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Art:
Zeidan Naqeeb - Landscape of "the calm before the storm"
Wulf Gooding - Moral Compass
Ngoc Chieu My Tran - Butterflies in the stomach
Luka Bueno Almagro - The Candle
Writing:
Gargi Sidana - Hope is Translucent
Chaïmae Laaouina - Her Forests
Elly Veritas - The Abyss
Justin Cadman - Delocatious Dawn/ Echoes of Solitude
Jedidiah Vinzon - flower.
Tulika - Forbidden love.
M.S. Blues - mi amor está aquí (esperándote)
Navya Modi - teenage; summer pool; wonderland of my own
Roxie - Letting Go
Amelie Baskova - in between.
Calista Fathia - Her.
Gargi Sidana - Resemblance of OM
Olivia Carter-Stanley - you are , Heavy Worlds
Justin Cadman - Fatal Fissure
Florina Konwar - The Spring's deja vu
Bhoomi Lahoti - Rose Tinted
Bruce Reisner - Sane People In Zanesville
Ritikaa Chakraborty - Heartsting Whisperer
Marie Cloutier - I Can Count
Josie Griffiths - With Devotion, Forever Yours
Dia - Poem
Ty-Rean Foster - The Beginning of the End,/My Drug/Not a Home
Ivan Ling - Fragmented/You, who manipulated weather
Raine Peh Tian Xin - MY LOVE FOR YOU IS NOT PLATONIC
Zye Jimena - Close to numb/Box and Looking Back
Manakhi Sharma - A love's reflection/Endless patience
Nimra Khanum - We became what we feared the most.
Chhavi Kapoor - On making of a mother.
Filipa Machado Gomes - Whispers of my heart
Emma Bidlen - Stay.
S.K. Sanjana - Never enough
Jordan Wortman - Fractured Psyche
Nellie - Are you still here
Blanka Pillár - Scenery/February
Hermes - Soul
Mallory - Glasses and all things nice
Raymond Trunk - mystique / On Fridays, the moon dances / an explanation for my father(s)
Laura Maria Felipe Araújo - Homage to my father/Lesser-than
Fable Khalil - Forest Fire/Truth/Mania or Joy?
Subhashree Pattnaik - Dear Sylvia,
Elyshia Dawson - That Tree
Ananya Mohanty - Why i wish we never met: Mother's Day
Shambhavi Shukla - Born fish-being bird
Cassie Hartman - your secret lover
Talia Flanzraich - Virus
Kaidence Moss - Old Dog
Khadija Sehar Alam - On The Loneliness That Comes With Godhood; a Character Study Of Satoru Gojo
Wael Almahdi - Convo/Pills/The Work Groupchat
Iqra Waheed - Will There Be Happiness?
Jessamine Duverne - Sacrificial Lamb
Aubrey Quinn - Plastic
Erikha Lamartiniere - She Haunts Me
Julia May Barbante Bola - Surrounded Yet Lonely
Iris - Requiem for a tyrant
Inaya Aly Khan - Tear/My Box of Freedom
By Zeidan Naqeeb
Zeidan Naqeeb is an upcoming writer-photographer-public speaker who is struggling with his studies at UiTM Alor Gajah, Melaka, Malaysia.
"There is something poetic and artistic when storm are passing through a city, and I wanted to capture that"
By Wulf Gooding
Wulf Gooding is a 16 year old singer-songwriter based out of both Connecticut and Charleston. Inspired by artists like Lana Del Rey, David Bowie, Joan Jett, and Stevie Nicks, her music flows and mixes through genres. Wulf loves obscure 10-year-old Saturday Night Live skits, Formula 1, blaming all her problems on Mercury being in retrograde, and writing about things that have never happened to her.
"I wrote Moral Compass after experiencing a particularly painful betrayal from one of my best friends, when I found out that he was not the person I thought he was. It was one of the first recordings that I spent days upon days working on, making sure that all of the instruments, riffs, and harmonies reflected how I felt in that moment. My favourite lyric is probably 'I need to think like a drummer/and pick up on patterns', or 'what do I expect from little boys?/I never should have done so/but still I expected more'. Moral Compass is the first single off of my debut album 'Dirty Dishes' that's set to release in June!"
By Ngoc Chieu My Tran
My is a freshman at her high school and currently enrolled in an art program. She is interested in drawing artworks that can convey a deeper meaning that can’t be transferred through words.
"This is a watercolor art piece. I thought the idiom “butterflies in my stomach” was interesting and I challenged myself to visualize it. The idiom usually ties to an image of love, but to me, relationships are not always happy and joyful. Despite how colorful and lively the butterflies are in the girl’s stomach, she can still get hurt."
By Luka Bueno Almagro
Some of Luka's friends call him creative and hard-working empathetic and caring. But he sees himself as nothing but a little kid. Someone who likes drawing and painting just like any three year old would. He won't stop working. We won't stop dreaming. That's just how he is.
"This art piece took me like two hours and it's on acrylic"
By Gargi Sidana
Gargi Sidana is a voracious reader and skilled writer from India. She curated short prose, poems, and articles for websites. Her poems were chosen in Spillword Press, Red Rose Thorns publication, Delhi poetry slam, Aether Avenue, Amar Ujala, Cosmic Inception, etc. She also earned a medal and trophy for her writing.
A concave rectangular mass; with the strings attached to hear the lullaby of peace.
Thin phrases written on the crest of the device. Like water plunged from a great height to commingle charismatic music. Music that is heard far from the distant realm. In the realm, hope beckons the bones; (the robust bunch of glass shrewd enough to not touch the body).
Hope, a rainbow coveted in the carpet of
Sliver dreams, Germanium desires and naked truth.
Falcon hopping on the zenith of the earth,
Yearning for a bunch of requited human touch;
It craves for the tender comfort(soothing like a breeze).
Hope, droplets of blood left on charred lips. A purple maze of exaggerated dilemmas created by us. Elvy snores of half-human's mind trapped in the lamb. Seeking shelter in the arms of trust and profoundly dozing in the pasteurized love.
Hope, an oblong desire to breathe for the nation, chasing a wide spectrum of prolonged trust.
By Chaïmae Laaouina
Chaïmae is a particularly passionate person, the world around her fascinates her more and more everyday, she expresses herself through poetry, dance , song writing and more, her dream is to create and to have an impact on people.
"This poem revolves around a parallel between my past, my present and my future, the carved quotes, initials and the savory fragrance symbolize pieces of my childhood, as for the unsent letters, the books, the collections and the unfinished poetry, comforting smell of coffee, represent my current situation which is why it happens in a cabin (symbolizes home), as for the wide window and the many separate roads represent my unknown yet to be discovered and experienced future."
Her forests
As I walk down her forest,
I see flowers of all colors, of all shapes and scents
High trees, carved quotes and initials on their wood
I see broken bottles of ink and torn paper
I see teddy bears laying around, posters and lipsticks,
Colorful disks of all kinds of music genre many, many unsent letters.
I smell a citrusy, peachy and savory fragrance over here and an oddly comforting caffeine aroma over there,
It's all so overwhelming, almost confusing
As I go in further, I find a cabin
As I open the oddly decorated door
I find a valley of seemingly endless collected antiques
Old paintings, bizarre jewelry, books, a lot of books, cheap looking clocks and red ceramics...
In a dark hidden spot in the room, I notice unfinished poetry spread on the oaky flooring along with lyrics sheets,
Even further in the cabin, I face an astonishing view through a surprisingly immense window.
Despite the thick fog that covers everything beyond my eyesight I catch a glimpse of many separated roads.
Some of which blinding light shines through, others hidden by gigantic intimidating trees,
And I can't help but wonder, which route of mine am I about to enter next?
By Elly Veritas
Elly Veritas is a 16 year old creative living in Qatar. She frequently drinks coffee and tea to desperately keep hours of missed sleep at bay.
Her legs dangle, lazily swing
out over the abyss.
She twists off her dulled gold ring
and it disappears quick from her hand—
the light follows nothing into the abyss
no, not even to chase a shadow:
the light cannot follow
so that is why the woman's
eyes are pools of pure, unblemished
black. Her face is masked in dark, her hairclip, although silver, unpolished,
does not shine—and the sun does not rise
not in the abyss nor near it.
Never near her. Light on the horizon... what a myth;
light's rays are finite, the gaping hole is just infinite.
So she pushes off the edge and drops
the light, you remember, cannot catch her.
She twists as she falls. All dark.
By Justin Cadman
18 year old who writes poetry as a hobby.
Tender silence preceding dawn
Momentary bliss surrounds
Hazy dew resolving upon the lawn
A harmonious day abounds
Precipitation of yestereve ceases
Golden hues stream the horizon
Feathery wisps pierce the atmospheric creases
Superficial is this beautiful phenomenon
Wafts of daybreakers flock
Preparations for various destinations
Systemically achieved on the clock
The initiation of daily creations
Precocious plants peer eagerly
Prepared for a taste of bliss
Arranged as a melody
Avoidance of the missing the solar kiss
Flesh coverings began to tear
For once were enclosed in slumber
Sounds of annoyance pierce and sullen the air
Yet now begins the time of encumber
Eternal bliss never arrives
Delicatus dawn may seem
Peace is only one believes yet never achieves
So for now we can only dream
By Justin Cadman
Poet as a hobby and wants to do a bit more professionally.
"heavily inspired by my favorite musical artists who are poets such as Taylor Swift and Olivia Rodrigo"
Peering through sullen penitentiary beams
That hammer of justice hovers above
Sentencing me to perpetual streams of screams
Nightmares of the crimes of others, linger like a dove.
Breaking my heart, depriving me of my love for others
Leaving me no choice but to be ruthless
Only I am the one who then suffers
Resultant of the world being ruthless
Subjection to isolation within the cage
Desperation for freedom encloses
Away from normality takes its toll to my age
Nobody cares of the risks that it poses
Pacing frantically in the melancholy institution
Clear goals of them, is to make me horrifically damaged
Torture gone so far to prevent my salvation
I've lived and died in various eras, but all as a week of horror that I've endured
Scarring myself on the regular
Intentionally yearning for a finale
It was coming slowly yet effectively spectacular
Eventually I'd be laid to rest in the dreaded valley
Unlucky I was, I had failed
Though determined
My intention of everlasting slumber was weak and has not prevailed
Hence force I survived
As of now I imagined
If I was gone from this world
It is genuinely something I deserved
For someone wrongly bringing me into this world
By Jedidiah Vinzon
Jedidiah Vinzon is studying physics at the University of Auckland. His works can be read in orangepeel, Tarot and Symposia, among others, with many more forthcoming. In his free time, he enjoys listening to and writing music, reading fantasy, and taking walks in the park. You can find him on Instagram @jayv.poetry
"This is a translation of an ekphrastic poem originally written in Tagalog."
bulaklak ng umaga
ipinagkaloob ng
hanging walang patawad
agad man ang paglipas
ng panahong mahinay
ang kariktan mong tunay
ay hindi kukupas sa
alaala ng aking
taimtim na isipan
kahit mabilis lamang
ang ating pagtatagpo.
–
flower of the morning
granted by
remorseless wind
though swift is the passing
of your gentle moment
your ineffable beauty
will not fade from
the memory of my
sincere devotion
even if our rendezvous
is serendipitous.
By Tulika
A teen from India who loves to express her emotions in poetry or catharsis.
"Why are you scared to fall in love?"
Because i can't have her
Or can I?
If I can will it be a torture?
Will I destroy her?
Or will she destroy me?
And if we are caught
Will we be forgiven?
Cause we are so forbidden.
Are we the criminals
Or the society is?
Are we doing the crimes
Or the society is..?
~T.
By M.S. Blues
M.S. Blues is an 18 year old multiracial, queer, and versatile writer who has been writing since the age of seven. Her work revolves around the darker pieces of humanity society tends to neglect. She has been published by many literary magazines and currently serves as an editor to The Amazine, Adolescence Magazine, The Elysian Chronicles, Hyacinthus Zine, and Chromatic Stars Review. Her Instagram handle is @m.s.blues_
mi amor está aquí
para chris
siempre fui hipnotizado por ti, quierdo,
mucho antes de que te conviertes en hombre, te quiera.
cuando dejamos de hablar la primera vez, traté de olvidarte.
me entregué a las distracciones y al mal amor.
lo cual funcionó, porque durante años, mi mente estaba vacía de cualquier recuerdo tuyo.
luego vino el cine el 1 de noviembre mi cumpleaños –
habían pasado años desde que te vi,
sin embargo, viejos sentimientos regresaron a mi corazón,
y me di cuenta de que ahora eres un hombre, ya no solo el vato que me gustaba en aquel entonces –
tu voz se hizo más profunda,
tus ojos tenían un propósito,
y tu boca pronunció palabras reales,
no las tonterías y maldiciones que pronunciamos en aquel entonces.
después de estas observaciones, supe que mi amor se había encendido nuevamente, sólo la llama era mayor que antes.
continúe siguiendo esa llama,
... y comenzamos a hablar de nuevo,
olvidándonos de los años transcurridos entre nosotros. era como si volviéramos a ser jóvenes, salvajes, y libres.
a medida que pasaban los días, más me enamoraba de ti. se volvió demasiado difícil de soportar,
así que un día abrí la boca y te lo dije,
y tu amor mió, respondiste diciendo: “intentemoslo.”
no podría haber estado más feliz.
pero, como suele decirse, la felicidad no llega fácilmente,
me abandonaste, amor, antes de que pudiéramos dar el primer paso juntos como uno solo. no entendí, así que hice lo que sólo sabía. me fui de nuevo y tomamos caminos separados. pero eso no significa que no estuviera devastada.
durante meses, amor mió, eras todo lo que tenía en mente.
cerraría los ojos y tu rostro estaría allí, mientras tu voz resonaba en mis oídos.
supongo que realmente eres especial.
-
luego llegó febrero,
y volviste a la anarquía de mi vida.
me recogiste de hamilton y, con un amigo, nos aventuramos por la ciudad.
se intercambiaron palabras bajo los ojos de sol,
y hice lo mejor que pude para escuchar,
a pesar de la hipnosis de este maldito amor que me invade cada vez que hablas. solo desearía que supieras lo que me hiciste.
al final de la noche, declaramos hablar de nuevo, reavivar la llama.
y lo hicimos.
hablamos y esa llama en mi corazón se convirtió en un infierno de amor abrumador.
creo que finalmente reconociste mi amor por ti,
porque me expresaste una verdad que has albergado durante mucho tiempo.
crees que no eres lo suficientemente buena para mi. crees que me arrastraras hacia abajo.
amante, no podría estar más en contra de estos pensamientos que tienes.
déjame decirte, mi amor.
te mereces todo lo que hay en mi –
cada maldito pedazo de mi corazón, alma, mente, cuerpo y amor. te lo doy todo.
pero la elección es tuya, mi amor.
tienes que luchar contra tus demonios y cruzar el otro lado de la carretera – porque ahí es donde estoy, esperando.
mi amor y yo estamos aquí, esperándote.
ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
my love is here (waiting for you)
for chris
i was always hypnotized by you, darling, long before you became a man, i loved you.
when we stopped talking the first time, i tried to forget you.
i gave myself over to distractions and bad love.
which worked, because for years, my mind was empty of any memory of you.
then came the cinema on november 1st, my birthday –
it had been years since i saw you,
however, old feelings returned to my heart.
and i realized that now you are a man, not just the guy i liked back then – your voice became deeper,
your eyes had a purpose,
and your mouth spoke real words,
not the nonsense and curses we uttered back then.
after these observations, i knew that my love had been kindled again, only the flame was bigger than before.
i continued to follow that flame,
... and we start talking again,
forgetting the years that have passed between us. it was like we were young, wild, and free again.
as the days went by, the more i fell in love with you.
it became too much to bear,
so one day i opened my mouth and told you,
and you, my love, you responded by saying: “let’s try it.” i couldn’t have been happier.
but, as they say, happiness does not come easily.
you abandoned me, love, before we could take the first step together as one.
i didn’t understand, so i did what i only knew. i left again and we went our separate ways. but that doesn’t mean i wasn’t devastated.
for months, my love, you were all i had on my mind.
i would close my eyes and your face would be there, while your voice resonated in my ears. i guess you really are special.
–
then february came,
and you returned to the anarchy of my life.
you picked me up from hamilton and, with a friend, we ventured around the city. words were exchanged under the sun’s eyes,
and i did my best to listen,
despite the hypnosis of this damned love that invades me every time you speak. i just wish you knew what you did to me.
at the end of the night, we declare to speak again, to rekindle the flame.
and we did it.
we talked and that flame in my heart became an inferno of overwhelming love.
i think you finally recognized my love for you,
because you expressed to me a truth that you have harbored for a long time.
you think you’re not good enough for me. you think you’ll drag me down.
lover, i couldn’t be more against these thoughts you have.
let me tell you, my love.
you deserve everything that is in me –
every damn piece of my heart, soul, mind, body, and love. i give you everything.
but the choice is yours, my love.
you have to fight your demons and cross the other side of the road – because that’s where i am, waiting.
my love and i are here, waiting for you.
By Navya Modi
Navya Modi is a 16 year old girl from India who has loved writing since longer than she can remember. though she has been making up stories since she could speak, she started seriously writing at the age of 13, writing songs, and a year later she began writing poems as well. Her biggest inspiration and the reason she writes is Taylor Swift, whose art has taught her everything about writing. Besides writing, she also loves to crochet, play guitar, listen to music, and learn new things.
"These are some of my most vulnerable poems, and therefore they were the most easy to write. For me writing is nothing but a way to understand my own feelings and express them, and when I let writing just do its work, it just flows through me and I feel less like a writer and more like a medium for the art to exist through, and these are a few examples of it."
TEENAGE
Teenage, what is it?
Is it simply an age
and a time of drastic change?
Or is it a time in your life,
when you have too much going on.
You’re making special bonds,
ones you hope would last a lifetime,
but you can't yet tell truths from lies.
Or is it a time of immense pressure,
to make friends ,memories and filling teenage cliches,
all while getting straight A’s.
Pressure from your parents and pressure from your peers,
all of them saying completely different things,
and you just can't decide whom to listen to.
Or is it a time of intense emotions?
One second you’re touching the sky
the next you’re curled up on ur bed,
when you’re so fragile
that everything feels like the end.
Or is it a time of newness?
These things you have never witnessed,
love, freedom, a sense of maturity,
but to understand it all you’re a bit too naive.
Or is it a time of longing?
Longing for those days
when your biggest regret was
that you dried up your clay.
Or it could be for growing up,
and going out into the world.
Sure you’d have responsibilities and so much more hurt,
but at least you’d have that freedom
that you crave oh so much.
Or is it a time of planning
and preparing for the future,
choosing our careers
when we can't choose our purse.
Teenage, i’ll tell you what it is,
it's a time of immense loneliness
and asking “when me?”
When you don't wanna be a burden
cause you're wondering “will anyone understand me?”
And it's a limbo
between a kid and an adult,
where you’re too young or too old
but never just enough.
it's a time of high expectations,
yours’ and others’ from you,
It's everything I have mentioned above.
Or maybe it is just an age,
and i'm thinking way too much,
but tell me, fellow teenagers,
am I even close?
SUMMER POOL
It's the 5th day of summer,
I wanted to go for a swim,
So i go to the local pool
One that’s always full of ppl.
But as i change into my swimming set
And enter the water,
Suddenly it's empty and there’s no one around.
No one to help me from drowning when i accidentally go to the deep end,
The forbidden end,
One no one can return from
Unless they have a helping hand.
No one to tell me to leave the shallow end,
To leave the safe zone and finally have some fun.
As i swim more and more
I see faint shadows of a few ppl
But they disappear as i reach them,
In the end they lead me to the deep end,
The forbidden end,
One no one can return from
Unless they have a helping hand.
As i try to escape i realise,
The summer pool is my own life and mind.
From the outside its full of ppl having fun enjoying life,
But when i go near and look from inside
I'm all alone with no shoulder on which I can cry.
And this deep end is the depths of my loneliness in which i drown,
Because I don't have a helping hand to get me out.
Finally there i am, floating in the deep end,
The forbidden end,
One no one can return from
unless they have a helping hand.
Just floating and floating,
there in the summer pool.
WONDERLAND OF MY OWN
When I lay on my bed,
I spiral down a rabbit hole
A wonderland of my own
But there, there are no mad hatters
Or cakes that make me ten times my size
And no queens of heart, offing all the heads in sight
But there are clocks
Oh so many clocks
Some too fast, some too slow
Some that refuse to move at all
There is one
That moves at the right pace
But that one always seems to be out of reach
Some of them tell me “I’m too old”
I say “I’m just 15”
But they say “that’s 15 yrs too old”
others tell me to wait
“You’ll have ur time to shine
You’ll have all ur dreams
Living life in a movie”
But their voices are too faint
And I can barely hear them
As I’m questioning these clocks,
i drift off to sleep
and tomorrow
it's rinse repeat
By Roxie
"Hello :) I have always had a passion for writing but as I got older I had a lot of distractions and drifted away from it. I got back into writing when I was in a very painful place in my life, things felt like they were falling apart and I didn’t know where to channel that pain and that’s when I got back into writing. I have so much passion for writing and it helps me center myself when I am in a bad place. I have recently started writing my first short stories and would love to write more stories and even venture into different things like film and scriptwriting."
"A poem about the painful process of letting go "
I looked around me and there was nothing left
I kept holding onto the memories that were all around me in everyone i ever met
How could they move on so easily while i was left
In the space between starting fresh and an ending
I didn’t know what my life looked like next
I was scared of the unknown, I don’t want to start again
I hold onto the memories for comfort but they make me more depressed
I start to focus on myself and what do I really want
I feel lost because I can’t choose one thing, I look all around me and people have there things
I realise all i ever wanted was to be happy and live a life of peace
Why is there so much pressure to be anything
Maybe I am just me
Or maybe there are so many parts of my mind filled with creativity that I can’t find one thing
I’ve been trying to figure myself out for so long
Letting go made me want to find myself even more
To fill an empty hole
Maybe finding out who I am was never the problem
Maybe the problem was this hole that I was so desperate to fill
The emptiness it bought me was like a darkness taking over my body
It didn’t feel like it was a darkness that was mine
More like a darkness that was placed onto me
I realised we are all trying to find who we are to fill this emptiness
We have to be productive, we have to be doing something or else we will feel empty
But when you lie down on your bed at the end of the day and no one is there and you have no distractions
Does that emptiness come back?
Have you really filled the emptiness, or is it something inside of you that can’t be fixed with productivity
Do we ever really let go?
Do we ever heal?
Or is life full of distractions and productivity to make us think we have
How do we heal ourselves? From everything we’ve ever known
Well that is something I am still trying to know
So I can let go
By Amelie Baskova
Amelie is a very thoughtful and caring person. She feels so deeply and appreciates the people around her who love her. She loves to study and loves learning about new topics that interest her. She is a fashion enthusiast who loves everything about it. She always listens to music.
In a world where silence falls,
Nature's whispers, nature's calls.
Quiet reigns, a peaceful sight,
Embracing stillness, day and night.
In a tranquil realm, where hush prevails,
Earth's soft murmurs, its gentle tales.
Serenity's grasp, a tranquil scene,
Welcoming calm, in between.
By Calista Fathia
Calista Fathia, or often goes by Cállie, is an introverted girl who spends most her spare time writing poetry and prose. She dedicates most of her writings for her former and current lovers, former best friend/s, never-got-to-have crushes, and the cruel society.
"It was a very cathartic experience to be able to be open about my feelings in this poetry I wrote after reminiscing about a huge friendship breakup I didn’t know would happen at that time. Perhaps it was more than just platonic between me and her, but I guess a one-sided situation never ends well, don’t you think?
Nevertheless, besides all the gut-wrenching experiences I’ve experienced, I always embrace my melancholic side and turn it into my writing style instead. It is a blessing to feel everything so deeply—and it is also okay to feel too much at a time because that’s usually when the ideas will come to light."
The starlight shone its beam on your doe-eyed face
I could’ve sworn it was the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen—
for as long as I could remember
Your long, curly hair fell smoothly down your back like silk
and I could’ve caressed it
yet how foolish of me that I remained still
You looked at me like I was more to you
I looked at you like we had a chance
We didn’t break it to each other
but we knew
we had undeniable tension we always avoided to admit
We were just kids thinking our friendship stayed forever
Little did we know
we barely know each other now
and all that left is just a picture of us
I once promised to frame but never did
By Gargi Sidana
Gargi Sidana is a voracious reader and skilled writer from India. She had curated poems, fables and articles for the websites. Her poems were chosen in Spillword Press, Red Rose Thorns publication, Delhi poetry slam, Aether Avenue, Amar Ujala, Cosmic Inception, Manda Publication and Teesta Journal. She finds solace in her writings.
In the basement
Of the heart
Beckons the sound 'OM'
Revival of catastrophic division
Of the brain
Summon the vision of disillusion
Yes, I heard the echoes.
Latent in the walls/ crevices of
Bipolar mind's gate
Aesthetic and pristine;
Comforting and tranquil
Peace synchronizing the vocabulary
Vocabulary of anomaly, austere, artisan and Karvan of rhythmic mouth
Om has three words
अ, उ, म(letters of the Universe)
Enchanting in mauve shadows of Mount Kailash
Laughters of serene beauty,
Collision of the gracious web;
Intervened in the blob of the cosmic landscape
Abbreviations of OM
अ- अकार(मुख )
उ- उकार (वाणी)
म- मकार(प्राण)
By Olivia Carter-Stanley
Olivia (Liv) is a 14 year old young poet who posts on Instagram and Tiktok her journey and hopes to inspire many one day and really loves writing and reading poetry!
Now you feel -
and all you are.
A whist of shame.
One to feel different ;
one to feel unworthy,
but one to ponder.
Why am I different?
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This world,
contained of musts.
However just cripple to dust.
Just to see how it looks.
Discards lay around,
all heavy laying down - while on a ground.
Creating a hefty crow.
Do they shout out loud?
Should you trust?
Should you must?
Should this world be as this?
Or is it too heavily discarded.
By Justin Cadman
A newly experienced poet with a specific genre of writing about mental issues to act as a coping mechanism.
Crimson streams across my brow
Ounces of pain drip
Tremendous it is yet how
Flow increasing heavily, I'm afraid to trip
Hazy visions plague this mind of mine
Stained I become with the life-providing red
It'll turn out fine
I really should have much more dread
The ruptured flesh cries
Tears of ruby rain down below
Drowning it until it dies
It'll never make it out of this low
Envisioning the end transparently
As it's all dripping away
Occurring so quick and insane
Got to survive yet no time to pray
Legs become fragile and are numb
As they break from the pressure
For the pain to make them succumb
Due to the initiating fissure
Concrete seems dream worthy
Laying up on it seems perfect
Earth becoming so blurry
I'm unsure what to expect
Warmth encapsulates me
As I experience apoptosis
Beautiful light is all I see
I don't remember where my body is
Breathing has ceased
The brain no longer able to think
For I am now deceased
As that was the final blink
By Florina Konwar
She is an undergraduate student and loves to write short stories and seldomly poetries too.
"This poetry is my first ever work in social platform, it's about spring manifestation and nostalgic memories from yesteryears. Hope you love it."
Title - *The Spring's deja vu*
Behold! The majestic arrival;
The fragrance of fresh air,
Soft whispers of chroma
From nature's palette paints:
The azure sky,
Trees adorned with blossoms;
Frosty shroud shedding,
Flourishing with warm zephyrs;
Ah, the springtime energy!
In it's gentle breeze,
Swept up in the ecstasy,
Infusing rejuvenating aroma.
Ah, the spring breeze!
Whispers in our ears:
Does your memory stir?
The fragrance of memories,
Symphony of yesterspring,
Serenade tender melodies
From day of yore;
Nostalgic, isn't it!
Where echoes of time's embrace
Linger evermore.
By Bhoomi Lahoti
Bhoomi Lahoti, 17 this year. Always been into reading, started writing properly last year.
"This poem is about how the colours fade as we grow older, leaving us with a lifelong of grey. It is about the loss of the wonder."
I have grown older, I guess I have changed,
Not scared of the dark anymore, it's comforting like a friend.
The rose tinted glasses are off and away,
I don't know if I am jaded or if the world is grey.
I look forward to the end of the day, barely making it through,
I wonder if the younger me, who refused to go to bed early, will believe it to be true.
She, who was the younger me, was motivated,
She did things properly, even the ones she hated.
I want her advice sometimes, I want to send her a letter,
I want to tell her to ignore the things that made her deter.
I will never be as good as her, but I like to think I am better,
She cared too much, even about the things that didn't matter.
But all the things she experienced are the ones that made her me.
So I have to believe that I am better, because what else is to be?
If I am not, if I am not getting better as the time passes,
What would even be the point of taking off the rose-tinted glasses.
By Bruce Reisner
Bruce Reisner is a senior citizen artist/writer living in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. His poems, essays and fiction have appeared in many online lit mags.
Sane People in Zanesville
My beloved Fifi has been bioengineered to breed only with small dogs in what I (and Fifi) believe is our social class. She is a Toy Beach Haze Poodle, and has been bred for an exceptional and specialized libido, set permanently on level 2 out of 10. The dogs don’t hump anything. They make love after a lunch date with dog owners. Small gifts are exchanged. Both sides say sweet nothings in both dog’s ears. People exchange recipes. Lasting friendships by snail mail. Shown photos of the dogs she sired, Fifi says, “Thank you for this opportunity to be part of the eugenics program you have been working in the back of your ‘87 conversion van. “
Gratitude can be bred in, or out, of doggie gene pools. If my skill exceeds that of some sinful institution, and people don’t care, Fifi is an egalitarian capable of love. Ffi has a normal lust for life. I don’t have to explain myself to a dog, beyond an obligation to be humane, and that’s not much next to true love, and that’s the case with me and Fifi. No shit about love. But a dog has to be bred for our tragic short term planning. Were we all not packed like sardines in shitty little micro apartments, we might be breeding large dogs with lovely dispositions. I’m sorry, Fifi. I meant nothing with that comment about size. Your’re fine the way you are. You’re better than a Great Dane. Size has nothing to do with it.
By Ritikaa Chakraborty
Ritikaa Chakraborty is a 17 year girl and a student who writes about her daily situations and feelings.
It's strange to see the universe move on,
I can't speak
Everything I know is telling me just open your mouth, free your hands and form words.
You're the whisper that makes me look back,
Barely sound, but I'm here.
Just stay here always keep my promise.
If you stay, I'll stay too.
By Marie Cloutier
Marie Cloutier (she/her) is a writer and poet. Her work has been published in Scribes Micro, Bare Back Literary, and elsewhere. She is at work on a memoir. Connect with her on her website, www.mariecloutier.com.
I Can Count
The cat's plastic face says I Can Count.
I bought the calculator with a bracelet of fake pearls
from a yard sale, traded for it the third grade,
with another little girl.
just white numbers on a red plastic case.
nothing anyone but me needed.
but it doesn't matter if I needed
it or not. I was good at math; I could count
on my own. I carried around in case
I wanted to show it off, like my pearls,
but better. Many of us little girls
didn't care about the kind of grades
on report cards, just the grades
we gave each other. We needed
things for our third grade girl
pride. You weren't going to count
with old shoes and tacky pearls,
or an out of style pencil case.
it stayed with me for years, in any case,
that calculator I got back in third grade.
I still have it today, alongside real pearls,
other things to bring joy I need,
and now that collection, too large to count,
includes some thing definitely not meant for girls.
but people judge you. "That's for little girls"-
your plushes, pencils, toaster, even the pink CD case
with your favorite cat on the front, counting
all the ways you've failed to make the grade
as a woman, failed to do what they think you need,
be the grownup in a twinset and wedding pearls.
now I know better which pearls
of wisdom to accept, better than the girl
who let someone else tell her what she needs
to be happy. Now I keep it to make the case
that joy is its own reward, that nobody gives out grades
or the right to say "I can count."
By Josie Griffiths
Josie Griffiths is a 16 year old aspiring writer, interested in History, Philosophy, Literature, and Art.
I told you I'd die for you, and here we are.
There is a blade in my chest,
Do you even realize there is a dagger in your hand?
I lay at your feet, a corpse of your misery
And still you don't see me.
You’ve cut up my heart, and I'm bleeding out.
Do you smell the iron?
Do you see the red stains on your hands?
I hope it's a pretty sight, something that pleases you
Your eyes aren’t on mine, but there's a smile to my lips.
You’ve disassembled me,
I’ll be with you forever - trapped in a transcendental place.
Even in death I can't escape it, the sting of your kiss
But oh its holy: how I am yours
By Dia
child's put to rest when sick
While an adult's sickness is just ignored
An adult feels it all
While child plays a joke
Not till it's seen
One hears the scream
Till the sickness turns to rage
and he is told an irate cage
Till the jokes laughed about
Is a goodbye on page
~Dia
By Ty-Rean Foster
Ty-Rean is very extroverted, she enjoys meeting new people and having conversations and is always open to trying new things. Her friends call her the therapist friend and often tell her she gives the best advice, comfort and hugs. She writes when she has a moment to breathe and take a break or when she needs an escape from her busy reality. She finds time for her passion (poetry) as it is something that means a lot to her.
"Everything I write starts with a small thought, sometimes it stems from the past, others times it’s just existing thoughts from that very moment."
I grew up on the painted streets of New York. All walls and buildings covered in vibrant colours of cultured vandalism. When I was little I used to follow and trace the lines with the tip of my finger for hours. I would sit and build little rock monsters and make them battle with one another until they were displaced little pebbles again.
If I wasn’t doing that, I was at the homeless shelter. I was there to sleep, eat a can of tuna or refried beans from the donation bin and stay somewhat warm.
I was mocked, and laughed at. The rich kids would throw dirt at me and point and whisper to their pearl wearing parents as they walked by. I wished, more than anything, that I could be like them. I just wanted to be loved unconditionally by someone or something, for once, I wanted to feel like I had a home.
1. There was this one girl that I will never forget. Her hair was almost a dark blonde. The perfect mix of brown and blonde tones throughout. Her smile was captivating, her eyes smiled too. When we were really young, she used to come up to me every morning on her way to school and high five me. I thought it was the weirdest thing, until it became a daily ritual.
Wake up, put on yesterdays clothes, find something to eat, build my monsters and wait for her. And there she would be, everyday, without fail. Until, she moved schools. She stopped showing up, she never came back. I felt lost within myself. She was the one thing I could count on, the one stable piece in my environment.
I think I loved her from a very young age.
She was my first love. And she came back. She was older and so was I. I was still in the same spot, I remained there, I waited there for her to come back. I was adding to the art pieces near the shelter, adding shades of yellow and blue and purple. She tapped me on the shoulder, said hello, and raised her hand. I knew it was her. I felt whole again.
I think I loved her from a very young age.
And now I get to love her forever.
I folded the piece of paper back into a square and tucked it away in my hand. I watched the tears arise in her eyes.
“I now pronounce you, husband and wife.”
2. you are so addicting.
your lips,
the way you taste
when our tongues intertwine.
i can’t seem to get enough,
of you,
your taste,
your love.
It’s addicting.
-my drug
3. i grew up in a home that never truly felt like a home.
actually,
i grew up in several.
ones littered with beer cans and bottles
others with walls that held in our secrets
some with screaming matches
many with silent tears
yes, always with four walls and a roof,
but all without love.
-not a home
By Ivan Ling
Ivan Ling is currently residing in Malaysia. He is also an Editor for Sunway University Press and has published poems under Particle Magazine (Issue 18 and 20), book reviews (in SARE: Southeast Asian Review of English and MMOJ: Men Matters Online Journal) and recently a journal article under Creative Flight.
Fragmented (Title)
Under this table lamp, a dewdrop
dangles from the underside
of a donkey’s ear; memories
made it heavier, harder to cling onto,
and drops—
plunges into the pool,
ripples scatter upon its surface;
each of fragmented memory.
Noises still as a quintuplet
of fuchsia petals bathed ankle-deep
within the shallow embrace of rain water.
Broken-off leaves drizzled
in spring air—
in the arms of autumn colours,
warm under a basking sun.
The Asian Koel perched
on the acacia branch, cooed
for the sunrise, a call
for a listener, as his heart
sang sorrow.
You, who manipulated weather (Title)
What if I told you
rain became snow
whenever I was with you?
It was always
snowflake drizzle
as we sat across each other.
It was cold but beautiful,
a scene etched behind my eyes
even when we said our goodbyes.
That one time,
even when all ended
did I tell you?
How the sky kept crying
but every teardrop
became a snowflake
waltzing slowly to the pavement,
turning into a puddle on contact.
Would you believe me,
even if I told you
rain still turned to snow,
when you are no longer here.
By Raine Peh Tian Xin
she is a very optimistic person, never letting the hardships in her life bring her down. writing has always been her source of expression. being able to write is a gift to her and she wishes to continue writing to inspire others.
"i never truly felt like i belonged anywhere. writing has always been my safe space so this writing is about how i feel about all the people i have met in my life."
i fall in love a little with everyone around me. my heart skips a beat when i feel a connection. i used to think i could call myself a friend to most but i am merely just there to love.
i could think of plenty of situations where i’ve felt more than what is considered platonic. i could list it down for you but that would take forever. i’ve fallen in love with everyone around me.
i don't mean to say that to scare you. i just hope to convey the meaning behind my words, that you are worthy of love. people around you may have shown that you were not but my very existence proves that you can be loved and that you should be celebrated.
i fall in love with the way you try your hardest and never give up. i fall in love with how your confidence never wavers. i fall in love with the sound of your laugh. i fall in love with the way you would hold me tightly when you are excited or nervous. i fall in love with the way your nose scrunches when you're confused. i fall in love with your kindness for others. i fall in love with the way you ramble about your favourite stories.
i fall in love with the way you cry because god even then you're still beautiful. i fall in love with the way you choose to love even when people have repeatedly shown you not to. i fall in love with the way you can get quiet in a crowded room. i fall in love in a way where you sing off key to your favourite song. i fall in love with the way you’d dance in the rain and disregard the whole other world.
i fall in love in the way that i can feel my heart thumping over and over again when you look me in the eyes. i fall in love in the way my soul feels the calmest around you. i fall in love with you because you felt safe enough to show me who you were, not the person you pretend to be but the real you.
i’ve fallen in love with every single person i met because i don't believe that there is nothing about you to love that you believe so. i could hardly call this love i have for you platonic because my love for you never had a limit. i crave to hold you in my arms when you're having a hard day. sometimes it's the way you look at me and my heart swells even more.
please don't call me a friend because i don't think i was ever meant to just be your friend. i was just meant to love. to be the one to show you the love you deserved.
By Zye Jimena
"it's about grieving some loved ones from your past or not being able to move on"
05-04-24
Title: Looking Back
You can never really speak
If it doesn't touch your beak,
Only roll back your eyes
Go round as if it were a dice
Dwelling on your loss
Won't make a coin flip or toss
The world won't end for your past
But the present dictates the time you'll last
There's no vehicle for going back
Only a mattress to all that we lack
Matters that shouldn't crash you into sand
You tightly hold the piece of wand
-
11-01-23
Title: Box
a look at your lengthy box
pull my excruciating thoughts
i buried with not-so-happy songs
to heal my body's entire wounds
a glimpse at your pic
reminds me of a tragic
coz when I'm ecstatic
You show me tricks of magic
a flower bouquet beside
extrude my tear to drop or slide
not because of being happy
but by reminiscing your memory
hope to find the key
to the exit of your memory
and not remember this as a tragedy
but as a brand new chapter for me
-
10-31-23
Title: Close to Numb
While overlooking, out of the hue
There's inside throbbing; it felt rough.
My eyes are watery.
Everything seems dizzy.
Had gash on a razor-sharped knife by you
By Manakhi Sharma
A love's reflection
In the depths of her eyes, a world unfurls,
Where untold stories and dreams are twirled.
With a radiant light, they gleam and shine,
Guiding me, day and night, with love divine.
Like stars in the night sky, they twinkle and glow,
Holding secrets, only they truly know.
Captivating and deep, they draw me near,
Revealing her soul, so crystal clear.
With each glance, they speak a thousand words,
Emotions dancing, like melodies of birds.
They hold the power to ignite and inspire,
Her gaze, a captivating and enchanting fire.
Her eyes reflect the beauty within her heart,
A masterpiece, a true work of art.
In their depths, I find solace and grace,
Forever lost in their enchanting embrace.
By Manakhi Sharma
In the depths of my heart, a love so true,
Patiently waiting, just for you.
Through moments of jealousy and doubt,
I choose to stay, for love's what it's about.
Insecurities may cloud my mind,
But in my heart, you I'll always find.
I'll wait for you, through thick and thin,
Hoping one day, your heart I'll win.
My love for you, pure and sincere,
Eternal and constant, year after year.
I'll show you through actions, not just words,
My devotion to you, like singing birds.
So take your time, I'll be here,
To hold you close, to wipe your tear.
For in this waiting, my love grows strong,
Hoping one day, you'll come along.
I'll wait for you, my love so deep,
In my heart, forever you'll keep.
Know that my love for you will never part,
Patiently waiting for your accepting heart.
By Nimra Khanum
A creative person trying to create art.
and in the fear of becoming like them,
we became them,
in the rage that ran through our veins,
in the grudges our shoulder beheld,
in the agony we went through,
in the ugliness we faced,
and although we said;
"I'll never become like them"
we become a clone of them,
just as ugly as they were from the inside,
just as angry as they were on the people who made them went through all those horrible things,
until they had nothing but pure rage roaring within themselves,
as it was an inheritance from the wicked ancestors,
we became them,
as,
"we became what we hate, eventually"
By Chhavi Kapoor
Chhavi is a writer who shares a piece of her heart in everything she writes. Her words are straight out of her life and linked to her personal experience on paper. She loves poetry because there is no correct way to read or write it. One can just be themselves.
Of all the moments I have spent with my mother
I still remember my 8 y/o self on the rooftop
astonished, when she told me
those airplanes in the night sky were shooting stars.
Indeed, mothers always excel at crafting perfection
subtly concealed beneath their intricately embellished 𝘥𝘶𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘢𝘴.
A mother speaks like a musical cuckoo on a
chilly morning with spring flowers
complimenting her ornaments.
Except she stutters talking about the
silent echo stitched at the boundary of her heart.
A mother works like a passionate gardener who
caresses the flowers as her own child.
Except she stops at the part about sowing her
dreams as seeds in the roily soil.
A mother writes like the love letters—
from the moon— to his beloved lovers on earth.
Except she loses the glowing letters
somewhere in the books of obligation she
gets as gift for marrying.
A mother sounds like the anklet that chimes
around the ankles of honey-coloured sunsets.
Except she wraps her 𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪 with the crammed noises draped around her.
A mother feels like the petite grainy sunlight
squinting from the crystal window
in our bedrooms.
Except she is incapable of distinguishing
the 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘰𝘳 on her forehead
from the spattered droplets of blood, when touched upon.
A mother is born every time
a woman walks through fire or flame,
every time a warrior kisses
the gentle hands of his wife after the war,
Every time a pain soothes away from a child's eye,
Every time a heart buries upon
a warm hug in a woman's arms,
Every time a person sees hope in twinkling stars.
every time.... every time... every time...
By Filipa Machado Gomes
Filipa Gomes is a Portuguese teenage girl who has an insatiable thirst for writing stories, and her dream is to become a recognized author. She always escaped reality through the pages of horror novels. At the age of 12, she won 1st place in a small writing contest at her school, which encouraged her to write even more. Her favorite hobby, other than writing, is listening to music, and she hopes that she can learn how to play the electric guitar in the future. She's a little introverted and lives in a small town, but more important than that, she has hope to achieve her dreams.
Whispers of my Heart
As you damage me with your words, silently my heart hurts.
I just wish you were kinder and less blind.
I wish I could tell you how I feel, maybe if it wasn't a sin, maybe it would be better if I never saw you as my soulmate, my twin.
I guess it's my fault, I put a lot of expectations in everything, everything that I care about.
But I just wish I told you "I love you" because I did, and I still do, more than anything, with no doubt.
You loved someone else, and I wish you the happiest life ever, but I feel sad, more than sad, depressed.
You used to treat me normally, and it was so amazing that I thought you were different, but you're just like the rest.
I actually also thought I was going to be with you forever because that was my biggest wish, and maybe it would work, if only the silence between us wasn't so awkward.
I have lots of thoughts as you can see, but the ones about you are the only ones that matter to me.
I just wish you knew, I wish you were actually here with me, but I guess things happen, and I wish you could see.
I wish you could see and feel my heart, and I wish that you knew that I could give it to you, but now it's way too late because you're someone new.
And I will always miss the old version of you, even though I've only truly known it for a few months.
Talking to you was like a breath of the sea breeze, and you probably don't have a clue, do you?
You are still an incredible person, but you're treating me differently, in a bad way.
I don't know what has gotten into your mind; it's like you're trying to leave me behind and go on with your life with people who don't care about you like I do.
I'm not forcing you to be with me, it's nothing like that.
I shouldn't have gotten so emotionally attached, now you think I'm weird, and my flaws are everything you look at.
Not only flaws in my appearance but everything I fail to succeed, even though I've always had this need, the need for you to see me as a person, for you and everyone to take me seriously.
We used to be so alike, and we had the same mentality.
I don't get it, I still wish for you to come back, every day and night.
Maybe someday you will return, even though you aren't really gone, at least not yet, but you changed a lot, and that I'll never forget.
I'll never forget all the amazing things we did together, and the fact we share the same interests, the same musical taste, and everything I can think of.
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, and even though you only saw me as a dumb friend, I saw you as my first love, and you'll always mean everything to me.
And that's the problem.
By Emma Bidlen
Emma Bidlen is a 9th grade student who has been writing poetry for three years now. She has won 1st in her district for the Young Georgia Authors writing competition and 2nd place in the state of Georgia in the Junior BETA poetry competition. Emma loves to read and write and often bases her work on events in her life.
Stay. By Emma Kay
For as long as I can remember,
I’ve stood here in the footnotes of your life,
Prominent enough for a mention,
But never enough for a chapter in your story.
Here I am today,
Thinking I’ll finally mean something to you,
Knowing deep down I’ll have to say goodbye again.
I drown out the thought with laughter and smiles,
But eventually, in the deep of the night,
My own twisted mind sends me spiraling.
The days ticking down like minutes on a clock,
This overwhelming pit in my stomach is
A lasting reminder that you aren’t here to stay.
And I want to break down.
I want to scream and cry and beg,
Wish on every star you’ve hung
And every dandelion you’ve planted,
Anything to make you stay.
To make me enough for you.
But at the end of the day,
I know that not even my bleeding heart
Spilling at your feet and begging for your attention
Will change your mind.
So I’ll stay here,
Wasting away inside,
Laughing vacantly on the outside,
Fooling you over and over,
Awaiting the day you walk out again.
When will I be enough for you to stay?
By S.K. Sanjana
S.K. Sanjana, a spirited and goal-oriented teenager, finding her way through the realms of grade 10. Juggling academics and athleticism, she harbors a tiny crush for literature, her heart dancing to its rhythms. Yet amidst her determination, Sanjana remains uncertain about college, career, and passion, embracing the rollercoaster of teenhood with a puzzled grin.
"My poetry often explores themes of self-doubt, societal pressure, and the struggle to meet expectations. In "Never Enough", I grapple with feelings of inadequacy and impostor syndrome, reflecting on the relentless pressure to perform and conform to societal standards. Despite the desire for serendipity, or unexpected joy and fulfillment, the weight of expectations makes it difficult to find positivity or delight in life's moments. The poem captures the longing for a sense of fulfillment and the pervasive feeling of never being "enough" in the eyes of society."
I am no genius,
It took me long enough to spell it out to us. I feel like a fraud, a phony, a fake,
I am not able to give what it takes.
Is it ever going to feel enough?
I want to go back,
But I know that I don't fit in that stack. My thoughts no longer rest,
I am unable to get it off my chest.
Is it ever going to feel enough?
It is exhausting, we are just 14 and have our brains tested to be put in a criteria, if your performance is good, the bars are raised higher,
they keep saying the sky is the limit, but the bars keep rising.
We are just kids, turning 15, becoming self-aware,
Learning to think, observing, and seeing how life moves.
If your performance is not up to societal standards,
You are put into the benchmark, constant comparison,
fighting to beat time, gain marks, and turn your friends into enemies.
Many of us lost the joy in the things we do.
I recently saw a kid smiling while sprinting,
It’s been a while since I enjoyed my run, my marks, my thoughts.
My biggest fear, you ask,
Disappointing my parents, to the ultimate point where they regret my birth.
How much I do wish, that I could’ve died that night.
A momentary death, an insignificant one.
I am never going to feel enough.
By Jordan Wortman
Jordan is a 15 year old girl from Branson, MO. She enjoys writing, reading, and participating in Speech and Debate tournaments; she broke the record of the youngest student to become President of her team as a Freshman Novice. She hopes to attend the University of Washington when she graduates to become a forensic psychologist.
"This short story started out as a free write in a middle school English class years ago, and honestly I wasn't really thinking about what I was putting down. I just had a small spark of an idea, and my fingers did the rest. I never intended for it to be "all that" but after I finished I read through and realized it was probably one of my favorite pieces I had written up until that point. Since then I've cherished it, and shared it whenever possible."
It was my first year attending the summer kickoff bash at the FHS "party house". I’ve never been popular, and only the school's elite get invited. I just got lucky because I happened to be the reason Alexis Wright aced her finals. I may have helped her out a bit. Of course, once I got there, Alexis abandoned me, but that was to be expected. So I just sat there on the couch, sipping on the spiked punch, pretending not to notice the harsh taste. At that point, I simply didn’t care. The loud music was rattling my brain, and I couldn’t focus, let alone enjoy myself. Maybe if I had brought some earplugs, I wouldn’t have left early that night.
My feet are sore, and I can barely stand up straight. My only light source is the moon, as I’m attempting to stumble my way home. My soiled Converse are in one hand, ruined by my own stomach contents, and my phone is in the other. It died hours ago, so its basically useless. As I turn the corner by the gas station, I hear a scuffle of feet on the pavement behind me. I whip around, and find no one. I’ve always been superstitious, but this is just my head getting to me…
Evan..
The wind whispers my name, and I stop dead in my tracks. My blood runs cold. I turn around once again, slowly this time, and see a shadowy figure duck behind a bush. I run over to try and catch the juvenile culprit. I expected to find one of the annoying neighbor kids, but again I found nothing. This can’t be just me… I risk straying away from the street lamp and turn back to continue my trek. I attempt to walk at a faster pace, which wasn’t the easiest thing task considering the state that my feet are in. Honestly, just forget it. I start to run. It hurts, but not as bad as whatever might happen if I don’t. I feel an icy hand on my shoulder, and a harsh cold breeze blow behind me. I keep going, forcing myself to shut my eyes.
“Evan, Evan, Evan, Evan, Evan, Evan, open your eyes Evan, you know you want to”
The wind is taunting me now, I can’t think straight, I have to get home. All of a sudden, I feel a harsh yank on my lopsided ponytail, and I fall straight on my back. The figure looms over my body, and it’s the last thing I see before I black out.
. . .
My head is absolutely pounding, and I try to put my hand to my forehead but something is holding me back. I look down at my arms, and they’re held down by restraints at both of my sides. The room smells like harsh chemicals, and the walls are painted a blinding white. I sit up as much as I can, and look around. The tile on the floor looks unusually clean and cold. On the wall opposite to me, there is a canvas picture of a field covered in flowers; and above the door is a clock with a metal caging over it. A singular lonely chair sits in the corner, made of maroon faux leather, the kind you see in hotels. I take a closer look and see that the legs of the chair are bolted to the ground. I hear the door handle jiggle, a key being inserted into the lock. I hold my breath. The creaky door slowly opens, and in walks a pretty lady in powder blue scrubs.
“Oh, Ms. Barlowe, you’re awake. It’s time for your meds and lunch”
“My what?” I’m confused, and I shrink away from her as she walks towards me.
“Your meds, of course. It's noon.” I take note of the food cart in the hallway behind her, tray lunches stacked and labeled. She places a tray at the foot of my bed, and unlatches my wrist restraints. They’re red and sore from my struggle to be free of them. I cautiously reach down and open the lid. Salisbury steak, potatoes, and mushy carrots and peas. Looks like something I would get at school, slop. And next to my food, is a small cup with multiple pills in it. Two small white ones, a blue one, and an orange one.
“What are these?” I shake the cup to get a better look.
“Chlorpromazine, Vilazodone, and Lamotrigine. Same as always. Now go on, take them.” She hands me a plastic cup with room-temperature water. I shakily raise the cup to my lips, and swallow. “Good job, now eat up” She turns to walk out of the room.
“Wait. Where am I exactly?” The nurse furrows her brow
“Greenway Behavioral Health unit. Ms. Barlowe, did you take your morning meds?” I don’t remember waking up here earlier this morning, much less do I remember taking any kind of medication. But I just nod my head anyways. “Hm..I’m going to go ahead and schedule an early appointment with Dr. Crost.” She says with a furrowed brow as she closes the heavy door behind her. A click of a latch tells me that she locked it too. I take my plastic silverware in hand and stir my dry mashed potatoes, trying to build up the courage to take a bite. The meat is gray, and cold in the middle. But I can’t ask for much I suppose. I push the tray back to the end of the bed and stand up. The tile is freezing on my bare feet. I look around once again, and notice a pair of socks draped over my headboard. They’re the kind that have the grippy rubber pieces on the bottom to keep you from slipping. I’ve officially made it to the nuthouse.
“So, Evangeline, how’ve you been feeling?” Dr. Crost asks, in a monotone voice.
“Evan, please. And I suppose I can’t exactly say I’ve been good, considering where I’m at.” I look down at my hands, and start picking at my nails.
“Would you like to tell me what’s been going on? How do you think your treatments have been going.” He fixes his square glasses, pushing them up on his large nose. He has a clipboard in his lap, with a hospital-issued pen in hand.
“The thing is, I’m not sure. I think I’ve just gone insane…” Dr. Crost lets out a sinister, hollow laugh; For a moment his face seems to contort. But just as soon as the expression came, it left
“Well, maybe. But that’s alright, we’re going to make you all better.” I get a gut feeling that is not what is going to happen while I'm here, but I simply nod.
By Nellie
Nellie is a 17-year-old immigrant currently living in Canada. She is deeply passionate about writing and she believes that in her poetry, she can express herself and articulate the truths that reside in her heart. She is inspired by the Persian poet Rumi and this poem delves into themes of isolation and inner turmoil.
Are you still here ?
I am standing there
on that narrow road
on that dark road
raindrops are sliding on my skin
other drops from my eyes, uncontrollable drops
the drops that revealed something I couldn’t express
Are you still here?
I can't trust my eyes
they don't listen to me
they don’t listen to anyone
they only depict my inner reality
Are you still here?
this road is dark
those drops have blurred my vision
my hands are cold and numb
with what strength am I still standing?
have I lost my mind or are you still here?
I can't stand anymore
I am sitting on my knees
but I can still look at you
you are still standing
I feel the cold
I look at my hands
I want to come to you
but I don't have the strength
I know that your hands are warm
I know that you can help me
but why don't you take my hands?
why don't you come to me?
so you are still here
I have lost my mind
You're still here
By Blanka Pillár
Blanka Pillár is a seventeen-year-old writer from Budapest, Hungary. She has a never-ending love for creating and an ever-lasting passion for learning. She has won several national competitions and has been an editor-in-chief of her high school’s prestigious newspaper, Eötvös Diák. Today, she is not throwing away her shot.
Scenery
I forgive him for the little lies. The little fibs that slip away and the broken promises that go unkept. He always tells the same lies, and sometimes I believe him because the story paints
itself like a vivid oil portrait; first, the figures are painted, then the background, then the
corners, edges, contours, and finally, it becomes as if it were a real scene on the canvas of life, but only the immensity of human imagination has made what could never be real. It tells me what I most desire, so I reach for it with all my heart, stretching out my soul's arms to preserve all his lips whisper and hold it within me for eternity. I love him with all my heart, but when my reality is keen-eyed, it sometimes smells like the scratch of jagged-edged infidelities in the dawning light or the wistful night. The cold realization slips into bed
beside me or touches me as I walk.
Today we take it into our heads to walk around the riverbank. We get caught in the cool
January breeze, and he starts coughing. I take off my thin pink cotton scarf and wrap it
around his neck with careful movements. He gives me a weak half-smile and walks on. My chest gets hot, even though my whole body is shivering from the winter's minus temperatures.
Sometimes we stop. We look at the broken-legged seagulls on the slippery waterfront stones,
the sloppy sidewalk ahead, and the footprints of giddy pedestrians. He rubs his hand as we spy on one of the old buildings covered in melted snow. His fingertips are almost purple, so I tug
off my black fabric gloves and slip them on his frosty palms. He thanks me quietly. His silent
words creep into my consciousness like angelically soft notes, wrapping my trembling body in a gentle embrace.
Barely perceptible, the milky-white sky opens, and it drizzles, but we are unperturbed. We sit on a stinging bench and stare silently at the glistening toes of our wet boots as they tread the snowy ground before us. Somewhere in the distance, expensive hand-painted plates clink, light pages of newspapers crinkle in the city breeze, the iron bells of a dilapidated church jingle, and a delicious golden-skinned duck in a warm oven is being prepared. I feel him move beside me, and I put my head down. He sways back and forth with folded arms while tiny particles of dripping snowfall on his knitted flame-red Angora sweater. I slip my thin arms out of my expensive loden-lined coat and place them on his back. He looks me in the eye. My tongue curls and confesses at seeing his delicately delineated perfect face. It humbly admits the truth it has admitted so many times before and hopes. It hopes that, for once, its love's answer will not be a lie. But once again, he replies, I love you too. I-love-you. He utters this gracious lie delicately. The first syllable is trust, the second is passion, and the third is loyalty. He feels none of these, yet he testifies to them. He savors the shape of the voice. First bitter, then sour, then finally swallowed. After all, it's only one word. But for me, it's so much more: I put myself in his hands.
Maybe that's not how it all happened. I've been sick for a while now; my lungs are weak from
the January freeze. Every time I close my eyes, I try to remember our last story. Embellish it,
add to it, rearrange it, change it. Maybe one day I'll grind it to perfection, and that word won't
ring so false. Or the memory will turn yellow, like old letterhead, and no longer matter. Or maybe ‘‘I love you’’ will become just another fluffy word to be whispered in the harsh winter, bored, picked up by the wind, carried far away, across the world, to where it means nothing.
Far from the eager, greedy arms of my soul.
February
Somewhere there was a crossroads near the border, in a smoky child's face with round eyes. Low blue and yellow brick houses and dark green pine trees surrounded it, and in summer, the purple statices opened in the garden, in spring, the hot sunlight stretched across the forest canopy. The first memory of round eyes was of this landscape, where years of warm embraces and happy barks were repeated over and over again. They called this place Life; it was as they imagined the world of fairy tales. Until now.
Something shook the earth. It shuddered, deep and angry, as if the grey sky had fallen. Morning dew covers the blades of grass, and a thick mist has descended on the cool ground; even the air is swirling backward, and the birds are flying far away. They run out of the brick house and stare at the Thursday shadows. The button eyes watch as all the spring, summer, autumn, and winter gather in two grey canvas bags, as the faltering zipper is pulled on the resin-scented warm wool sweaters and the smiling stuffed elephants, as the Mother and Father pray in whispers, as they lock the door of Life without a key. Lacking a vehicle, they walk away from the crossroads, the low blue and yellow brick houses, the dark green pines, the purple statices, and the memory of warm embraces and happy barks. The round child's face fills with hot tears, with the helpless sorrow of incomprehension and lack. She doesn't know where the touch of silky grey dog-tails and the fresh scent of the short-cut lawn has gone; before her and behind her lies an endless sea of concrete surrounded by barren trees. All around her, words she had never heard before, harder-sounding names of unfamiliar places are repeated with terrified powerlessness in their voices.
Meanwhile, the time's arrow marches on, the wind picks up, and the horizon bends to dark blue. The Mother takes a brown bun from her canvas bag, caresses the child's cold face, and then holds the tiny body close to her, cradling it and humming the song she used to sing when the family was ill. The melody rings sweetly, filling the lonely night and drowning out the deafening noise of strangeness.
Twilight and dawn meet; the dust is heavier on the feet, and the eyes look wearily into the bare winter. Farther lies Life than the round eyes and the darkening child's face could possibly look back.
They can only guess where they are going as they leave fading footprints on the edge of towns, hoping to cross something larger soon. They dare only believe that the sun will come out the next day, that there will be night, and that the clear sky stars will shine with the same piercing light.
By Hermes
Hermes has been writing poetry for over a year now, and is actively trying to improve. His poems are mostly catered to his feelings, his life and his problems. Hermes likes writing poetry as albums, like a music album, planning out how each poem in each album would be written. He has written several albums all relating to his journey through life as well as the troubles he faces. Hermes hopes to one day publish his work and help similar poets become courageous in expressing themselves as he has.
"This is a poem that I wrote a little over a year ago, near the start of my poetry journey. This poem was based off the idea of morals and religions, with certain aspects directly relating to Islam and Christianity. This poem is a part of my album; Absence, which consists of poems relating to the absence of certain things in my life, which in this case would be my soul or morality. I recognize it's not amazing, but I like to think it was a good start to my writing journey. I hope you enjoy reading this poem as much as I enjoyed writing it!"
Filled to the brim, my soul has empathy
Nothing in between, my soul dispenses sympathy
No room for nothin’ else, my soul can be seen as pretty
But with no air bubbles, my soul is actually empty
I say it again that my soul is misjudged
Munkar tells me that my soul must repent
I ask how to find my soul when I'm in this dud
Nakir tells me my soul has no closure without an end
Into the darkness, my soul is plunged to find forgiveness
My sole existence, my soul is to be empowered by mindedness
Though slim the chances are, my soul can be forgiven
But only if I allow it, my soul might need to strengthen
And for that to occur, my soul needs an anchor
An anchor to chain my soul and make it a weapon
Chastity will be needed, my soul has that already
Humility is present, my soul cannot be messy
Charity can be found, my soul must always be ready
Patience is demanded, my soul deems it necessary
Kindness will prove important, my soul might get teary
Diligence is counted, my soul will have all and any
Temperance shall be included, my soul needs all and any
With a powerful stab, my soul Azrael shall carry
By Mallory
Mallory is a soldier. Undoubtedly misfortuned. Severely fond of the rain.
"I'm certain that glasses are a divine creation."
It's that sort of happiness you only feel when you eat something your mother used to cook for you as a child or when you have a rain shower.
It's hard to explain. It's just that when I take off my glasses and put them back on and I can compare what I saw before with what I can see now, it's like I'm a kid again -- for now I can see the world like I did when I was eight and light-hearted, before myopia and many other things equally concerning appeared.
And I may seem silly and mental to most people, but when I put on these lovely glasses for the first time and was able to perfectly, effortlessly read what was written on the television inside the optics, I laughed like I was a little girl with bruised knees and missing teeth again.
I can see the grains of litter in my cat's litter box and I can see the features of people's faces and I can see numbers above doors or engraved on construction equipment and I can read transit plates and I can watch the mountains through my kitchen window and I understand the words on the board and I can see the lights on top of the graves in the cemetery and sometimes being alive isn't so bad, after all. I can see the deep green in these trees so clearly that, if I concentrate hard enough, I can see the thick forest I had near my childhood home. It's all so magical and new and yet so real and familiar.
By Raymond Trunk
Raymond Trunk is a student poet and writer based in New Jersey. He serves as a literary editor on his school’s literary magazine and runs his own student artwork critique group. In his free time, he enjoys diving into new novels, mismanaging his time, and whimsically hopping between new hobbies.
"Brevity has always intrigued me. The careful interplay between words and the nuances of each one that carefully go into the creation of a larger, woven narrative captivates me endlessly. I try to emulate that same feeling in my writing, with recent inspirations of galactic and celestial themes being interwoven into many of my works. The tiniest revelations, the ironic oxymorons, the largest truths tied into the smallest phrases — I find those to be the most powerful in prose, and I hope that inspiration is expressed in my pieces eloquently!"
POEM: mystique
mystique regalia, you found me untethered // moon-gazed, sun-shaved, quiet
but steady, you knew i’d never let this go // California fronds are only temporary in
never-ending nov(embers) // i didn't expect the smoke of our fire to be stronger
than the screen it was built for // yet i inhale the fumes and lather in it’s cinder
my drug of choice // my love letter to you
can you still feel the papyrus burning? // i made sure it would prickle your fingers
and pool your blood // just so you could lavish it and serve it
first course in a grappa glass // kiss of life to your new lover
i crown you with the koh-i-noor // and dethrone you like the bastille
sandalwood haze and frankincense // can you smell the heat?
i think i’ll spend a lifetime in purgatory // turning our sweet nothings into nothing
watching the moon chase the sun // after it realizes it was never there to stay
POEM: an explanation for my father(s)
i.
on an eclipse-stained, sun-drained, dreary monday evening,
he asks me: “why i am the way i am?”
i’m a phantom—haunted by the spirit of the living, so naturally, i must wait.
i wait until the clouds cover the moon, blocking his shine,
teasing the cityscape with peaks of starlight
i can only scream when i know he can’t hear me.
and then, only then, through brick-laden walls,
i answer:
ii.
because i am the byproduct of you,
tended in the same fields as your father,
and his father, and his father, and his father, and his.
and because you don’t like what it's created: without wiseness it is none.
and without the grandfather tree to witness it, is there really someone?
because my hair grows long, too much grace, too much life
and i stole the scissors before you could teach me to be silently unmoored
gerardia blooms,
and your father’s father lived here ten times before
yet only i watch, tinted with dew drops, your ships sinking from the moor
if only i went down like
you,
and you,
and you,
and you,
maybe i wouldn’t be so scared to jump from the diving board
but i don't,
because i blink like my mother—and her mother too,
i'm not just what her father
told me to do,
because my deep-set eyes
were never deprived,
but really just a product
of you.
iii.
and then
after hearing this,
i hear him curse to the night
concealed, yet enamored,
because no one could hear his cry:
“could the clouds just for once,
let the moon shine by?”
PROSE: On Fridays, the moon dances
That’s what you told me anyway–back when coneflowers grew taller than Hattie, locks of ringleted hair peeking out of a sea of viola. Before those riverine floods watered out my country’s blood and washed out your mind too. Back when Daddy used to pump the radio with adrenaline and Jolie Blon’s spirit, leaning back real deep in his pick-up, belting only to his audience of magnolias and me. He doesn’t do that a lot anymore, I noticed. I guess the flood washed away more than we thought.
I’m writing this from the Motel Casablanca, if you couldn’t already tell. I think it’s obvious at this point, though. These tinges of nostalgia only creep up on me when I’m away from home, when it’s dark and clear, when the universe knows I’ve begun to forget the difference between hell and a balmy Lafayette day.
But I guess that’s why you let me go. You knew my veins would course with Louisiana blood, you knew my white blood cells would recognize L.A. from LA any day, and you knew they’d fight back. You knew they’d spend an eternity yearning to be pulled home, and they’d never be satisfied, because I took home and burned it from the pulpit.
An invader. A traitor. Forevermore.
Everything since I’ve left has struck me as strange. It’s strange to think you pray to the same night sky as me, under the same constellations we used to count. Orion to the left, Canis Major right below it, and Perseus dead in the center. We used to joke (if you, for the technical purpose of this letter, could muster up the remembrance of what that is) that Gemini was nothing but a pair of estranged twins. That Aries was just a ram without the horns. That if we looked hard enough, our scruffed-up, no-good faces would stare back at us, reflecting our toothy smiles onto the moonlight’s glow, ratting us out to Daddy across the river. That always made me titter. I’d cover up my smile under pigtail braids and Louisiana fronds, chased by a fear of being seen.You never covered up that ugly, tobacco-stained smile, though, if you can believe it. You never used to be much of a hider, and I guess maybe that’s why I’m writing this now. Maybe I’ve learned what it means to look hard enough, and I realized hiding didn’t ever mean you were gone.
But still, I’ve learned to appreciate stillness here in California. Here, on Fridays, the Moon doesn’t have to dance. I guess she learned nobody was asking her to. From the echo chambers of a California night, when I’m in an interlude between sleep and wake, life and death, LA and L.A., I don’t hear nothing from her. Not a holler, not a shriek, not a bellow, not a wail. H*ll—(I know you hate that word, so I censored it for you the second time)—I think she would try to supernova a hundred-times over, out of spite, knowing she would never get the chance (but really just so she could die pretty), before I’d ever see her take the first step to dance.
I don’t think I want her to try, though. She wouldn’t know how to jitterbug like Papa, or two-step like Auntie Jay, or waltz like you—my momma—twirling on Daddy’s veranda with only the moon as our backup dancer and the breeze as our tempo. This moon doesn’t do a damn thing. But I don’t need my California moon to do any of that.
On Fridays, I just want her to sing.
By Laura Maria Felipe Araújo
Laura is an eighteen-year-old bilingual writer from Brazil. Writing poetry and, occasionally, prose, which feature introspection, heartfeltness and a distinctive style, in both English and Portuguese, she has an account on Instagram dedicated to sharing her craft – which spans over half the years of her life. Now, as she's reached adulthood, her goals are to keep on honing her skills and to propagate her works even more. With themes such as familial relationships, love, understanding of the self, and solitude, estrangement from the world/pursuit of belonging, she hopes to reach an audience with the same interests and perspectives.
The olden glimmer in your eyes tells me
that you feel sad, too
and all those ired fits of your humor
were the withering carcass of a love
long expired, long forgotten.
The luster in these sclerae,
you sport it when you talk or just before you cry.
Because I looked at the skin of your bust without pretension,
I saw the tints with which time has tarnished and engraved you,
they are white and brown,
and I felt as if they were each a day that passed you by roughly.
At eight,
the ages of trees abounding by the backyard,
brothers and sisters and unknown men and
women stepping about the grounds of the only land you knew
Before life washed away the youthful hope from your heart
that makeshift forest of grandfather's house,
you traded mornings and afternoons for a freedom
one that never came,
Later on, when I met you,
[five years
I noticed your spot next to me was vacant
and you, seditious.
Urging for a scandalous apport of blissful joy,
you and me,
I understood the seamless, unrelenting pursuit of yours
caged you, a circus gorilla being fed a food it had never savored, all its years. All of yours.
The labor ended when Death came to visit,
but it hadn't yet,
and such was a burden you chose to bear,
without perceiving the malice and the cunning
until they caught up to you.
The wrinkled skin about where your smile and your eyes meet looked like fruitful rivers
and brought tears to any man's face.
Not yours, you resisted
Like the Chinese Wall, strong, imponent
fragile in the face of ivy.
The men told you glistening lies of coins and indifference,
a lore of a house big enough to contain and tame
The crippled lonesomeness, the brute affection
handed out to you,
and you believed them.
A boy, by God! A boy
and a boy still,
frightened, trembling with rage,
but I knew you, father,
You did not want a loan or to fulfill an expectant dream of another
You did not want a wife or a couple of lovers before her,
You did not want to deserve anything,
You did not want to prove your valor,
You wanted a deep love.
I fear, and so do you,
you've lost it in the maddened search for something
no one ever saw.
– Grandma's eyes were so sweet,
but so small,
hiding a violence.
...
Hope is a sunken ship
in one of my visitation’s city seafronts.
And visitation, yes, but no home;
home is neither the town where I sunk my feet deep in the gray tiles
of my family’s gardened front yard;
home is nowhere to be found.
And within myself, I recognize nothing
– there is a darkness, and no noise at all
or a cacophony.
I see glass in the eyes of the ones I should love,
engulfing bigness in mine.
Hope is a rock that perched its wings too high and too wide;
it’s a thing that fell from the highest sky
and made the earth tremble in excitement.
Hope is a token of goodwill from God that I swallowed,
and it killed me.
Now I roam and I wither for no good reason at all
other than to pace and to rot, as I do.
Hope is a sunken ship in one of my visitation’s city seafronts
and it is a tear my skin couldn’t untwine from,
so it was the last good, missing move from my routine of counterfeit callousness
which will never come to light.
I am now something I never foresaw becoming.
By Fable Khalil
Fable Khalil is a Syrian-Egyptian poet with too many feelings and too little time to deal with them. When they're not procrastinating on academic work or writing, they're playing the guitar, needlefelting, watching movies, or feeding stray cats. Mostly that last one, they can't resist cat time.
Piece 1:
I am a volatile person
My traits ebb and flow
My growth always at risk of meeting the rainforests’ fate
I hold the axe
A hand-me-down from generations ago
They expect me to make a choice
How would my deceased grandmother feel if she knew that
Her eldest grandchild swung that axe like it meant nothing?
Like it was the sweetest lollipop in the hands of a child
Spreading red, red slobber
Sticky, bright, wet
Rich, poignant, stimulating
How would my grandmother feel seeing
Her C-section scars on my hips?
“They’ve faded, teta”
The evidence of the crime is nearly gone
But the tree remembers
I have been my own abuser
I don’t forgive scum
How would my grandmother feel knowing
Her flesh and blood is worth less than manure?
Piece 2:
“You are more than ash, darling”
I don't believe you
You touch my shoulder
Carefully, as though I might break
You kiss my cheek
Inching kisses closer to my lips
I am frozen
A statue of salt
I fear you might be an ocean
Where I belong, where I will melt
You kiss my lips
For once, the unstoppable force meets
The immovable object
I hope we never change, my love
I hope you can always see the beauty
In what others see as my remains
Piece 3:
Rushing thoughts
Towards a running stream or off a cliff?
A dichotomy impossible to differentiate
A future eclipsed by a fog of
Rushing thoughts
Either the best decision
Or stupidest mistake
Leaving the pills
“Bipolar”
A term I was taught to fear
Is it in my nature?
Am I setting myself free?
Is the woman in the yellow wallpaper proud of me?
Crawling out
She brings with her sunflowers
(moldy)
They smell off
They smell like the bottle
I was too afraid to down
Too attached to throw away
Rushing legs
Reaching for it
Eager to f̷̀͜é̷̠ȃ̶̲s̶̖̓t̶͙͒
d̶̫̑e̷͚̾s̵̤͋t̵̘̂r̶̮͐o̴͉͂y̶͈͂
I’ve flown too close to the sun
Time and time again
Will this be the time I fall?
By Subhashree Pattnaik
Subhashree, From Bhubaneswar, Odisha, India is a literature student. And like any other writer she wishes to bring change with her words. She thinks that Plath and Kafka would have been her best friends had they been here. She has previously been published in Orange Peel Mag, The Indian Review, Live Wire.in, Xinsai Mag And The Blahcksheep.
"So, this poem is kind of a letter to the late poet Sylvia Plath. Writing this poem was just another way of getting closer to her. It talks about feminine rage and sadness. Weaving women together into what it feels like to be broken woman, let down by society and patriarchy."
Dear Sylvia (Plath)
- (The poet who killed herself after several attempts by sticking her head into the oven.)
If you were here now, alive and breathing Our grief would have found a collective home. Yours trembling in me, mine shivering in you.
You would have stood in front of the mirror With contemplations of how such prettiness Came to exist with the extents of pain. Because I do every time I cry Perhaps the only intense femininity I carry. Was it what you carried too?
We would have made great friends, you and I. I run here and there trying to search for places, Strong as the walls of a lighthouse, to store my sorrow For that is as acute as an oceanic storm. Despite all my laborious endeavors I miserably fail. And soon I start searching for knives.
I would have told you that I know What it’s like to have a man who doesn’t love you As much, who doesn’t look at you Rather rolls his peculiar eyes And who forces his idiotic dominance over you. Part of it you could blame on my dramatic childhood And the other on trying to find love in this Dire loveless world guided by the unreasonable force Of terrible manhood and miserable misogyny Oh, if you were here you would have certainly learnt, And found the courage in me to show him his place. Ted didn’t deserve you and yet I too try to Wound myself the same way.
What is girlhood if not consistent failings and disintegrating? If not washed up mascara and broken nails?
But we would have come off as a tough connection For we would have swayed with our high heels Walking on the back of prejudices, Our skirts showing skin of fire, our lips red, Red enough to call out their disgust at our womanhood. Our walk would have been named as “the temptation to freedom in so called feminism”
On most days I only live to break through, bleeding. Most sad girls do that. Or must I say, Most of the feminists are just incredibly sad
Girlhood is abusing the obscurity of society In ways they forbid. Its about killing, fighting, questioning And most importantly surviving. Girlhood is an outcry. It never ceases to exist, In shared compliments, lipstick stained wine glasses And tough hands to protect each other.
There are emotions in me that knock me down. In my whimsical anger and gathering feminine rage. I turn down to an abysmal spiral. Did you go there too? I have heard there were many like us. They say there will be others too.
Dear Sylvia, you talked about death And sometimes I see it dancing on my window sill. I have tried to go with it several times But this stubborn girlhood holds me back every time. Dear Sylvia, if you were here I would have saved you.
By Elyshia Dawson
I am a female version of a lost boy, who is constantly wondering around looking for my place to belong.
"The pain of heartbreak"
That tree. That tree.
You wanna know what I haven't told anybody?
That tree. That tree.
That's where you told me we were no longer besties.
That tree. That tree.
How are you no longer family?
That tree. That tree.
How are you not here with me?
That tree. That tree.
Thinking of you so painfully.
That tree. That tree.
Lightening struck it.
Ripping it apart, just like you and me.
That tree. That tree.
It lays in ashes. Burnt for all to see.
That tree. That tree.
Just as the tears on my cheek.
That tree. That tree.
Though I feel defeated I am stronger than this tree.
That tree. That tree.
I will rise and turn towards the bleak.
That tree. That tree.
I will not let the love and hate I have for you consume me.
By Ananya Mohanty
The lowest phase of someone's life makes them a writer. Ananya Mohanty, a published writer from Odisha, often delves into the pond of loneliness and writes her heart out. Being a very young college student she has gained recognition as a writer.
To the lady I met at an early age.
The warmth of your hands may felt very welcoming
But even my closed eyes could see the disaffection.
The urge which you had to pour some love
But the societal expectations didn't let you.
They asked you to be a mother
Perhaps they forgot to teach you how to be one
Or maybe I wasn't the one you were expecting.
While I stand with my winnings, I see you expressionless
In the room full of proud and cheering parents.
My eyes sticking to your face, just to see one smile,
My every win and happiness was only for you.
But my desperation was growing as fast as bamboo
So was my urge of getting your attention.
I started to lose, I lost what I could've won.
Even your harsh words could've made my day
But you remain pale like nothing happened.
Surprisingly, same isn't with your son.
I see you smiling at him during his moments.
His tears are yours, his happiness is yours.
All the things I ever wanted and craved for,
That's exclusively for him.
What did I just want, love and care.
My cravings have turned into hatred now
I have tried to replace it with love outside
But my innocence was broken.
I do not intend to hate you or blame you,
But the child inside me, is.
For what you could've saved,
Is now fully destroyed.
Did I fail as a daughter or did you fail as a mother?
I wish we never met, Maa.
By Shambhavi Shukla
Shambhavi is a high school student, a scholar for two years in her school, who is currently a resident of India and has started giving wings to her passion of writing in the last two years. She wanted to pursue her writing work since childhood as when she started creating stories they took us beyond the levels of this world. This girl has really got a great imagination power which helps her to create a perfect impact on her readers as well as good literary capability.
"The small conversation where a mother solaces her young girl as she starts her new life outside in a new country about which she is afraid The mother compares her daughter with the fish and world to an ocean."
Mother- Who told you to change your roar?
Daughter- Deadly beaches around the shore.
Daughter- When mind speaks heart sleeps-
Mother- And only watched yourself in dreams.
"Miss Girl has now forgotten her needs.
Diving deep into her seeds "
Daughter- Lovely moon-like sparkles happened to be in my eyes
Mother- Why have both your eyes lost their shine?
Daughter- This will take courage mom
And I am unaware of all the norms
Mother- The faces of distress is not yet near.
Mother- But my girl be strong and beat the fear
Mother-The world is a lovely ocean waiting for you
Mother- And you Hoping to fly above it dude?
Mother- Born to be a fish, never chase any deer
Mother- Ocean of the world is always ours dear.
Mother- The shallow baths never make you strong
Mother- Take a deep turn and don't fool yourself to be wrong.
Mother- Deadly shores are who we are never be.
Mother- For there is symphony existing in everything.
By Cassie Hartman
Cassie is a 17 year old writer from Canada. Her writing has a focus on teen relationships and mental health. Find more of her work @cassie.m.poetry on Instagram.
it's not who you think.
it's not the girl that 'jokingly' flirts
each time you two speak.
it's not the girl who avoids you
because she is too scared of what you'll think.
it's not the friend
that makes every effort to be your girlfriend.
it's not who you think.
it's the girl you've seen naked,
the 'casual hookup'.
it's the one who knows your body,
yet wishes she knew your heart.
moreso; she wishes you wanted
to know her heart also.
it's not who you think;
because your secret lover is me.
By Talia Flanzraich
Talia Flanzraich is a poet with autism and GAD (generalized anxiety disorder). Creativity has been a part of her life since she was as young as a toddler. She has been writing since she was eight years old, but has pursued the art of poetry when she was in high school. Since she was a teen, she’s found the beauty and therapeutic benefits of writing poetry. Talia started writing for Vocal Media during the pandemic. She published her first poetry book “Up and Down the Ladder” in February 2022, and her second poetry book “Scrapbook” in February 2023. Talia lives in an apartment complex on the outskirts of Toronto. In her spare time, she loves to make art, write, read books, learn languages, listen to music, go for walks, and spend time with her loved ones.
Fury is a virus
that’s transmissible like the flu.
Psychological germs you keep
get spread to other living things.
Racism and prejudice
infects you severely.
It’s a neverending pandemic
that plagues society.
Meanness is a virus
that’s profound like measles.
Emotional droplets
can be caught everywhere on the globe.
Betrayal and negligence
makes you ill and feeble.
It’s a mental ailment
that blights your spirit.
By Kaidence Moss
Kaidence Moss is a young writer and artist. She enjoys classic literature and rock music.
You say it’s not that you don’t love me anymore,
I’m like a sick old dog you can’t afford.
You must be right because I’m so loyal to you.
I bite and bark at anyone new.
I used to find ways to escape,
But now I lack the energy
I wouldn’t leave if you opened the gate.
By Khadija Sehar Alam
Khadija is a nineteen year old Pre-Med student desperately trying to find her way into Medical School, while trying to keep her passion for reading and writing alive. She enjoys everything and anything creative.
"This piece is inspired by the character Satoru Gojo from the manga/anime Jujutsu Kaisen written by Gege Akutami. A humble attempt at understanding a character I find to be incredibly fascinating, I hope the experience of reading it is just as joyful as the experience of writing it was for me."
On The Loneliness That Comes With Godhood; a Character Study of Satoru Gojō
The thing they didn’t tell Satoru Gojō about being The Strongest was that he would be declared God even before he cries for the first time; before his little body grasps that it is no longer interconnected to the one who housed it for nine months, before he is told that the world made space for him by turning itself upside down; that he shook its foundations by merely being present in it.
But Satoru Gojō was not a God. Not even close.
For someone like Gojō, possessor of the Six Eyes and Limitless, being placed on a pedestal the moment he set foot on this earth, being told that power was be-all and end-all, that strength was a measure of his worth; or anyone else’s for that matter; for someone who grew up with enough people telling him who he was, it was only natural for him to internalize it and learn his role. Head and shoulders above everyone else, and drunk on his own singularity, Gojō loves his power, he shows it off; enough for him to be reduced to just that, enough for him to be recognized solely for and because of it. But that’s the point, isn’t it? Satoru Gojō is defined by his strength, by something he never asked for but was given anyway.
And this isn’t to be mistaken; Gojō loves being The Strongest. But he doesn’t like being The Strongest, alone.
Surrounded by a physical Infinity that alienates him from others, the thing that quite literally makes him untouchable, makes him a God; Gojō is also surrounded by a metaphorical one. And the interesting thing about Infinity is that there is no one way to describe it. Mathematically, an infinite series could be borne by convergence or divergence, much like the two fundamental states of Satoru Gojō’s Cursed Technique; but the metaphorical relevance of Infinity for The Strongest remains the same. It is a barrier that isolates him from the world, symbolic for the loneliness it entails for the one it blankets; inherently dehumanizing in the way it makes it a sport for Gojō to be able to understand and sympathize with other beings.
Gojō’s domain expansion, Unlimited Void, is also named so purposefully, to figuratively describe the void inside Gojō, essentially caused by his innate power. Gojō is incapable of fully letting himself be understood by others because of his internalized ideals which is something that he, on the verge of death, says it himself; you can admire a flower and make it bloom, but you don’t wish to be understood by it, reinforcing that he considers himself a separate entity, an entirely different species, than the ones around him. That everyone else is an inferior being, incapable of understanding his superior existence. With the exception of one, but let’s get to that later.
However, the irony of his character is that Satoru Gojō is someone who craves for his solitude to be broken, for his allies to join him in his Godhood; which is a direct contrast to the essence of divinity in which Ryōmen Sukuna believes. Sukuna believes that to be a God, you have to throw away futile ideas like love and companionship, that it is only when you have realized yourself and your desires alone, when you have practiced a certain disdain for those weaker than you, only then can you reach enlightenment. And Gojō, who is adamant on raising a new generation of shamans that are on par with him, contradicts that. But Gojō’s insistence of resetting the Jujutsu society and having his students surpass him, doesn’t come from a place of sympathy for the weak nor from an effort to achieve the “greater good”, but from a place of incredible selfishness.
Gojō, interestingly enough, does not care much for the meaning behind the use of Jujutsu. He doesn’t operate from a moral standpoint because he feels a sense of responsibility to protect the weak like all other shamans; but simply put, because he enjoys Jujutsu. As stated by Nanami, Gojō is a Jujutsu battle freak, who wields his strength only for himself, who likes the sense of supremacy he gets from dominating a weaker opponent, and who, in effect, is entirely capable of becoming an all-consuming calamity, if he wishes to be. His sheer strength and inviolability makes him perfectly capable of becoming something worse than the King of Curses, of becoming a conqueror, a glimpse of which we see in Shibuya on the thirty first of October; and yet, that is not what we have.
What we have, is not a destructive force of nature, but Gojō Sensei of Jujutsu High School.
Gojō Sensei, who recruited Okkotsu Yūta and resisted the “higher-ups” for his sake. Gojō Sensei, who rebelled against the execution of the fifteen year old Itadori Yūji by risking his own safety. Gojō Sensei, who honored the dying wish of Tōji Fushiguro, the man who rivalled his strength and made him see death up close, and gave a home to his son, who was a ticking bomb for Gojō. Gojō Sensei who believes that youth should not be taken away from children. It makes one wonder, what holds Satoru Gojō back? What is the thing that makes him wake up every day and deliberately choose to not give himself up to maliciousness?
What is the thing that keeps a God so painfully human?
Enter Suguru Getō; an ill-fated young boy carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders, a curse-eater of sorts. Suguru Getō and Satoru Gojō, each intentionally made to be the perfect companion for the other, were also meant to be the others fall from grace in every version of this story. No matter how many times you rewrite it, Suguru Getō will always be the hysterical boy who lost himself, the Lucifer in this little tale; the betrayer, if you must. And Satoru Gojō will always be the betrayed. Except it’s not that simple. Cursed stories never are.
Another thing they didn’t tell Satoru Gojō about being The Strongest was that Suguru Getō, despite having lost his own humanity, is what will keep Satoru Gojō human. It’s almost laughable. Almost. Because you cannot tell the tragedy that is Satoru Gojō’s life, without mentioning what he himself calls, his blue spring that can’t return. They didn’t tell him that Suguru Getō will offer him a kind of understanding that no one else will, and then throw all of it away by asking him a single question. That said question will linger like a ghost, follow Gojō wherever he goes, and sleep with him in his bed at night.
Are you The Strongest because you’re Satoru Gojō or are you Satoru Gojō because you’re The Strongest?
A single question, purposefully said to disrupt the bond that they shared, carefully constructed to reduce The Strongest to just that, to just his power; to shake his entire being and shove his arrogance in his face. And for the first time in his life, Satoru Gojō will scramble to understand. He will shake himself and Suguru Getō by the shoulders and ask him the meaning of it, except Satoru Gojō has never put meaning to anything he did, so how will he begin to understand? So he will be forced to stand there, unmoving, and watch the fading silhouette of the one person who called him Satoru and meant darling boy, the world is my oyster boy, executioner boy, infinity warps itself to be my armor boy; the one person who called him Satoru and never meant The Strongest boy.
And it’s easy to point fingers and blame Gojō for Getō’s defection, but the fact remains; Suguru Getō had been doomed from the beginning of this story, there was no way to save him. Ask Satoru Gojō, he knows.
Ten years later, Satoru Gojō will tell Okkotsu Yūta that love is the most twisted curse of all, and then he will kill Suguru Getō with his own hands and rid the world of the most dangerous Curse User; and rid himself of the one thing that was patient enough to reach inside his Infinity and force it to make more space; the one thing that held his loneliness by its hands and sat with it.
So Suguru Getō will, inevitably, be the one behind Gojō’s selfish motives and drive. Gojō’s inability to save his friend, powers his desire to raise a generation of shamans that does not need saving to begin with. Gojō’s helplessness in regards to Getō’s manic spiral, leads to his want of changing the Jujutsu system- the same one that exploited Suguru Getō, Amanai Riko, Haibara Yū, Nanami Kento and himself. In a way, guilt haunts Gojō and also drives him. Guilt that despite being the pinnacle of power in the Jujutsu world, Satoru Gojō is powerless when it comes to saving those he loves.
Although, the thing they did tell him about being The Strongest was this: there is only one version of his story. And as it narrates, Satoru Gojō will come into this world and leave it, alone. His would be a story of great tragedy and even greater loss. He will die in battle, on the twenty fourth of December- the same day as he killed Suguru Getō the previous year- at the hands of Ryōmen Sukuna, entrusting his students to win this fight.
It’s sickeningly ironic that Satoru Gojō, who is selfish but capable of true empathy, who is infuriatingly arrogant but cares for others despite, who has questionable motives but never harmful, who was labelled God but really, he was too human- heartbreakingly so- to be one, died before he was able to see the fruits of his effort, before he was able to see his children surpass him. That his death was inconsequential; it didn’t move mountains or shake the world as his birth did; it happened quietly- eerily so, with no one on the battlefield but him; The Strongest finally put to rest. A cruel sort of joke, on a man who spent his entire life being lonely.
By Wael Almahdi
Wael Almahdi is a poet, translator, and healthcare professional from Bahrain. In 2023, he won a High Commendation from the Stephen Spender Poetry Translation Prize. His Arabic translations include work by Hanan Issa (National Poet of Wales), Lewis Carroll (‘Jabberwocky’), and the 2024 Diriyah Biennale. His poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in ArabLit Quarterly, The Inquisitive Eater: New School Food, Copihue, Bear Review, Light Poetry, Asymptote, Snakeskin, the Knight Letter, the RavensPerch, Ekstasis, Blue Minaret, and the Ravi Magazine.
Convo
Two neighbors are kindling a conversation
all hands and wrists – poking, plucking.
I see their mouths moving air, their fingers prefiguring
plastic phrases and automatic ahs.
A bit of oil on the social rack, or blood
seemingly, almost certainly, in good faith.
Pills
The pills flatten the anxiety like a sharp-bowed iron. The gut remembers decades of discomfort
in school, work, and social claustrophobia. Sharp flotsam to a bristling soul
the cores rage. The face remains motionless
The Work Group Chat
On her way to second year
business admin Adhra’s daughter
bled out
on sizzling asphalt.
The font was too subdued
To offer proper condolences.
By Iqra Waheed
Iqra Waheed is a resident of Lahore, Pakistan. Since childhood, she has loved writing poems and stories, etc. She believes that poetry helps people to cope with feelings they cannot express and people find solace in knowing that they are not the only ones who feel that way.
"There are a few people in your life who define to you what true happiness is. But one day, you lose them. Everything starts to fall apart and you cannot find a reason to be happy about. The people around you start telling you that you are the reason of your own unhappiness but the truth is that you don't know how to be happy without that one person. And you wonder if you will ever find happiness or get that person back just one time."
Will there be happiness?
l ask myself every day
And considering it as my only destination
A destination whose path was filled with turmoils
Caused by the soul deconstructors I thought I didn't know
Time flew and I realized that reality is flawed
How could they be so cruel?
I loved them but the truth is I actually didn't know them
Will there be happiness?
I ask myself every day
If you were here, you'd tell me "yes"
I thought happiness was my only destination
You came and redefined it
I realized it's a mindset and not a destination
The mindset you have when you're with the right people
The mindset I had when you were with me
Will there be happiness?
I ask myself every day
With an appalling mindset as you left me here
I'm considered pessimistic about everything
They think I don't try to be happy
They assume it's not a destination and not where I wanna be
When will they realize it's not a destination?
How do I redefine it to them when you're not with me?
Will there be happiness?
Will there ever be happiness?
I'll continue to ask myself every day
Hoping I'll meet you one day, again
By Jessamine Duverne
Jessamine Duverne is a rising first-year college student who will be attending the University of Massachusetts, Amherst for a major in business and minors in political science and journalism. She is originally from Queens, New York. In her free time, Jessamine enjoys writing, reading short stories, and listening to music.
Sacrificial Lamb
Sunlight creeps through the window and bathes the chair where my dress hangs. I lay bare-chested in bed, covered only by the floral print comforter that tore at the seams from years of constant use. The sun provides an uncomfortable warmth against my chest– it is the weather where summer and winter toe the line and create an uncomfortable stickiness and heat, accompanied by an unfortunate breeze. I rub the gunk that had built in the conjunctiva of my eyes. Most days I let it remain, but today I feel I have the time to care.
Anaica has come back from her three-week Mediterranean cruise. When she left, I bitterly mentioned that the typical cruise was only a week’s length. Once, I had spent time on a two-week cruise, and by the second week, I became hyper-aware of the ship’s movements as we rocked along the Pacific. The crashing of the waves against the hull of the ship is akin to the tumultuous sloshing in my stomach when I’ve consumed far too much water. Not only that, but the quality of the food worsens after the first week. I could scarcely keep anything down, especially since after a time every item of sustenance began to adopt the same, brown hue. I doubt Anaica enjoyed the feeling either, but it was a necessary discomfort in exchange for freedom.
Hopefully, the end of her respite is the start of mine. Lourdes-Jean’s disposition has begun to deteriorate during Anaica’s jaunt around the Mediterranean. Not only had she gone through a hypertensive crisis, sporting a blood pressure of 190/120, but her harsh temperament was exacerbated by the notable absence of her beloved daughter. Conversely, when I had taken a not-so-similar jaunt to New Jersey a few months ago, Anaica had little to report about Lourdes-Jean’s condition but her fine fettle. Now that Anaica is back, I am confident in knowing her health will return to normal.
Yet the rapt and incessant shudder of the door brings me back to the reality that while respite is widely sought after, it is scarcely won and few and far between. I struggle to my feet, hand clutching my back for support as I sift through the piles of clothes and abandoned hobbies– my dreams of being a skilled seamstress manifested in unfurled yarn and scattered needles that I jump over to avoid puncturing my feet. There was also a time, maybe a week ago, when I had sought to hone my skills in literature– loose-leaf paper and broken pencils were now the only obstacles I had to cross to get to my door. I slip my dress from the last night over my head, my nipples uncomfortably bulging against the rough fabric. The knocking on the door only continues.
Anaica’s papery cheeks, her overgrown bantu knots, and her Tory Burch wedges are the last thing I want to see in my doorframe. She barely fills it out, her bodycon sundress loose on her twig-like frame.
“Anaica,” I greet, blocking the door frame on my end. I don’t want her to see my scattered belongings– she’s always been critical of my tidiness, or lack thereof. “How was the Mediterranean?”
Anaica’s papery cheeks spread unnaturally wide, or perhaps it looked that way because they were filled with Botox. “Baptise took me on a beautiful cruise across the Mediterranean. Lake Como was magnificent, the bread, the wine.” I scarcely listen as she rambles about her various jaunts across the Mediterranean– only stopping to comment on the new Birkin she bought while in Milan.
“Are you heading to Lourdes’ after this?”
“Mom, you mean?”
“Yes, are you heading there?”
Anaica waves her bony hand in dismissal, the cuticles of her nails are slightly wet, probably from a previous nail appointment. “I was hoping you would visit mom. I have to take Carter to SAT prep, then Maree to tennis.”
“I’ve been going to her house for the past three weeks.” And all the weeks before that.
“Yes, but you have no children.” Anaica points out. I was the childless aunt, whether by fate or by design by Lourdes. Being her caretaker meant scarce time for such frivolous things as other children. Anaica and I were twins, both forty-five years of age and yet at two completely different stages of life.
“Can’t Baptise do it?”
“He’ll be in Chicago for a summit.”
Words couldn’t make me so angry, yet equally as envious. I longed for the life Anaica had– a three-story colonial home in Jamaica Estates with a porch that wrapped around and washed-white rocking chairs. The garden bloomed with lilac zinnias, flowers that Baptise had produced for Anaica solely because they were her favorite. The dog was a cockapoo, her fur hypoallergenic because Anaica couldn’t stand mess, much less a shedding dog. Maree went to tennis every day after school– hopefully, she would be recruited by UPenn, Anaica’s alma mater. Carter went to SAT prep because he wasn’t as ‘athletically gifted.’ I never went to college, and I wonder if Anaica ever used my story as an anecdote or rather a cautionary tale.
I wonder if, on the way to SAT prep in their Land Rover, Anaica has ever said to Carter, ‘1600 is imperative unless you want to end up like your aunt.’
I sigh– I can feel the weight of my next decision on my body, my muscles suddenly tensed and my mind heavy like a storm-laden cloud, ready to burst. “Next time, alright?”Next time.” She gives a noncommittal promise. The chance of there being a next time is incredibly rare.
“She needs you, you know,” I say. “When her pain is crippling, she calls out to you, not me.”
“You carry the burden well,” Anaica says.
“The sacrificial lamb,” I reply. I can only imagine what my life would be like if I was equally as selfish as Anaica. While I worked to take care of Lourdes throughout high school, missing the regents and tests and ACTs and SATs, she worked on acing all those vapid tests. She was the star of the tennis team also, which got her to Penn. I wonder if that’s how you build generational prosperity and wealth– being selfish. Where did it get her? Being Lourdes’ favorite and the most successful of the family. Anaica is the future Lourdes imagined when she made the diligent choice to embark on a 2,000-mile journey from Haiti to the Texas border.
Anaica gently caresses my shoulder, the soft leather of her palm contrasting with my rough, unkempt skin. “It’ll all be over soon.”
I can only wonder if Anaica is referring to the prospect of Lourdes’ impending death.
By Aubrey Quinn
Aubrey is a junior at Southern Boone High School. She loves to hike and dance with her friends. She has been published in Paradise on Parchment Literary Magazine and enjoys writing short stories the most. She wants to thank you for reading her work.
I am stuck in a room of plastic, handcuffed to its walls, only plastic flowers with plastic vases around me.
One day, I swear to you, I will trade this place out for old rocking chairs and a jungle of leaves.
We will be alive together, soaking up setting suns.
The chain that keeps me in place wears into my skin in the plastic room. Every time I fight against it it bites into my flesh, tearing it raw.
I scream to get out and escape the fake sweet perfume of the flowers, but the sound echoes off the walls back to my ears.
I am all I have.
I tear up inside a prison of my making (I cuffed myself to this place and choked down the key).
Even as I escape to the jungle in my mind, I worry I will always long to be trapped. I wonder if that's all I was made for- struggle.
I wonder,
if I can naw off my own hand,
if I can outrun these walls,
if I can escape plastic flowers and too sweet smells,
if anyone will hear my screams or see my tears,
if I had a chance, would I take it?
By Erikha Lamartiniere
Erikha Lamartiniere is currently a Junior at Herron High School; she has a passion for creative storytelling and poetry. Her favorite book at the moment is "The Sun and Her Flowers" by Rupi Kaur.
"She Haunts Me" is a brief narrative, exploring the rationale behind insecure and self-conscious individuals. In this poetic piece, the speaker - notably, anonymous - compares her physical shortcomings to an entity that isn't physical in nature. This entity is later revealed to be the transfigured version of the speaker, herself. "
It physically pains me to look up in the mirror
Because my appearance doesn’t align with the girl, I want to look like in my head...
She’s not me, but she looks like she could pass as my sister
She has the same copperish-brown complexion, I do
Only, she looks so much more beautiful.
Long, course hair. Bug eyes. A pear body.
Why does she torment me?
Hopelessness mixed with despair,
As that guy shot me a look of disgust.
I understand that he isn't pleased with what he sees
I know it’s because I’m ugly – or that,
I simply don't look like her.
She’s not real, but she seems so vivid to me.
She seems within reach - but in reality,
She’s simply a fragment of my own desires.
No one understands when I say my life would be so much simpler,
If she and I swapped places.
By Julia May Barbante Bola
A graduating junior high school student, who loves to write when her mind is a mess and loves to draw when she’s at peace. Art and Poetry is her way of escaping reality… every words she writes and every piece she draws it describes her.
Surrounded by people but still feel alone
I was looked at but wasn’t seen
I wanted to be seen
“let me cry on your shoulder for once”
I screamed, but I wasn’t heard
Cause I never said it aloud— It was all in my head
But if they cared… I’m certain that they’d Hear every scratch and scream
through My eyes
I was surrounded but wasn’t seen
By Iris
Iris is a sixteen-year old poet and poetry enthusiast, primarily influenced and inspired by Richard Siken, she aims to convey feelings and experiences through the means of writing to express emotions and to let others relate through subjective interpretation.
the siren wails
and the radio chatters
i hear my love speak as her heart shatters
we’re bloodthirsty and flesh-hungry
we killed for their sins
for perfection is our birthright but we are punished with guilt
there’s a bark, there’s a bite
is death harsher than our lives?
are we dying for crimes?
no, we are ascending to the gods
i’ll sacrifice my wife
to the lord of the blondes
a gun to my head
the silence is the doorway to the end
i’ll knock if i may
past the walls to the angels of hell
i must go to heaven
for i gave my life for the better to survive
i delved into my faith, awing the deprived
if the gods won’t take me, why did i give up my home, my love, my life?
By Inaya Aly Khan
Inaya is a 15 year old British-Pakistani student living in Pakistan. She loves writing and has had an article named "Unseen Scars" published in a newspaper. She enjoys writing on topics surrounding mental health, teenage angst and stark contrast in everyday life. In her free time, Inaya loves listening to movie soundtracks (especially La La Land) and music from The Beatles to One Direction.
The bead tracks its way down my cheek
Over the apple and the hollow
It rests as it descends along the length of my neck
A drop of salt
Saline water of my own being
Yet foreign on the surface of my skin
The tear, an involuntary reaction
To the sorrows that sit upon my shoulders
And force my head down
My eyes shut
And snuff my spirit
As the flame of a dying candle flickers in the wind
An external expression
Of the guilt I carry
Weighing down on me
Not letting me speak
And so I do not speak
And I do not tell anyone of my pain
Of the suffering
And instead I watch myself in the cracked glass of the muddy mirror
As the bead caresses my face
Leaving behind a line of moisture
The only indicator of my heart
Of what lies
So close to the surface yet
Invisible to the untrained eye
By Inaya Aly Khan
Inaya is a 15 year old British Pakistani student studying in Pakistan. She enjoys writing and has had an article called "Unseen Scars" published in a newspaper as well. In her free time she listens to music and reads novels that often make her cry
Why do we crave freedom?
For freedom is the biggest CONSTRAINT
Nothing crushes innovation like the freedom to CREATE
Like diamonds form under pressure, ideation develops in ostracisation
In discrimination
Moments of joy are remembered in PAIN
and one can only ever think outside of a box
If the box REMAINS
For as the box disappears
So does the ORIGINALITY
After all is this box itself not but a figment of imagination?
Never a true part of REALITY
So tonight when I shut my eye
I let my mind WANDER
And hope to God I step foot outside
My box of four CORNERS