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(I) Creator's Note
(II) ART
Irina Tall Novikova- Untitled Pieces
Zeidan Naqeeb Bin Zulkifli- Solitude
(III) WRITING (STORIES)
Phoebe H. Mercury- Cancer
Deborah George- 7:19 A.M.
Nazuna Teraoka- An Arbitrary Legend
A'ishah Hujjatullah Muhammad Saad,- Remnants of a lost horizon
Itse Daibo- The Gateman
Bankole Taiwo James,- Secret In the Shadows
Ava Jane Glenski- On my Present
(III) WRITING (POETRY)
Jasper Vanmassenhoven - After, Will We Meet Again?
Joy Yin- Trapped
Ray Castellanos- Gods’ Punishment
Mahika Bagri-The Crow, अपकि गोद (Your lap)
Saorise Palmer-Beauty As The World's Circulation: Without Him, and Lingering Bodies Kill.
Abdulazeez Abdulbasit,- TILL MY LAST BREATH
Asma Jamil- tell me i mean something to you
Grace Sinkins- Two Thousand Twenty Three
Shamik Banerjee- October
A'ishah Hujjatullah Muhammad Saad,- Chronicles of Thorned Silence
The Boy with his Diwali Crackers
Fatima Shad- Come
Seerat Fatima- What if I told you things?
Shayzan Brown- Bloody Fingernails
Riya Khandelwal- I wish upon a shooting star
Áine Vane- Foil of Goliath
Kanmanee Fagerlien- How Do I Forget
MG- Stagnant Waters
Audrey Lee- please turn off the lights
Ahmad Morid- .moonlit mirror, the eternal chase, Pomegranate leaves on fire, to you, my homeland
Writing and art, two great pillars of human creativity, have captivated our hearts from a young age. They can transport us to new dimensions, inviting us to embrace the extraordinary without leaving the comfort of our own space.
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It is with this we welcome you to our world, where art and words converge, where voices rise like scattered gems and assemble in a mesmerizing mosaic of creativity.
We proudly present to you the second issue of Mosaic Lit Journal. As the founders of Mosaic Lit, we are honored to have so many creatives submitting to be a part of this project. You guys truly further the expressions and magic of the world. We welcome you to our world, where art and words converge, where voices rise like scattered gems and assemble in a mesmerizing mosaic of creativity.
Each piece you encounter in this issue is a reflection of the world as seen through countless unique lenses, a kaleidoscope—mosaic if you will, of human experiences.
As we embark on this journey together, let us cherish the beauty of diversity and the unity of artistic expression. We hope Mosaic Lit Journal will be a space where you, the creator, feel both welcomed and embraced, where your own voice becomes part of the grand mosaic that tells our collective story.
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Ivy Gautam & Sundari Maharajh
By Irina Tall Novikova,
a 35 year old writer from Minsk, Belarus
Irina Tall (Novikova) is an artist, graphic artist, illustrator. She graduated from the State Academy of Slavic Cultures with a degree in art, and also has a bachelor's degree in design.
The first personal exhibition "My soul is like a wild hawk" (2002) was held in the museum of Maxim Bagdanovich. In her works, she raises themes of ecology, in 2005 she devoted a series of works to the Chernobyl disaster, draws on anti-war topics. The first big series she drew was The Red Book, dedicated to rare and endangered species of animals and birds. Writes fairy tales and poems, illustrates short stories. She draws various fantastic creatures: unicorns, animals with human faces, she especially likes the image of a man - a bird - Siren. In 2020, she took part in Poznań Art Week. Her work has been published in magazines: Gupsophila, Harpy Hybrid Review, Little Literary Living Room and others. In 2022, her short story was included in the collection "The 50 Best Short Stories", and her poem was published in the collection of poetry "The wonders of winter".
By: Zeidan Naqeeb is a mass communication student from Melaka, Malaysia who enjoys expressing his freedom and emotion in poems, photography, and theater
by Phoebe B.H Mercury
A 19 year old writer from Europe,
"It is a story that displays three different perspectives about the life of a wicked man.
I am a person who enjoys writing about deep psychological and philosophical subjects. I have a passion for analyzing the deeper aspects of the human mind."
Cancer, cancer, cancer, ripping everything apart, bodies laying on the ground, families crying acidic tears, while fate screams and cheers. Flesh decomposing in a casket, with wires choking more than blood; the man who was once a mortal living is nothing more than dirty mud. Rich, wealthy, the sun itself was not saved by what he obtained, he was just lost in the sickness' face, and only his name on the grave remained. But the morgue is home for death, and a bedroom for the dead, as for the King who slept on peaks, now laid still on steel. The room was cold, as was his breath, and the body and the hair, yet his face was still not covered, with a blanket or duvet. Only time was there alive, and a raven, cat, and rat, who were there to eat and hide, to feast, to hunt, and then to die. There was no food in the morgue, but there was a human once, now a casket for the soul, who has long been lost in a trance. So the animals tried to calm their hunger, calm their senses, with organs, skin, and vessels, but just that wasn't enough. Then the brain, the core of ration, was reduced to sweet damnation, now in pieces, small, large parts, in their stomachs and their hearts. After that, they ran away, as the lighting, as the time, the only thing left in there, was once a body and 2 dimes.
Rat
I digested something sour today. It had a weird texture, and a putrid smell, a gourmet that I had never tried before. If it weren't for hunger, I would have stayed away, but it was excruciating to resist the need to consume. I had to stay alive. I do not know what I ate, nor what it was made of, but surely it contained something poisonous because ever since I came back, I had these weird hallucinations that are surely not part of my anatomy.
I think more, I create more, I act akin to the giants I see on the street. I have started to understand their language, mannerisms. The complete opposite of ours. They do not have to hide, to pray, to hunt, yet they still do, weirdly enough. I did not find that from just simply observing them, it was thanks to the illusions that helped me reach that revelation.
Living in walls, in the slum has been part of my life, yet in the last few days, I could barely approach those stenched places. It was so repugnant to walk down those streets with my bare feet, that I had to run away to a cleaner place. What happened?
I do remember, even though it's weird, that the boy hated filthiness as well. I can dream him. He is running across the river bank, whining and crying that his shoe got stained with a little mud. Another lad is there with him, lending him a tissue while laughing at his spoiled character. They seemed happy. Memories such as these have never contaminated my mind before, but it's making me think that I will lose myself to them one day. They always leave me with a sour taste in my mouth. I can't sleep properly without reminiscing about another's life.
I have been ambling around the city for 6 hours now. The cars seem so old, and rusty, I wonder how even though they are used daily, they never break. Or they do? I wouldn't know. It's not even in my requirements as a rat to know, but since when have I become so odd? Curiosity killed the cat they say. Does that mean that when I resist curiosity, I become more strong-willed than a cat? Do I overpower my predators' conscience? If so, then I would like to remain ignorant forever.
Funnily enough, the child wanted it as well. He refused to go to school, to activities, or camps, his only desire was to live in the authenticity of the moment. I could see him, jumping around a flowery field, holding his friend's arm, and laughing too loud. They were being chased by a wild dog, yet he didn't seem to care in the slightest. Weirdly, his friend did, crying his eyes out of fear and stress. The dog got caught by the owner eventually, yet the feeling of being hunted lasted in the boy's heart. I think it was then that he realized that living on the edge was what brought meaning to life. Maybe that is why he died, abandoned in a morgue.
….
It has been 2 days now, I have not stopped walking ever since. I do not know where my legs are taking me, nor do I want to find out. I have been more wary of my surroundings, more sly than usual. Maybe I am overcoming the cat. When I ate the man, there was a feline with red eyes dining with me as well, yet she was too full to ingest my body as well. Upon seeing her, I thought that she was an easy hunter to spot since her eyes were blowing away every cover she could find. But now, I want to look distinct too. I want the other mice to admire me and start reconsidering their pitiful lives spent in walls and too-deep holes.
The boy agrees with me, throughout his childhood, he has always been trying to look like a wolf and not a sheep, a king amongst servants. He even refused to eat dinner, because it was the same, same as everyone's. His survival instinct was poorly developed, yet I can't help myself, but commend him for his bravery and attitude. His friend had always called him reckless, but what did he feel, what did he know of this boy's true sentiments? Now that I keep receiving his inner thoughts, the least I can do is be on his side.
Another day passed and I noticed that I had started gradually disliking what I eat. My body craves something called caviar, shrimp, crab and such. I do not enjoy any longer munching on seeds, oat, rice or whatever a normal rat would prey their teeth on. Have I become cursed? I can imagine myself drowning in a yellowish, sparkly liquid, I believe it was called champagne. I can imagine myself drinking it, the sour taste piercing my tongue as I taste more, yet I can't stop it. We are of an early age, me and the boy, too early to lust on beverages such as these. That's what adults kept telling him, and through connection, to me.
Why are there so many rules in the human world, so many ethics, so much order? Why is it so much different than ours? I can't understand it. And why, even though they think they are the gods of the Earth, are still unaware that we constantly loom in their shadows? If we, rodents, eat the leftovers of gods, do we as well become gods, and if the food they consume is no different than ours, from the same ground, from the same mud, does it mean that we are as much gods as they are? My head began spinning.
…..
I have ingested some cereals from the ground so that I don't end up starving like before. Meanwhile, I managed to find other rats in the area, their shelters, families. I have told them of my new discoveries but none of them believed my words. They took me as some fool and some of them even chased me out of the place, thinking that I had gone mad. It is not fair. I have seen animals like me live amongst humans, doing tricks, listening to them, why is it so odd when you start thinking like one? Indeed, it became a normality for me. I have been excluded from a lot of parts of the city, amusingly enough. The boy in my head, Carson has been alienated from the other kids, by a much bigger being, an adult I presume. I feel so close to him now, on an intimate personal level.
After another 4 days, I have found my previous group. I did not dare to recount my journey at first, yet the words kept running out of my mouth without warning or intention. They believed me. Of course, the trust between us has always been incontestable, so now I do not have to worry anymore. A problem is that they have been discussing moving into another street, with much more food, but quite dirtier in consequence. I do not believe, nor want, to live there. I can not tolerate filth of any kind, especially now that I have knowledge of what happens on those streets. Carson saw it with his own eyes. What am I going to do? Truth is, if I don't join them I will die faster; I am turning against my anatomy and without a guide, I will lose my sense of self completely. Even the memories end abruptly, around teenagehood, did Carson lose his sense of self too? I am inclined to believe so. The mischief of rats asked me if I would go along with them, I did not know what to answer. My mouth will decide.
…..
I am back to the filth. Back to my original self, but that original self is gone, lost, nonexistent. I can't comprehend my companions anymore, their language seems so familiar yet peculiar. The mannerisms as well. I am no longer a rodent, yet I can't and will never reach humanity. I am trapped between worlds, my ambitions, and my ideals conquered me and I'm back at square one. Who am I?
Cat
I am very well acquainted with what I have eaten today. Luck and mischief are battling over my fate, therefore it was not the first time I have been put in this position. The one I tasted today was very different from my former master; he was more putrid but way easier to tear apart. Hunger is what drives species such as us to evolution or demise, there is no in-between.
I am quite discouraged that I have filled my stomach with the insides of a brain cursed by illness, but what can I do? I should have caught the rat, look what pity does to an animal. Since then, I have received some of my food’s memories, as I did with my owner and they are so contradictory. One died because he poisoned himself, and another because of an unfortunate heart attack; one was rich, yet lived as a waste, another was poor, but was a saint. So weird are these human lives.
I'm at a shelter with a plethora of animals, all caged between steel bars and stuffed inside like cargo. I am no exception. People come and visit us daily, only a few are chosen, and the rest are either taken by nurses or escape. The ones taken by medical staff never come back though, it is only a matter of time, a façade before they get rid of us like junk. Without mercy, without pity, that's how I see it. If I were to be a human, would I do the same? Who knows, after all, I have eaten the one who raised me out of hunger. There are no limitations to survival.
Carson would wholeheartedly agree with me, that's what the memories dictate. His teenagehood and adulthood could be described only by betrayal, on his part. My owner, however, would put me in a corner.
……
A week has passed, yet nobody picked me. They think I am possessed because of my red eyes, what a farce. My jailmate is a beautiful Persian cat, with blue eyes as big as the sky itself, I am amazed how he hasn't chosen yet. His fur is a little bit dirty, and there are plucks of hair missing from his body, but who could judge, given the context? The people who come here want nicely groomed animals, trained, well behaved, and when they are met with the obvious reality, their disappointment whispers slowly in their ears: "Leave them on the street. Kick them away". And so they do. My owner was not one of those humans, he just wanted to save every being, big or small. He sacrificed his life for everyone's welfare and in the end he was the one who fell first. Others' needs murdered him and I will never forgive them for it. I could hear while eating him the words " Good, save yourself" and I almost puked in desperation. How can a man be so pure-hearted like that?
I can see that the cat next to me is as depressed as the others, yet there is an undying peace that defines their presence, a harmony between reality and dreams. I want to achieve their greatness, to steal their charm from them. Another inner voice agrees with me, but it's not mine, it's a memory from Carson's life. It is enough to make me realize how similar I am to the man I have just digested. He was individualistic and greedy, so much so that he made sure that every competition was eliminated, even his best friend was no exception to the rule. Of course, I can already view myself in his position.
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I am a feline with great ambitions. I have always been like this, and I pride myself on my ability to suppress anger and control my words. But one thing that I lack and always will, is luck. I usually managed to balance my terrible misfortunes with my motivation to prevail in any situation, yet now it's almost impossible for me to do so. What can I do when my appearance, my sight, is my greatest enemy?
I can not, however, cry myself to sleep and pity my unfortunate outcome. It's against my nature, against my soul and ideology. What I can do though is to think of an even greater victory, one that would top any other achievements from my life so far. I have to find my way to Carson's friend. I have to find the man who resembles my poor master, I have to find more about the ill man that I have ingested. So many things to do, but they will remain just a far dream if I don't break out from this asylum for animals.
My Persian friend told me this morning that the nurses were talking about getting rid of one of us, and I think we all know who they were thinking about killing. My master would be crying acidic tears at the thought of an animal getting euthanasia; it's a fact that has been a great comfort to me as of late. If I were to ask for his guidance he would tell me to keep my hopes up, that human kindness will triumph and someone would adopt me with a big smile on their face.
On the other hand, images of Carson sabotaging his companions to his advantage are flashing right before my eyes. It was so easy for him to rat his classmates out, to blame his cousin for crashing the car, to seduce his best friend's girlfriend to gain popularity, and to steal money from the casino even though his parents were rich. There were no moral borders when it came to his ambitions and his well-being. I could do the same so that I would be the one who chooses who lives and who doesn't. Not the nurses. Although my mate mentioned something about an escape plan, a hidden route, I do not believe salvation will be reached that way.
…….
One memorable thing happened, that will never leave my memories. Here, there is a feline, female, that lost her kids many years ago, due to sickness or another tragedy. Every day she mourns them, crying before falling asleep and begging every time she wakes up. It became a routine at this point. We, cats, understand her grief well, but humans see it as nothing but an illness that should be removed because they are the "benefactors" of every living being and therefore know everything about everyone. They are not cats, but they think of themselves as such.
Her weeping became a burden for the staff, they tried anything to calm her down, except bless her with the illusion of being a mother. She represented the reputation ruiner of this penitentiary, so what did the people do as a resolution? The one action they are the best at is destroy and kill.
Every other animal was terrified, even the dog section was moved by this event. My friend then told me that showing other emotions, other than expected or that respecting the norms, is just pure suicide. I couldn't agree more.
……..
Another 2 months have passed and I am still in the same position. The tension and the nothingness are driving me insane, I can feel my mind slipping every time a human passes ignorantly by our cage. I spend my seconds looking through the man’s memories, like a journal.
He used to dream about coming on top, being the first at everything, like a god or a superbeing. He didn’t desire control, he felt freedom and impulsivity were much more delightful.
One time, during the school football game, he injured his leg while running across the field, a time in which his best friend managed to get a hold of the ball and score the much-awaited goal. That infuriated the boy to high extremes, so much so that he didn’t let his best friend help him at the hospital, nor at his house, nor talk to him during recess. It seemed immature, but that was who he was. Unfortunately, that moment was not the only occasion when his friend outclassed him. The only one in the world who managed to humble his dying ego.
Another time, which potentially became a turning point in his life, was when his friend got into the university of his dreams. They were both competing over the same spot, yet unluckiness made it impossible for Carson to get the same perfect grades as his friend. He had to do something about it, but the opportunity kept hiding away from him. He considered murder as well.
In the end, he recurred to another crime, known as identity theft, while his friend lay passed out on the hospital bed, for reasons only Carson knows by heart. It was good to know that the dean had never seen their faces and the professors were too bored out to care that much about this sudden change in appearances. It was the only time he actually thought well about a plan.
Another 2 months, but this time, luck has struck our small room. A girl no more than 7 has laid her eyes upon our sorry state. She wanted us both, but her mother let her have only one. The staff made some recommendations, so we all know who is gonna be chosen.
She came back 2 days later, but this time with her grandfather, and oh…what a surprise. Carson’s friend, right before my eyes, stayed stiff like a soldier, his smile betraying his intimidating presence. I don’t know how he can still be alive, my memories stop after the theft. A part of me is relieved, while the other urges to get out as soon as I can. This opportunity overlaps perfectly with my ambitions; what a great victory it would be not only to get out alive but to be in the ownership of some people with whom I have a neurological connection.
Seeing my friend, seeing how his eyes licker with excitement and hope makes me think of what my former master would tell me. To be kind, to let things flow, but this isn't survival, this is a fast train straight up to the death row. I can't escape, I can't just let myself be chosen and I can't attack the nurses. The least I can do is defeat the competition, a plan inspired step by step by Carson. The main difference is that I am doing it for survival, not for a fake illusion of success.
……
It is night right now, the moon lighting our cage with artistic patterns, enhancing the beauty of my Persian friend. His white fur glowed in the faint light, snow decorating his skin like the kisses of a lover. I have to disrupt the harmony of his grace. A shame indeed.
My right pow was raised atop his back like the sword of an executioner. With one swift move, I could feel a liquid engulfing my nails, therefore I decided to hit him again. The wound was not deep, that's why he remained asleep. So did the others.
When I woke up, however, I could see him being taken by the doctors and heard them questioning where that scar came from. They put the blame on the crazy cat which kept escaping and I, the actual criminal, got away.
As thought, as planned, I was the one with the collar around my neck and in the arms of the person I wanted to be. I looked once more at my pitiful friend, but I only saw my master, his expression unintelligible to me. I will forever ask myself what he meant in that moment. And for my friend, my victim, my ticket to life, God bless him, and may he have luck.
Raven
I believe in nothing but God's will. I trust nothing but the savior of souls and fear his disappointment. What I did today, what I ate today was nothing more than his offering, his love for my loyalty. I have been saved by him, again. Famine was killing me slowly, plucking out years of my life every second, like a kid with a flower in his hand. That's why I prayed all night, for the last time as I thought back then, and not only have I acquired redemption, but salvation as well. His power is supreme.
Since I have ingested the man, I have received the memories of a devil. I have been curious enough about what the offspring of Satan would be like, and that man was surely one of his favorite sons. It wasn't that he was evil or a murderer. You can have other "qualities" that will later send your spirit straight to hell. He was greedy, ungrateful, and prideful, to extremes, high extremes. He was also delusional and that fake reality enhanced his poor character. I could forgive an animal for killing to survive or losing himself because of an ideal, but an animal like Carson deserves no empathy whatsoever.
……..
The first day after I ate that man, I was enlightened by God's love for me and his adoration for his creations, even the nefarious ones. In a dark world akin to a void, I found the Light.
Now it's the second day. I am healthy enough to finally fly, after weeks of carrying my weight on the hot concrete. I was born to fly, soar through the skies, and observe humanity from a higher angle. We have been gifted wings, just like angels, to relish in the smell of humanity.
The sky has never been bluer and the clouds have never been whiter.
A memory flashes through my mind with Carson watching the stars and calculating how he will die. His friend was behind him, a product of betrayals as my instinct tells me. What a fighter.
…….
The next day, I took a break from flying. My craving for plants has corrupted my stomach and now I find myself in the middle of a dry land. Oh, the irony. As I amble through the soil, I feel the worms sliding under my claws. I could eat them too, before I come across vegetation.
Another 3 hours and I have found grass and plants engulfed by dew. Is it that early in the morning? I have not noticed. A murder of crows is relaxing on a branch, talking about everything and nothing at the same time. They do notice me, but look away quickly, being scared that I might invade their territory. We are all brothers, bound by blood, but it may take a while for them to understand that, so I leave them alone and continue my trip.
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It's the fourth day and the sun is scorching hot. I remember that Carson did not enjoy the heat, quite the irony for a devil. He believed that the cigars and drugs were losing their taste during summer time, that's why every time he could, he would curse the sun. However, that did not stop him from seeing himself as one, even in his last moments. A person's last years tell a lot about their lives, fortunes, misfortunes, and the will of the skies. He was given the chance to repent, to get back on his feet, and to feel the weight of his sins. By none other than God, through his friend, his victim. But he refused. Out of pride or anger, who knows?
He then started hating the stars. They resembled his friend, so he carried a resentment for the celestial bodies. How could anything other than the sunshine in the same sky?
The moon remained untouched. Its light was a reflection of the sun's, just like his cancer was a mirror of his junk hobbies. His illness was his moon.
………
On the 5th day, I came across some small birds. To detail more, I was witness to the birth of 3 little birds and 3 baby owls. Ravens and owls have been each other's nemesis' for centuries, but I am not willing to murder another winged companion, especially at its' birth. God made us the same kin, why should we kill each other like humans do?
Their first breath was a spectacular event, seeing how they cracked the egg with force and courage did nothing but bring me joy and hope that these small creatures would love life the same way some of us do. They were born with a strength, a quality that even Satan could not rip apart from them.
Even though it's unrelated, it is a stage of everyone's lives nonetheless, I remember vividly the death of Carsons' fish. He had 7 beta fish, each one a different color: Red, orange, yellow, Green, blue, indigo, and violet, they looked so majestic dancing in the waters', seaweed decorating their home and making it akin to a palace. He was sick and he was displeased by their beauty. Especially because his friend brought them for him as a distraction. They were quite expensive and the aquarium as well.
Carson wanted to relieve his university days, so in each cup of medicine, he put a fish in it and drank it. He was at the hospital, so the nurses would save him nonetheless, that's what he thought. That action made him sicker and sicker, but he had Lucifers' pride injected into him since birth. I wonder if when I ate his brain, I also ate a part of those fish's souls. Who knows.
………..
It's the 6th day and today I saw something very curious: the other 2 animals that shared the meal with me. I feel their suffering and desperation to live, it is a gift I have acquired from following God's example. The rat is in a miserable state of wanting to become human, but being chained by his origins, while the cat defeats the obstacles with a sacrifice to live, a moral dilemma as great as the mouses'. I feel pity for them.
Meeting the two beings, from afar, of course, made me relieve the rich man's death, at the hands of his own mistakes. Such an ugly moment, his body decomposing before his cancer, drinking with thirst from his cells and atoms. He wanted to confront his friend one last time, to tell him how stupid he was for offering to pay for his treatment, while he, the bedridden, was the one who ruined his life and stole everything for him. He wanted to chastise him for his empathy and care, but he died before his planned monologue. That would be the regret that will not let him sleep soundly in his death, which will reflect in the flames of hell and burning oil. He would wait tirelessly for his friend to descend just like him, to yell at him. But the awaited man would be in heaven.
………..
A week passed, a whole week, and the memories faded. Not because they were meant to, but because I went through them all and now, my mind is open to new and different experiences.
I hope from the deepest parts of my heart that the others will find peace with the new life this sick brain has given them and if not, I will pray for them before I fly. But, concerning me, Carson will remain a light in my journey.
God's gift, a deeper understanding of humankind, was the best blessing I could receive and when my Judgment day arrives one day, I will thank him profoundly for his miraculous and sacrosanct blessing. God may protect us all, even the doomed.
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With that, the animals feasted with grace, lived to smile, and lived to rest, but only one was chained to sleep. The one and only, engulfed in a void too deep.
But maybe next life he will rise, he will caress, he will embrace, he will stop taking for granted, love, friendship and so much more.
He consumed lives while alive and he blessed while dead, The purgatory of his soul, will be trapped in 3 small omnivores.
Windows opened in their lives, to damnation, to salvation, and nonetheless to comprehension; from a man worth 2 dimes, which will rest forever on his eyes.
By Deborah George,
Deborah George is a 16 year old American creative writer who serves as the Contest Manager at SeaGlass Literary. Her work has been published or is forthcoming in the Blue Marble Review and the Persimmon Review. She loves to appreciate the little joys in life, like beautiful sunsets, cozy sweaters, and dark chocolate!
7:00 A.M.
Beth Andrews gave herself a final look in the mirror before slipping on her shoes and heading out the door. As she walked downstairs, she checked her watch. She had an important meeting today at work, and she couldn't afford to miss it. But of course, she wouldn't miss it. Beth had a schedule, a routine she adhered to daily. She knew what time she would leave home, what time she would get to the bus station, and what time she would arrive at work. She was meticulously organized, and she was proud of it.
7:02 AM.
Beth scurried out of her apartment building, pushing on a pair of sunglasses. They were expensive, but Beth could afford them. Since she'd gotten that raise at her job, she could buy many things that she couldn't have afforded before. She allowed herself a few luxuries, but being strict about her money, she actually saved most of what she earned.
7:10 AM
Beth checked her phone and smiled. She was right by Jackson's Ice Cream, a place that she always passed at 7:10. She was on schedule.
7:12 AM
Passing by a movie theater, Beth noticed a little girl outside. She was wearing a faded, dirty yellow shirt, and she had a matching bow in her hair. She wasn't smiling, and she was alone.
7:15 AM
Beth had passed the little girl. After all, she told herself in her mind, trying to console herself, she was probably with her parents. I just didn't see them. What kind of parents let their children roam the streets alone?
But what if the girl didn't have parents?
Beth shoved the thought from her mind and continued walking. There was the bus stop. There were the other bus riders. She just had to cross the street, and she would be with them. In a few minutes, she'd be on her way to work.
Beth was ready to cross the street and go to the bus stop. But then she turned back.
7:17 AM
What in the world was she doing? The girl was probably fine. Beth was worried about nothing. Still, she went back to the movie theater. She scanned the crowd, trying to find the girl. The child was gone.
7:18 AM
See? Beth told herself. I was right. She's safe. She was with her parents, and they'd taken her somewhere else with them. But then she saw the girl. None of the adults around her appeared to be her parents. Most of them didn't see her; she was too small. They were just normal adults doing their thing, going to work, and following their schedules. Like Beth was supposed to be doing.
7:19 AM
Beth walked up to the child, her heart softening with every step. The child really did look frightened and alone. Beth crouched down on one knee and smiled at her. "Honey, are you okay? Where are your parents?"
The girl looked at this stranger, suspicion in her eyes. Then she looked away. "Don't have any."
7:20 AM
Well, now we really have a problem on our hands, Beth told herself.
After talking to the girl for a while, she began to gain her trust. The girl told Beth that she'd not seen her parents for days. Beth was shocked.
“Do you want to come with me?” she asked her. “I know some people who can help.”
Together, they walked to the police station. The police took care of the situation. "If she's right and she really doesn't have parents, she'll be put into a foster home," the officer explained.
Beth nodded, but as she looked at the child, something tugged at her heart.
7:57 AM
Beth was an hour late for work, but she didn't care. She'd done something more important.
Ten Years Later
It was a cloudy day on Rosewood Street. On the tenth floor of an apartment building, a young woman named Ruby was having breakfast with her mother. They were discussing Ruby's plans for college. She wanted to study to be a nurse, a job that she'd desired for years.
"Ruby, what time is it?" her mother asked suddenly.
Ruby gave her a strange look. They were in the middle of breakfast. What did she have to check the time for? But she looked at her phone and answered. "7:19 AM."
Tears welled up in her mother's eyes. "What is it, Mom?" Ruby said, alarmed. "Did something bother you?"
“No, no. Nothing bothered me. It's just that ten years ago, at this very moment, I found a girl on the street. I walked by her at first, but then I came back...."
"Oh," Ruby said, understanding now. She knew the story.
Beth nodded. "Ten years ago, at this very minute, you came into my life."
by Nazuna Teraoka, an 18-year-old writer from Japan,
"I am a Japanese girl, but not really. Moving around countries from the age of 9, I’ve lived in Canada, Australia, and New Zealand. Brought up by a fully Japanese family, I have the values of an average Japanese, with tons of influences from Western cultures and many more. I partially blame this for the reason why I am a major overthinker and an over feeler. I think and feel too much of the things I experience. But at the same time thankful for being able to do that, because that’s what makes me motivated to write."
"I wrote this piece as a legacy to my grandma. She would tell stories about her life to me and tell them to keep a secret. I could never bring myself to yell at anyone around me, especially knowing that my mother hadn’t heard of them. But at the same time, I wanted her story to be heard, I felt a selfish sense of mission to not let her story die. So it needed to be somewhere where my family would never"
In between two tall, brand-new apartment buildings stands an old raggedy house. Paints falling off, walls occasionally covered with mud, vines, and mold. Its doors are made out of foggy antique glass. Some may call it classic and vintage, but most would see it as a run-down house. Deserted, even.
Behind the doors awaits a whole new level of commotion. You are first welcomed with the endless pool of papers originating from a single work desk placed in the office. Then, you come across some random work tools, such as hammers and screwdrivers, forgotten on the drawing-room sofa. You may notice the ceiling tile falling off or the obvious creaking of the floorboard as well.
However, when I open the door, I don’t see those things. I see a loving home filled with my childhood memories. Home to my favorite person in the entire world: my grandma.
Originally, the house was my grandpa’s. He’s been living there for his entire life. My grandma, on the other hand, came from a place far down east, somewhere known as the Kanto region in Japan. There she led a life one couldn’t possibly connect to the ramshackle house she lives in right now.
My grandma was born as the eldest of an upper-middle-class family. Growing up, she was taught to become the perfect daughter who would be the face of the family. Since she was a little child, she had lessons in classic ballet because it was considered a criterion for elegant ladies back in the day. She quickly became devoted to the art. Her love for it attracted scouts from ballet schools. However, her father who was a very old-fashioned man didn’t allow such a future for her daughter and instead expected her to lead a “normal” life.
“Soon, you will realize the importance and happiness of being able to live a normal life,” he said to young grandma.
It was the same when she bloomed her talent in gymnastics. Her coach insisted on her becoming a professional gymnast.
“My daughter will not make a living by opening her legs wide in front of audiences like she is some kind of a stripper.” He fumed at her coach and shooed him out of the house. In his traditional mind, there were no differences between a stripper and a gymnast.
Like so, every ambition she had during her youth, was crushed in front of her by the harsh strict words of her own father. However, that wasn’t enough to stop her from trying. She quit her job which her father chose for her, and found herself a new job. All in while going to two different night schools. My grandma lived her life as if it were an amusement park: she did everything that interested her even the slightest.
Because freedom was something she never had during her childhood, she used it to its fullest once she was allowed it. And it suited her very well.
My grandma was a bird, a beautiful bird who once was kept under the care of some rich man, now free to fly as much as she desires.
Every day I visited her, I would sit down on the brown fuzzy carpet picturing that bird. Her voice danced out in the air to describe the tiniest detail to her life story. Little by little, she told, handpicking only the words, handling them with the greatest care like they were a family heirloom.
Recently, the story finally caught up with the present. It took thirteen years to complete, but I finally saw the finished picture. And it was not what I was expecting it to be.
I used to imagine Grandma as the once-freed bird, only to be caught by the hand of another man. Chaining her down to a battered cage, all in the name of “love.” I imagined her story’s ending was a sad one. One of those endings that you just can’t figure out, ones that get stuck to your heart even after some time.
Instead revealed that the beautiful bird was opening the gate to the cage. I was mistaken. The bird never was trapped inside. How could it be with that soft glowing smile? No, the cage was its chosen resting place.
By A'ishah Hujjatullah Muhammad Saad, an 18-year-old writer from Nigeria,
"I'm a Muslimah, a creative writer, a poet, a novelist, a calligrapher, a content creator and lots more but most importantly, I'm a lover of my Deen."
"Dedicated to my beloved sisters and brothers in Palestine. I love you all."
The gloomy skies tell chronicles of my brother whose amazing smiles & dimples were swallowed by dust. In the gleaming rays of the moonlit sky, a replay of his gentlest steps is revealed in the timeless hours of the night. How his smiles surrendered to horror and fear and how -boom!- his handsome features were sacrilege by the ugly hands of eternal peace death.
That night I realized our favorite horror movies were not even as terrific as the reality we now live in. That the favorite sounds we used to scream while panting and running around during days that now seem like they never existed, the sounds of guns and blasting bombs, I now realize even they can kill...
This is how I wake every morning not even knowing how I slept.
The tales of my pillow I know not about for I have none. My home is now a forgotten piece in our land of flowing dust. If I say the word peace, it definitely means death to my people. Every second I change my bed, from the streets here to the one over there... Don't blame me, it's a matter of seconds before you know if you'll still make it till tomorrow.
I can remember vividly the day my sister's beloved dress became her first attire after she found peace in death. Oh, how I fail to remember the day our tumultuous relief paraded and shuddered into everlasting aches. I remember vividly, how father's pieces kissed almost every nook and cranny of our beloved war-torn lands.
How he blew like sparkles from fireworks and how his body shattered to the will of everlasting despair, a bomb was all it took to take down his stiff knees and shred his toes and fingers one by one. The knees that would never fall or kneel nor bow to the enemy's tune. The abode of ruins, a title, and initials our lands now bear.
I am, now, a remnant of the pieces and dust my family had become. A boy who bears feelings that ravage disaster. The one that bears scars that even the gloominess and darkness of the night can never conceal or hide. A feeling that competes with the shells of the bullets as the soul awaits its last hours.
Yet, deep down, beneath the ankles that bear the chain, within the lens that floods the tears, in the veins of the arms and every beat that reminds me that I am alive, a hope that rekindles like an ember from the ashes remains jagged, wild yet couth; it tells my mind this single line every day, "I wish to find peace in a soul that lives, and if not then I wish to die at least in peace death"
By Itse Daibo, a short story writer and illustrator in France
The Gateman, an extract from Arguing Over Little Things by Itse Daibo
THE GATEMAN
Abuja, 1998.
Goodluck sat inside the tiny hut attached to the gate fanning himself. His Oga had given him a new phone, but it was so complicated to use, that he didn’t know what to do with it. He wondered whether he could sell it at the market. He punched a few buttons on the phone and frowned, then tossed it to the side. There wasn’t much to do today.
He turned on the tiny television in the tiny room, rapped it on the head a few times with his fist, and adjusted the antenna to get a clearer picture, flicking from channel to channel, and frowning with each blink in disappointment until he shrugged his shoulders and turned the television off. There was nothing to watch, he thought. No ‘Basi and Company,’ a popular Nigerian comedy, no ‘The Rich Also Cry,’ a Mexican television series that had bizarrely made its way onto Nigerian television screens in the original Spanish language. There was nothing to watch. The only thing that was showing on TV these days were these big men in big suits speaking big, big, grammar. He switched on the radio and sat down, eyes glazing over. Bored.
“The Ogoni people are seeking justice from General Sani Abacha over the hanging of anti-Shell activist Ken Saro-Wiwa in 1995. They won’t...”
Goodluck suddenly shot up like a rocket and turned off the radio with shaky fingers, his left eye twitched rapidly. Then he looked around slowly as if searching for hidden cameras. One could never be too careful these days. People caught in the vicinity of bad talk about his boss’ father, Abacha, turned up dead somewhere, either fished out of the Lagos lagoon or stretched out and bloating under the sun on an expressway. Only a few months before, the military had made a fresh wave of arrests over a coup plot against the General. Even Abacha's deputy had been involved, including a number of generals and colonels.
"So if a person, 'with a gun' cannot trust the people he put inside his house and decides to punish them severely, imagine how he would treat others who are outside the house? And on top, that person has pawaaaah? Every day, there are stories of round-ups, arrests, abductions, neighbours becoming spies, friends becoming foes. No one to trust. In the morning, you are sitting in your house eating Indomine noodles and by nightfall, suppressing your hunger with termites in KiriKiri prison," said Goodluck aloud. He often talked quietly to himself.
Goodluck sat back down, wary of the weight of his heavy thoughts. He nervously opened a packet of Okin biscuits. He had a few boxes of the national biscuit piled up in his hut and had taken to eating a few packets a day. His name wasn’t Goodluck for nothing, and he had a reputation of good luck to uphold. He did not want to have his ears and his future tainted by the misfortune of this unfortunate Ken Saro-Wiwa man. He resolved not to listen to any more radio or TV for the rest of the day. Ironically, he was unaware that Basi and Company, his favorite TV show, was written by the same Ken Saro-Wiwa whose execution, Abacha had sanctioned.
Goodluck was not always meant to be named Goodluck. When he was born, his parents had quarreled over what to call him. His mother preferred Iheanacho, but his father did not want everyone to seek him out, which was what the name meant, and preferred to call him Amaechi, 'who knows tomorrow?' or Afamefuna, 'never be lost.' Goodluck's mother did not think these names boded well for their son's future and adamantly refused. The rain came down on them heavily as they left the maternity hospital. The large weighty drops fell down like machine gun firing from the sky as if beating the drum of their quarrel. As soon as they arrived home, NEPA, the national electricity company restored the city's power.
"Up Nepa!" They cried out in joy. The power cut had lasted more than a week and their mini generator had all but given up the ghost. They could store meat in the freezer again, enough for a party to celebrate their newborn’s homecoming. Shortly after the power returned, they received an unexpected visit from Mr. Chuks, who handed Goodluck's father a vulcanizing machine, and said, "You would like to start your own business, right? Here you go. You will no longer work for me or anyone else. You can now open your own workshop." Goodluck's father prostrated on the floor in a mark of respect, thanking Mr. Chuks and blessing him in every language he could think of. But even before Mr. Chuks could respond, a neighbor came by with a gift of baby clothes, and another person brought a basket of giant yams. A stream of gifts poured in, from baby formula to home-cooked meals. A friend of Goodluck's mother handed her an envelope filled with cash, and said, "With your baby, you won't be able to sell fruit in the market for some time. This should cover you for the next two weeks." And as she left, a neighbor handed them a brand-new mini generator. They had never experienced so much fortune in their lives. The next day, to their astonishment, they woke up to find that the rainstorm had flooded and snatched off the rooftops of every home on their street except for theirs. It was on that day his father suggested the name Goodluck and without hesitation, his mother said yes.
Yet it wasn't clear whether his luck came in spite of or as a result of his name. Goodluck had no special talent. He couldn't sing, dance, write, or as he'd been told on several occasions, think properly. He wasn't handsome or charming. He barely had much going for him, but what he did have was a penchant to blend in, mind his own business, and attract good luck. Money came to him easily, not in spades but he never did without. Although he never went to school, he knew that if he wanted to, he could. He also never got married but knew that if he wanted to, he could. He also didn't have many friends but knew that if he really wanted to have people around bothering him and disturbing his peace, he could. Would his parents have thought calling him Goodluck had paid off? He wasn't sure, but if they could only see him now, he was sure they would be happy to see he was working for a powerful man, the son of the leader of the country.
He was sitting down on the side of the road one day, minding his business, and trying to figure out ways to supplement the income he made from the fruit and vulcanizer businesses he had inherited from his parents when a BMW rolled up beside him. He couldn't see who was inside it because the windows were darkened, and made a quick move to back away, in case it was a body snatcher, people who kidnapped passers-by and used their body parts for rituals. The window of the passenger seat slid down and a man in a dark suit and dark glasses stuck his head out.
“Hello...?”
“Me?”
“Yes, you. Afternoon. Are you looking for work?"
Goodluck knew he was lucky but at that moment, he could barely believe his ears. He assessed the vehicle again and reconsidered his fears about being kidnapped. Kidnappers wouldn't drive such a nice car, he thought.
"Yes, I am."
"My Oga is looking for a mayguard urgently. Are you available?"
"Yes, yes, yes..." Goodluck responded, nodding vigorously.
"Have you done this type of work before?"
"Eh..."
"Never mind. Can you mind your business well, well?"
"Yes, yes, yes..." Goodluck replied, beating his chest.
"Okay. You know that big house over there? The one past those traffic lights. Come around 6 o'clock this evening. Okay?"
"Yes, yes, yes..." Goodluck said again, his body quivering from a rush of excitement.
With that, the car sped off in the direction of the big house and Goodluck could be seen from the car's rearview mirror jumping joyfully on the spot. He had already started counting the many ways he would spend the additional income, even though he was yet to know exactly how much that would be. There was Tola, his neighbor's wedding coming up, he could buy a new suit for that. He never went to weddings or bought suits but it was good to know that that could be an option. Goodluck had never worked as a may guard, the Nigerian term for gateman, but he was soon to learn that his principal task was to open the gate to let "papers" in and close it again until the papers were taken out again. He was meant to be on duty at every waking hour because sometimes, the papers arrived in the middle of the night, and other times, they arrived in the middle of the day. He lived in absolute ignorance about what these papers were and why they needed a mayguard. When the papers were not going in and out, the big house stood empty for days on end.
On some days, his Oga, Mohktar came to see to the papers himself often accompanied by what seemed to be either childhood friends, business partners, bodyguards, and men in military attire. Those days were unpredictable. These were the days when it dawned on Goodluck that he had a dangerous job. On those days, Goodluck would approach Mohktar with as much respect, caution, and courage as he could muster, greeting him with grand words.
"Oga kpata kpata!" which meant, “Oga of all the Ogas!" or "Baba!" meaning, father as a mark of respect. Even though, technically Goodluck appeared to look more like he could be Mohktar's father, than the other way around. But Goodluck was wise enough to offer his boss all the endearments expected for such a powerful man while staying just out of reach to protect his own neck. Not that he was a coward, but a year into the job had taught him to see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil, and heap praise on his boss whenever possible. He grew to understand that his ability to mind his own business and not ask too many questions was what kept him alive. Mohktar's temper often shot off in several directions like fireworks gone awry, and one never knew where the explosion would hit. Recently, his visits had become more frequent, bringing with every visit, more trucks full of papers, and more temper storms. This made Goodluck nervous. He had no interest in becoming the next 'scapegoat.' Even though Mohktar would dash him money and old Gucci and Armani designer clothes, Goodluck could never relax. Mohktar had shot the last driver at point-blank range to the head for sleeping on the job. Goodluck was aware that any day could be dee day, and these days, the tension was palpable. Women had stopped joining the Oga in the mansion, and the bodyguards spoke in whispers. Everybody was tense. It was around this time that it occurred to Goodluck that perhaps the papers were not papers after all but dead bodies. Perhaps they brought people in, killed them in the house, and took their bodies out again. If not, why would they bring them in trucks? Why were they heavily guarded by military men? Why were there so many secrets? At the back of his mind, he wondered whether all this time he thought he had been guarding an empty house when he was in fact guarding spirits. He took a sip of Maltina to calm his nerves. Something had touched him the other night, he was sure of it. He had turned around and there was nothing there, but he wasn't going crazy. He knew that there was something there. He had increasing thoughts of handing in his resignation.
"Dirty business!" he said, under his breath. "These people are up to no good. Why would Oga hire me as a security guard, not give me a gun, but have armed guards for trucks full of papers?" Better safe than sorry, he thought. But how was he going to tell a man with a gun that he was going to quit? Maybe he could just walk away and never come back again. He would go where no one would think to find him. He thought of money. Perhaps he could sell off the vulcanizer, and the market business. He had already spoken to Mrs. Okoro about clearing space in the market for her. But to really make a clean break he would need money, a lot of it. His left eye twitched nervously as he contemplated these plans, twitched as he slept, and twitched again when he was abruptly woken up at 3 am by furious honking at the gate. He hurriedly threw on his kaftan over his singlet and dashed to the gate's peephole. He only opened the gate to let in a gleaming Land Cruiser when he recognized Mohktar at the back of the car. Mohktar opened the door but did not get out of the car.
"Oga, sah! Good evening.” Goodluck said, pronouncing “sir,” as
"sah." His eyes were alight with anxiety as he came face to face with Mohktar. Goodluck immediately noticed that Mohktar wasn't looking like his usual polished self. Instead, he was disheveled and had grown a two-day beard. His agbada was torn on one side as if he had been in a fight. An unsympathetic thought ran through Goodluck's mind at that moment, "The rich also cry!"
"Stay in the car!" Mohktar ordered, as one of his bodyguards opened the car door and stepped onto the tarmac.
"Yes, sah," he said, bowing his head and promptly sitting back into the passenger's seat.
"Take out the documents from the boot," said Mohktar pointing at Goodluck, who though confused, went along to the back of the car to see what he meant. The boot opened automatically and Goodluck, expecting to find something gruesome, found to his relief six dusty-looking paper boxes. He pulled them out one after the other and placed them gently onto the tarmac.
"Take care of the papers...Take them inside. You have the keys."
"Oga?..." Good luck asked, but Mohktar interrupted him and said, "We'll discuss when I return. Do not let anyone enter the compound before my return."
"Yes, Oga. Yes, sah."
The car reversed in the dark and sped out of the gate. Perspiration poured down Goodluck's face. This was above his job description. He didn't want to get involved in this business of "papers", but as Mohktar had instructed, he dutifully carried the sealed cartons into the house. The boxes were heavy but they didn't look like they had any human remains in them, he thought, as he sniffed one of the boxes. A sense of relief washed over him. One after the other, he left each box on the floor of the foyer, not daring to venture further into the house. He rarely entered the mansion and whenever he did, he was never alone. He watched nervously for spirits, expecting to find something macabre, but the place was eerily quiet, the white marble floor pristine, even though Mrs. Alade had stopped coming by to clean.
Weeks went by, but Mohktar did not return. Good luck had a bad feeling. One afternoon, as he was considering switching off his tiny television in disgust because as usual there was nothing to watch, a sullen-looking news reporter popped onto the screen.
"We are interrupting this program to announce the sudden death of General Sani Abacha at age 54..."
"Eh?" said Goodluck, dropping his half-eaten agbalumo onto the ground. The sticky orange fruit lay at the bottom of the security desk, until Goodluck recovered his senses, picked it up, and tossed it into the bin.
"After taking power in a 1993 coup, General Abacha..."
The television blasted on, while Goodluck got up to switch it off, muttering angrily under his breath about "big, big, grammar" before turning on the radio and tuning it to a local station with "amebo" or gossip news.
"Abacha die with Indian prostitute!" said one commentator.
"Oti O!" Goodluck exclaimed in disbelief and turned up the volume of the radio.
"No, no! I hear he die because of poisoning. His fellow officers. They kill him!" responded another commentator in the local pidgin English.
"No, no, no, no! They say nah the Americans. You know? CIA. They pay prostitutes to give 'am poisoned apple. I am telling you. Nah America!" insisted yet another commentator.
Good luck spent the rest of the day with his ears glued to the radio. His heart was filled with sympathy for his boss's family, his body filled with relief for the country, but his mind was filled with worry about what to do next and whether to leave sooner than he had planned. For days afterward, he sat listening to debate after debate about the ex-dictator in the hope of hearing some news of his Oga, only interrupting to watch the World Cup. The football match momentarily distracted him from making a decision about his future. But when the Super Eagles, Nigeria's national football team lost to Spain by 2 to 1, he felt the dryness of the Okin biscuit he was eating choking him and his anxiety returning. He took a quick sip of Maltina but didn't feel better. He was going to lose his job, the Super Eagles lost. What could get worse? He thought.
Goodluck pondered what to do for many days, until one day, as he was sitting in the mayguard hut, placing a Chocomilo cube carefully onto the thin slice of a crispy Okin biscuit, he heard something drop to the ground. He quietly tiptoed towards where the voices were coming from, right outside of the gate, and recognized the voices right away. They were the voices of Mohktar's two bodyguards, Mustafa and Moshood, the ones he had seen the other night. They never spoke to him but he had heard them speak among themselves and to his Oga.
"Shhh....," whispered one, "You will wake Goodluck up."
Goodluck's ears perked when he heard his name. He tiptoed closer to the gate and pressed his ear on the cool metal frame to hear better.
"We'll have to kill him."
"Do you have a silencer on that gun?"
"No."
“Ode!" said Moshood, which meant stupid in the Yoruba language, "You want the whole world to come and witness us killing a gateman?"
"Can you think of a better idea?"
"We just knock and ask for the papers."
"I sent Sehu to do that last week and the gateman refused
to give it to him..."
"Oh! Ah...We must get a silencer then."
"Can you get one fast?"
"From the barracks. I have a friend."
"Okay, let's aim for Thursday?"
"That's fine. I hope this works out."
"My brother! Don't worry, everything will work out. Perfect, perfection!"
Goodluck held his neck with both hands. His assassination was perfect, perfection? God forbid bad thing! He tiptoed back to the hut, every part of his body shaking like a leaf.
"Today is Monday," he said to himself. "Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday…." he added, counting on his fingers, and repeating over and over again, sweat pouring down his face and neck. Driven by curiosity mingled with fear he matched straight to the big house to find out what these papers really were and why his life was on the line.
"Spirits!" he muttered as he approached the mansion. "I'm guarding spirits."
He opened the door quietly as if there really were spirits roaming around who could bite him. The boxes were on the ground where he had left them, collecting dust. He knelt down and opened the closest one with a pen knife. As he flipped the carton open, his eyes widened in disbelief. He knew he had just seen something he shouldn't have, and he now understood why those men were prepared to kill him. He shut the box and made the sign of the cross, then opened the second, then the third, then the fourth box, then the fifth, and suddenly laughed out loud. He remained on his knees and quietly said a thank you prayer to his parents for naming him Goodluck. He had been lucky all of his life, but what he was witnessing was beyond luck. He regarded the open boxes again with utter disbelief, with the realization that he was staring at his retirement package in wads of crisp clean dollar bills. In his mind, he mentally calculated how he would buy a bus, load the boxes onto the bus, and get as far away from the mansion as possible. He bought the bus the next day, and from that day on, Goodluck was never seen or heard from in those parts again.
By Bankole Taiwo James, a 24-year-old writer from Nigeria, Kwara State
Bankole Taiwo James is a writer, aspiring author, a Content creator on Instagram, Sales Rep at Light Multifarious Bookstore in University of Ilorin and a certified journalist who has wrote and published over 30 article with top media companies in Nigeria which includes Nigerian Tribune, The Renata Magazine, The National Daily News, Informant 247 e.t.c
Why do people do the things they do?, I guess its not really the why that I am interested in, it's another question. How far can you go down the wrong path to protect the one you love? Love they say is the most beautiful thing in this world. For love, they say they can do anything, of course, why won't they? So tell me how far can you go to protect the ones you love? What evil can you commit to protect the one you love? Maybe you think you are not capable of evil, then wait till I finish telling you a story. His name is Segun, he killed his best friend to protect the girl that he loved.
The Aibet Indirect Confession
In the heart of a bustling university campus, the federal University of Ilorin, located at the north-central part of Nigeria, is a trio of three friends who embarked on their final year after two extra years of COVID-19 and ASUU nationwide strike. Michael, Segun, and Jessica were inseparable and their friendship became the envy of many. They had shared countless adventures, dreams, and the hope of bringing about positive change in their society. Honestly, if you are meeting them for the first time, you might think that they are siblings except that they bear no resemblance at all.
Michael, popularly called ScottMichael,
a British name he claimed for himself. Michael is a quietly passionate young man, very studious, hardworking, and of course handsome. He had always harbored a deep affection for Jessica. His admiration for her went beyond friendship, but he kept it hidden like a well-guarded secret. Every day, he watched her from afar, appreciating her intelligence, her kindness, and her infectious enthusiasm for life. He admired the way her eyes lit up when she talked about her plans for the future, the very future he longed to be a part of, but like they always say “some things are not just meant to be no matter how much you tried to pull the string’
Jessica, on the other hand, was completely oblivious to Michael's unspoken affection. Her heart was drawn to Segun, a charismatic and charming young man, and Michael’s closest friend. Segun's magnetic presence had an irresistible pull on Jessica, and the way he effortlessly charmed everyone around him intrigued her. They often spent late nights talking about their shared dreams, lost in the world of possibilities. Michael, always present but unnoticed, watched them grow closer with a heavy heart.
As their final year progressed, their bond only grew stronger. They were inseparable, attending lectures together, supporting each other through their academic challenges, and joining forces for various social causes. They were united by a shared vision of making a positive impact on their society, with each of them having a unique role in the grand plan.
Amidst their endeavors, Michael grappled with the emotional turmoil of his unrequited love. He watched Jessica's growing fondness for Segun with a heavy heart, feeling a pang of jealousy every time she laughed at Segun's jokes or leaned into his magnetic presence. He tried to quell these feelings, reminding himself that their friendship was paramount.
Jessica, caught in the whirlwind of university life and her passion for making a difference, remained oblivious to Michael's inner struggle. She admired Segun's confidence and natural leadership, his ability to inspire those around him. Her own aspirations to create change aligned with Segun's, drawing her closer to him emotionally.
One fateful evening, the trio gathered at a quaint coffee shop to discuss their plans for post-graduation. The air was charged with anticipation and nervous excitement. Michael wrestled with his emotions, contemplating whether this was the right moment to bear his soul. As the conversation flowed, the topic shifted to their dreams and desires for the future. Segun spoke passionately about the impact they could make by starting a nonprofit organization. His words resonated with Jessica, igniting a spark of admiration that glowed in her eyes. Michael felt a tightening in his chest, grappling with the fear of losing Jessica. In that moment, he found the courage to express his love, albeit indirectly. He spoke eloquently about the power of love, its ability to drive change, and how love for their community motivated their shared goals.
In that vulnerable confession, Michael poured his heart out without explicitly naming his feelings for Jessica. The room fell silent, and he anxiously awaited their reactions. Segun and Jessica exchanged knowing glances, both realizing the depths of Michael's unspoken words. Jessica, taken aback and surprised, realized the truth about Michael's affections. She looked at him with newfound understanding, and the trio found themselves at a crossroads, their friendship forever altered by this unspoken revelation. In the days that followed, their friendship faced a new reality. It was strained, but it didn't break, however evil is about to be welcomed in their midst.
Ava Jane Glenski is a high school senior living exuberantly in Chicago. She is a national champion in Gymnastic Wheel.
On my Present
1.
I was invited to sit outside because they hadn’t entered their house in five days. A key had been lost in the mud, so we sat on a porch and existed in a moment outside of time. The sky was consuming itself with rain, and they had invited me to be on the porch until the sky was finished. We watched the raindrops and began to know each other.
The storm could have gone on for hours and they would not have cared, just as they did not care that a key had been lost in the mud and they hadn’t been inside for five days. In their reality, five days without entering the house was neither absurd, nor a crisis, but simply a moment in which they were not inside, but outside. The family did not live without temporality because they were rich and affluent, or because they had nothing in the world to do, or even because it was possible to exist outside of temporality, but, simply, because they had decided that time would be irrelevant for them.
When the rain stopped, we said goodbye, and never met again. Time began for me when I stepped off of the porch. For five days they had not gone inside, because nobody could find the key, and I will never know how long it took for the key or a locksmith to appear, and, if I were to ask them, I doubt that they could tell me.
2.
I read once about a community in Brazil, the Pirahã peoples, that could not hold on to exact numbers, because they did not have mathematical words in their language, but only soft words, such as “few,” and “many.” I found the idea of their language to be an a-temporal river, and assumed that their culture must be more focused on joy than the earning of money.
To learn mathematics, the people of this community had first to learn Portuguese, inextricably linking the act of addition and subtraction, of multiplication and division, with a foreign language and culture. Now, when asked how many people are in a room, a Pirahã villager must first step into Portuguese to conceptualize an answer.
In Pirahã, items are measured via Brazil.
3.
When I sit with her at a cafe in Chicago, surrounded by the movement of life, in a neighborhood rushed by traffic and children coming home from school, I am bathed in temporality.
I cannot stand to wait for the train, to wait on making-up my mind, tossing ideas over themselves, I cannot stand to wait on the writing of a poem when I create an idea, to wait for dinner when I am hungry, to wait on tasks, procrastinating without purpose, but inside of that cafe, inside of our friendship, I am pulling waiting around myself, quivering in the minutes between now and January second, filling myself with the forty-four days until her plane will leave and my nostalgia will be ignited, drinking in time.
Our friendship is based on waiting, on the ephemeral.
Now.
Just as Brazil is the frame via which the Pirahã villagers count and numerate, she is the catalyst for my extended view of time, my romanticization of waiting, of counting down the days not until we will see each other again, but the days together that we still contain.
I have based my ideals of time on the family that lost their key in the mud, the euphoria of life outside of the temporal and without the ephemeral. I have found counting down to be reductive and useless. I have wanted to prioritize joy, to prioritize the present tense, to sit on a porch as the indefinite rainstorm blows in front of me. All of this is still true; all of these are still my ideals.
My ideals conflict with my reality, at least until January second.
By Jasper Vanmassenhoven
Jasper is an 18-year-old writer. She resides in Canada and is currently in Grade 13! They have one previous piece published with Mosaic Literary Journal called 'Deception by The People'.
We have crossed paths
Many times before
I've started to slip through the cracks
And apart we've tore
We used to be back to back
The though of you now makes sore wounds
You've left me behind
Going thought the tunnel
Our lives finally declined
We have to reach the null
death was kind to us
Will we meet again?
You've melted my brain
Into loving you, was hard
Even harder to leave me behind alone
By Joy Yin
Joy Yin is a writer from Wuhan, China, though she has lived in California for 5 years. She is fluent in Mandarin Chinese and English but also learning Mexican Spanish. Joy has always loved reading and writing. As of now, she has works either forthcoming or already published in Skipping Stones Magazine, Scfaikuest, the new Drabbun Anthology by Hiraeth Books, Cold Moon Journal, and Star*Line. She's currently 13 years old and attending an international school in Mexico City. Find her on Instagram at @joyyinm88.
Trapped
I am trapped
Behind these bars of iron
Cold to the touch
My imprisonment
Light as a butterfly
My soul enclosed
In this living hell.
I suffer and plead
A zoo animal
Facing all those stares
On the street.
Pacing in my enclosure
Please the curious looks.
I fall to the floor
Rigid cage
Escape?
Never.
By Ray Castellanos, a 13-year-old writer from New York
"My name is Ray. I’m in 8th grade and I started writing about a year ago"
"This poem was inspired by “A larger loneliness” by Eli Bosnick in i just hope it's lethal. Whatever you believe in, just imagine someone, immortal, having to watch everything, forever."
They stare down at their subjects
They see them love
Hate
Care
Destroy
They wonder why they do it
Why put some much thought
Feeling
Energy
Hope
Into their lives
Even knowing in a day
Hour
Minute
Second
It will all be
Just gone
Pointless
Meaningless
Nothing
By Mahika Bagri
"I am a 17 year old Asian, currently residing in California.
I enjoy reading, writing, and analyzing songs in my free time."
"This piece is supposed to be about the underdog of birds: the crow. The poem utilizes the crow as a metaphor for misrepresented and unrepresented populations."
If it flies,
If it soars,
That’s a bad omen;
Tipping off the fine scales, of
Society's balance.
If it speaks,
If it caws,
People shut their ears…
Cause the right of speech is reserved
For the sweet-sounding birds.
Birds that sing to us what we want to hear.
Not the painful reality from which we wish to disappear.
Misunderstood
Stands the underdog of birds.
Unseen, Unheard,
Yet, undeterred.
By Mahika Bagri
"I am a 17-year-old Asian, currently residing in California.
I enjoy reading, writing, and analyzing songs in my free time."
"This poem is dedicated to my grandmother, who lives in India."
जब मै रोति थि, (When I used to cry,)
तभ आप मुझे हंसते थे। (you would make me laugh.)
जब मै सो नहिन पाती थी (When I used to be unable to sleep,)
तभ आप मुझे सुलाते थे। (you would make me sleep.)
जब मेरे को कोइ भी मुसीबत आते थि, (When I ran into a problem,)
मे आपको बात्लातइ थि। (I would tell you.)
जब मै परेशान होति थि, (When I was not at ease,)
मै अपकि गोद धुंडते थि। (I would look for your lap.)
जब आपको गोद में था मेरा सर, (When my head was on your lap,)
तभ में थी बेफिक्र। (I felt fearless.)
जब आपको गोद में था मेरा सर, (When my head was on your lap,)
तभ दुनिया थी मेरी हमसफ़र। (the universe was on my side.)
जब आपको गोद में था मेरा सर, (When my head was on your lap,)
तभ लोगों की बातें थी बेकार। (what people said was useless.)
आपको गोद की असर, (The effect of your lap,)
था जैसे जादू नगर। (was like that of a magic city.)
आब गोद बहुत दूर है, (Now the lap is far away,)
पर प्यार कभी कम नहीं। (but my love for you is never lesser.)
By Saorise Palmer,
Saoirse Palmer (who prefers the name Ashton) is a sixteen-year-old, transgender writer from Northern Ireland. His favorite poets include Ocean Vuong, Richard Siken and Fiona Benson. He mainly writes poetry, and has been previously published in issue 2 of 'Cathartic Magazine' and has two upcoming publications in issue one of 'The Encephalon Journal' and 'Adolescence Magazine's' autumn mini-mag. His experiences with gender dysphoria has been a major influence in his writing - seeping into the cracks of his poetry, as it does in his daily life.
Saoirse Palmer often uses enjambment to separate the lines of his poetry, often to make it sound as if he himself is saying it. His inspiration is strongly tied to modern poets such as Danez Smith or Fiona Benson. His main technique in his writing is often strongly used metaphor.
Beauty As The World’s Circulation: Without Him.
He’ll wring his hands around the wounds
of powdered beatings -
“Turn here.”
They are rough hands; the callouses
cement rivers in his skin that
trail down his fists like
poison; when you lock your palms,
you feel childhood: abandoned
wood house with the dead dog - cage him, bash his skull
in. Here, or tomorrow, definitely now, lulling music
breaks through our cartilage: “It looks like a spaceship, with the rays coming down,
doesn’t it?”
beauty as the world's circulation. We talk about how
seatbelts aren’t designed for women; tear it down, rip his eyes out -
then throw them to the sight
of gums, bird feeders, bird eaters, rotting wood,
corsets, black cats, appendixes, clementines, honeybees, keening children,
turn his head to humans; earths circulation; rotating it’s
blood &
Lingering, staying,
being,
smiling & dying without him.
Lingering bodies kill
I see God in her features; uncapitalised.
Crooked, winged creatures plant
sycamore seeds into her nostrils: I look to your nose bridge,
“I like the way it’s shaped.”
Tremors crawl through my stomach, there’s
something evil about not knowing where the
wet words will soak; splattering & caustic in my breastbone. My wounds quiver raw
when the man looks down at me; leeches squeal when the woman stares at eye level -
I feel alone in my fight for internal flesh: the clinging human body.
This womb is permanent,
constant,
somehow unchangeable, even while squishing gums & tying ropes
around the chest (the neck)
I am rotting in fixation. Thin are my ties
to a lingering;
the webs hold still around me, lightly even, gentle -
but still cradling.
By Abdulazeez Abdulbasit,
A 19 year old writer from Nigeria
"I'm an aspiring writer who reads lesser than I write but I'm willing to learn and improve myself in the art of writing."
Like a speck of dust,
man is small in comparison to worlds.
With a mighty will,
man conquers all that he sees.
Would it be my destiny to just be?
A question that aches my being.
Why strive when all I see are scattered dreams?
My nightmare coming to life with a loud scream.
Like a floating dream,
all ends in a heartbeat.
Alas my ancestors crossed the seven seas,
with machinations of the past that alter the highest peak.
Why would I give up when I'm not asleep?
With a firm hold, I will reach my destiny.
In my blazing mind; a fiery hazard.
A mighty sea bigger than man's fantasy
A raging storm of emotions.
An earthquake of storming needs.
In a blink of an eye, all will come to cease.
My elements are left for me to conceive.
Either I reach the top or I die trying.
When death is a mighty full stop,
Till my last breath, I will never give up.
From sand to man and Ash to dust.
I will open the doors in time,
always forward without looking back
By Asma Jamil,
a 16 year old writer from Texas
"I'm a high school student that expresses myself through creative writing. I love art, all forms of it and I dream of publishing novels one day."
You do not know me. You notice me.
I know you notice things about me I don't want anyone to see but that is the only way you can know me. Things I can't do anything about, things that you're supposed to know me through. You have glanced at me and you know my hair is a bleach-damaged, dying shade of brown. My eyes are brown but rude and black when we look at each other. You know my nose isn't straight and my lips are small, one of my ears being elf-like.
There are other things you know about me. You know I am engulfed in black fabric always and wear silver jewelry sickening to the eyes. You notice my rings slipping off my slender fingers and my shoes too big for my feet.
Do you notice the bump on my finger? I want you to know me.
When you hold my hand and carress the cold, brittle skin, do you feel my finger fall in and come back to life? Perhaps my ring distracts you from what I want you to see.
You don't know me when I struggle to wrap my body into my chair when I write, hoping these cold words don't make me shiver. You don't see my brows furrow when I hate my words on paper nor do you notice my lipstick smudged because of my frustrated hands. Right there, when I'm gone to a world you don't want to see, my pen is wrapped in my hand, grip firm and unsure at once.
It hurts, but I don't notice though I want you to notice- I want you to remove my hands and hold them, kiss where the pen has tried to feel at home. "Tell me I'm talented," I want to say, but I'm too busy letting you see something you don't want to see. I will regret it later on, when I'm done loving you.
You notice my body when I show you but do you see me when I am splayed across my dresser, letting my skin earn splinters from the dark wood. When my eyes are on the mirror, scanning every corner of where you have touched and where I am yet to discover something new to despise. You don't see me scratching over my red, disgusting birthmark, wishing it was identical to the one on the opposite side, calm and brown, not hurting my skin this one does. how I've hated my body all my life, the way I peel at the skin on my thighs and shoulders, wishing I was tinier and fit in your arms better. I don't notice when I'm eating your favorite flavor of ice cream, or your favorite drink; I feel safe with you on my tongue, because you love me. Do you notice how much I hate the skin I am trapped in? I trace my skin hoping you don't do.
"I'm not so easy to love," I say to you and you tell me I am because you love me but you don't know how I love and how difficult it is to love a human like myself. "Just look at me" but you don't look at my eyes or my lips or my hands scared to tell you what I want to.
Spread me out like a picnic blanket but not like you do, like I want you to. Spread out all my flaws and imperfections and my beauty and the reasons I cry, understand them and then wrap me back into your arms.
Understand me.
I am not simple the way you like me, you don't like to see farther than that. You aren't around when my kitchen is a sickly scent of chocolate, when I'm knees to chin in front of my oven, silently excited to eat the cupcakes my mom helped me make when I was little. You aren't around when i'm laying on the kitchen island with a sticky, sugary energy drink spilt on my neck because I cried thinking of you. You don't know why I cry then, either.
Are you there holding me when I stop myself from crying while doing my makeup? Pulling on my eyes and pressing onto my nose, trying to make my lips bigger. When I make plans to save money to change myself but not for college or an apartmnent like I've always wanted. Or do you like what you've carved of me? A girl with red under her eyes from too much crying and pink lips bruised from your love which feels like too much.
Do you listen to me when I ask you about my love for you? Do you flinch when I put my hands on you, not because they're cold but because I've never touched you like you want me to. Do you frown at me when you read my work because it's too much for you and maybe I'm just crazy or weird, something I don't notice myself. Do you think of me when you're alone at night not naked but maybe what I like to eat and watch or how I'd like us to hold hands?
Do you like the shoes Iwear? What color do you think looks good on me? Do I have a pretty voice and do I make you feel alright? Is my love overwhelming? Tell me, I don't want to suffocate you. Talk to me and listen to me but make sure you're still thinking of me under you. Don't leave me but make sure to pretend you're listening to me.
Tell me I mean something to you, before I beg for your love again.
By Grace Sinkins
Grace Sinkins is an eighteen year old poet who loves drinking tea and watching old movies. Grace has been published in numerous magazines such as Corporeal Lit and Meditating Cat Zine. You can find her in the classics section at a library or on Instagram @gracexlizzie.
It’s January 2023
I didn’t make a New Year’s resolution
Because there isn’t anything that has given me a reason to hold on hope for happiness
It’s February 2023
I got grounded because I failed a midterm exam
I was allowed to keep my phone so I could contact my parents in the case of if I had to hide under a desk during a school shooting
It’s March 2023
The prices in the thrift stores are rapidly going up
I’m learning how to sew with an old manual sewing machine I bought four years ago for sixteen dollars
It’s April 2023
Queer music finally has a mainstream spotlight
Through the lens of straight men explaining their discography in irrelevant online posts
It’s May 2023
The biggest health organization has decided the pandemic isn’t an issue anymore
People across the country are acting like fentanyl isn’t killing our children in the school bathrooms
It’s June 2023
Companies have stopped posting about pride month
Young gay couples have stopped attending pride parades out of fear
It’s July 2023
I have a summer job working to afford nosebleed tickets to an Indie Show
I won’t be able to pay off the ticket for another thirteen shifts
It’s August 2023
A beautiful blue moon occurred at the end of the month
It was hard to tell the difference due to light pollution
It’s September 2023
Birkin bags are back in
But even less people can afford them now
It’s October 2023
I registered to vote at a booth ran by someone half a year older than me
My friend spent the second half of homecoming crying because she lost the title of queen to a girl she hates
It’s November 2023
I turned eighteen and bought a lottery ticket just because I legally could
The cashier told me I was wasting my money because the system doesn’t let the broke people win
It’s December 2023
It’s the eve of new years and my mother has called me three times asking me to come home
I don’t know anyone at this house party but I hope someone sweet can give me a New Year’s kiss
By Shamik Banerjee,
a 27 year old poet from India
October counterfeits December's clime.
A chill skims past me as I ramble down
The cobbled pathway of this once-dear place,
Remembering that long-lost cherished year
When life had given me the nicest time
Of love and all its blessings in this town
Through Sufia. Alas! her lovely face
Now only generates a lonely tear.
I'm standing by the crowded metro line.
The rapid trains evoke those hopeful eves
When I had only one schedule: from home
To my workplace, later to that café
Where we would sit for hours, chat, and dine,
Then amble at a parklet full of leaves
With fingers softly twined beneath the dome
Of Autumn's pleasant, mildly-starred array.
Bright market squares and young love couples there—
How strongly emulate those happy nights
Of Fridays when we'd browse through fancy dresses;
By coyly smiling, she'd convey to me
A Kurti or perhaps some formalwear
That she would want. From flats, the dangling lights
Transport me to those times when worldly stresses
Didn't burden me and life went merrily.
Wherever I set foot, a road or gully,
It bears her apparition through and through,
Filling me with her intermittent voice
Like thunderbolts wake up a dormant room.
Once, fall was sweet, but now it passes dully,
Transforming everything before my view
Into a realm bereft of lasting joys
Where I'm a phantom lurking in its gloom.
October counterfeits December's air.
Its weather heralds joy to every soul,
But not to mine. I stretch a broken smile
And wander as an unsought stranger here.
The wind still wafts the fragrance of her hair
But this is all it does. All seems unwhole,
Though I am sauntering mile after mile
With nothing but a face devoid of cheer.
O heart of mine, how can I salve your grief?
I'm just as fragile as a one-winged fowl
That's tenuous and cannot fix its aim
Against a violent gale. So let us rest
Upon our bed of tears and find relief
From this unpleasing truth, so love can't howl
Day after day with this deceptive claim
That I am still alive within her chest.
By A'ishah Hujjatullah Muhammad Saad,
an 18 year old writer from Nigeria
"I'm a Muslimah, a creative writer, a poet, a novelist, a content creator, a calligrapher, and lots more but most importantly I'm a lover of my Deen."
You ask of how I became a twin to my pain,
Of how my visage mirrored the emotions,
That I'd longed buried whenever night falls,
And how I became a beloved and a mad lover,
Who flaunts the wealth of these rich words,
I paint in strokes,
And how I can tell you everything,
about what pain is,
And every form, style, and type of anguish,
How I became a painter,
that designs with patterns of agony,
How 'bout I tell you the story then,
Of how I amassed the wealth of words,
and creativity that stands uniquely,
for even in ages to come,
These petals shall wither not,
nor will they ever decay,
You really want to know right?
It all started when my home became a field of thorns,
When the place where I sought respite,
became an abode of grief,
How I found my legs chained and my heart, frozen!
In the realm of that decadent misery, I called a home,
Like the guardian of change, my whole life,
Constantly evolved changing scenes,
but the gloomy hues remained the same,
I became a queen in my abode of anguish,
And I have all the honors,
a grieving sucker could be gifted,
There's the pain, agony, miseries, sorrows and grief,
And I cheerfully wallowed in their wealth,
I'm like a rose devoid of thorns,
And if I could be likened to a rose itself,
I'm one devoid of petals and colours,
My thorny home, my castle, and its kingdom of fear,
I ruled like the queen that I am,
And what my hands couldn't reach or hold,
Freedom, it's called,
When my caged being began,
to find solace in her isolation,
And peace in her solitude,
When my buried thoughts,
became seedlings of my own despair,
Which rooted and stem deeply beneath,
And grew fruits of anguish and fear,
O' mother earth, please I beg,
Let there be no other me,
The me that grew to love a cage of thorns,
And instead of her to raise her voice,
She bled within the alphabets,
That couldn't make up the lines,
Her lips parted for,
for her mouth to speak,
And when those letters,
flooded her heart,
PAIN is the word they spelt...
© Hujjah Saad
By: Shamik Banerjee a poet from India.
I see the boy kin smiling! He's bought the festive lights.
Throughout this gay November, he'll decorate the nights.
He takes the firecrackers and sees them as if gold
Has escaped its deposit and plunged upon his hold.
He lays them on a table, under the sun bright sky
So that all moistness goes off and their centers are dry.
The sun session is done now; he picks each up to keep
Within its paper casings as if a child's asleep.
He firmly tapes the bundles that hold his treasure tight,
Then crams them in his armpits and thinks they're safe and right.
I asked him, "May I see those Ground Spinners for a while?",
I dove into the countenance of his refulgent smile.
By Fatima Shad
"I'm a 20 years old Pakistani writer, poetess and a self-taught artist who's currently doing her bachelor in science, and is keen on books, coffee, sky and nature, and am working on my debut poetry book."
You can find her work printed in the book "to live life"
Come, and allow me to have one beseeching look at you.
Come, to refute my naive assumptions of being without you, be apparent to my eyes.
Come, see the tears running down my palms, when I plead with the God to have you mine
Come, let me be chained in your eyes like a prisoner, with my being wrapped in your gaze.
Come, to assure the chances of seeing you after a long period of waiting.
Come, and prove that the years I have put forth in your yearning have been worthwhile.
Come, before searching for you makes my soul go missing.
Come to end this distance, even if only temporarily, for the sake of this dying poetess' last wish.
.
.
.
I feel like I'll eventually perish into an insane disability of never being able to love, laugh, or live again due to the piercing sadness caused by the distance between us that has taken up residence inside of me. Give me a hand, pull me out of this depth of sorrow, bring me hope that the sustainable waves of your presence are coming towards me so I can float on them, and tell my impatient desire of being with you that you are no longer away to come and will be with me for the rest of the upcoming dawns.
By Seerat Fatima, a 17 year old writer from Pakistan
Seerat is a poetess of sorts. She likes to spend evenings sipping coffee while watching the trees sway from her window. Her mom thinks Seerat is losing her mind, edging into madness, which Seerat wishes is the case because the alternatives don't look too good.
What if I told you I want to be maltreated?
Mocked, trounced, maimed- utterly annihilated but never killed.
What if I told you I want the wounds, the scars, the aches?
What if I told you I think I deserve agony, the hurt, the excruciation?
What if, in some ineffable, absurd, maddening- twisted way I think it will make me worthy of your love?
What if I told you my sins are too big?
What if I told you I dared to apostate?
What if I told you atonement, for me is impossible?
What if I am too sordid to ever be respectable again?
Would I still be your angel, your doll?
Would you still look at me the same?
Treat me with kindness and affection, like a being too fragile.
Would you still swear to the world?
Swear on your life of my purity?
Would you fight Gods for me?
Darling, oh darling!
Tell me, are my crimes too much for your pristine reputation?
Will your gentle heart survive the world knowing of my immoral transgressions?
Would you be the first to throw rocks at me?
Or would you be my shield and adore me through it all?
Love, oh love!
This is eating me alive.
My guilt, my shame.
My expectancies over you choosing me.
Despite the impairment. Despite the aspersions.
Even though I will burn you with me.
In the face of maledicent speech.
Would you want me still?
Would you love me most?
Would you still think I deserve the pure heavens we talked about, with me in your lap as the moon faded into the lavender morning skies?
By Shayzan Brown
Shayzan Brown is a 17 year old from Jamaica. She has been writing from the age of 7 where she began writing short stories. She plans to become a clinical psychologist but hopes to share her stories and poems with the world.
I close my eyes and ignore the world and your outstretched hand
For I fear I will follow you into hell just so I could lay in my bed and relish the fact that you held my hand
I fear that you will see the blood under my fingernails and I will cut my own arm off in disgust for what I have done to survive
I will become horrified at the way I have clawed into my own skin and then toss the most important and ugliest parts of myself away for you
I do not think I know better at this point in time and I am not sure I ever will
I keep my arms close to me and my wits about me for I cannot bear to think of reaching out to you
I know if I look in your direction I will crumble like a fragile ruin for that is all I am.
I am simply a shell of former life.
And again I am scared this is all I will ever be.
A twisted little child in a body much too big for them and with responsibilities comparable to Atlas and the literal world on his shoulders.
In my wildest dreams and most painful nightmares I see myself in his stead being punished for crimes I have long forgotten about.
At my healthiest I can have a mere glimpse of what my life could look like if my mind shut up for one second, but my healthiest is also my worst as I am simply waiting for the inevitable crash that happens in the wake of it.
At my worst I am a vessel for anger, hate, spite and the bitter disappointment of knowing you could have been so much more than what you are now.
By Riya Khandelwal,
A 15 year old writer from India
Riya is a fifteen year old girl who has never known a standstill in her life. She has traveled different towns throughout her childhood, and looked at different people's lives through her young eyes. Growing up, she has realized her love for literature, poetry, and her pen, and spends her school nights drawing up universes for her poems to talk about all she's seen through her life.
I sit, quiet and lifeless, in the blue balcony
I am seven, heavy hearted, torn, and ripped.
I touch the cold of my skin through the shreds of my clothes,
And get a bite on the places that he knew to be his
My mind feels fuzzy, a hot flushing red,
My body feels worn and frost bitten,
I manage a blanket from inside the room, anyway,
And I look up, up at the heavens
"Eyes never up, sweetheart," he always said, but this time, they look
As the million jewels and clouds run, in the brilliant, wondrous night sky
Beauty and devastation all at once,
a graveyard and a nursery of stars racing across, alive and free, like they have created their own lifekind
And then,
A sharp, dazzling shooting star.
"Make a wish," he had said, when he had first come to play with me, that night;
And I had wished, and I wished hard
As I obeyed all that he had said,
I stared at the ceiling fan as he did what he pleased,
And looked at the diamonds,
And clandestinely, I wished for death.
The morning after, I touched my raw knees,
Bruised and bloody from what he had called devotion
And my chest and my thighs and all the places he'd ripped and seen
Like a ragdoll — discarded, used
God's abandoned, worthless, sensitive creation
And so with years it happened again, and again, and again
A million times,
The same way as before.
The stars in the sky fall,
As my limbs grow loose and malleable
And cotton fills my thoughts more and more.
And so the brilliant poet, the dazzling talent,
The top of the school, radiant young girl
Gets buried deeper and deeper in a grave of dissociation and disconnect
And begged him every night for mercy, giving away her love and passion for survival in the world
The years pass into decades, the attention fades,
The girl had turned stupid, she had drowned and died,
Another girl had come and replaced her eventually,
and the little girl stayed lost, forever, in her ocean of a mind
And then.
The fateful day, it comes.
I scream and shout.
And eventually,
It slips.
I am once again on my knees, a little girl,
Begging for mercy and care from the adults,
That she craves
And then mum and dad—
They stare, and stare, and for a moment, I think they're about to say something kind—
And oh—
"You are overreacting."
They stand up, roll their eyes, and leave me, a rotting corpse, behind.
"Eyes never up," he had always said, but this time again, they look
Look at the million jewels and clouds in the brilliant, wonderful blue sky,
Beauty and devastation all at once, a graveyard and nursery of stars running across
Like they have created their own lifekind
And then,
A sharp, dazzling shooting star.
"Make a wish," he had said, when he had first come to play with me, that fateful night,
I had wished, and I wished hard
As I had obeyed all he had said,
And stared at the ceiling fan as he had done what he pleased,
And looked at the diamonds,
And clandestinely, once again, I wished for death
And so it ended.
With them, all the hope my young heart had sought to keep.
My parents, my creators, my first lovers, my blood,
Had taken me by the neck and drowned me down until I ceased to breathe
And left my body abandoned, in the deep blue ocean.
To be true, though —
I drowned for years
Decades, and vicennials, and lives
Until I woke up, after the storm,
On a clear winter morning,
On an empty beach
With a new life
The ocean gently splashed against the sand
And light fog hung in the air,
The drops of water swayed from the tips on the plants,
And the monster wasn't around anywhere
I sat down on the edge of my dorm bed,
And looked back at the palm of my hands,
And another girl sat in front of me, unpacking her bags,
And smiled, as she lend out a hand to help me stand
And slowly as I picked the pieces of shattered glass and put them together
And felt my lungs start to breathe again
I looked at the the reflection in the ocean my parents had drowned me in
And found the very person little me would've found peace in
The grief never went away, and neither did the girl
But I learnt a new idea of healing
Growing — it is not forgetting the grief
But building a world around the black hole
With new, fantastic experiences
So, I took the girl to Belgium,
And California, and France
And Greece and Rome
And all the places of my past,
And in the end, to India, in the balcony at night
Wrapped around her arms and watched the stars burn bright
I told her about the monster,
And the things that he did
And cried for hours
About the past they forbid
And she cried with me,
As she stroked my hair
And wrapped me around her chest
And kissed away my tears
And as we looked at the million jewels and clouds in the brilliant, wonderful blue sky,
Beauty and devastation all at once, a graveyard and nursery of stars running across
Like they have created their own lifekind
I finally remembered what they meant by innocent, honest, childish bliss,
And wished, perhaps,
For the first time in my life,
Clandestinely
To live
And then,
A sharp, dazzling shooting star.
By Áine Vane,
a 17 year old writer from Northern Ireland
Áine Vane (they/them) is an aspiring young writer who comes from a childhood of reading which has molded their life forever. They enjoy the macabre and the beautiful, especially when the two collide. They are currently studying English, Politics and Philosophy in Scotland.
Alas! a man born from stone
with a beauty impossible not to
adore.
I think of David. Eternalised.
Freed from his brittle prison
by the greatest of Florentine minds.
What of those lovers, who grind down bone
in show of ardency? What binds them
if not the shared dust
between the creases of their hands?
What is intimacy and desire
if not to tear someone down
and make a place for yourself in that
cavernous space of the ribcage?
See, I wake some nights in cold sweats
from dreams in which I have been chasing something
so close I can almost taste it.
An ache. Hunger. Maybe
David was content to be hidden from the world
safe from voyeur or decay. Maybe
Michaelangelo resented his own lust
for greatness, for something more.
The insatiability of the Artist. Did he, too,
want once more for the weight of a
chisel in his hand to break his dear
down into something Other? Something new?
Or did he merely sit in a quiet room, palms
clean as snow, and long, and long, and long,
haunted by the image of a slingshot
haunted by the beast it means to slay.
By Kanmanee Fagerlien, an 18 year old writer from Norway
"I, Kanmanee Fagerlien, pen name Kanna, am a poet by nature and by heart-- quite literally. I write of love, desperation, the transformation from girlhood to early womanhood, loneliness and the desired to be loved."
"a little personal poem for the undedicated <3"
when your name pops up on my keyboard suggestion after I wrote mine / when my mother still asks of you / when the radio suddenly plays your favorite song / when I keep a list of things I wanted to tell you if you ever come back / when my facebook search bar still bares your name / when my last name sounds perfect with your first / when I still make room for you in my bed / when I brought you a ring / when your birthday is exactly 7 weeks before mine / when I still remember our first phone conversation / when you said I looked pretty in red / now I only wear red nail polish / when I started reading about Ryde / when I muted your notifications for so long I got tired of waiting / when I turned your notifications back on / when the train tickets to your hometown are still on hold in my payment / when I got the job you said I would / when I don’t know what I did wrong / how do I forget all of you when I’m still the poet and you are the poem.
By MG,
a 18 year old writer from Asia
MG is an author, freelance book cover designer, content creator, and student who loves cats and magical stories. Her poems have been published in more than 30 literary magazines and she is currently working to get her novels out there too!
To know more about her, find her on Instagram: @melifluousgelatoo.writes
I have lived all these years, over and over again, thinking what could've been if only I did something different.
I have repeated the same words, same actions.
I have done thousands of different things.
Things that I know would never be.
I have spoken a thousand of different scripts of the same scenes.
Scenes I knew could never be.
For excepting the one that happened long ago, it all existed only in my head.
I haven't lived for long.
But I have lived for much longer than my age count said I did.
People moved on.
The world moved on.
Yet here I am, still repeating the same things, still seeing the same scenes, still hearing the same words.
My life is but stagnant water.
Mind collapses as my thoughts scatter.
I wonder how many times the leaves have grown and wilted.
I wonder how many times the snow has fallen and perished.
For nothing ever changes to me.
Does it even matter how nice the air felt as the sunlight peeked through the branches?
Does it even matter how the animals have woken up from their slumber?
The world may change,
but I do not.
People moved on.
The world moved on.
Yet here I am, still repeating the same things, still seeing the same scenes, still hearing the same words.
I am tired of the same old scenes.
It smelled sickly sweet.
And it is my reality.
For I am destined to rot here, just like stagnant water.
By Audrey Lee, a 15 year old writer from New Jersey
Audrey is a high school student. She loves to read and write and despises math with all her heart. She hopes to continue to learn and grow in her writing and is looking forward to experimenting in style.
bitterly cold in mid-november
a monday evening (or was it morning?)
reached out, longing, but you weren’t there
why aren’t you here?
now the house feels cold in your absence
no longer here to crank up the thermostat
68 degrees and dropping
chilling to the bone (and deeper below)
now the house smells of nothing and melancholy
your smell lingers in memory
in the single shirt you left behind
suffocating in its existence
now the house feels empty without you here
all the furniture shoved into the corner
dust patterns on the floor
ghosts of what used to be
next time when you go
can you please turn off the lights when you leave?
wipe the kitchen counter, mop the floors
leave me alone to grieve
Ahmad Morid
I'm Ahmad Morid I'm 17 and since I remember I loved art whether it be drawing writing or whatever else! The eternal Chase: is a poem about not having a Reason to live but still living because maybe one day I'll find an answer out there To you my homeland: is an appreciation to my country and all its beauties
The moonlit sky is a mirror with the highest clarity
each star glaring down on me
Thousand of jewels judging me each second
The shimmering sky raining guilt on me
"You are nothing but a shroud and it will overtake you in due time" they say The mirror reflecting me
But I don't see myself
I see a creature i don't understand
It's something I wish was me
But no
It's hiding in layers of hand sewn clothes
A parade of people who I recognize follow behind me
I suddenly enter a cloud of darkness
Darker than any night to exist
The people laugh and cry with the creature more than me
I have no choice but to cut my tongue and burn everything I know about myself Just to please them
I try to win the competition of their love
And to enter the mirror realm
But however hard I push forward, forces push me back twice as hard And the creature taunts me with it's deceiving tongue
The eternal chase
Running through the Field trying to escape from "the end"
Every weed,
Every blade of grass,
Each my memories
All interconnected roots in me.
Slowly reaching a cliff side and knowing this will end at some point A gentle whisper enters my ears
"You yourself don't know the reason for your escape so why not give up" I went quiet and slowed down
But now I'm standing at the edge of my existence
The fates have catched up to me
Waving they're scissors around the strings of my life
Slowly getting unraveled around me
I should be happy to be let go
Because the bitter truth is,
they're right
I don't know the reason of my existence
So I accept it and let go
But dear reader whose reading this
You know I didn't give up
So I fight back grab the fates in my hands and say
"I may not have a reason"
"I may never have"
"But I will continue to stare life in its soul" and say
"The sun may rise in hell in my eyes but god's grace will make it heaven one day"
Pomegranate leaves on fire
My Wings are pomegranate leafs on fire
I have no choice but to burn them until they turn black like the blindfolds in they're mind's
Just because I'm multicolored
My flag is wanted
And my pain is zipped shut inside me
The buds of my branches may be visible
Underneath the layers of lies I hide them in
I may as well be a living Prism
Bending what people see in hopes to hide
Twisting and turning the light away from the truth
So it can hit what they want to see
And I cage my soul underneath it all
But surely one day
They're arrows will hit directly at my chains
And I will be carried out for my death
My branches will be cut with they're ignorance
and all the color will fade from me
And in the end I would be no-one
And just pomegranate leaves on fire
to you, my homeland
My homeland the life giver, the heart and where my soul first took shape From the richest dirt where I came and where I acquired the magic of art I need to give my eternal deserts justice
Your beauty is worth every tear I've ever cried
I'll spend eternity counting all your blessings
The red Sun, the magician that you are
Turning all the green leaves golden
Snow covered Mountains that magnificently and brutally break the barrier of heaven
Humans with long lines of history woven in them and With every face being painted by the best of painters
Mosques with such artistic beauty that it brings us to our knees The sky looks like if a blue morpho spreads its wings forever with no break And when the night bird chases the day bird away
The windows of darkness pull you in.
The sky and the earth blend together and it feels like the stars fell from the sky so perfectly into place
And finally
With the infinite quietness everything seems perfectly balanced