem. Man, what would I do without you?” Atticus laughed, running his good hand over what was left of her hair; just a few weeks ago, she had shaved almost all of it off after she had been tackled to the ground because her ponytail had been yanked out from behind her. With shaking hands, she had asked Atticus to cut it for her. Atticus still missed her long hair, grown out since they were small, but he understood: war stole the remnants of childhood that used to sit in long hair and naive freedom. Growing up was unwanted but inevitable.
“You’d die, obviously,” Clementine said, pulling away from the hug and running her hands down her face. The deep shadows underneath her eyes matched his own, and Atticus couldn’t help but feel the longing for home ache deep in his rib cage.
Thinking too hard about home—and how long it had been since they’d been there—always made Atticus sick with sorrow; though sometimes he liked to stir up old memories, the nostalgia bringing him comfort and hope. /Mourning doves sang out to the cloudless sky, flying over the two young children chasing each other in circles. Their knees were covered in grass stains, their shirts spotted with mud.
/“I’m Primvale’s strongest warrior!” the younger of the two cried, pointing her branch to the sky. “Cower before my might!” The older, smirking as his little sister repeated words he had shouted many times before, dropped to the ground, trembling in pretend fear.
The little girl started whacking her brother with her branch, to which the boy retaliated with an attack of full-body tickles. The two landed in a heap on the ground, their high-pitched giggles sweetening the air around them. They laughed until their stomachs ached, innocent in all the temporary ways.
They were and would be together, always. Everyone knew them as Atticus-and-Clementine, each a half of the other. Holding onto each other as they celebrated the good moments, joy intertwined; holding onto each other as they pushed past the bad moments, because if the ocean swallowed them whole, at least their last drowning breaths would be shared./
“C’mon, we gotta head back out.” Clementine interrupted Atticus’s thoughts. “Fulfill our duty and whatnot.”
Atticus clenched his injured hand, grateful for the fact his sister hadn’t noticed the wound. He pulled his own sword out, and with a weary sigh, he said, “Yeah, yeah. Nighttime swapping’s all that’s keeping me going.”
“And let’s stay alive until then, shall we?” Clementine elbowed Atticus playfully, and he rolled his eyes at her before leaving the brief safety of the oak.
Individually, the two were both strong and stubborn, muscles toned and trained for exactly this. But together—together they were the most intimidating force on the battlefield. They fought back to back, covering each other’s blind spots. They ducked and weaved, almost graceful in the way they fought, wordlessly understanding every little thing the other did. The sounds of metallic clashing of swords, the grunts and yells, the enemies dropping to their feet: all of it was the melody the siblings had grown into since the war started years ago. They danced to the gruesome song like it was second nature.
That evening, they limped back to their shared sleep tent, nodding to the soldiers who would replace them, hoping they’d still be there in the morning.
“Addy and Clem! Nice fightin’ out there,” one of their nighttime replacements called out in passing.
“Don’t call me that,” the siblings said at the same time, unamused. The soldier snickered at their response.
They collapsed on their cots in unison, wary of the blade marks that littered their skin. It was routine now, how their chests heaved unevenly and they shut their eyes against the hurricane of ruin all around them.
The war was always going to happen. The siblings were just unlucky enough for it to start when they were old enough to be recruited. Primvale and Essdal’s rivalry was centuries long; the shared river dividing the two kingdoms ensured loyal citizens had enemies from the day they were born.
/“Essdal kids are rude and improper,”/ Atticus’s mother used to tell him and his sister. /“Make sure you don't end up like them. You never want to be mistaken for one of their kind.”/ These words stuck with both of them their whole lives. It wasn’t truly until the war started that Atticus realized that Essdal kids—now young adults, soldiers far from home and frightened every day, just like them—must have been fed the same words about /his/ people, about /him/.
Sometimes Atticus had a hard time telling the difference between his allies and his enemies. If it weren’t for the uniforms, he didn’t think he would have laid his blade against a single person, worried he’d hurt his own. Past the grudges and devoted desperation, every person on that battlefield was one in the same.
“Addy, look,” Clementine said after a few minutes of rest. Atticus sighed lightheartedly and turned onto his side to face his sister, holding his injured fist to his chest. She reached into her pant pocket and pulled out a scarlet-colored flower, its thick petals wrinkled and stem slightly crushed.
“It’s a poppy, I think.” Clementine twirled it in her fingers, smoothing out the petals. “I found it this morning. Isn’t it so pretty?”
Atticus hummed in agreement, a gentle smile creeping onto his face as he watched his little sister indulge in something easy, something meaningless.
“Let’s make a garden of them when we get back home. Red would look nice in the yard.” Her voice was soft and wistful, peace amidst destruction.
“Of course,” Atticus said, recognizing the hidden message: /We have to endure this. We have to go home./
Clementine reached her arm out to her brother. “Take it.”
Atticus huffed and took the flower from her. “You sap,” he said, tucking the stem into his shirt pocket.
“Yeah, yeah, you’re welcome. Now get some sleep or else I won’t hear the end of it in the morning.”
——
Atticus woke up in the morning only to find Clementine already lacing up her boots—she’d always had a knack for getting up early enough to watch the gold of the sunrise spill over Primvale’s young hills.
“Another day,” she said as Atticus rubbed the sleep from his eyes.
“Another day indeed.” He yawned, bringing his hand to his mouth and yelping when the gash in his palm widened at the movement. He balled his hand into a fist again, trying to cover the injury, but Clementine was by his side in seconds, carefully unfolding his hand and running her finger along it.
“You idiot,” she said, rolling his fingers back over the wound. “Why didn’t you get this checked out yesterday?”
“It’s not a big deal,” he muttered, looking anywhere but at her face.
“Okay, I don’t care. This still needs stitches and you know it.” She stepped away from him and picked her sword up from underneath her cot, fingers wrapping around the leather-bound hilt instinctively. “You go to the med tent and fix your hand up, Ad. I gotta go. Sun up, sword out, you know?”
Atticus shook his head. “No way, Clem. If you fight, I fight, remember?”
Clementine’s playful look fell. “Well if you’re hurt you get fixed, /remember/?”
“That only counts for you.” Atticus immediately winced at his words when his sister’s face morphed into a scowl.
“Only me? Why? You think I’m weak, Addy? Can’t fend for myself?”
Atticus sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. “I’m not doing this right now. You know that’s not what I mean.”
“So what do you mean?” Atticus watched Clementine’s knuckles turn white as she gripped her sword tighter. “Because you better not be saying that you’re /stronger/ than me, especially not after the stunt you pulled yesterday—”
“No, /no/, I— God, Clem, I know I’m not stronger than you, I just…”
“Just what?”
Atticus sighed and hung his head. “I just want to protect you. That’s my /job./”
Clementine scoffed and cracked her knuckles, an anxious habit she’d picked up from him. “Well I’m not a little girl anymore, /Atticus/. I can handle myself just fine.”
“But you’ll always be my little sister. Can’t you get that?”
“I get it just fine!” she snapped. “You think I don’t feel /terrified/ every time we go out there because I’m worried it’ll be the last time I see you? When you went off on your own yesterday, you could have /died./” Her voice wavered, raw and vulnerable, and Atticus felt a lump form in his throat. “I know the fear of loss just as well as you do.”
Atticus flexed his hand gently, soaking in his little sister’s words. /When did she get so mature?/ he thought hazily, some indescribable ache weighing down his chest. “…Okay, fine. Fine. I’m sorry. I’ll go to the med tent. But expect me back with you in, like, ten minutes, yeah?”
“Whatever. See you.”
The siblings left their tent and parted ways, an air of tension still lingering behind them. He sped to the med tent as his sister swapped positions with a night soldier, face hardening into her typical battle-ready mask.
Atticus hated the med tent; he fixed all his own wounds as much as possible. The med tent was dull and lifeless, literally; it always had that persistent smell of death, the stench of rotting flesh seeping into every crevice. Doctors flitted around, attending all the bloody soldiers piled up on cots.
“Atticus!” one of them called out to him as he walked in, still focused on a different patient. “You alright today?”
“Yeah, just hurt my hand. Clementine made me come get it stitched up.”
“Of course, of course. I’ll get to you in a few minutes then.”
Atticus nodded and seated himself on one of the uncomfortable cots, leg bouncing up and down as he bit too hard on his lip. He hated being away from Clementine, especially for something so pointless.
As promised, after a few minutes of restless waiting, Atticus was attended to, wincing against the familiar stinging pain of being sewn up. His palm was wrapped in thin white bandages, and he was up and leaving as soon as the doctor had finished.
“Nice flower, soldier,” the doctor teased as Atticus made his way out.
“Mhm,” he responded impatiently, absentmindedly fiddling with its bright red petals.
Atticus pulled his sword out of his sheath before he even left the med tent, ignoring the tenderness of his wound. He ran towards the battlefield and instinctively scanned the messy crowd, seeking the familiarity of his sister’s shaved head and determined shouts. When he spotted her, eyes ablaze as she staved off an enemy’s attacks, he sighed in relief.
He spun his sword in his hand and found himself making his way to her before he even realized it, drawn to her side without a thought. He parted his way through the fighting as quickly as he could.
Atticus had almost reached Clementine when he saw the soldier opposite her slam his sword hard into hers, causing her to fumble it. In the single moment it took for her to recover, Atticus watched in helpless horror as the other soldier reared his blade back and shoved it forward—
Plunging it straight through Clementine’s stomach.
Atticus knew he’d never be able to forget it. That the image of the metal blade ripping through her whole body, the tip appearing again as it tore the skin of her back apart—it would be seared into his brain, haunting him even in death.
Atticus’s mouth opened in a scream before his sister even hit the ground. The battlefield shook with the strength of his anguish. Clementine stumbled back, eyes blown wide, sword abandoned in favor of pressing her hands against her stomach. Atticus ran forward, unmatched rage in every footstep. Without sparing a second to think about it, he rushed the enemy, bringing his sword up and slicing hard against the man’s throat. He relished the way the man’s blood bubbled around the wound before he collapsed.
Atticus turned to Clementine, who was still standing in shock, eyes trained on the blood slowly spreading across her uniform. He dropped his sword to the ground and reached out for her, placing his hands on her shoulders.
/“Clem,”/ he breathed, horror seeping into his voice.
Her foggy eyes focused on him, and a grimace spread across her face. “Hi, Addy.”
“Shit, you—I /told/ you I should’ve stayed with you, oh my—oh my /god./”
“Always have to be right, don’t you?” she quipped weakly before leaning heavily against Atticus, letting her eyes flutter shut.
Atticus’s throat was tightening more and more every second, a nauseous panic overtaking his veins. His jaw hurt from clenching it so tight, and his whole body was a black hole of /fear/, fear that consumed every inch of him, fear deeper than anything he’d ever known.
“Hold on, I’m gonna… hold on, just hold on, Clem-bug, I’ve got you.” Atticus wrapped one arm behind her shoulders and lifted her legs with the other, clutching her tight to his chest. She cried out, agony potent in her screams as Atticus jostled her injury, and he bit down a whimper as he felt her pain in his own gut.
Clementine’s head lolled against Atticus’s collarbones, and he cradled her close as he pushed his way through the endless sea of soldiers, running towards the med tent.
“Addy, please,” his sister whined, sounding all too young; as Clementine’s blood pooled a deep crimson against Atticus’s arms, suddenly he was a little boy again, rocking a big-eyed, pink-faced infant to sleep. /Stay awake/, he prayed to the war-torn sky, prayed to his baby sister. /Stay awake this time./
When Atticus barreled into the med tent, half of the heads whipped up at his entrance, eyebrows raising at the crazed look in his eyes.
One of the doctors rushed to them with a clear air of urgency. “Atticus,” the doctor said. “/Shit/, that— Put her right over here, quick.”
The man gently laid Clementine down on a nearby cot and grit his teeth hard when she let out small gasps of pain. As the doctor rushed to get medical supplies, Atticus pressed his hands against her wound, and she groaned at the pressure, head tilting back against the pillow.
“Addy,” she whispered, voice rough. Atticus bit his lip and shook his head fiercely. He knew every piece of her, knew her as the waves knew its own ocean, and he /knew/ what she was going to say.
“Stop. Don’t.” His nostrils flared as he held back the tears pricking at his eyes.
“You asshole. /Addy/,” Clementine said again. She raised her head to look straight at him; her face held a mix of pain and hardened determination that he wished he didn’t understand so well. “Atticus, listen to me.”
“No.”
“Addy, I’m /sorry/,” she choked out, face draining of color. Her voice was almost as broken as Atticus felt. “I’m sorry.”
“Clem, please, /please/ don’t—” He cut himself off, not allowing the words to leave his mouth.
“Can… Will you hug me, Addy? Just one last—”
“Don’t say that. I’m serious.”
“You know neither of us can run from the truth right now. Let’s— let’s face it, okay? Now give me a hug, Ad, please.”
Atticus hesitated. For one horrible moment, he stared his little sister in the eyes, hands soaking up her blood, and considered refusing. Denying her her chance for rest because he wanted her to /fight./
But when the two of them packed their bags and left home to come fight in this war, Atticus promised himself that he would do anything for Clementine. Even more than he had all their lives—he’d give up his whole being, all for her.
So, with early grief clogging up his lungs, he sat next to her on the cot and pulled her into his arms, rearranging them into a more comfortable position. This time as he jostled her, she just sighed. She buried her face into Atticus’s shoulder, and he wrapped his arms around her, resting his chin on her head, just like they always had. Hot tears rolled down his cheeks and into Clementine’s hair as the heat of her bloody injury rested against his own stomach.
Everything was quiet.
He squeezed her tighter when he felt her breaths slow. He clutched the back of her head when she began to grow limp. He heard the doctor’s hurried footsteps approach and then halt; the doctor said nothing as Atticus started to rock back and forth, praying that they were still little and he could wake her up by blowing cold air in her face. His fingers grasped at her back, her neck, anything, desperation laced in every move.
He tried to whisper her name but found his voice wouldn’t let him, so instead he started screaming. Nobody said a word to him as he screamed and screamed, screamed himself hoarse, clinging onto the last bits of warmth he found in Clementine’s body.
Her body. Atticus was holding his baby sister’s /body./ A guttural sob forced its way out of his throat. Every part of him felt unreal. This wasn’t /real./
In that moment, his world came crashing to an end.
In that moment, Atticus lost himself.
In that moment, he realized that there was no longer anything worth fighting for.
Eventually, his rocking slowed and his screaming quieted. He ever so gently laid Clementine back down on the cot, eyes resolutely screwed shut. He ran his palm over her hair and pressed a soft kiss to her cool forehead, never looking at her.
And then he walked out.
Atticus didn’t remember going to the armory and grabbing a spare sword, but he must have, because he now held one in his hand, one shorter than his was, shorter like Clementine’s. He felt outside of himself when he stormed out, vaguely aware of every nerve under his skin alight with fury.
Eyes flitted his way as he approached the fighting crowd, and he watched as his navy-clad allies pinched their lips together and his green-clad enemies narrowed their eyes at him. Atticus tried to imagine how he looked to them: drying blood coated his arms and uniform, his strides were long and purposeful, and his deep brown eyes blazed gold with the power of his grief.
Once he reached the battlefield, Atticus was a wildfire. Any mercy he had once felt for the Essdal soldiers in their shared humanity was long gone. All he could see in every face he met was the face of the one soldier, the one with the slit throat and his little sister’s blood on his blade.
Atticus swung his sword like a madman. Every green uniform he passed became soaked in crimson, every stomach impaled in a familiar way that only fueled his rampage. He never used to be this ruthless—neither he nor his sister had ever liked to kill if they could help it, only incapacitating their enemies. But Atticus needed one more fight, some final /revenge/ to try and quell the raw anger he felt amidst the loss he hadn’t allowed himself to fully grasp.
So this time, he left a path of destruction in his wake, enemy blood mixing with his sister’s on his hands. Every slash on his skin was numb and was then met with the collapse of an Essdal soldier.
Eventually, he was struck down. He was ready for it, had accepted it as soon as he picked up his sword, accepted it in the same way Clementine had accepted her death.
/Death/. Atticus choked on his own breath as a soldier kept him pressed to the ground by pointing her sword at his neck. She said something to him, maybe, but he wasn’t listening. He was waiting. Waiting for—
She stabbed her sword through his gut, leaving him stuck to the battlefield like a butterfly pinned to its grave. His stomach /burned/, pain he hadn’t thought possible spreading through his whole body in an instantaneous flash.
/Huh/, he thought dimly, black spots dancing in the corner of his vision. /What a perfect way to go./
Weakly, Atticus lifted his hand to his chest and fumbled around until he reached what he was searching for: the poppy.
He pulled it out of his front pocket and laughed as he twirled the stem in his bloodied fingers. Its petals, despite falling apart, really were beautiful.
Suddenly, Atticus felt as if a wave of cold water was washing over him, and he looked up at the midday sky as he gasped out his final breaths.
Right before he let his eyelids close over his eyes one last time, he clutched the poppy close. /We’ll make that garden, Clem/, he thought, a small smile spreading across his lips. /We’re going home, and we’ll make your garden./
By Naphisha Sohtun
"an amateur writer who loves animals and expressing myself through writing"
The scariest thing i had to do
Was not bungee jumping or encountering ghosts
But reflection,
Reflection on my identity.
Who am i?
A shallow question everyone asks
too busy pondering upon it
We forget to live.
Why fit in between the lines
Fit in with society
When i can create magic
In this modern world where different cultures,habits, beliefs are laid down
I build my own unique mosaic.
A mosaic which differs with certain people
I could seem lively and the most extroverted person
But also as cold as a stone.
If perfection can be nice
Weird can be beautiful too
I am an imperfect human
Not a celestial being
I do what i can ,
That's my identity .
~NS
By Yisingfa Konwar
Yisingfa Konwar is a 17 year old young aspiring Indian writer. She is a student and she mostly writes poetry in free verse.
My manuscript,
An eternal mirror of ink and paper;
A vessel of my ardent desires,
Within its pages I'm a paradox;
I reveal and yet conceal my words.
To frame my tales neither a prologue
Nor do I have an epilogue,
I carve pieces of me with pen
With heart and eyes of children;
A Sculpture of skin and bones of ashes.
Wildflowers conspire to bloom
At the edges of my antique room;
A testament of days of toil,
Of my colossal treasure,unspoiled.
By Bhavya Prakash
Bhavya Prakash is a 15 year old girl from India, Jharkhand. She likes to write poetry a lot and has been featured in her school's magazine - "The third eye". She started writing in lock down during covid. Her very first poem was a piece that she wrote about saving trees for school on the occasion of environment day. She has progressed in poetry writing since then and likes to explore different kinds of emotions and writes poetry that she thinks will resonate with people.
MASK
She was hopping through the meadow,
Clouds forming in the sky,
"Hiya! Such a sunny afternoon, isn't it?" Said the Gecko,
"Indeed", she forced a smile and bid him goodbye.
She entered the flower bed,
And noticed the flowers were all dry,
"Hullo! Such lovely tulips, aren't they?" said the bees, newly wed,
"Indeed" she tuttered as she went by.
She finally reached home, after losing to the turtle in a race,
The poor Rabbit took off her mask,
There were tear stains all over her face.
Where they saw the sun,
She felt the cold breeze before the rain,
Where they saw life,
She felt death's reign.
She was tormented from the Inside,
And her screams were mute,
She layed in her bed,
While her insides were in dispute.
Yet she woke up every morning,
Although procrastinating her every task,
While outside, the rain was still pouring,
She set out wearing her smiley mask.
- B. P.
By Shanti Samnotra
Shanti Samnotra is 15 year old aspiring writer.
I’m sorry I can’t be your peppy little girl anymore
I’m sorry I’m always tired and grumpy
I’m sorry my friends don’t feel like my friends anymore
I’m sorry I can’t say this to your face
I’m sorry I’m always on my phone
I’m sorry we argue
I’m sorry I’ve changed
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m so sorry
By Humna Nisar
"A person who craves new experiences and loves observing whatever there is."
(نظم: جبرِ مسلسل)
(Ceaseless brutality)
انسانوں کی سننا
Listening to humans
سن کر لبوں کو جنبش دینا
And to move the lips,
ہاں میں ٹھیک ہوں،
"Yeah, fine I am,"
خوب ہوں!
"I am alright!"
یہ یاد دہانی دلانا
To remind (them) of this
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
اُس جہاں میں جینا
Indwelling in that particular realm
اِس جہاں سے بیزار رہنا
(While) being repulsive of this one
کسی کی طرف نگاہ کرنا
To cast a glance at someone
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
سوچوں کے تسلسل باندھنا
Linking the chains of thoughts
بندھے ہوئے تسلسل توڑنا
(And) severing the pre-existing ones
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
سانس لینا
To draw breath
دل کی دھڑکن رواں رکھنا
Keeping the heart beat continuously
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
حلقهٔ شناساں میں رہنا
To be in the assembly of the knowers
پھر ناشناس ہونا
And to be ignorant yet
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
اک قید محجوب ہے
A veiled confinement there is
اور میں مسجون ہوں
And imprisoned I am
یہاں پر مسکرانا
Pretending to be happy here
اس سقوط کو سکون کا نام دینا
To name this falling down 'tranquil'
خود کی ذات پر جبر لگتا ہے مجھے
I feel (like) walking all over myself
By Samriddhi Kafle
"Normally, I like to write sad poetry. I get the inspiration from some poetic songwriters or classic writers. Or also from people on the internet who share their amazing writings!"
She reads books and she writes poems, especially when she’s feeling very sad or when her mind is filled with anger uncertainty. She’s also very tired all day but is joyous when she gets to talk to someone close to her.
My eyes burn
As i look at the portrait.
My thoughts drift
To the weakest of conclusions.
Does it matter if i try
If I’m damned to be in vain.
I feel inferior
When you question
My love.
I feel the sensation
Of a sudden chill
When i get the blame.
I hear a thundering rift
And as i search for it,
I realize my heart is breaking.
Your comfort is
What i needed.
But you die in your sleep
Knowing you can’t give me
The best version of it.
And i scream as i
Grab the roses’ thorns.
Does it matter if i try
If I’m damned to be in vain.
You run to me seeking
For warmth,
Without realizing that
I’m drifting apart.
I twist and turn
The lines i see
In my greatest of nightmares.
Never finding a clue,
I die beneath it.
Looking for the solace,
I find your arms.
Yet i feel empty
All in one.
Because you gave it all away
To someone
You went to the extreme for.
You die in your sleep
Knowing you can never give me that.
And I’ve been dying
In my sweetest dreams
Questioning if it’s all i want.
My mind’s become a
Rotten flesh
As i seek for the awareness
Of his mind’s eye.
What have i become?
All the hints you gave vanished
As i sought for the name
I shouldn’t.
But i couldn’t,
I couldn’t.
Does it matter if i try
If I’m damned to be in vain.
By Marium Zeeshan
Marium Zeeshan is a 19 year old from Pakistan. She has a passion for writing and reading as well as good food. She absolutely adores cats and like kpop and kdramas a lot.
My father brings fruits on his way back home from work. He knows nobody likes to eat them but he still does it. It’s a habit that he can’t get rid of at the age of 51. The oranges stay in a small basket, occasionally eaten by my mother or my father himself but never by me. They stare at me and I feel guilty. Why am I denying myself of my father’s love? He never knew how to show his love for me in words, hugs, or even pats on the back. The only ways he knew how to express his feelings were by showing up at school events and buying me things I would get bored of. My mom always told me to be grateful. And I was. Where else would I find a father willing to spend so much on their children? But why was it that when I was sick, he didn’t look after me? Why was it that he never listened to me, humiliated me in front of guests, and always seemed annoyed whenever I talked to him? Was I wrong to deny his love then?
My father loves me I know, we have some vividly beautiful memories together. But maybe that’s all I will ever get. Maybe I was never meant to understand him and maybe he was never meant to get me. But maybe one day I will eat the oranges he brings because I still love him. He’s my dad after all. My ‘Baba’.
By Shu J. Liu
Shu J. Liu (they/them) is a teen writer from Canada who loves poetic storytelling, dystopia, and science fiction. When they're not writing, they can be found doodling eyes, listening to music, or watching video essays. Their work has appeared in multiple literary magazines, such as Rewrite the Stars Review and Bottled Dreams Literary Magazine. They're on Instagram @wlvshuu.
faded beliefs, faded distances
whispery autumn days so far behind,
we had comfort long ago;
hands clasped together, running
through fields of bountiful joy
and youthful laughter.
if you must leave me and go,
why does my heart ache so?
no warnings, no goodbyes,
a sudden disappearance in my life.
tell me, what’s the truth?
should you be gone far away,
how must i cope during the days
where i’d find you and cry on
your shoulder, soft and sweet.
belief is feeble, so i’ve found, but
should you return, i do believe i’d
never risk turning myself around;
for if you’ve taken off one before,
how must i know you won’t fade
away into the distance once more?
we could almost never
modernity was never
meant to be perfect.
perhaps that is the
truly beautiful thing
about its devastating
strikes and hits and blows.
maybe we were never
designed to live in a
peaceful world. perhaps
destruction is all there is
for us, the doomed of the
living and past and future.
we may possibly never
step on a gas giant nor
frolic among aliens in
unknown regions. but in
the end, perhaps it was
not in our destiny to do
so. perhaps we were
meant to live in simple
modernity, encased in
our quiet loudness that
we call our home and
planet earth. perhaps
life was almost as basic
as we almost made it be.
By Emeline Martinez
Senior in high school who just writes as a hobby.
I kept seashells in my pockets to keep what time forgets. The slow crashing waves of ocean blues. The inexplicable sound of nothingness and everything. The scent of salt so strong it could almost be tasted. The tension that rang in the air, I could not hear my own disdain. Oblivious, I mistook her for despair. The red sun, like a mother's blanket, like the inside of a womb. Being little, my mother told of how her water broke early, telling me how eager I was to be my own. I cried a lot as a child, I wished to be thrown back into the comfort of my mother's womb.
A place like the ocean, floating about without a worry to ponder. To exist without the conscience of knowing. I wished I could have stayed there forever. When I got there, I found cold and old tears in its stead.
I found the ocean did not exist, only delusions of what could be.
Instead, I found comfort in the breathing sand. It burns your feet and swallows you whole. The warm sand that inhales slow, cradling the ignorant to sleep. Laying there, I fell through the sand, sinking to the bottom of our world. Where there should have been earth's core, there lay our god. The one we adored so feverishly lied so unbothered by our human struggles. If I were God I would shower humans with unbothered minds. If I were God, I would do the same.
He lies in this haven watching life unfold, our prayers diminishing to a passing state of dissatisfaction.
Exploding with rage I approached that which shouldn't. Because there was rage the world went up in flames. My voice so hoarse I yelled,
"You there lay on your throne but while we starve you dine and while we die, you're bored."
When God looked down, he saw us, me. He must've pitied, thinking how utterly and unforgivingly consumed we were by what society said we could and couldn't be. His eyes filled with tears of boiling gold, our greed and his truth never being the same. He was born before his conscience and his truths became fantasy. Upon that throne lay our misfortune. With such tenderness swimming in his eyes, he said,
"Come child of mine and tell me my faults."
I didn't know where to begin, or if I should at all. My mouth opened but nothing came out, not words or shouts, pleas, or cries. None came out and there I was, sand underneath my feet.
Years went by and the earth became infertile. The masses starved, all kin alike. Desperate minds tried to drink the sea and died doing so. I found myself in front of God once more. I did not shout or plead or cry. I tried to reason with which had no reason. I showed God the earth which gives no fruit and the trees whose roots rot.
"This is what you have planted, seeds that rot and skies that flood." I said. He gave a look and said not a word.
Many more years and hardships did I go through before I was met with God once more. I pleaded this time, I pleaded because all I came to know were long dead. Taken by starvation and eaten up by this selfish earth. God could hear my anguish and greed.
"Ask and be answered, my child, ask and you will find." He said.
"All I have ever come to love is gone. Death is the reason god. I know we all must die but I cannot live with that. Tell me, why is it we must?"
God understood this question of mine. He understood human curiosity and grief. After all he created it all, and is all there is to be.
"I made you close to perfection, close to me, and to die is to pay the price. To die is to be perfect." He answered simply as if by logic. His logic is one I cannot understand yet one he still explains.
"God, if there is one thing you must know is that I do not wish to die. Though I understand the inevitability I can only ask of you one thing. Don't let me die as others have, let me be remembered for as long as knowledge is around. Do not let me die while I am insignificant. I do not wish to die but, God, let me be happy." Our God did not mind granting me this one thing, after all one day I would cease to exist along with all knowledge we pride ourselves with.
The earth had resolved to rid itself of us, everyday struggling against itself as though it were a brick fucking wall crushing the sun and the moon. I lived life until I realized I needn't live nor for a reason nor sin nor promise of eternal life within knowledge. I didn't know what life was worth living for except the promise of death. As I reached closer to this promise I realized I was both insignificant and unhappy. Upon my deathbed did God come visit.
"Did you find that which you sought?" He asked. Eternity he must be referring to, to be remembered and live forever. I looked at our god, unable to conjure up a single tear, not of admiration or fear, disdain, or relief.
"You promised." My old voice managed to spill out.
"You will be remembered for as long as knowledge is well kept." God assured.
"I no longer care if I am insignificant. I just care to be happy for as long as I can grasp onto it." I confessed. I coughed a few times, a few steps closer to dearest death. "I no longer fear death, but I do wish to know why we are born." I say.
"All are born to dream and be of the world and experience things in a way no other being can. You are all made like the ocean. The ocean exists and it is full of dreams." God said. With this I felt ready to leave. I harbored no hatred, fear, sadness, or regret, maybe except for living a life without happiness.
The next actions I cannot explain, maybe it was that our god decided to pity or show extensive mercy towards one that deserved none. He gave me happiness so that I viewed my life with nothing but. Suffering ceased and hunger became irrelevant. For the longest time, I thought happiness was a little girl too naive to know about sadness. Happiness is an old man content with life's bearings. Too old, too sad, too worried to think about anything else.
God told me of this old man as I died of starvation. I've never been happier.
By Emily Kim
Emily Kim is a junior in high school studying Creative Writing. She enjoys poetry and screenwriting, and she is always eager to explore new genres. Her poetry has been published in two online magazines, and she also founded a literary magazine, Persimmon Review, in 2023. Outside of writing, she likes to watch Korean dramas and try different food.
“The Neighbor”
tends to her grand garden for hours at a time
letting the flies thump against her skin
that is exposed to the blistering heat
a red patch infests the nape of her neck
where her thin ponytail sits
oozing sweat at the follicles
it drips, drips, drips
down her rough back
and into her prized silk shirt
she seizes a shovel and stomps in leather boots
poking at the tightly packed dirt
where caterpillars sit making leaves into holey cheese
she uncovers a family
that squirms deeper into the darkness
at the repulsive sight of her
she cradles a bottle of pesticide like a dear baby
aiming the spout toward the ground with a sly smirk
before pulling the trigger
they’re too young to spread their wings
and fly off
into the smoky sky…
By Celine Mammadova
Celine is a 16-year-old student and poet based in Baku, Azerbaijan. Some of the main ideas she is deeply interested in and explores in her poems include the wonders and horrors of girlhood, suppressed desires, and the paradox of the human condition. In her spare time, she enjoys reading books sprawled in a sunny patch of grass and pondering over philosophical questions with her cat. Occasionally, you can find her gushing about art in her little pocket of the internet @worthlesswonderings.
"The inspiration for this piece came suddenly and swept me off my feet as I was reading "What We Talk About When We Talk About Love" by Raymond Carver on a particularly gloomy evening, when it seemed like the whole world has stopped breathing."
“Are you alone?”
“Maybe.”
“How so?”
“When I choose to be.”
“Not tonight, then?”
“Does it really matter?”
He thought about it. Yes. He thought it did. In fact, he was sure of it.
“Did you water the plants?”
“What?”
“They get dry fairly quickly, especially during the winter.”
“What plants?”
“The ones in our house. The ones in your house.”
“You took them with you, remember?”
He didn’t remember. Now that he did, it didn’t seem to bother him any longer.
“Right.”
“Right.”
He swallowed. It was the loudest sound in the world.
“It’s getting dark.”
“Here, too.”
“Do you want me to come over?”
“Jack.”
Sarah, he silently echoed. He swallowed harder.
“Yes.”
“I’ll manage.”
“I understand.”
“How do you turn on the main light upstairs?”
“Second switch in the first row. The box should be open. Be careful when going down into the basement. The third step is faulty. Do you have a flashlight? I didn’t leave mine.”
“Jack.”
“Yes.”
“I’d like to ask you for a favor.”
“What is it?”
He listened closely. There was silence on the other end. He swallowed for the last time.
“There’s nothing to be afraid of, you know. Not anymore.”
“I know.”
He looked at the dark sky.
“Sarah.”
His whisper fell into the void.
By Celine Mammadova
Celine is a 16-year-old student and poet based in Baku, Azerbaijan. Some of the main ideas she is deeply interested in and explores in her poems include the wonders and horrors of girlhood, suppressed desires, and the paradox of the human condition. In her spare time, she enjoys reading books sprawled in a sunny patch of grass
and pondering over philosophical questions with her cat. Occasionally, you can find her gushing about art in her little pocket of the internet @worthlesswonderings.
I sit on my dingy old ottoman as the light flows into the room through the frilly lace curtain. My legs are pulled up, and I’m hugging my knees - not because I’m afraid of any monsters under the bed, mind you. We’ve actually become good friends ever since I moved in, or so I’d like to think - there are warm, amiable feelings on at least one side of the relationship. Naza is in the kitchen giving instructions to Tetya Khanum (enter new character: the cook and an old family friend) since, according to her, nothing ever goes right with the food unless she’s there to watch over the process. I’m not sure how they both manage to maneuver in that tiny square they call the kitchen, and I am willing to bet five manats (although I might be out of cash) that, in a few minutes, I will hear the chilling sound of a frying pan getting knocked off the stove and landing smack dab on someone’s foot. I’m almost certain it will then be followed by an “Ay, Allah” in that grating, dreadfully nagging voice that Naza does so well, with a long emphasis on the second “a” in “Allah” so that the sound lingers, echoing through the narrow corridors of the apartment.
Strangely enough, their sarcastic back and forth, sprinkled with the faint sound of the TV in the living room is exactly what I need to clear my thoughts. After staying with Naza for almost two months, I have come to learn that this is the apartment’s peculiar version of silence. I’ve grown used to the incessant, albeit slightly comforting hum of the yellowed fridge, the muffled voice of the news reporter on Channel One Russia talking about yet another “special military operation”, and the hoarse laughter of the neighborhood’s smokers that gather beneath my window exactly two minutes after I go to bed. They must have a radar or something, I truly don’t know how they always get the timing right, no matter when I choose to go to sleep. All of the things listed above have slowly, but surely become second nature to me, and the habits I’ve acquired back at home have, in turn, started to slip away. I suppose it’s the mind’s way of adapting to a new environment, like staying up all night to watch it slowly turn to dawn, and, finally, let morning take its place.
Sometimes when I sit on the old, dingy ottoman in what is now known as “Celine’s room”, I’ll try to detach from anything on my mind that’s bothering me (or reality, if you will) and simply let my eyes wander. There are so many objects to marvel at - as much as Mama likes to say the place is a mess and is full of trinkets that needed to be thrown out long ago, that is precisely what fascinates my little teenage girl brain. The sheer amount of things that can be looked at, examined, and dissected for hours on end tickles my consciousness and makes me giddy in a very I’m-just-a-kid-and-the world-is-so-unbelievably-fascinating-and-big kind of way. The CD player sitting on one of the bookshelves is the same player that has been used almost 50 years ago and by different members of my family, some of whom are long gone. I like to imagine my mom and my aunts on one particularly hot summer night of ‘97, jamming to 2Pac or Spice Girls while the parents were out. Or my grandfather putting on classical music as he worked in his office, irritated by anyone who so much as knocks on the closed door. Maybe, on days when he would be in a particularly good mood, he would put on old Soviet songs or even The Beatles, and insert educational comments about the origin of the song here and there. I never got the chance to meet him, but something deep inside me tells me that he was an incredibly intelligent man, one who appreciated good music no matter the time period or the genre.
It is now almost three in the afternoon and I have been sitting on this ottoman with my legs crossed for almost an hour as I wrote myself into oblivion. My right one is most definitely asleep and, being an absolute child, I can’t bring myself to stand up because I’m scared to death of the tickly feeling that sets your whole body on fire. Tetya Khanum is done with cooking and is now transferring the food into a myriad of containers, some plastic, some glass - you never know what you’ll end up with in Naza’s kitchen. The sun is gently caressing my skin, and I think I might just follow my leg’s lead and slowly drift into an afternoon nap. It’s quiet moments like these that make me aware of life not as a concept, but as a tangible thing that lives deep inside my body and scratches its way closer to the surface each day. And I’m not sure whether I’m always doing the right thing or if how I’m doing it is right, but I know that I’m doing what I love, and that’s the beauty of it.
Forever yours (then again, nothing lasts forever, does it?),
Celine
By Celine Mammadova
Celine is a 16-year-old student and poet based in Baku, Azerbaijan. Some of the main ideas she is deeply interested in and explores in her poems include the wonders and horrors of girlhood, suppressed desires, and the paradox of the human condition. In her spare time, she enjoys reading books sprawled in a sunny patch of grass
and pondering over philosophical questions with her cat. Occasionally, you can find her gushing about art in her little pocket of the internet @worthlesswonderings.
i remember that day you told me to look you in the eyes.
the bench i was crouched on,
the sweaty underground gym in the main building
of our school.
i might have fallen in love with you right there,
even if for a second.
your eyes weren’t even that pretty -
they were: fire, fierceness, pure chaos.
i looked. i wanted to look longer,
so much longer, i wished
i were invisible so i could stand so unbelievably
close to you
and soak in your every movement.
i stared hard into the ground instead (thank god the floor didn’t have eyes to stare back).
mine were: milky film, fright, softness.
i still can’t tell if you picked up on all that,
what with your massive intellect and a craving for more.
do it, you said,
and i could tell you were still looking,
and i knew your gaze slowly peeled back my eyelids
and i prayed you’d dissolve within me
and never let go.
the gym stopped functioning,
or at least i hope it did.
you’re miles away,
or at least i hope you are.
no one’s challenged me to bare my soul
since you left - there’s a different kind of glint to my eyes,
and i think you’d be proud if you asked again.
mine are: curiosity, craving, spark.
i hope yours are: fire, feist, forgiveness.
By Hallee Wells
Hallee is an aspiring writer/poet who takes her inspiration from the ethereal and the macabre, turning her ills into something beautiful. She also takes an interest in writing music, (mostly lyric writing) and hopes to write some songs one day.
Speak too loud, too proud,
You envy the angels that cut you,
Pull the teeth from my mouth,
You can murder me too
Bleeding from tear ducts,
And pulling my hair,
I wish I was subtle,
I wish I was fair
Enough muttering now,
The vultures come to eat,
Your dead body on the ground,
Pick at vile meat